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Ruan Xi, whom Yuan Yi knew, was vicious and extreme. He was world-weary and withdrawn, and treated others indifferently. Yuan Yi had never seen him have any close friends.

The first time he met Ruan Xi, he found that Ruan Xi seemed to repel him a bit.

Xi Yu frowned: "Weary of the world?"

"He swallowed eleven sleeping pills," Yuan Yi explained, "It was a senior of mine who operated on him."

When the emergency personnel arrived at Ruan Xi's dormitory, Ruan Xi was lying in the bedroom convulsing, foaming at the mouth, and his hands were in a pool of blood.

"He cut more than 20 times on his arm with broken glass. The doctor guessed that he swallowed the pills and somehow aroused his desire to survive. He tried to stay awake with pain. However, his mobile phone broke and his landlord found the water pipe. When it was broken, I went up to find someone and called an emergency call."

Xi Yu couldn't even imagine how desperate Ruan Xi was at that time.

"He refused to say what was going on when he was hospitalized, and he didn't let the hospital contact his family..."

"After a while, he went to that hospital for a scar removal operation..."

Xi Yu noticed that Ruan Xi had some tiny scars on his arm, and he thought it was Ruan Xi who accidentally scratched something.

But he didn't know that he had wandered on the line of life and death several times, and survived alone and stubbornly in such a painful way.

Xi Yu couldn't hide her anxiety, "Mind if I light a cigarette?"

Yuan Yi guessed that he would not be in a good mood when he heard these things, so he didn't mind.

Xi Yu's hands trembled a little, and he lit the cigarette after several clicks.He took a deep breath, until it penetrated into his lungs, and felt a tingling pain, and after a long time, he exhaled, only some thin smoke rings remained.

"He has a scar on the back of his head, do you know what happened?"

Yuan Yi really knew about this.

"He encountered violence/chaos."

The riot caused Ruan Xi to be hospitalized with a mild concussion. Those who also experienced the riot in the same ward told Yuan Yi.

It was just an ordinary afternoon, Ruan Xi came out of the printing shop with a photo album in her arms, and encountered a small-scale riot/chaos.

Before he could react, the people around him had already started running, and he followed suit.During the chaos, he was bumped several times, and when the photo album was dropped, he subconsciously went to pick it up.

At this time, no one would think that the people in front would stop suddenly.He was knocked to the ground, hitting the back of his head on a protruding floor tile.

That's how the pitted scar came about.

Then it caught fire.

As an ambulanceman, Yuan Yi just picked up Ruan Xi. At that time, Ruan Xi, who was in a coma, was still holding the photo album in his arms. After Yuan Yi performed the operation on him, he opened it casually. It contained photos of Xi Yu and him.

Xi Yu has never seen such a photo album that was burned and stained with Ruan Xi's blood.

"For a while, Ruan Xi's condition was not right. I have a friend who is a Chinese psychologist, and I introduced him to Ruan Xi."

Ruan Xi's specific situation is not very clear to Yuan Yi, this is privacy, even if it is a friend, the doctor can't tell Yuan Yi casually.

However, before Yuan Yi returned to China, he had a meal with that friend, and during the dinner, he had no intention of talking about Ruan Xi.

The psychiatrist said: "Your friend, Ruan Xi, he is really a very powerful person. I checked him the year before last, and he was already suffering from severe depression and had obvious suicidal tendencies. Later, he seemed to be seriously ill. Come to me, I suggest that he can travel, see the beautiful things in this world, and divert his attention from the negative imagination of things.

"I didn't expect him to come to me again half a year later, and the situation is much better. He came to me once last year. According to my observation and description of him, in addition to decreased desire for things and irregular sleep, he occasionally felt anxiety. In addition, his physical and psychological state is almost no different from that of ordinary people.

"You know, he seldom comes to consult me, and he doesn't seem to have any relatives or friends here. In this situation without the guidance of a psychological mentor, it is really not an easy task to get out of this predicament. All I can say is, He was really tenacious."

The serious illness was probably the period after he attempted suicide.

Xi Yu was silent for a while and said, "Where has he been?"

Yuan Yi was surprised: "Don't you know?"

Ruan Xi has an overseas social account, and one day he began to upload some photos he took while traveling.

Yuan Yi showed Xi Yu the phone, and Xi Yu flipped through it page by page.

The latest page was posted by Ruan Xi two months ago.

Most of his posts are landscape photos, and occasionally there are group photos or personal photos of him and local people.

Ruan Xi's smile on the photo is bright and bright, the more you scroll down, you can see that he is getting thinner and thinner, and when you turn to the bottom few photos, Ruan Xi is almost out of shape, and you can still see the haze between his brows.

Ruan Xi has been to many places: Europe, Australia, America...

Everywhere he goes, he takes a lot of photos.

He is earnestly practicing the advice given to him by the psychiatrist, and diverting his stupid, immature, and ignorant obsessions.

He is getting more and more cheerful, and he is gradually getting better.

But he hadn't climbed the Alps, listened to an opera in Sydney, or swam in Hawaiian waters.

Looking at the time when the photos were released, Xi Yu found that he had flown to some places after several business trips.

Once upon a time, he and Ruan Xi might pass each other across a state line, and no one recognized the other.

Xi Yu suddenly remembered that when Ruan Xi was in high school, he taught him geography, and he couldn't remember the climate and scenery of some areas.Xi Yu said: "You remember these, after your college entrance examination, I will take you to travel to these places."

He later failed to fulfill his promise.

As for Ruan Xi, he has been to many places, and only bypassed those cities that should have shared memories with him.

——Ruan Xi finally began to listen to Xi Yu's words seriously, to forget about Xi Yu.

So don't touch anything related to him.

Despite Ruan Xi's behavior, she still failed to meet Xi Yu's expectations.

Glad you didn't live up to my silly expectations.

Xi Yu drove home, leaving cigarette butts all over the car.

He pushed open the door, there was a TV in the living room, and the sound of advertisements was a bit noisy at night.

Ruan Xi was not playing games, but fell asleep on the sofa.

In the past two days, Ruan Xi was obsessed with games, and Xi Yu saw that it was rare for him to focus on one thing like this and didn't restrain him much.

Somehow it stopped playing.

Xi Yu turned off the TV, picked up the remote control he had dropped on the floor and put it on the coffee table. There was also a takeaway box on it that he hadn't thrown away after eating.

It seems that he didn't eat much.

His hands hang down from the sofa, bent into a beautiful arc.

Xi Yu grabbed his hand, stroked those tiny marks lightly, leaving delicate kisses everywhere.

"is it here……"

Xi Yu murmured, "Does it hurt?"

Ruan Xi was woken up by him.Didn't hear what he said, just muttered "You're back", and closed his eyes again.

I'm so glad you're okay and here with me.

Xi Yu kissed the pulse of his wrist, buried her head in his palm for a while, and kissed his thin fingertips again.

"Xixi is good, it doesn't hurt anymore... go to the room and sleep, okay?"

Ruan Xi fell into a drowsy sleep, and only heard the second half of his sentence. "I want to move."

"Little baby..." Xi Yu stroked his eyes, scratched his nose, and stopped on his lips, "Senior brother, how about you?"

Ruan Xi was exceptionally obedient, gave a soft "um", half-closed his eyes and stretched out his hand.

Xi Yu's heart was tickled by this kitten, and his heavy mood improved overnight.Squat down with your back to him, and lift him up easily.

Ruan Xi was very light, the bones of his body hit him, and Xi Yu was so sad that he almost cried.

I don't know if there is a hundred catties.