【Sen no Kiseki】【Crolin】The Guardian of the Morning Sun

I'd come over from Knowlton if it was far. "Gaius was very calm.

Hey, why are you all like this.After all, I still don't know what the past me did to Rean.Kuro smiled wryly, fully understanding how much these students valued Li En, but at the same time fell into thinking: In this way, he should have a history of hurting Li En, and the degree is not minor.But what did he do to Li En, and what sacrifice did Li En make for himself, no one is willing to tell him - what kind of past is it that is worth making them conceal it in every possible way?

It's visiting time.After the students said goodbye and left one after another, Emma hesitated for a while, and said quietly to Clow:

"If student Li En needs help, I will do my best as long as I can. Please tell him like this."

At that time, Clow didn't know the background of this quiet girl wearing glasses, but silently agreed, watching the former classmates disappear from sight, thinking that they would probably never see each other again.

Not long after, Kuro welcomed a new guest.A heroic short-haired woman knocked him unconscious with a punch as soon as he entered the door. When he woke up, he found a petite girl sitting beside the bed, a man with a solid figure and a simple face, and——

"Yo, I finally woke up, I accidentally got itchy just now, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

——the woman who just knocked herself out.

"Xiao An, you are really serious. After all, you can't use violence against patients like this!"

The petite girl waved her small fist and protested to the woman, can she use violence if she is not a patient?Hello.

But this kind of conversation seems to have been seen somewhere.At this moment, Kuro had a flash of inspiration, thinking of the trio that Li En said had a good relationship with him in school.

"Are you... my friends at school?"

The three of them suddenly showed surprise expressions, and the very young girl whispered, "Is that so, it really is the same as what Li Enjun said", and forced herself to smile at him.

"I'm Tova. The one who used violence just now is Angelica, and this is George. We are all friends of Mr. Kuro at school."

The other two also smiled kindly.It seems that that punch just resolved a lot of grievances and grievances that he didn't know about, Kuro thought with lingering fear.Angelica said it was because she swore a long time ago that if she saw him again she would make him take the punch.You deserve it, she said.

Craw shuddered.Upon seeing this, George quickly acted as a peacemaker: "Okay, let the past be the past."

"Well, let the past be the past...Although I really want to say this, but only Kuro is not qualified to do this? Now this is considered a new life? Erase your black history in this way, even if it is I never expected that either." Angelica leaned against the wall and squinted at him, taunting with admiration.Is this guy really my friend?Craw was suspicious from the bottom of his heart.

"Xiao An, you can't say that." Tova advised, "After all, Mr. Ku Luo escaped unharmed in 'that situation', and that alone is something to be thankful for; you can't blame him for losing your memory. It's useless for us to be impatient." Then she looked at Kuro with serious eyes. "Also, I believe Mr. Kuro can remember."

Kuro was uncomfortable being stared at by the girl's eyes. For the first time, he felt the pressure other than himself and Rean.If you want me to remember so much, why don't you tell me about it earlier?He thought slackly, and asked the same question, but Tova shook his head very firmly.

"We can't tell you, it only makes sense when you think about it. And if I say it, I'm really sorry for Li Enjun's painstaking efforts." She smiled bitterly, "I'm sorry, Mr. Kuluo, I finally met you , but I can’t talk to you about your own affairs.”

He looked at the girl's sad face, and once again felt sorry for not being able to capture the truth.He pretended not to care and smiled.

"Then, instead of talking about me, it's okay to talk about Li En."

This change of subject surprised them all.Then Angelica smiled meaningfully and asked him to talk about what he wanted to talk about.So Kuro told about Li En's protective attitude these days, and the fact that the students from Group VII came to visit him-he wondered why Li En Mingming seemed to have a cooperative relationship with the railway gendarmerie that interrogated him, but would do it for the sake of Fight those people yourself.And this contradiction was admitted by the students, and there was a deep friendship and unknown guilt for Li En in the words.After listening to his narration, the three of them looked at each other in silence, and Tova sighed worriedly:

"Li Enjun is a very good person, even too good."

I know this too, Kuro agreed, but for some reason he felt a little annoyed.

"That's why he's stuck here. What he's doing is for a lot of people, but not for himself."

Angelica pointed out.George sighed, seeming to disapprove of this approach.

"He is also very hard, and those tasks are not what he wants to do, but..."

Even if George didn't say it clearly, Crow understood who Li En was doing those tasks for.

"...Why would he do this, is that guy an idiot?"

Yes, it's too much to say.Even if we were classmates and friends in the past, it would be too strange to do this for them.If not a fanatic with a self-sacrifice complex, then a fool.

"It goes without saying, of course it's because he values ​​you all!" Tova clenched his fists excitedly, "Indeed, he is a fool who doesn't cherish himself, but isn't it because he has no time to care about his own feelings! Ku Luo Jun and the students in group VII can live well——for Li Enjun, this is the most important thing right now."

Kuro stared blankly at the girl who had exploded with emotion in one breath and lowered her eyes, and her voice also lowered.

"However, Li Enjun must also feel lonely, after all, he is the one who was left behind."

He was left behind.Kuro who lost his memory, friends who went their separate ways, seniors who graduated.He was carried forward by the torrent of history, but he never really took the initiative to move forward.What he is forced to do is for the most urgent needs, and has nothing to do with his own wishes and principles, just to live and move forward for others——

Craw heard a dull bang of unknown origin, and then debris flooded up, like a bad radio filled with noise.He let those things clang against his head, so that when Towa held his hand and looked at him beggingly, he had to concentrate on what she said to barely stay awake for the last time.

Mr. Ku Luo, Mr. Li En, he is able to be strong now because of you.So promise me, no matter what happens, please be with him.

After that, those fragmented nightmares became frequent.Those dreams gradually carried more information, missing gaps in Craw's memory.Very different from the warm and happy campus life, the scenes in the dreams are mostly cold and depressing, full of the smell of blood.At the end of the dream, he would always hear someone crying, heart-piercing, as if it could flow into the bottom of his heart along with the tears.He wanted to raise his hand to wipe away the other party's tears, to comfort him not to cry anymore, but his arm lost all strength.As the dream deepened again and again, the blurred face in front of her gradually became clearer.One day when he finally saw the other person's face clearly, a piercing pain forced him to wake up again.

"...Rean..."

He had never seen such a miserable face.Calling his name with a broken voice, let himself stop talking.The appearance of refusing to accept reality is like having suffered a blow that can deny life.

Was it me who made him cry like that?

Crow punched his forehead dejectedly.He wants to know more things, but he is not sure whether these things are good or bad for him, and will bring him unnecessary trouble.Perhaps it was based on the concerns in his heart, his memory was like a cursed lion sleeping incessantly, only occasionally giving himself some hints manically.

Whether it's people who are hostile to him or former friends, they keep him in the dark, making Kuro fearful of this silent world, and even overwhelmed his awareness of self-crisis.Judging from the fragments in the dream, he really committed an irreparable crime.He wanted to know what the person who hurt the most for this was thinking, and why he took such care of himself, and even made a huge self-sacrifice for himself.

For this goal, he needs to know more truths.

—and the truth is often accompanied by cruelty and bloodshed.

The evening is often the time when the vigilance is the most relaxed during the day. The soldiers were tired all day, and they changed shifts to eat and rest one after another, and Kuro, who had come to an end both for routine treatment and rehabilitation, was finally able to welcome dinner.Today's meal was delivered by a somewhat unfamiliar uncle nurse. He put the plate on the table, and Kuro just nodded silently to thank him, turned his back and walked towards the door.Just as Kuro was about to sit down, he suddenly felt a murderous aura. He stepped aside instinctively, and caught a glimpse of the glare of the blade from the corner of his eye.The vicissitudes of the man's face was twisted with hatred, his body shook unbalanced, and then swung the dagger at him again.Kuro couldn't help smacking his lips, because of his laxity and underestimation of the enemy, as well as his disappointment with the guards.

Those people guard me every day, not because they are afraid that I will be harmed, but because they are afraid that I will harm them.

Although he had expected it long ago, Clow still felt very ironic when he actually encountered this kind of thing.It seems that it is an indisputable fact that someone hated me in the past, and it is too late to remember it now, so let's take a gamble here.If you win the bet, you may be able to learn the truth you want.

Crow yelled loudly while dodging the assassin's chaotic knife:

"Uncle, do I have any grudge against you? How about I have seen you?"

"Of course you haven't seen me, but I've seen you—the lackey of the noble army, 'Knight of Cang', you are actually just a murderer!"

This direct and intense word made Kuro pause, almost being scratched by the blade.

"I don't remember anything." The scope of the ward was always limited, and the door was still locked.Even if he went around a few times with his dexterity, there was no way out.Seeing the man approaching him without flinching, Kuro's palms were sweating, and he couldn't help but say extremely shirkable words.

The man twisted the corners of his mouth angrily, and let out a sharp laugh from his throat.

"As long as you forget it, you can easily escape punishment... If there is such a truth in the world, wouldn't the bad guys never get retribution!"

If it wasn't for pointing the finger at him, Crow would have been convinced by this.But it doesn't mean that he will obediently die according to this person's wishes.Although this soulless body seemed meaningless to live, this life was saved by Li En, and before he got all the answers, he absolutely couldn't die without authorization.

"I saw it with my own eyes, how you and that huge humanoid machine easily destroyed an army! Thanks to you, my family who just happened to pass by that area were all killed by the fight between you group of monsters. Rolled in!"

Huge humanoid body.Noble army.Cang Knight.Three key words flashed in Kuro's mind.But before he had time to capture Na Jiguang Pianyu, the gate was knocked open, and soldiers rushed in to arrest the assassin.The man whose plan failed cast an angry look at Kuro after he was captured, and the curses that gradually faded away could still be heard after he was pulled out.The soldiers ignored Craw and closed the door without even explaining to him.He sat down and stared blankly for a long time, finally hitting the bed with his fists.

He missed another opportunity to learn the truth.There may not be such a good opportunity in the future.

One day, less than a week after the incident, the door of the ward was slammed open, and Li En appeared at the door with a livid face.He was visibly relieved to find Craw intact, but the look of concern on his face hadn't faded.Before he could ask, Kuro smiled as if he saw through his thoughts.

"I'm fine, that guy didn't do anything to me, don't worry."

Li En opened his mouth and swallowed the words again, he stood stubbornly in front of the man and watched him, the atmosphere became tense.

"...you are protected so closely, but this kind of problem still happens."

Do you mean someone inside wants to kill me?Kuro wisely chose to be silent, leaving Li En the space to think alone.Li En's expression was unpredictable, he finally sighed, and held out his hand to him.

"Where are you going?" Kuro looked at him.

"I've got permission to take you out for a walk."

Li En took Kuro to the backyard of the hospital, which was a secluded hillside.Normally, soldiers would not allow him to go to this kind of place even if he was letting the wind go.Kuro watched suspiciously as Li En took out an item from the bag beside him and put it in his hand.That thing is heavy, with a metallic texture.

"……gun?"

Crow looked at the gun, which was larger than the average pistol, and couldn't help being surprised.Except for soldiers, everyone who comes in and out here is not allowed to hold weapons. As for why Li En can come in and out with a knife, it can only be explained that he is out of specification.But as a patient no different from a prisoner, Clow is obviously not qualified to carry a weapon.

"This is a guided gun." Li En explained, "The bullets inside are specially made. They can't kill people, at most they can make people fall asleep."

"...How about giving me something like this?"

"For self-defense. After all, this kind of thing has happened, and no one can guarantee your personal safety. And—"

"and?"

"...I'm not by your side either." Li En's voice quickly dropped, and then he raised his pitch as if trying to justify something: "What I mean is, I can't come over right away if something happens, so ..."

His words hung in the air, and then he turned his face away slightly.Probably feeling that Kuro was staring at him, Li En's cheeks turned slightly red.

Oops, why is this guy so cute.

Kuro felt his heart shake violently, because of the shy side that was rarely seen in the other party.What is this familiar feeling? Could it be that I also liked this guy in the past?

Li En coughed lightly, and his tone returned to seriousness.

"In short, hide this gun well so that they don't find it. Although I hope it won't come in handy..."

"You are really relieved, aren't you afraid that I will use this gun to escape?" Kuro joked.Li En was stunned, and said with a wry smile: "Yes, if it really becomes like this, then of course I cannot escape the blame."

Then he stared at Craw, eyes ablaze with silence.

"—But, I will definitely bring you back. No matter how many times I will chase you to the ends of the earth, you will never escape."

At that moment, in the darkness where Kuro was supposed to be buried, these obsessive eyes suddenly overlapped with the ones in his memory, and the sense of sight caught him off guard.Certainly at a certain moment, this person also said the same words to himself with the same eyes.

——And he was the one he was chasing.

A wild, unseasonable wind blew by, as if to take it all away.Crow smiled, with a sneering arc on the corner of his mouth.

"Sometimes, I really don't know whether you are my enemy or my friend, Rean."

Li En just responded with a contemptuous smile.Then Kuro sadly found that no matter what expression the other party showed, he could easily plant a spike in his heart.It would be too bad if he was the enemy.As he thought, his heart clenched involuntarily.

Kuro looked down at the guided gun again, weighed the weight in his hand, and suddenly felt a sense of familiarity through his blood - he probably used this thing before, and he should be quite proficient.You may be able to hit the target accurately without even practicing.

"...Is this gun missing one?"

He raised his head and met Li En's suddenly complicated expression.Hit the spot.But no, this is not the one he uses the most conveniently. He knows that what he uses should be something heavier and more lethal——

"That's all." Li En seemed to want to stop him from thinking further, he gently pressed the man's hand holding the gun with his palm, and repeated it in a dignified but inexplicably sad voice.

If the truth is cruel, then lies must be gentle.

Li En was too gentle to himself, so gentle that Kuro realized that even if he knew all the truth, he would only conceal himself grandly, in order not to hurt himself.

What exactly does he want?Did he really want to think back on himself?Crow was confused.

"...It's just a little bit, just a little bit. Wait for me."

Li En muttered to himself, with a strange stubbornness lingering all over his body.Kuro felt that something was wrong with him today, but he couldn't tell what was wrong.All he could feel was the anger emanating from the black-haired young man, as if the magma buried under the volcano was only flowing quietly now, but maybe one day it would erupt without warning.

He is heading towards a dangerous place.Kuro was keenly aware of this, and a chill ran down his spine.He stretched out his hand involuntarily, and stroked Li En's head. The latter trembled, but obediently maintained this position.

Ryan?You look tired, are you okay?

It's ok, it's just that something happened... it will get better soon, but for now, please let me rely on it.

Li En relaxed his body, as if confirming that he still existed here, he rested his forehead on the shoulders of the people around him.Unexpectedly, he is a child who likes to act like a baby.Kuro smiled wryly in his heart, and gently stroked his hair.

Has anything happened to him, otherwise, how could he have such a fragile face, as if he was driven to a dead end.Do those things have anything to do with me?

"Emma and Tova are very worried about you."

Hearing the familiar name, Li En trembled and looked up at Kuro.So Kuro told the other party that the students from Group VII and Towa and his party came to visit him.Seeing Li En's expression gradually softened, he also breathed a sigh of relief.He just wanted this person to know that there are still many people who care about him around him, even though they are far apart, they have never changed the fact.

The temperature on the shoulders disappeared.Ryan finally smiled.

"Thank you, Craw."

"I didn't do anything. It's better to say that this sentence should be returned to you intact."

Ryan smiled and shook his head.Thanks to you, I know what to do.These words floated gently with the wind, and the side face of the black-haired young man was thoughtful and seemed to contain some kind of determination.Kuluo suddenly had an intuition that what Li En was hiding was not only his past, but also what he was doing now and what he would do—but he was not only ignorant, but also unable to help him.

The wind got stronger, and the dark clouds gathered.They rushed back to the ward before the storm came.They then played Blade for an afternoon to pass the time, until the soldier urged Rean to leave.

Whether you like it or not, the storm is still coming as expected.

Clow was doing a routine inspection that day, and through the large glass windows of the inspection room, he could see the soldiers standing guard outside.He had just finished a series of physical examinations, when something outside caught his attention.He looked towards the door and saw the soldiers saluting a tall man.When the man turned to meet his gaze, Kuro felt his blood freeze.

He had never met that man, not even seen a photo.But he knows him.The memory buried in the bottomless place is stinging his nerves, even without any basis, he understands that the person in front of him is inseparable from his past.

boom.It took a few seconds for Craw to realize that the movement to stand up was so fast and violent that he knocked over the chair.He was engrossed in the man who shot him an indifferent gaze, he clenched his fists unconsciously, and he could even hear himself gnashing his teeth.His bestial intuition convinced him that his former self had an extraordinary hatred for this person.At the same time, a name Rector had mentioned came to mind.

— Prime Minister Osborne.

When this name was mentioned, my reaction was very similar to now.The other party seemed to have noticed Kuro's fierce reaction, and slightly twisted the corners of his mouth, with a playful smile in his eyes.This made him even more angry.The unreasonable hatred almost ignited his whole body, starting from the chest that had a hole in it.

Just when his sanity was about to be crushed to pieces by this hatred, another figure jumped into the field of vision defenselessly.

That's Ryan.He stood not far from the man, looking at him in disbelief.After a while, he recovered from the shock, clenched his fists and said something sharply to the other party.And that man just listened to all this, with a calm sneer on his face that was no different from ridicule. Finally, he turned around and said a few words to Li En, and the latter froze pale.Then the man withdrew his gaze and passed him without saying a word.All this happened in a short while, and Kuro, who was brought back to his senses by the doctor, didn't realize it until he sat down.From the corner of his eyes, he couldn't help looking out of the glass window, and found that Li En was talking with the red-haired captain who didn't know when to appear.To say it was a "conversation" would be an exaggeration. Judging from Li En's obvious anxious expression and the other party's half-smile response, this was just a continuation of the conflict just now.For the first time Craw hated the closed door so effectively that it shut out all possible sounds.

However, Li En knew that man, and this knowledge took root in his heart.As for why they knew each other and what kind of relationship they had, Crow was almost overwhelmed with doubts.But he had an intuition—that man must be the biggest obstacle in his life and the culprit who trapped him here.The significance of his appearance here probably represents to a large extent that he is about to face danger.

After the examination, Kuro was sent back to the ward directly. Not long after, Li En also finished talking with Rector and walked into the ward without a word.He sat silently in front of the bed for a long time, putting an inexplicable pressure on the already extremely dull ward.Just when Crow was about to tease something to make them feel better, Li En spoke.

"—Crow, let's get out of here together."

Kuro looked at him dumbly, and there was nothing but firmness in those clear thin purple eyes.At that moment, he realized that he was not the only one who had chosen to escape all this time.Li En has been thinking about this matter from the very beginning, weighing the pros and cons of whether Kuro can recover his memory or not, and making preparations for this to be unknown, but now he finally came up with the answer.

Kuro's amnesia is a clear betrayal to Rean.As his friend, he hoped that Kuro could remember; but from the standpoint of his memory recovery, he didn't want him to remember.As Crow expected, the self who recovered his memory is here, and there will be no better ending.Li En must also be very aware of this, especially after the conflict with those two people just now.

So these are not important anymore.In fact, for that group of people, whether their own lives or memories are good, it doesn't matter from the very beginning.If Li En wasn't around, I guess he would be treated as an object in the way and disposed of immediately.Li En just didn't want to see this happen, so he kept working hard, using himself as a bargaining chip to trade.That's why he never took their side even though he performed nasty tasks for them.However, that was only on the condition that they would not take action against Clow. If safety could not be guaranteed, there was no need for Li En to continue going around in circles with them.

In this case, Kuro can also choose to sacrifice himself and let Li En go free.But it doesn't work.He didn't think this young man would easily let himself die. The point was, he still had something to understand.

——Only Li En... only about him, you must remember.

—— Mr. Ku Luo, Mr. Li En, he is able to become stronger now because of you.So promise me, no matter what happens, please be with him.

The girl's words were still ringing in her ears.In the year when Kuro A started again, it was Li En, the students in Group VII, and Tova who refilled their lives with color.The empty hole had to be filled with something, and that's why he didn't give up looking for his own memory.However, if he does not live in this world, it is meaningless.

To live, even if you forget everything.

To live, even if there is only an endless void in my heart.

To live, not for others, but for Rean Schwarzer's sacrifice and perseverance, for one day he... No, they can really move forward——

"it is good."

He has no reason to refuse the request.

In order to truly become Clow Ambuster, he made a life-changing decision.