murder begins in summer

The scenery outside the car window flies by, and the green is still green after the green, and the road ahead and the road behind are empty, like a long drift, only the arc of the grass slope draws out the reality of the space flowing through.

Qiu Shili listened to his own breathing.After a few months, sitting side by side like this again, especially when his lips were swollen from being kissed, he seemed a little nervous. He straightened his waist, looked serious, and put his hands on his knees.

Shi Zhanyang's left hand was also on his thigh, pressing against his wrist calmly, warming the fabric of the trousers, while resting his right elbow outside the car window.The dry wind blew in, brushed the cuffs and messed up the hair, just like when they were very young, they rarely had time for a drive. Shi Zhanyang always liked this when driving. If the sunset outside the window is a good color, Celine Dion will His singing wafted over the Golden Gate Bridge, and he wanted to squeeze Qiu Shili's hand.

At this time, of course Shi Yufeng was driving the car.He listened to rock with a single earphone on his own, accelerated the acceleration very much, and saw that he had entered a desolate area with no signal, so he turned off the Google Maps that stopped working.

"Do you know the way?" Qiu Shili asked.

"I don't really recognize it, just do whatever you want," Shi Yufeng said, "Keep heading north, there are not many roads to go."

Shi Zhanyang squinted his eyes, rolled up the car window, and moved closer to Qiu Shili without saying a word. He seemed very relieved about this, so Qiu Shili also temporarily put aside the idea of ​​taking a computer and even a satellite map from the trunk.He wondered where to start, such as what he said just now, the problem of two people, such as what he wanted to understand in the past two months...

Before he could clear his mind, his shoulders suddenly sank, and Qiu Shili smelled the familiar scent of shampoo with a hint of mint. In fact, he also secretly bought that kind of shampoo recently, out of some kind of self-comfort.At the same second, he felt the prickling of his skin again. The eldest brother's hair was hard and smooth, and the tip of the hair brushed against his chin.

"Brother?"

Only the sound of even breathing is heard.Qiu Shili clearly realized that his eldest brother was sleeping on his shoulder.

He looked very tired, as if he had fallen down, and he didn't feel any pain when the bridge of his nose touched his shoulders, and he just fell into a deep sleep in an instant.

Qiu Shili lowered his shoulder a little, then rubbed towards Shi Zhanyang, and lightly scooped it up, so that he could make his pillow more stable.After sitting like this for a while, his hand lightly covered his elder brother's again. He felt the blood vessels in his palm, and touched the rough and clean finger bones. Slowly, breathing stagnantly, the two ring fingers folded together, and the copper ring They are still firmly hooped, and when they touch each other, it's as if they are magnetic and can't be separated.

In fact, I saw it just now, when Zhan Yang waved to him at the airport, the tiny metal flashed twice, but now that he actually touched it and felt it, Qiu Shili's heart was at ease.He didn't feel dazed and stiff as he expected. On the contrary, he felt relaxed and at ease. This feeling of ease came suddenly, as if his whole body was soaked in a pool of hot water with sedative drugs, or as if, big brother Sleeping next to yourself was the way it should be.

Shi Zhanyang just kept sleeping quietly, Shi Yufeng was very considerate, he changed from chewing candy to quietly swallowing candy, and Qiu Shili didn't move at all, dutifully being his humanoid pillow.Gradually, Qiu Shili himself also fell asleep. After more than two hours, he fished up five or six times when he was sliding. It is a narrow road full of pits, and it is the only one. It is surrounded by a vast expanse of dark green, and it is full of alfalfa that has been watered by the rain.

If it is placed in Africa, there must be large and small swamps hidden in this kind of grassland, and it will be planted if it grows randomly. I don’t know if it is the same at this latitude. Stumbling on the road.Qiu Shili was awake for most of the time, and carefully observed the state of the fourth child. He himself was fine, and it was quite fresh to walk once. This is the second time for the fourth child. He was picked up in the middle of the night. The irritable kind, twisting back and forth on this road at such a speed...

Shi Yufeng was stared uncomfortably by two worried eyes in the diagonal rearview mirror, "Sister-in-law, I won't go on strike." He blinked.

Qiu Shili suddenly found it funny, wondering what kind of mysterious consensus the two brothers had reached to make the thorny youngest remain docile, honest and conscientious, anyway, the elder brother had a clever way. "Well, don't worry." Not wanting to disturb the person on his shoulder, he lowered his voice very low.

This school of harmony lasted until around noon. According to the four hours mentioned earlier, this should be the last section of the journey. In the distance, a large group of grayish white appeared on the road ahead, and Shi Yufeng's expression immediately changed. up.

He didn't even seem willing to step on the gas pedal, the car just slid forward, the closer it got, the more the bleating sounded, and the bleating sounded so loud that it even squeezed through the window cracks, and the sheep were just a white field. A great flood, at least a few thousand, crossed from the grassland in the east to the west, a few dogs barked around the periphery, and the slender legs of the laggard lambs trembled, and they had to be pushed up by the big ones to dare to move. Wuyang's, just blocking this poor little dirt road.

Shi Yufeng was stunned on the seat for a few seconds, then cursed a word in English, pulled his seat belt and jumped out of the car, seeing that his posture was to go up against the sheep, and singled out the shepherd, Qiu Shili couldn't laugh or cry, Stubbornly chasing after him, before he could take a closer look, a faint sentence came from his ear: "It's not the group in the morning."

Probably because he had just woken up, and the slight nasal sound was still there, Qiu Shili rubbed his face against his elder brother's temples, because he felt that his elder brother would sit up straight immediately, "Can you tell?"

"This group has horns, but the ones in the morning didn't. They're all equally noisy." Shi Zhanyang resented deeply, but he still pressed his shoulder and didn't rush to get up, "We waited for nearly half an hour last time."

Half an hour is enough for a fight. Qiu Shili felt that there were a lot of fierce herdsmen, and the place was unfamiliar with them. Besides, even if his family was in that line of work, he couldn't go everywhere and kill everyone. The impact would be bad. ah.

"...I have to stop Xiaofeng."

As he said that, he was about to push the door and get out of the car, but Shi Zhanyang didn't agree, and grabbed his wrist, "I can't fight, look."

Following the direction pointed by the eldest brother, Qiu Shili looked intently, and Shi Yufeng had indeed found the shepherd, who was sitting on a tall red horse against the midday sun, and was also dressed in dark red, so he couldn't see clearly. The face, the whole person was motionless, indifferent to Shi Yufeng's gestures, but Shi Yufeng himself, his face was covered with hair, and the lambs crowded around him, and the hem of the sweater was hooked by the horns.

"The neighbor's child." Shi Zhanyang lay directly on Qiu Shili's lap, comfortably pillowed at a good angle, and looked up at him, "Please ask the fourth child to eat meat, he is dumb, but he has made friends."

Qiu Shili listened carefully, unconsciously, his lower abdomen retracted, and his face became hot. This posture was not new, but in his impression, it was an afterthought. With the moonlight shining on the wet and wrinkled sheets, the elder brother lay down and smoked slowly. , I don't think the stomach and legs on the side of the face are sticky, but I looked over with bright eyes, with a smile that was so faint that I couldn't catch it, and then I drew the back of my neck and pressed myself down for a kiss.

Of course, now is not the time to ponder these things. Seeing that the fight did not start, the young man in red rode away, blending into the tall grass and sheep in the distance. At that time, Yu Feng was among the remaining sheep, fighting with a The black dog that revolved around him was entangled.Qiu Shili felt relieved, lowered his eyelashes silently, brushed Zhanyang's hair with his fingertips against his scalp when he inserted his fingers, "Why do you come to live in this kind of place, brother?"

"Don't you like it?" Shi Zhanyang smiled, "I've been looking for this place for the past two months."

"Looking for?" Qiu Shili looked puzzled.

"Well, it seems that there is no mistake at the moment." Shi Zhanyang raised his hand and twisted the tip of Qiu Shili's nose, and asked, "What did ナナ do in the past two months?"

Going to work, drinking juice, watching funny videos on YouTube, failed nighttime masturbation, getting bored and putting on nail polish?Qiu Shili really had nothing to say, "...didn't do anything."

"You helped me earn a lot of money."

"Take care of your home," Qiu Shili smiled as Shi Zhanyang scratched his lips, "I can't do stupid things anymore."

When Shi Zhanyang heard this, his eyes darkened a bit, he sat up straight, but he was still very close to Qiu Shili, he looked at his crossed hands, "Yeah, I can't do it anymore," he said again He suddenly raised his eyes and looked directly at Qiu Shili, "Nana, what you said last time was right, I have been lying to you, and I have found many reasons and reasons for myself, and now I find that this is what I have done in recent years. Worst thing ever."

"This can't be said to be wrong." Qiu Shili stared at the folds on his trousers and slowly shook his head.

"It's just wrong." Shi Zhanyang looked at him intently, "Now I want to change it, but you have to promise me one thing."

Qiu Shili was taken aback for a moment, and finally continued to look at each other just now.

"No matter what truth you know or how you feel in your heart, you can't hurt yourself, and you can't have any doubts about yourself. This is the first step for the two of us to correct our mistakes," Shi Zhanyang paused, and then said , "Of course, now that I'm looking at you, you won't pierce your thigh again, but my request is that you don't even think about it."

Qiu Shili rubbed his nose embarrassedly, "I see."

Shi Zhanyang was not satisfied: "Have you agreed?"

Qiu Shili raised his right hand, "I promise."

Shi Zhanyang's complexion has completely darkened. He took every expression of Qiu Shili into his eyes carefully, and after deliberating for a while, he made up his mind and said, "The first thing is about your heart."

"Yeah." Qiu Shili calmly took the mobile phone handed over by his elder brother. In fact, he almost guessed it a long time ago. After all, his previous dream collapsed after the heart operation, and the first broken stone burst out, and then there was a crash. ground collapse.As soon as he opened his eyes, the elder brother who was guarding the bedside last night disappeared. After that, he pondered day and night, with inexplicable regrets. He couldn't figure out what he regretted. The problem, is that surgery takes away precious peace.

But he didn't guess what was on the screen - of course he didn't!He has read the scanned copy of Dr. Qin's notes, but those pages are just for comparison now. He quickly browsed through and read new records, new operation reports, new analyzes by new experts, personal The words are rigorous, concise and intuitive, and the date was more than three months ago. He even saw a picture of his own heart... Finally, Qiu Shili realized one thing in a daze, nothing came from his heart. , was taken out.

There is nothing.

"Empty." His eyelashes were trembling, through them, Qiu Shili looked at Shi Zhanyang in confusion.

"Yes." Shi Zhanyang held his hand.

"It's empty." Qiu Shili grabbed back with all his strength. Normally, he would never hold his elder brother's hand with this strength. He knew it would hurt, but he couldn't control it now. He felt that time was probably distorted. Some kind of definition is lost.

Shi Zhanyang just hugged him.

Qiu Shili's eyes were painfully open, and he couldn't close them. His chin rested quietly on Shi Zhanyang's shoulder. He tried to raise his hands and hugged his elder brother's waist. He succeeded. The breathing in his ears was the same as his, very It was heavy and turbulent, but the whirling that hit his head subsided quickly, as if he had got the eye of a hurricane.I don't know when, the noise outside the car also stopped, the flock of sheep disappeared, leaving a cloud of dust, Shi Yufeng came back with his pockets in his pocket.

When he opened the car door, the hug had stopped. He was still thinking about the black dog just now, and he was a little confused. Judging from the two hands held together by his elder brother and sister-in-law, the headache-inducing quarrel should have disappeared.

Going around the looming stone hillside ahead is where the residence is located, and the journey only takes ten minutes.Qiu Shili knew that the matter was not over yet, and he hadn't exhausted his documents, so he consciously prepared himself, swiped his phone, and continued to browse.

He saw a picture of a woman lying on a bed with two babies in swaddling clothes beside her. He saw a date, May 2th, 5, and two names, えぐちしゅん, えぐちナナ.

Eguchi Shun, Eguchi Hongsheng.

One has never seen it, and the other has resisted it for too long.

This feels very bad.Qiu Shili faintly developed goosebumps, and turned to look at Shi Zhanyang, only to realize that the other party had been looking at him.Shi Zhanyang asked him to turn over again.

There is only one left, which is similar to a family portrait. Qiu Shili has no memory of the time of shooting, but he recognized his grandmother, his adoptive mother, and himself—he has long hair, Wearing the summer yukata I used to wear when I was a child.

Then Qiu Shili glanced across the back row, and then slowly across the front row, as if instinctively and deliberately avoiding something.But he finally saw that face clearly, a face exactly like his own.

With short hair and a bright smile, he is a little boy.

Qiu Shili collected himself.

Eguchi Shun, Eguchi Hongsheng.Eguchi Shun, Eguchi Hongsheng.He kept thinking.

What are these things.

At this time, the hillside has been crossed, the pasture here is far less lush than the sunny side, the wheels run over without resistance, a gleaming river meanders down the slope, and a few low-rise residential buildings spread out in front of you.

As the buyers who were generous and straightforward, the group of three received an extremely warm reception. The yurt is a floating house, and the two best rooms were given to them. Qiu Shili's luggage was placed on the bed where Shi Zhanyang slept for the past two days. side.In this itinerant village, there is only one person who knows English. He can speak stumblingly, but it is enough to communicate. He pulls them to talk non-stop, and pays special attention to the newcomer Qiu Shili, leading him around various residential areas.It got dark early here, and as soon as they settled down, the neighbors had already slaughtered the lamb and started roasting, and they were busy preparing dinner.

Milk wine, milk tea, large pies, finger meat called "Berbashmark", and a whole roasted lamb on an iron frame... This dinner is full of flavors, and it is indeed rich.A group of people, regardless of acquaintances or not, drank happily under the roof. Even Shi Yufeng glared at the young man in red who ignored him at noon and drank two bowls of milk wine, but Qiu Shili didn't drink any alcohol and only drank one bowl. Salty milk tea.He knew that he was destined to be taken down by his elder brother when he raised his wine glass now, so there was no need for it.

When the table was full of enthusiasm and the new meat hadn't arrived, even the translator blushed and began to slur his words. Shi Yufeng frowned and began to teach the boy in red how to play poker. Looking at it with a smile on the side.Qiu Shili looked around, put on the light jacket he took from his eldest brother's box, and quietly exited the yurt.

As soon as he opened the door curtain, he bumped into the setting sun head-on. An orange-red egg yolk smashed into the sky, flowing all over the sky, and the twilight was reflected in the river and on the wilderness, and it was intense.

Finding a nearby stone with a leeward wind, Qiu Shili squatted silently, leaning against the edges and corners that had been mostly weathered, then stood up abruptly, bowed his waist and raised his knees, and looked at the magnificent scenery, vomiting continuously.

In fact, he didn't eat much, the most in his stomach was milk tea, and the delicacies that were brought up like treasures from the herdsmen were indeed delicious. When he ate them, his taste buds felt real stimulation, but his current Vomiting is also real.The lambs on the table reminded him of the ones he stabbed to death with a dagger when he practiced the knife, and the happy gathering of a group of people also reminded him of the horror of the family portrait image on his forehead.

Even if he left and ran away, he still couldn't stop thinking about it.

So he could only cough violently, tears and snot flowed together, Qiu Shili almost spit out bile, he could only think about one thing, that is, don't spit out the big brother's coat.

The wind blew wildly, the sky and the earth roared with turbulence, and thick clouds rolled on the horizon, all of which quickly darkened.

Qiu Shili felt that he was unreasonable, why was he in such a mess?The eldest brother is still around, he ran away and hid here timidly, his mind is full of muddleheadedness, like a mouse living in a corner.Qiu Shili suddenly couldn't figure out how to find something like dignity, where to find it, and whether he could find it. What did God want him to do in order to allow him to live like a human?An iron wire buried in the ground suddenly sprang up from the ground, and just like that, it collapsed all over his body with doubts like crumbs of dust.

He didn't even bring a dagger, and he couldn't wake up with the blade. He promised his elder brother that he couldn't, so he must never break his promise.

His mouth was already bitter, and bile probably really came out. Qiu Shili really wanted to stop, but he didn't know what else to do other than vomit. He grabbed the grass roots with his hands, and the weeds as thick as two fingers fell off as soon as they were pulled out. His vomiting finally turned into retching.

At this moment, the hot water in the enamel bowl was handed in front of him, Qiu Shili suddenly raised his face, gasping for breath, the sky was blackish blue, under this sky, Shi Zhanyang's whole body The person is black, including his clothes, his eyebrows and hair, and his crutches.But Qiu Shili knew that he was watching him.

"Rinse your mouth." Shi Zhanyang whispered.

Qiu Shili stood up straight, stabilized his center of gravity, took the big bowl with both hands, and turned his back to rinse his mouth.He coughed at the beginning, but by the last breath, he completely calmed down.

He knew in his heart that if he wanted to find someone, he would not bring hot water to look for him. The elder brother made a return trip, using one leg and one crutch.I gave myself room to vent, didn't ask others to give it to me, and didn't let others see me just now.

"Brother, I'm ready." Qiu Shili hugged the bowl that was still warm.

"I know." Shi Zhanyang said, "I've watched it for a long time."

After he finished speaking, he fell silent, and so did Qiu Shili, and the two of them remained silent for a long time.

"I'm sorry." Then it was the same voice again.

Qiu Shili shrank his shoulders and lowered his head. He felt helpless to himself, covered his eyes and smiled, felt the strange moisture, but the temperature and breath suddenly approached him. When he opened his eyes, Shi Zhanyang was close in front of him, "Don't cry .”

"I don't want to cry..." Qiu Shili shook his head.

"ナナ, don't cry." A kiss is about to be covered, Shi Zhanyang is so gentle and careful now, together with the kiss that is being sprouted, it seems to be their first time many years ago. Throwing up with a gaping mouth.Both lips were wrinkled, and the wind had numb them, leaving only a little chapped pain.

"...Brother, I... who am I?" Qiu Shili didn't want to be kissed, he rinsed his mouth, but he still didn't feel clean, and subconsciously took half a step back, "I was the one chosen? The chosen one? Am I a fake? Am I Shun Eguchi?"

"No." Shi Zhanyang took half a step forward.

"I'm Eguchi Hongsheng?"

"No." Shi Zhanyang hugged him directly, even lost his crutches, he pried his lips and was avoided again, "You are you," the second kiss, "You are mine," the third kiss , "You are my you. ナナ, you talk, you nod, okay?"

The fourth kiss.

Qiu Shili didn't hide anymore, his words were hastily blocked, he nodded and handed himself between Shi Zhanyang's arms, he is now a solid crutch, a stone standing in the wind, but he is also A person, he is alive, and his dignity is also alive, he is tightly embraced by the only person in this world who treats him as a human being from beginning to end.