murder begins in summer

"...Let's not talk about this first," Shi Zhanyang took a deep breath, rubbed his face, "ナナ, come here."

After Qiu Shili fastened the two pistols back to his waist, the barrels were fitted with silencers. They were long and heavy, and pressed against his thighs. He walked quickly towards Shi Zhanyang and stood in front of him, hands I don't know where to put it.

"Why don't you wear a coat?" Shi Zhanyang took off his coat and put it on Qiu Shili heavily.It only uses one hand, and the size is so big that it almost slipped off his shoulders. Qiu Shili didn't want to wear it yet, so he insisted on stuffing it back.Shi Zhanyang pressed his younger brother's hand, and said seriously: "I won't wear it in the future, I can only take off my own for you like this. I'm also afraid of the cold!"

Qiu Shili immediately became honest, his chin tucked into his neckline, his eyelashes lowered and he said, "...I'm taking it off, I'm going to delay climbing the stairs."

Shi Zhanyang let go of his wrist, and did not rush downstairs, but took a step back and stood still, "This building has sixteen floors."

Qiu Shili looked very uncomfortable, turned his face away, and looked at the hazy neon lights outside the road, "Brother, let's go down first, it's too cold."

Shi Zhanyang didn't seem to hear, he squinted his eyes and asked, "Are you dying?"

Qiu Shili was still staring at the signboard not far away. There were six letters of "FUJIYA" and a logo on Yuanyuan. The rainbow light tube on the bottom plate was flickering, and the high-contrast colors always looked lively. "I'm fine, no adverse reactions. .”

"Look at me." Shi Zhanyang said.

Qiu Shili turned his head immediately, his gaze hit Shi Zhanyang's face, and when he hit it, he flicked away in a panic, "It's really fine. I just want to come up... the elevator is stuck in the middle, so I can't move." climbed."

"Why do you want to come up?" Shi Zhanyang suppressed the idea of ​​lighting a cigarette. Second-hand smoke does not do any good to patients, especially patients who have just completed a series of actions such as climbing stairs and shooting. "Do you think I am in danger?"

"I don't know. Can't see downstairs—"

"And then you come up and you see three guys pointing guns at me. That's your gut reaction, right?"

"...Yes." Qiu Shili pinched the bridge of his nose, he didn't look at Shi Zhanyang again, he looked a bit depressed, and he was very remorseful, "Brother, should I not shoot?"

"Yes. It was a rare opportunity for me just now," Shi Zhanyang said calmly, "but it's over, it doesn't matter, the big deal will be solved later. The problem now is your body, ナナ, you didn't listen to rest."

"I don't want to rest." Qiu Shili also relaxed a little, looking at the weaving pattern on the big brother's sweater, he explained: "It's like when I was locked up when I was a child, it was said to be rest, but it's not good at all, they always say I’m not well, so keep turning it off, keep turning it off.”

Shi Zhanyang frowned, then smiled loosely, "Is it the same? It's only two weeks this time, and it's still necessary."

Qiu Shili immediately corrected: "It's been three weeks. This is No. 20 days."

Indeed, as a week passed by so quickly, Shi Zhanyang realized with a headache that he had forgotten in a hurry, "It's not too much to rest for two hundred days. I don't care about you either." He added.

"Didn't your brother freeze my passport?" Qiu Shili suddenly raised his eyes.

"But you still came here. Freezing just wanted to say, don't come to me." Shi Zhanyang calmly caught his stare, and asked calmly, this calmness was more like a kind of indifference, "I can't figure it out. I really It’s so unreasonable for my brother.”

Qiu Shili froze for a moment, a little speechless, because of his impulsiveness and willfulness.He seemed hopeless, paranoid, getting worse by the day, but he didn't want to admit it yet.

Shi Zhanyang continued his methodical interrogation: "How did you find it this time? ナナ, I don't want to punish you, I will punish the person who talks to you."

Hearing this, Qiu Shili was completely in a hurry. He looked at the white breath of his elder brother and his overly calm expression without moving. Like something, "No one, no one talks to me, no one informs me, there is no penalty," he said with difficulty, and he said every word with great effort, "I found it myself. I am in Japan It's been three days, and I have a position."

"You have a position." Shi Zhanyang was surprised.He really didn't think about it, he didn't think it would be.So he repeated it slowly.

"Yeah." Qiu Shili nodded, "I'm pretending, it's in the ring." On the verge of despair, he said quickly.

Shi Zhanyang looked at Qiu Shili's dazed and confused face, and he was also confused. It took him a few seconds to understand the meaning, and he could clearly feel the small ring around the base of his finger.When they first put it on, on that flustered night, both of them were sticky and a little embarrassed, not very formal, but at that time, Zhan Yang was ecstatic, completely sincere, and even more complacent. He felt that the next day's The operation was flawless, and he felt that he had planted a root that would never be broken.

"You're in, our, ring." He asked again.

"Yes, I pretended it," Qiu Shili nodded painfully, then shook his head, "but I didn't want to watch it. When I pretended, I hoped that I would never need to..."

Before he finished speaking, he wanted to say that he hoped that he would never need to look at that location, to find someone in a haystack on this planet with a radius of more than 6000 kilometers. He knew that this was not in line with the perfectionism of his elder brother. The ring is also unfair to the elder brother. He has to tell the truth, but Shi Zhanyang interrupted him again.

"Qiu Shili, let me ask you, can I do this to you? Can I do this to your ring?" Shi Zhanyang called his name like this, but his eyes didn't fluctuate at all, and there was no warmth, and so did his voice. It's like usually, when facing any troublesome ordinary people, he said some nonsense that he had to say, even if the words were supposed to be in a questioning tone, "Oh, I know, if you say yes, you like this, you wish I could Install monitoring and monitoring, you want to be tied up by me and be with me all the time, but do I like it?"

Qiu Shili just opened his mouth empty, breathing heavily, unable to make a sound.

Shi Zhanyang's eyes flashed, and he was out of breath, as if extremely frustrated, he lowered his head and pinched the corners of his eyes, "...Sorry, I just wanted to say, I thought it was our wedding ring." He choked After a moment, "It's a very sacred thing."

"I'm sorry." Qiu Shili finally uttered only three syllables.

He clenched his cuffs tightly, almost shrinking into the thick and heavy coat.He looked at Shi Zhanyang's hand, and in the turmoil of his heart, he felt a little gratitude—speaking of this, the elder brother still didn't take off the small ring.

Shi Zhanyang turned around and stood with his back to Qiu Shili for a while. As far as he could see, he saw the gorgeous land tens of meters down, crowds of young people, crowds of cars, the busiest road in Japan. street.He didn't want to lose his temper, although he was indeed very angry, and when the anger and headache subsided a little, he suddenly realized that the longer he stayed like this, the less he would be able to see Qiu Shili properly, so he turned back again, Qiu Shili still didn't move a bit, maintaining the frozen stand just now, his eyes staring blankly at the ground.

"I've been regretting it recently, and I've been thinking, if I had been firmer at first, no matter what my parents wanted, I would never have dragged you into these messy things, and let you go to school for more than ten years like other children, Talk about several relationships, get married and have children, buy commercial insurance every year, mow the lawn every month, and go to the Giants game on weekends. By the way, I also have a suitable job. I get off work at five o’clock. Don’t come here. Shi's shitty company worked hard," Shi Zhanyang let out a long breath, maybe the air was too cold, the corners of his eyes were sore from freezing, and the three speechless dead bodies on the ground were particularly eye-catching, "Don't kill anyone. I don't want to see you kill any more."

"I……"

"ナナ, do you remember? I told you that you can live without anyone, but you must not be without yourself. You don't even want yourself now. You are afraid of freedom. A large part of this is mine wrong."

Qiu Shili was stunned, listening bit by bit, his eyes widened and rounded bit by bit, the frozen ice on his body disappeared, not melted, but shattered, and his whole body came alive accordingly. He retreated and said: "Don't do this, brother, I beg you...don't say that."

Shi Zhanyang was unmoved: "I'm telling the truth. This is the source of your pain."

Qiu Shili couldn't believe it, and screamed, "No!"

Shi Zhanyang seemed indifferent, looking at him silently, as if waiting for him to say, what is that.

"I'm not in pain, brother, I'm not in pain. I killed the wrong person and disturbed your work. I'm sorry. You can say that I'm troublesome, cruel, and useless, but you can't say that I , really can’t, can’t!” Qiu Shili said confusedly, pulling his ear, the silver earring on the left, like a piece of snow that is about to melt, was pinched tightly in his hand, and he stared fiercely. Shi Zhanyang said, "Do you want me to take it off?"

"Pick it, you pick it. Then you will be free."

"Then I'll take it!"

"Pick!"

Qiu Shili had already screwed on the knob, and he even went to the edge of the roof, so that he could take it off and throw it down hard, but he suddenly cried and put his hands down, "I don't!" Tears rolled down one after another, and he Roaring loudly, his voice was as hoarse as it was broken, he pinched his own ring, "What about it, brother, do you want me to take it off?"

Shi Zhanyang looked over deeply. Qiu Shili had never seen such a sad expression on his eldest brother's face. It wasn't disappointment, shock, or sadness. They were all too thin and flat. When mixed together, they became "Sadness" makes such vivid facial features instantly fade away, like Jingui being wilted by an autumn rain.

"This is your freedom too." Shi Zhanyang said softly.

Qiu Shili squatted down, buried his head, his shoulders trembled, and he clenched the ring finger of his left hand with his right hand. He was fighting a defensive battle that he swore, but he didn't find his opponent. Looking back, it seemed that he didn't either. Homeland, the only fire of war is his own.He felt that Shi Zhanyang was approaching, very anxious, his footsteps were light and heavy, as if he was calling his name constantly, but Qiu Shili heard it very vaguely, just like his chaotic thoughts.

"Do you feel okay? Talk!" Close to his ear, he heard clearly that he was asking about his body.

Qiu Shili subconsciously moved to the side, "It's okay."

"Let's go, get a good night's sleep first," Shi Zhanyang's voice softened, he bowed his waist, and put his palm close to his shoulder, but he didn't pat him down after all, "We are not calm tonight."

"Ha, haha," without warning, Qiu Shili Hehe sneered, "It's not that you're not calm. My brother is just too calm."

"Let's go." Shi Zhanyang held his big arm, the surface of the coat was extremely dry, and it was as cold as ice.

On the contrary, Qiu Shili jumped up violently by himself, breaking away from the strength on his arm, like a young leopard whose head was shot in the back for the first time, he stared at Shi Zhanyang, "That man just now, held three guns at yours!" Man, who is it?"

Shi Zhanyang frowned, "You don't have to ask."

Qiu Shili wiped away the water that couldn't hold in his eye sockets indiscriminately, and stuck his eyelashes upside down, but he stopped rubbing, "Brother, who is he?"

Shi Zhanyang didn't say a word.

Qiu Shili laughed again. He covered the lower half of his face with his sleeve, turned half a circle in embarrassment, and then turned back, "That's it, I just can't calm down, because you lied to me! Many times. I never knew Necessary, it’s useless for me to know, and even more useless for my worry, right? There’s no one more useless than me, and I make mistakes when I try to find out. Because you always lie to me, justifiably, Lied to me openly."

Shi Zhanyang's teeth were cold when he heard it, the feeling that he was helpless and seriously hurt came back, he felt that he was always stuck in a dead end, and he didn't even think about how long time had passed, and now he bumped into When he got on the wall, he lost all patience in an instant. He began to doubt, feeling that he had never really owned this kind of thing, "Why can't I lie to you? Did I promise?"

Qiu Shili's sobbing and wheezing stopped suddenly.

Sternly and in a business-like manner, Shi Zhanyang said again: "May I ask you what loss I caused you by lying to you? No, I really shouldn't tell lies. I caused loss to myself!"

Qiu Shili was suddenly unable to respond, and Shi Zhanyang didn't realize what he had said until he saw a strange expression on his face.He wanted to hug Qiu Shili, wanted to whisper a few words in his ear, and took a step forward, but he couldn't stretch out his hand, and couldn't think of a line to say. When he was thinking about his lines, he might It's all over.

He just stood with Qiu Shili for a while.

The notification tone of the mobile phone kept ringing, and Shi Zhanyang took it out to look at it. The earliest news was nearly half an hour ago, but he didn't hear it at all.A series of messages were all sent by different guys. According to what he said, I searched all over, and there were no masks, no white-haired people, and no one with that kind of figure.

Shi Zhanyang didn't feel too discouraged, it was not so much expected as he didn't have the time to think about it, so he forcibly dragged Qiu Shili up, and he led him to the entrance of the stairwell.Needing crutches, Qiu Shili quickly realized his inconvenience, and walked obediently by himself, neither fast nor slow, following his pace, but quietly pulled his hand out of his hand.

While waiting for the elevator, the lights were brightly lit, and Shi Zhanyang sat in the wheelchair that he had left here. With a daze, he saw the nail polish on Qiu Shili's fingertips that hadn't faded away. More than two months had passed, and the original strong wine red was worn away. The skin is thin, and there is only a crescent-like crook left, which can be cut off by cutting the nails again.

At that moment, he was heartbroken.

The elevator fell, and he fell too, constantly thinking: Blaming, questioning, getting angry meaninglessly, what have I done?What have I been doing since 20 years ago.How did things become like this?For Qiu Shili, he was able to do anything, accept failure, die, and live well. This is a fact, and it is his determination.

However, it is a great misfortune when a couple of love needs to make this kind of determination instead of just talking about it, when the vows of life and death become serious propositions that need to be thought about.

And yet, even though this kind of misfortune is born in life and must be endured, Shi Zhanyang still regards it as a sworn enemy and stubbornly wants to eliminate it.

Because that handful of love is his only one.

Without it, he's not sure he'll be able to continue functioning as a person.

Things have come to this point, there is no need to continue to wait in Japan. Putting your stature too low is not good for future equal cooperation. In addition, various tasks are piled up. Shi Zhanyang returned to San Francisco, and Qiu Shili also returned.

He sometimes went to the company's building to do some work on the desk. At three o'clock in the afternoon, the secretary knocked on the door, and the driver was waiting downstairs to take him to the hospital for reexamination, or to go back to the manor to rest, so Qiu Shili stayed at home. Much longer than ever.

Some guests and some work, Shi Zhanyang also does at home, no matter how big the house is, they often meet, but they no longer sit at the small round table in the conservatory on the second floor to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner together, and rarely talk about anything other than work.

The tacit understanding is full, and there is no gap.

After more than a month like this, everyone said that 21 days is enough to form a habit, but Qiu Shili failed. When he found out that Zhanyang's insomnia had become normal, and after drinking the herbal tea, he only needed Bazai to go to Guangdong to buy local medicinal materials. Qiu Shili decided to leave.

It seems that his presence has already made the eldest brother feel uncomfortable.

It was evening when we left, and the red sunset was full of spring. Qiu Shili put a small box on the co-pilot. The housekeeper bent down by the window and asked if he would leave after Easter. Qiu Shili politely declined and drove in. The tree-lined mountain road leading to the exit of the manor.

Crows and sparrows were flying on the road, and there were gunshots coming from that direction. It was a shooting range in the forest. One after another, they accompanied him through the entire verdant road like echoing.

Qiu Shili knew that the eldest brother must have hit countless ten rings.

The targets are all shot through.he thinks.

As a result, at the fork before the Golden Gate Bridge, a car overtook it and pinned it directly in front of Qiu Shili. He recognized that it was his own license plate, an old Mercedes-Benz C5 used as a bus.

Shao San pushed the door out from the driver's seat, hurried over and knocked on the window.Qiu Shili put on his sunglasses and closed the car window. He knew that he must be quite weird wearing sunglasses before dark.

"Boss wants me to follow you." Shao San nodded.

"I'm just staying at the company for a while. It's also convenient to go to the hospital." Qiu Shili put on the handbrake and said with a smile, "The traffic police will arrive in five minutes at most, so hurry up and talk about anything else."

"Boss wants me to follow you in the company! You are still recovering, so no accidents will happen, and no one with ulterior motives..."

Qiu Shili smiled deeper: "Don't you think it's ridiculous?"

"Indeed," Shao San scratched his head. Even if Qiu Shili is now a sick patient, he might not be able to protect him with force. "But sister-in-law, we must do what the eldest brother asks. There are three other brothers in the car." Everyone has to follow."

Qiu Shili's smile suddenly froze on his face, and he looked at him almost desperately through the sunglasses, "Don't call me sister-in-law."

Shao San was taken aback.

Qiu Shili shook his head, rolled up the car window as well, glanced at his left hand on the steering wheel, and at a brass ring, "I'm not your sister-in-law."

After that, he bypassed the car blocking the way, barely squeezed through, and put his car on the right track.He was very glad that he was wearing sunglasses, because the tears were streaming down in a tiresome manner, and the bridge was blocked, so he just lay down on the steering wheel and cried.

Crying very quietly, the choked sobs were suppressed in the throat, wishing to suppress the tears back, only the shoulders were shaking.In the rearview mirror, a few cars away, Shao San and the others were still following persistently, and Qiu Shili didn't want to bother anymore. Finally, the sunset was spreading gently in front of him, and the whole crowded bay seemed dreamy, as if at home In the screening room, watching the movies of the last century leaning on the arms of his eldest brother, it seems that Gatsby drove across the Brooklyn Bridge in New York to meet his Daisy.Qiu Shili thought, it was all his fault.

Things that are too gentle always make people lose their self-consciousness.For example, some days ago, the days that were too gentle like hallucinations made him delusional for a long time, thinking that all the mistakes he made had been made up for, and that all the lost things had come back.So keep making mistakes, doing stupid things, doing things you regret.

So he is very scared now, yes, he is still scared now, what else is there to be afraid of?Can you explain?Another unsolvable problem.

He saw Shi Zhanyang's eyes in the twilight, they still looked at him so tenderly and disappointedly, he seemed to be able to look at them, as if he could listen to the words that awakened him again.He had no rebuttal and no intention of refuting it.But the congestion stopped, and the traffic piled up in front started to move at this time.

Looking forward, Qiu Shili called his secretary to prepare for the next day's regular meeting, and stepped on the gas pedal quickly, feeling as if he had been anesthetized.

my dear.he thought silently.

I'm afraid that in the end, you taught me more than love, loyalty, and grace.

There is also silence, good gathering and good separation.