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Qi Yuqing sneaked into the dormitory building under the name of He Xieyuan's younger sister. Fortunately, she had asked He Xieyuan's dormitory number in advance, but before she reached the door, she heard arguing from afar.

"You obviously went to work part-time, how could you not get paid?"

"I'm sorry, first of all I didn't know it was a part-time job, you told me it was voluntary labor, and second, I was in a hurry, and I didn't know it was a part-time job, so I didn't think of getting money."

"But people over there check the records and it shows that the money has been withdrawn!"

"Sorry, I really don't know."

"Does an apology work? Will the apology money come back?"

The head of the dormitory has already raised her hand, He Xiyuan closed her eyes, but no palm landed on her face for a long time.

"Who are you?"

Qi Yuqing ignored the head of the dormitory and took He Xiyuan's hand and went downstairs without looking back.

"Yuqing...I..." Qi Yuqing stopped in her tracks and turned around, "I want to give you happiness, for which I can never recover, but I have never been clear about what happiness you want, so I have been I am waiting for your confirmation. I used to think that as long as you are happy, now I find that this road is really difficult. Some are just for fun without any intention, some are pretending to come out of the closet, and some are broken up after coming out of the closet. There are those who are recognized and happy together, and those who are together under the guise of physical marriage...'Tolerance' exists more in people who don't know how to determine the relationship. I admit that I only think about getting you out of the misery of the family and don't think too much about it. A lot of external pressure. So if what you said before can really make you happy, then I can choose to give in to the power of society."

After Qi Yuqing finished speaking, she let go of He Xiyuan's hand, but was hugged tightly, "Love is not a one-sided effort, it is a matter for both parties. You want to give me happiness, so why don't I want to. Someone told me to set foot on this road. The road is to be selfish, because the society only respects but does not tolerate. What is respected is the overall concept and what is not tolerated is the individual under the concept. If filial piety and love cannot be combined in the end, then I can only choose selfishly. I can confirm I love you." Qi Yuqing stared at the woman in front of her in a daze, her heart full of sadness was stirred up by the words of the person in front of her.She threw herself into He Xiyuan's arms, smelling the familiar smell, tears and snot came out together.He Xiyuan stroked Qi Yuqing's head lovingly, and said softly, "I'll go back and move things, you go home first."

Qi Yuqing originally wanted to accompany He Xieyuan upstairs to deal with her annoying roommate, but He Xieyuan insisted that she would deal with it alone.Qi Yuqing walked home suspiciously, but before she reached the door of the unit, her eyes darkened and she fell unconscious.

The street lights were already on when He Xiyuan completed the procedures for lodging out and other related matters. She was in a hurry and never thought of entering the wrong fork in the road. Seeing that the road was getting darker and stranger, she was a little flustered, so she had to call Qi Yuqing.The phone rang for a long time before it was answered, "Hi, this is XX Hospital, are you the family member of the patient?" "Hello, Yuan?" He Xiyuan clenched her phone tightly, "Yuqing, I'm lost..." She wanted to say that she was fine to reassure Qi Yuqing, but the weird surroundings sent chills down her spine.Meow... A meow made He Xiyuan startled.The cat jumped straight at her, and quickly ran away a vague black figure at her feet.He Xiyuan's legs softened and leaned against the wall behind her, but she felt that the wall was extremely damp. She turned on the flashlight that came with her phone tremblingly, and after confirming that it was moss, she slowly breathed a sigh of relief.The light of the flashlight marked a small area in the darkness, sporadic reflections appeared in the distance, the screen of the mobile phone lit up again, and the call was still on, "Hello? Hello? Kite?"

He Xiyuan plugged in the earphones, "Well... I'm here." Qi Yuqing on the other end of the phone seemed relieved, "Don't hang up, wait for me." There was a noisy human voice on the other end of the phone, as if Preventing Qi Yuqing from going out, He Xiyuan wanted to say something to reassure Qi Yuqing, her throat moved but she was nervous and unable to make a sound.She slowly slid down the wall, and Qi Yuqing's pretendingly calm voice came from the receiver, "I used to feel that I was born in this small broken city, and died as a ghost of this small broken city. I have no reason to leave. Fortunately, I met you again." ...Cough...Anyway, we are all adults, so we can find a job without starving to death... Fortunately, you showed me travel guides when I was young, and life didn't smooth out my wandering heart. Remember ChateauJoelRobuchon, we saved money together to...coughcoughcough..."

He Xiyuan's nose was sore, and she choked up and forced herself to make a sound, "I...I'm here...I'm telling you...don't panic...I'll tell him, and then break off the relationship, we can support ourselves, We can definitely be together... If I can't stand the gossip and gossip, you can beat me out of this broken city, and I will wash the dishes to support you..." Qi Yuqing's faint smile came from the other end of the phone, "You really are The princess locked in the castle doesn't know the sufferings of the world... Cough... Washing the dishes can't support the two of us, but it will make you tired and wear away your good temper and increase conflicts... You can earn money by studying your major I don’t know how many times more than washing dishes...I can bear it...cough coughcough...I know you are like me, grasping a ray of light in the dark and not letting go...so I am very relieved... "He Xiyuan leaned against the wall, heard Qi Yuqing's words mixed with coughing, and broke down in tears. Why is this person so stupid, he doesn't care about himself at all, but saves her in trouble time and time again..." Hey... Yuan, send I'm near the banyan tree." He Xiyuan sent the location, and after a short while, a ray of light cut through the darkness around her, forming a linear light zone, which integrated the light of her mobile phone. "Ahem...I found you." Qi Yuqing arrived first without saying a word, He Xiyuan squatted on the ground, two lines of tears could not be stopped, "I'm sorry...I..." Qi Yuqing leaned against her Wall, said a little weakly, "Don't say sorry... The rest of your life is so long, do you have to fill it up with sorry..." He Xiyuan stood up and supported Qi Yuqing, "We... go to the hospital."

Qi Yuqing fainted again after taking the person out of the alley. She panicked when she heard that He Xiyuan was lost. The only area in the old residential area that had no lights and was easy to get lost was no other place except the evil alley where the accident happened.When she saw He Yuyuan squatting by the wall holding the faint light of her mobile phone, she seemed to see the princess waiting for someone to rescue her in her dream.She suddenly remembered that in the dream, she had never seen the face of the princess clearly, but she subconsciously wanted to protect her and approach her to rescue her.Well, did I have a hallucination or was it really a dream?

"You borrowed money from me many years ago to help this guy." He Xiangyi stood in a secluded corner of the hospital, breathed out a puff of smoke, and asked He Xiyuan who was standing in front of him with a pale face. "Yes." He Xiangyi showed a wry smile, "He Xiyuan, do you know? I really envy you." She raised her head and looked at the pale sky in the small town, "Every time I see him scolding you and beating you, I will I want him to pay more attention to me. I know, because you are more like a mother than me in character, and I am rebellious, so he unconsciously puts the control of his mother and the heavy responsibility of the family on you "He Xiangyi looked at He Yuyuan with a wry smile, "But I can't understand his connivance. Whether I was rebellious or against him, he never said harsh words to me. The two children adopt different discipline models, If the tyranny that belongs to a man is his love, then we are both hurt by the double blade of his love, only someone saves you in the dark, but no one saves me." He Xiyuan was stunned by her sister's words, She always thought that He Xiangyi was the happiest one in the family and the one her father loved the most, but she never thought that she would envy herself.

Everyone's darkness is different, only those who understand you can perceive your pain and bring you light.

"The remaining money in this card should be enough for her surgery and your later tuition fees."

After receiving the card, there was still He Xiangyi's temperature on the card.

"Your personality is too much like your mother. Even if you are forced to do something you don't like, you don't dare to resist." He Xiangyi pushed the broken hair behind his ears, "This should be a blessing for you to take the first step."

When He Xiyuan returned to the ward, Qi Yuqing was nowhere to be found on the bed. She anxiously pulled the nurse who was staying at the side and was about to change the patient's dressing, "I'm sorry to bother you, but where did the patient on bed No. [-] go?" One was on the hospital bed The old man who gnawed on the apple answered her loudly, "I rushed out when I saw the doctor!" He Xiyuan hurriedly thanked her, and as soon as she entered the doctor's office, she heard Qi Yuqing's voice, "Doctor, just tell me the truth. How many days do I have to live, so I can rest assured to eat and drink." He Xiyuan rushed into the room and slapped Qi Yuqing on the back of the head, "What nonsense are you talking about?" Qi Yuqing took her hand and shook it , "I heard you around me like weeping before I woke up, so I came to ask about my condition as soon as I woke up." After speaking, I turned to look at the doctor, "Doctor, don't worry so much, although I I don’t watch TV dramas, but I read novels a lot. You have to hide from patients and tell your family members about your condition, and then let us digest it internally, but my sister can only digest it by herself. I guess I won’t tell me how I died. The doctor was not surprised, and pushed his glasses, "You can continue with bad living habits, and wait until the benign tumor turns malignant, and then you will know the reason." Hearing this, Qi Yuqing was cheerfully dismissed from the office by He Xiyuan.He Xiyuan apologized politely to the doctor again, consulted relevant questions, and confirmed the operation time.

At the end of December, the small town is full of Christmas atmosphere.

"Ding dong."

"Yuan, open the door for me, I have oil on my hands."

He Xiyuan walked to the door, and after opening the door, standing outside was He Xiangyi.

"Do you mind a little more light?" He Xiangyi raised the gift in his hand and asked with a smile.

"I'll ask Yuqing." After saying that, she turned and entered the room, "Yuqing, my sister is here."

Qi Yuqing wiped her hands, "She is your sister after all, can I see how you feel." After speaking, she shrugged and said, "At worst, I'll beat you back." He Xiyuan smiled and pinched her with her right hand The meat on his waist turned around and invited He Xiangyi into the house.

"Your hand, are you okay?"

He Xiangyi looked at the deep marks on his sister's left wrist that could no longer disappear, and sighed, "Is it worth it?"

"Of course." He Xiyuan looked at her and said with a smile, "Shouldn't you also have expected such a result?"

He Xiangyi rubbed his eyebrows, "I did think he would lock you up, but I didn't expect you to escape in this way." She looked at her sister's haggard face, "I heard he came here to look for you, He didn't do anything to you." He Xiyuan nodded, "After all, he thinks that family ugliness should not be publicized, so he didn't do much. Although those people spread many versions, the words are not too harsh and can be tolerated. We'll leave here when Yuqing finishes school." He Xiyuan looked at the busy figure in the kitchen and smiled, "At that time, I won't be coming back."

He Xiangyi nodded, "Alright."

He Xiangyi left after eating.Qi Yuqing sat on the sofa after washing the dishes, leaning against He Xiyuan, while looking at the computer screen, she peeled nuts and gave them to He Xiyuan's mouth.

"I can't eat, help me eat."

"You...can't you take care of yourself until I find you?"

"No, I like you to take care of me."

He Xiyuan stretched out her jade finger and tapped Qi Yuqing's forehead, "Fool."

"That's your fool, too."

"Ah."

Qi Yuqing looked at He Xiyuan in surprise as she lowered her head, her nose was filled with fragrance, and the touch on her lips was gentle and delicate, like an undisturbed dream.When the two moved some distance away, the rosy eyes rose up little by little, and the roots of the ears were stained red.Qi Yuqing threw herself into He Xiyuan's arms and laughed in her arms.

The rest of my life is still long, please give me more advice.

END

☆, extra

See Aoi: Such an episode of hell, I will be responsible for the homophonic hell, oh hehehe...

Qi Yuqing: You don't want to participate as an endorsement? (Turns on the electric baton in his hand) This is a magic weapon to bring down an army of gangsters, do you want to try it?I really wanted to know the cause of my death, but the explanation was swallowed when I saw the digression.

Jian Kui: Cough cough, the system is really unfriendly. I ate a lot of punctuation and it was swallowed even if I didn’t mention the topic. I didn’t write anything... As for the cause of death, according to someone, it was originally scheduled for ten chapters, and you died in the end. Lymphatic cancer, the white-headed He Xiyuan smiled and said to He Xiangyi on the hospital bed that she did not regret being a jade for you for the rest of her life.

(He Xiyuan holds down the angry Qi Yuqing)

Qi Yuqing: Someone deserves to be swallowed so many punctuation after writing and uploading! Because I originally wanted to be BE, why did you pick me up many times and say that I have bad living habits?And in the end, arrange heavy part-time jobs and use my work skills to reflect the heavy work pressure to support myself when I lived alone for many years?It turns out that everything is laying the groundwork for my original death...

He Xiyuan: But the ending is good after all, isn't it?It hurts to cut your wrist though.

(Qi Yuqing covers the scar on He Xiyuan's left wrist with her palm in distress)

See Aoi: Have you seen the Hundred Ways of Suicide?Cutting wrists leaves ugly scars and pain and is rarely successful.According to the "father" who appeared many times in the full text but never showed up, how did you escape from his captivity without committing suicide and being sent to the hospital?

He Xiyuan: You can take medicine...

Jiankui: After washing your stomach, do you still have the strength to escape?Not to mention being punished, he will be imprisoned again...

Qi Yuqing: Ahem, isn't the meaning of this episode to show affection?

Jiankui: Xiuen loves to die fast.But you who were born in an old residential area seem to be fearless.

Qi Yuqing: Now that there are people who care about her, she will still be afraid of death, afraid that Yuan will have to bear so much pressure alone again.

Jiankui: I just kissed at the end, I really don't know how you two can love so deeply.Anyway, I didn't see it from the text.

Qi Yuqing: Do you understand that kind of loneliness?Every day when I return to my empty home, I eat something casually, either playing computer games or sleeping.I found a good song and a fun video and wanted to share it with others, but found that I didn't have anyone to play with.Listen to a few back rocking songs or read something that touches your heart. Look around and there is no one to talk to. No matter what you do when you go out, you are alone, go to school alone, go home alone and sleep alone...even if I hate lines I don’t want to deal with people too much because of the hypocritical masks of others online and offline, but just like a child wants someone to play with, I also want to share my toys with others.At this time, I can't help but think of Yuan, the person who has given me sincere care and love, and can bear his own dark side.

Jiankui: In fact, everyone has a dark side, right? The reason why no one is willing to stay is because you are too frustrated and let out too much?

He Xiyuan: The reason is actually simple and complex.I do have my reasons...

He Xiangyi: It's not because of our bastard father!

Qi Yuqing: Don't talk too much.You say that we release too much frustration, but we don’t. We usually don’t reveal the slightest bit of our grief, because once our grief bursts, ordinary people can’t bear it.Ordinary people will have many friends or veterans around them, and so many people bear the burden of mourning for each other, so there will be a sunny side to some extent, just like the earth or the moon, when it is illuminated, the light and shadow will be distinct.We don’t have friends or veterans around us. As for why no one stays as our friends, there are both internal and external reasons.Since I was a child, I was considered by others to be a bastard and to kill my parents, so others were unfriendly to me in various ways.I can deal with people and be eloquent. That is my instinct for social survival. This makes me feel like a fish in water in society, but also allows me to see too much hypocrisy in human nature, so I don’t want to communicate with those people.It was because of his father that the kite couldn't integrate into others.What's more, when loneliness is still a small black spot, no one appears, and the gradually accumulated loneliness becomes eternal night, and no one will set foot in it again.

He Xiyuan: Because I am in the black hole of eternal night, I need a beam of light to break through the darkness.We long for sincerity, long for that beam of light, all our online and offline searches.And I was taught to obey my father since I was a child, so I have been living under my father's control.Even though Yuqing herself is dark, she still cuts through my world like a ray of light, leaving me a linear zone of light so that I won't collapse.So in the oppression day after day, Yuqing became the only comfort in my heart.The goodwill that originally saved me was continuously accumulated, and finally became love.

Jian Kui: During the time between the two of you, the relationship will be quickly established through the accumulation of feelings. It's a good idea... But because of the different influences between you, all of you are in the alley. Qi Yuqing's flashlight, the light of the two is different?

Qi Yuqing: Yes.In fact, we are the observer and the observed of each other at the beginning.We observe each other's loneliness and make sure that the other can withstand our own darkness, so we keep thinking about each other after separation and finally identify each other as our own light.

Jiankui: Cough cough... I feel that your old residential area is quite Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. There are craftsmen, successful people and bullies...

Shen Dezhang: To be precise, it should be a mixed bag, with good people and bad people.Together, they built such a place full of sinister but also kind.

See Aoi: Tsk tsk tsk.So Qi Yuqing is a lotus flower that emerges from the mud but is not stained?

Qi Yuqing: You should see an ophthalmologist.

He Xiangyi: She doesn't look like a lotus in any way, she is a devil.

See Aoi: I just said it casually.Someone so clearly arranged you to play the role of a devil, even ghosts can see it.In reality, you have a bad temper, and in the haunted house, you ring with rage...

Qi Yuqing: In the dream, she was very angry and saved the princess.

He Xiyuan: Is there any problem with the rampage in the haunted house?

See Aoi: In the seven deadly sins, rage corresponds to the devil Satan.Although many people equate Lucifer with the devil, the two are not the same, one is an outsider and the other is an aborigine.

Shen Dezhang: Because Qi Yuqing lived in a place like an old residential area since she was a child, she can be regarded as an "native of hell".But isn't He Xiyuan also living there since she was a child?

Qi Yuqing: Yuan is trapped in the tower built by her father, so I am a demon on the ground, and she is an angel in the sky.She was imprisoned by Cinsuo, if I can't understand it, I will save her.

Jiankui: You really are Satan, tempting angels to hell and becoming fallen angels.

Qi Yuqing: Thanks for the compliment.I didn't drag angels to hell, we went to earth.

See Aoi: The gray area of ​​contrasting absolute light and absolute darkness... emmmmm, it's a bit sharp.

Qi Yuqing: Well... It seems that someone has been probing on the sharp edge.

He Xiyuan: Should it be said that someone is a newborn calf who is not afraid of tigers, or a person who is barefoot and not afraid of wearing shoes.The topic of whether to come out was discussed a long time ago on a program, and then it was banned.As a result, someone is so courageous.

Jiankui: So on the issue of coming out, you chose family affection when family affection and love could not have both at the beginning, and finally chose love?

He Xiyuan: Not really.It's not that simple.Because although my father has paternal love for me, his love requires absolute obedience.It is a kind of freedom to be away from him.But this is not as simple as Yuqing's thinking about whether to come out or not.Coming out of the closet will cause unpredictable harm to Yuqing, and it is completely unpredictable what extraordinary things he will do.He'll do his best to keep me, the one he's judged a scourge, where he can monitor him.The initial choice was not so much a choice between family and love, but rather a physical derailment, only a spiritual love.

See Kwai: Cough cough cough...

He Xiyuan: I will never fall in love with anyone else, so I have no physical derailment towards Yuqing.The last consideration is only whether the Physicalderailment.I began to think that the best choice not to hurt Yuqing is to give up myself and follow my father's words, so I will definitely find a man to marry and have children, but it is impossible for me to fall in love with him spiritually, so I am a spiritual derailment for that nominal husband, For Yuqing, I am Physicalderailment.What Yuqing said at the time meant that she could accept me who was no longer complete without minding this point, and I didn't want to let her down. This was our disagreement at that time.

See Aoi: But then why did it change again?

He Xiyuan: Later, I was inspired by that man in the amusement park and began to think about the issue of "selfishness".Although there are also parents who did not get into trouble with their families after coming out of the closet and thought that "it is good for the children to be happy", but it is obvious that my father is not such a person.He will do anything to get me to do what he thinks is right.Therefore, "selfishness" means putting aside the shackles of the family and only choosing between love and filial piety.

See Aoi: I feel fortunate that I am a supporting role...

Qi Yuqing: The supporting role is also very important, that man woke up that idiot Yuan, you inspired me.Originally, I only thought about letting Kite get rid of her father's control and choose her life freely.It wasn't until I met you that I began to reconsider society's attitudes.You are like a middle point.You can see it clearly, but you won't tell the truth. Your tolerance is because you know that those people use homosexual as a gimmick, and they won't really become homosexual.But when you find out that someone around you is homosexual, Shen Dezhang or those rotten girls in your mouth will appear.They also lead to two attitudes, non-rejection and opposition.After discovering this, I reconsidered. I don’t need to worry too much because I am an orphan, but I have to consider a lot, from family to society.That's why I asked her, what is the happiness she wants.

See Kui: All in all, this is just the result of your consideration in the context of your own life.Can't represent everyone.

He Xiangyi: This is a novel, it can only provide a background, and then make up a story on the background.

Shen Dezhang: I feel that in this story, someone scares many people away with poor writing and magical layout.

Jian Kui: After all, someone wrote this article after watching "Listen to My Ears" and suddenly wanted to imitate the heroine to see if he has talent.

Qi Yuqing: It's true that the three-chapter engagement is a bit scary.But someone later tried to write about the loneliness between me and He Xiyuan with extremely bad pen and ink and different perspectives.Trying to explain why we decided on a relationship in four years, and our differences.

He Xiyuan: The relationship between Yuqing and I has been deepened over the past four years.After the rainy night of the reunion, it was natural to show that they wanted to be together.

Qi Yuqing: Dreams and memories show that we are the observer and the observed of each other, and the subsequent thinking shows that feelings are the result of the accumulation of good feelings generated in previous events.

See Aoi: So because of time reasons, someone is lazy and puts the accumulation of feelings in four years, and thinks that the accumulation of feelings in four years is just a consequence, and has not explained in detail, so he puts the rotten pen and ink in the accumulation of feelings In terms of the antecedents of each other, that is, to express your respective loneliness.Combined together is the complete cause and effect.

He Xiangyi: I think that someone arranged the length of this article deliberately to find fault, and finally insisted on making me a light bulb.And even the unnamed extras "rotten girls" represent an emotional attitude, what am I?

See Aoi: In fact, you are the most free one.You are more free than Qi Yuqing.Although no one saves you from the darkness, you still live a chic life.Qi Yuqing will also have scruples about the people around her, and she promises that He Xiyuan will pretend to be a sister outside, and will deal with others for the sake of life.You are completely willful, like a steel knife, with a cold light, no matter what kind of life you choose, what kind of relationship you choose, you will insert a knife into her life.As for why you were asked to be the light bulb in the end... Don't you know my name? It's so funny.You came out of the closet without getting hurt, and your sister had to cut her wrists to escape, so naturally let you play the remaining heat like a light bulb.

Shen Dezhang: The ending was a bit rushed.

Jian Kui: It's not in a hurry. He Xieyuan chose love, and the two are together. Qi Yuqing avoided the fate of being written to death, and everyone is happy.Is it necessary to write about how He Xiyuan was imprisoned and how the two separated again for N years? They are just ordinary people, and He Xiyuan's father's company is just a small company. Not necessarily able to buy another set.After that, it will definitely be an ordinary day-to-day life. If neither of them has a gorgeous background to support them, don’t write any more.

Shen Dezhang: I suddenly felt that the things someone gave me were ill-gotten gains...

He Xiangyi: Actually, it is a fake...

Shen Dezhang: I heard that I planned to write you two as high school students at the beginning, but after checking and found that puppy love can't be written, I changed it to university, but... It seems that the time has been miscalculated many times.

Jiankui: After all, he is a math waste.

Shen Dezhang: And he's a bad mathematician with poor writing skills.By the way, what kind of character is He Xiyuan's father?The mysterious man who never showed up?

Qi Yuqing: That man never showed his face but domineeringly ruined a family of three women. It's better not to show up...

See Kui: He is a father who is too self-centered and patriarchal.He does love his wife and children, but he wants them to obey him more.Live according to your plan.For his "face", he can completely disregard your true feelings, blindly demand and even use tricks to make you do things according to his expectations.

He Xiangyi: At the same time, he is also a very contradictory person. His autarchy eventually became a double-edged sword, forming my rebellion and He Xiyuan's resignation.

Shen Dezhang: I feel that when I carefully discover the information, many things are too...

See Aoi: Who asked someone to set such a sharp story background.Setting aside the background this story will not survive alone.You may be another option.

Qi Yuqing: So this episode just makes up for the swallowed information?

See Aoi: emmmmm... almost everything that should be explained, it's over, it's over...

Everyone:......