day to day

still found.

After Song Qi left, He Lu came to the bathroom and opened the

Cold water spurted out of the faucet of the sink, trying to clean the ugly marks, but involuntarily rubbing the marks on the wrist with the other hand.

His face was pale and his body trembled slightly, no matter how much he washed

This trace could not be erased even once, that layer of skin became bright red, and even bled, but my mind seemed to be empty.

He Lu saw a psychiatrist once, at that time, when

Sometimes I feel like I can't talk anymore.

During the time when a depressed person looks hypocritical in the eyes of others, he will always be thinking wildly in his mind, trying to find an explanation for Xiao Che.

Tuo felt that Xiao Che hated him again, and recalled all the things he had experienced in these years from beginning to end in his mind, and he was in a trance all day long. Later, he was even resigned from work, so he could only stay at home and think wildly.

The composure he pretended couldn't last long at all. Fortunately, Song Qi left.

The glasses were taken off at some point, and the hair was also wet, hanging down to cover his eyes, and the image printed in the mirror made He Lu himself very strange.

The clothes are still neatly worn on the body, but it looks like

He was even more embarrassed than before, with only hollow shadows left in his pupils, and he seemed to be able to hear his own breathing in the quiet air, every time it was very rapid.

It's so cold, there's no time to turn on the heating in the room, and neither is the water

Completely ice cold.

He Lu leaned against the white wall, squatted down, and put his body

If the body is curled up to reduce the contact area between the body and the air, it will not be so cold.

But his complexion became worse, even his lips gradually turned white, the bathroom area was small, and the lights became brighter, even the corners were filled with light, and he kept this posture, with his legs bent, his arms hanging down, along his wrists The water drops meandering down, with a little bright red.

Still very cold, the body became colder and colder, and suddenly recalled the warmth like being close to a stove in the middle of a certain night.

Time passed for a long time, so long that He Lu thought it was almost dawn the next day. When he stood up, his legs and feet were extremely numb. After a while, his expression gradually regained some consciousness, and he no longer looked empty.

He never thinks about his future life, because he feels that he has no future at all. Although he also wants to live like a normal person, find a girlfriend, start a family, and have someone who can ask for his health, but this kind of life is the same It was too extravagant for him.

There was an ugly smile on the corner of his mouth, this look was so real, even he couldn't stand it.

I often hear people say that he is a very mysterious person. After all, he is so famous in the company, but he is difficult to contact. Many people have guessed behind his back, but no one knows that his mystery is only due to his personality. Fear of crowds.

You have to live, you can't live without looking for a job, so

So after he came to City H, he found a job, trying to make himself look a little gregarious, and trying to change his discomfort with the environment.

Fill the Luo tank with water so that the whole body can be soaked in it to dispel the cold, and the body sinks until it gradually suffocates before getting up.

..................

Song Qi had a dream, when he woke up the sun was warm

Spilled into the room through the glass window.

I forgot all the contents of the dream, but I vaguely remember it was about

He Lu's, thinking about it every day, dreaming at night, Song Qi's dreaming frequency of He Lu is a bit high recently.

Song Qi started to do his homework a few days in advance. He searched the Internet for how to set up a tent, what needs to be prepared, mosquito repellent, lighting and other things, and bought everything he could buy.

To give He Lu a good experience, he has to hone his skills from a novice to a mature veteran. Song Qi has never camped before, but he thinks this event is both exciting and romantic.

In the deep mountains and old forests, there are only two people. It is very exciting to think about it. There is a feeling of surviving on a deserted island and then relying on each other.

Song Qi brought a bag, and put a lot of things in it, to eat

Yes, I use it, and then... I am a little confused about whether to bring this thing or not.

When he went to the supermarket to buy snacks, he saw a lot of condoms on the shelf, so he just took a box, not out of his original intention.

If He Lu saw it, would he think that he is not serious, thinking about things that are not suitable for children all day long.

Finally, Song Qi put the box of condoms in his bag in embarrassment.

Before looking for He Lu, I habitually looked in the mirror three times to confirm that the image was perfect before going out.

The trunk of the off-road vehicle can hold a lot of things, but it is still filled by Song Qi. It will not rain tonight, and the temperature will be several degrees higher than usual. Song Qi also specially checked the calendar that says it is time to go out.

Inexplicably recalling what happened last night in my mind, I was originally happy, but suddenly became sad.

He wants to know He Lu's past, but he won't ask He Lu again. He wants to understand this person thoroughly, and wants this person to understand that he has never experienced any big storms, but it is not impossible to try once. It is too smooth sailing life seems boring.

Drive the car to He Lu's apartment and leave it, and the parking spaces have been fixed.

Song Qi wore a baseball cap, followed He Lu's example and bought a mirror frame in front of his eyes, making him look a bit more refined and scum.

It is still necessary to keep a low profile, it is too popular recently, it will be a bit troublesome to be recognized by others, Song Qi does not want to go through what happened last night again, fans are fans, why do you say that He Lu is his uncle? Young, you can call him his friend, but the blind fans are deeply disgusted by him.

When knocking on the door, no one opened the door.

Song Qi looked at the time, more than ten minutes had passed, there was no reason why it would take so long to open the door.

Song Qi dialed He Lu's mobile phone number, and the ringtone rang in the room.

Why didn't He Lu open the door for him at home? He didn't answer the phone.

Song Qi made several more calls, and his patience was running out. The phone was in the room, which meant that He Lu was at home, and he said that He Lu didn't want to open the door for him, or didn't want to see him again?

Song Qi went downstairs to find the landlord and explained the reason. The landlord is

A very kind uncle, seeing Song Qi's anxious appearance, he patiently enlightened him, and came to He Lu's door with Song Qi holding the chao key.

When the door "clicked" sounded, Song Qi

Can't wait to go in, He Lu's mobile phone is placed in the living room, the screen is still on, it shows several missed calls, all of which were dialed by Song Qi just now.

Song Qi found He Lu in the bedroom, his face was flushed, and he touched his forehead, which was very hot.

It was a little late today, and I met a troll, which greatly affected the mood of the code word....

It's really uncomfortable, there are two more later