day to day

He doesn't know how to please others, just like when he got off the car before, Song Qi didn't make a sound, and he chatted a few words casually, Song Qi's face became more and more ugly.

He Lu still walked to the door of the second bedroom.

Do you want to knock on the door? Tell Song Qi that he is not what the other party described. He has already lived here, and he has returned to work in the company, and has no intention of leaving at all.

There was no reason to reject Song Qi.

He Lu knocked on the door politely, but did not hear the sound coming from the room. He Lu turned the handle of the outside door, only to find that the door was not locked.

The lights in the room were all on, and Song Qi was lying on the bed with a pillow in his arms, as if he was used to sleeping with something in his arms.

Seeing He Lu approaching, Song Qi turned over and turned his back to He Lu.

Why are you looking for him now? Anyway, it was He Lu who wanted to leave at the beginning. When he slept on the same bed with him, He Lu would always subconsciously distance himself from him. If it wasn't for him to force He Lu Sleeping on the same bed with him, He Lu would definitely reject him.

"It's raining outside, such a thin quilt will catch cold at night." He Lu said.

"Ah."

"... You don't have a concert the day after tomorrow. If you are sick, it will affect the sound. This house has not been lived in for a long time, and it may not be clean."

"Anyway, I can't die." Song Qi spread out and placed the neatly folded square quilt on the side, and then covered his body, saying, "This way you won't catch a cold."

Song Qi couldn't get over this hurdle in his heart, the accumulation of each layer was too high, and he couldn't get over it.

Many times he held back his emotions about to explode, he didn't want to hurt He Lu any more, when he liked someone, he would naturally become humble, Song Qi didn't feel humble because he didn't have such a provocative gesture , he likes to twist, but it is precisely because he twisted, so his heart is more or less unbalanced.

He Lu doesn't seem to care about him that much. He Lu cares about too many people. Although the so-called too many people can be counted on one hand, he feels that people other than him are redundant.

The room was quiet for a while, without hearing the sound of closing the door, Song Qi could feel that He Lu was in the room.

Where there is any record, it seems that the atmosphere around is different from the usual time.

"Are you blaming me?" He Lu took a long time before opening his mouth.

"I don't blame you."

"When I went to see Xiao Che, I told you in advance that I would hug him... because he has been too tired from work recently, and I don't have the relationship with him that you think."

"Then who do you have the relationship with that I think?" Song Qi asked.

"..."

"You never told me about your past. If I hadn't discovered that you kept everything in your heart and never told anyone, wouldn't I be worthy of your trust?"

"No." He Lu paused for a second.

Song Qi didn't bother to put on a show, sat up from the bed, looked straight at He Lu, "You call him Archer, but you don't want to call me husband."

"..." I can't agree with it, but I can't refute it either. As long as Song Qi is wronged, he will try to please him in the end. He Lu thought of this when he was hesitating at the door.

"You always care about other people."

He Lu pursed his lips lightly, the calmness on his face no longer existed, and he said with some hesitation, "I don't care about others more. If you want me to come back with you, I will come back."

"You said that I was unreasonable and caring."

"How many people do I deal with? You know it all. Now that you work in the company, you can know every move you make. You say I will leave, and you tell me, can I still go there?"

"There are many places to go, Xiao Chuna, or that county Z, but I won't give you a chance to go."

"Then don't give it." He Lu whispered.

He Lu is used to silence, only he knows what is hidden in his heart, and he doesn't tell anyone. In the past, it was because there was no one he could trust, but now...he is really used to silence.

Troubling things, speaking out will only increase troubles, why bother to add your own troubles to another person.

He Lu knew that he was sober, did not drink alcohol, and his thinking was rational. Every sentence was carefully thought out by his brain, even his actions.

Song Qi wanted to know about his past, but he just thought it was too monotonous, so he didn't talk about it all the time. There was no succession and transition, and it couldn't be as interesting as Song Qi's life.

"What do you want to know?" He Lu walked over and asked.

Moved the stool in front of the bedside cabinet to the bed and sat down, as if he was not going to leave for a while, it was earlier than the usual bedtime, but his work was easy, unlike Song Qi, so he still wanted Song Qi to come sooner rest.

Song Qi parted his lips but said nothing, "Forget it."

He thought of that time, when he saw the hideous scar on He Lu's wrist, He Lu's attitude of resistance, but not

I want to dig out He Lu's wound and let him watch it.

"Xiao Che and I have known each other for more than 20 years."

"..." After so long, I became even more jealous.

"I can't speak since I was a child, and I am often forgotten. I haven't met my parents. I have been alone since I can remember. At that time, another boy came to the yard. He would talk to me and explain me. I thought He came here to save me by fate, and he was regarded as my salvation, I only have him as a friend."

"..." So jealous that he wanted to go crazy, Song Qi clutched the pillow under his body tightly with his hands.

"After I got a job, I rented a house outside and lived with him. Later, I found out that I liked him. But at that time, I had never heard of a man with a man. I dare not tell him. He is very People are likable, different from me, I thought at that time, as long as I can live with him, it is enough, not to disturb his original, if I tell him, I may not even have a chance to get close."

"..." Song Qi wanted to stop He Lu and tell He Lu to stop talking. He knew who the protagonist in He Lu's words was, but he wanted to finish listening, so he didn't interrupt He Lu because of his strong perseverance. recorded words.

"He was spotted by a scout, and he had too much entertainment. One day he came back drunk, and I helped him to wash in the bathroom. At that time..." He Lu omitted some things. Since it didn't happen, it didn't happen. The need to speak out, "I thought he was drunk, so I told him that I liked him, but he wasn't as drunk as I thought. He woke up and pushed me away."

"..."

"He moved out of the house we rented together and went to filming. I have contacted him, but he seldom replied to me. One day, I finally heard from him. He told me not to contact him again, saying that it would affect my his future development."

"..."

"I was fired because of poor work status. I stayed at home every day, thinking about how he was doing recently. Later, I saw him and a female celebrity on TV. I don't think he will ever Come back again."

"..." Song Qi is probably sure how the scar on He Lu's hand came from, his face was full of gloom, and he wanted to settle the score with Xiao Che, but...if it wasn't for Xiao Chu If he rejected He Lu, then he would not be able to meet He Lu later.

"I felt like I had lost the support to survive, but I was cowardly than I imagined. I used my last strength to call an ambulance, and I forgot everything about him! I didn't think about it until I met him in City H." He Lu wrote lightly

“…”

"Men and men, it seems that they really can't be together." He Lu said to himself, lowered his eyes, and smiled faintly at the corner of his mouth, "I think, if someone approaches me, they will leave in the end, it's better not to After being in contact with it, I learned a lot from it, and I was afraid even when I saw crowded places, and then I got used to wearing glasses."

"..."

For a while, Song Qi couldn't say a decent word, he was still angry with He Lu, he suddenly thought, what is there to be angry with, he should thank Xiao Che, it was Xiao Che who left He Lu to him, But he was also more evil towards Xiao Che, why did he abandon He Lu at that time, his heart was conflicted and complicated.

He finally understood what He Lu said, don't leave me behind.

At that time, he was still wondering, obviously He Lu abandoned him, he never had that plan from the beginning to the end, and... what He Lu said to him when he was drunk a few days ago , Ask him to find a tactful excuse if he gets bored.

He Lu really doesn't have many friends, and he can't think of anyone else who can be contacted. Hearing He Lu talk about this, Song Qi's nose felt a little astringent. If only he could meet He Lu sooner, he would be able to let He Lu sooner Lu knows that it's not that others will leave after contact, it's because they haven't met the right person.

If, just if, he left after Horu took him in, what would Horu...do?

The scar on the left wrist, after such a long time, the color has not faded much, you can imagine the ferociousness of the scars at that time, I don't know how much blood was lost, and He Lu is still so thin, in the hospital Was he alone when he was rescued? After all, Xiao Che went to the crew to film.

This may be the reason why He Lu is unwilling to go to the hospital again.

Song Qi didn't dare to think about what would happen if he left He Lu. He understood why He Lu wanted to push him away, why he always said that men and men could not be together, and why he was unwilling to accept him completely.

It's not that He Lu has no feelings for him, but that He Lu is afraid.

Some of the experience was brought over by He Lu’s simple sentence. The smile on the corner of He Lu’s mouth was not like a smile, but more like a bitterness. It’s all in the past. After so many years, I can’t recall the heart-piercing moment The pain, but thinking of myself at that time, it is really sad.

"Song Qi, this is my past." He Lu said.

Song Qi got off the bed, hugged him into his arms, and said in a hoarse voice, ""You still have me, and you will always have me. You still have a child. If you like him so much, he must know how to be filial to you when he grows up. "

"......Um."

He Lu's eyes were a little red, Song Qi gently touched his eyelids with his hands, his fingertips were slightly wet, "Boys and boys can be together, as long as I like you, you like me too, Why can't we be together, life is for yourself, not for others."

"I know we can be together."

"..." He Lu was not drunk, and there was no outsider in the room, so this is... He Lu's confession to him?

Double thicker and longer in one!

Lulu has done a lot, but he doesn’t like to show it that much. Before Song Qi punched Xiao Che impulsively, he was the one who persuaded him to defend Song Qi in front of passers-by. His performance in front of Song Yanxing a while ago helped Song Qi do laundry. Cooking and taking the kids, and twice a week, etc.??

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Good night????????