Jia Ming

"Huh? Where's Awen?" Jia Ming walked to Xie Weiwen's dormitory with a pan in his hand. He didn't see Xie Weiwen on the bed or in front of the table, so he asked his roommate.

Time flies, and the little boys who were still freshmen in high school are now sophomores.Xie Weiwen and Jia Ming were admitted to the same university, and they happened to live in the dormitory next door. The two of them had a close relationship with each other as usual. They visited each other every day. It was inevitable that everyone in each dormitory knew each other.

The roommate took off the earphones and said, "Ah Brother Wen? I just woke up, and then it seems that I went to the office... What you have in your hand is the fried rice from the third canteen! No! There are also fried dumplings!" The bag in Ming's hand.

Both of these things were tightly covered by the box, so fortunately he could still smell them. "You have a good nose, you sniffed it out." Jia Ming pushed the other person's head back, then walked to Xie Weiwen's seat and sat down, "It's noon, have you eaten yet?"

Another roommate wearing glasses said, "No, I'm just waiting for Ah Liang to come back to see if I want to order takeaway or go out to eat."

Their dormitories are all four-person rooms, except for Xie Weiwen, the one wearing earphones and the one wearing glasses just now, this Ah Liang is the last one.

The person wearing the earphones said: "Wait a minute! Jiaming, I remember that your elective course today is on the side of the science building. The third canteen must be on the other side of the school! If you walk back, don't you walk half a circle around the school? It will take more than half an hour, right? Brother, you are leaving early!"

Jia Ming shrugged: "No. Ah Wen likes to eat this fried rice, so I borrowed a bicycle to go."

Wearing earphones: "But this fried rice is very popular. Even if you ride a bicycle, you have to compete with others riding batteries to beat them! I wouldn't do it, you guys are brothers."

Jia Ming smiled, but didn't answer.

Wearing earphones, he rubbed his stomach and said unhappily, "Hurry up and send a WeChat to ask him! I'm starving to death."

Wearing glasses: "Sent, half an hour ago. But he didn't reply to me. I don't know whether to go to the library or to accompany my girlfriend."

Wearing headphones: "Speaking of girlfriends, Brother Wen's girlfriend is really good-looking, gentle and kind to Brother Wen. Right Jiaming? The three of you used to be in the same high school."

Jia Ming smiled: "Well, Huang Anqi is really nice..."

Huang Anqi is the girl Xie Weiwen liked in high school. The two of them established a relationship in their senior year of high school, and worked hard to get admitted to the same university. Although there have been small fights in the past three years, they are still sweet.

This couple should be envied by everyone, but in Jia Ming's eyes, they are very dazzling.Because they remind Jiaming all the time that he and Xie Weiwen are just brothers, reminding him not to cross that line.You may be able to stand by his side at this time, but the person who stands by his side until the end will never be him.

No matter what, when discussing Xie Weiwen and their pair in front of people, he still had to laugh and couldn't reveal a little bit of his heart.Be a good brother, be the closest person to them.

Just when Jiaming was in a daze, the man wearing glasses said, "Ah Liang called me back and said he was going out for a buffet.  … He invited you."

"Young Master Liang is still unreliable. But why do you go to the buffet when it's so good?"

"Hurry up and change your clothes. You Liang Shao said his girlfriend's birthday, and invited a group of people to go with him. They are waiting for us at the school gate."

The one wearing earphones asked Jiaming: "By the way, Jiaming, are you coming?"

Jia Ming: "...I'd better forget about it."

The one wearing headphones: "Why? It's clear that you're going out for a day, and you won't have any classes afterwards."

The people in the two dormitories have been mixed for so long, and they can tell whether the other party has class today just by feeling.

Wearing glasses while changing clothes, he said, "Can't you tell? Jiaming is so shy that I think he's a little socially afraid, and I heard that there will be a lot of people later, so it's a good idea to avoid it."

The person wearing the earphones also began to change clothes: "But courage is something that needs to be practiced! If you keep hiding, you won't make progress!"

Jia Ming said: "You are right..."

Originally, Jia Ming wanted to continue, but the man wearing glasses stepped forward: "Are you stupid? Who is Jia Ming?" He walked up to Jia Ming and pulled him up from the chair, "This handsome guy is our The Bai Yueguang of all the girls in the courtyard, which single girl, no, even if this girl has a boyfriend, she still covets this beautiful single boy?"

The person wearing the earphones also understood: "Jia Ming is afraid that if he goes, he will be surrounded by those women and become hypoxic, right?"

And among the friends of Ah Liang's girlfriend, there is a person who likes Jiaming very much. The little girl likes Jiaming to the point of insanity. As soon as he turned around, he saw the girl standing behind him and giggling at him.

Jiaming also rejected that girl and told her not to do that, but she still "observed" herself as always...

Jiaming smiled wryly: "You guys have finished what should be said. Do I want to applaud you at this time?"

The person wearing the earphones almost slipped and knelt in front of Jiaming: "Brother Jiaming is not just a girl's white moonlight, but also my white moonlight~ I heard the English quiz the day after tomorrow, good brother, please help me~"

Jia Ming was amused, pinched his chin with his fingers, pretended to be indifferent and said: "Ai Fei is flat."

After the three chatted and laughed for a while, two of them were ready to go, and Jia Ming was the only one left in the dormitory.He took out his mobile phone and sent Xie Weiwen a message asking when he would be back, then opened the box and ate something by himself.

"I didn't reply to the message... Maybe I'm busy."

I have already played games in Xie Weiwen's dormitory for half an hour. Although they don't mind, it's not good to be alone in other people's dormitories.

Anyway, he was still alone waiting here, and Jia Ming didn't stay any longer, he packed up his packing box and planned to go back to the dormitory to chat with his roommate and read a book.

At least someone still has something to talk to.

It's just a pity that the food he brought back will be cold in a while, and there is his favorite fried tofu in it.Maybe even Xie Weiwen himself doesn't know that as long as there is an extra serving of fried tofu in the meal, he must eat twice as much as usual for this meal.These few days he was busy with exams, so he didn't eat well, so he had to make up for it.

"I'll buy another copy when he comes back." Jia Ming muttered.

But within two steps, Jia Ming heard footsteps outside the door.This is Xie Weiwen's footsteps, and Jiaming can feel it.But it seems to be going in a bit of a hurry...

Xie Weiwen saw Jiaming as soon as he opened the door, his expression was not surprised but full of joy: "It's good that Jiaming is here, I have something very important to tell you."

Jia Ming smiled: "The counselor told you to go to Australia as an exchange student?" A few days ago, I heard that someone from our department was going to be selected as an exchange student in Australia. The rumor is that the department head prefers himself, Xie Weiwen and an academic Very capable girls.

If Xie Weiwen went, the two might not be able to see each other for half a year, which was somewhat sad, after all, the two hadn't been separated for such a long time since they met, but this was indeed a rare opportunity, and Jia Ming was happy for him from the bottom of his heart.

"No." Xie Weiwen glanced outside the door, then closed the door, "Actually, I'm going to be a father." Xie Weiwen said in a low voice, the smile on his face and tone couldn't be hidden no matter what.

Want to be daddy?What means……

Xie Weiwen paced back and forth around Jiaming, and said with a smile: "What do you say, you are the first to know, I haven't told my parents yet."

Jia Ming was stunned for a long time, and knowingly asked: "You and Huang Anqi have...? Is it her child?"

Xie Weiwen smiled and asked back: "Are you confused? She is my girlfriend, who else would it be?"

That's right, she was his girlfriend, and it was inevitable that they would do it, and that day would come sooner or later.Jia Ming had figured it out a long time ago, he had figured it out a long time ago, as long as he was silently by Xie Weiwen's side, he would be satisfied, but when that moment really came, Jia Ming was at a loss as to what to do.At this moment, Jiaming is standing like a pine on the surface, but in reality he has already spun around and lost all direction.

Xie Weiwen grabbed Jiaming with some excitement and shook: "What do you think should be done? Do you want to tell my parents, but they might beat me. But it's not good if you don't tell her. You should tell her parents anyway. Tell me..."

Jia Ming interrupted him involuntarily, and said coldly: "Kill it."

Xie Weiwen had never seen such a cold attitude from Jia Ming, and he didn't realize it for a while: "What did you just say?"

"I said get rid of it, get rid of the child." Jia Ming lost all hope.

After listening to Jia Ming's words, Xie Weiwen was deeply shocked. He didn't know why his best friend would say such words.But immediately he also calmed down, and calmly said: "It's also..."

What Xie Weiwen didn't expect was that Jia Ming suddenly lost his temper: "What is it! What is there to think about, can you afford to support your child now? Can you be a father now? These Have you thought about everything? Huh?"

Looking back now, Xie Weiwen was really dazzled by this "good news" at the time. Now he has no money or time to raise a child at all. After thinking about it, he only blames himself for not having insurance.He lowered his head a little ashamed, and said in a low voice: "Sorry, I just lost my head for a while. I'll discuss with Huang Anqi later how to get rid of it..." But he always felt that something was wrong.

"You know how refreshing it is to draw pictures of yourself for a while. Have you ever thought about other people's feelings?! Ah? Have you ever thought about her feelings?" Do you know how I feel?

Jia Ming's eyes were red, and he stared straight at Xie Weiwen.

Only then did Xie Weiwen realize that something was wrong.He questioned: "This is a matter between the two of us. Why are you so angry? I discussed it with you in a good voice. What do you mean by insulting me like this as soon as you come up?"

Jia Ming gritted his teeth in hatred, but still stared at him without saying a word.

Xie Weiwen became more and more angry as he thought about it, and stared angrily: "Oh? I know, you have fallen in love with Huang Anqi for a long time! Now here you are accusing me righteously, she is pregnant with my child, I am afraid it will kill you Let me tell you, she will always be mine, and you will never touch her hair. Jealous? She doesn't like you at all!"

Xie Weiwen's face was blushing, his ears were red, and his speech was incoherent, but every word was embarrassing.Jia Ming yelled in his heart: You stinking idiot, I like you!Why don't you understand? !With no way to express his resentment and complaints, he pushed Xie Weiwen away and rushed out of the dormitory.

Both of them need to calm down, he thought.

It was night, in a barbecue restaurant near the school, Jiaming was eating barbecue and drinking beer alone.They said they were eating barbecue, but in fact they only ordered a bunch of grilled chicken wings, and then started drinking.

Jia Ming can be regarded as a little celebrity in the school, and many people who passed by and saw him recognized him.A single guy with a warm male style, sitting alone in a small shop and drinking, causing the girls who recognized him to guess that he has always had a girlfriend, but he was secretly in love without telling others, and now after breaking up, he feels that he has a girlfriend. I drink only when I feel bad.

After adding drama to Jia Ming in their hearts, they also made him an infatuated character, which made them stunned.So one by one, they stepped forward to comfort Jiaming, and many of them came with the hope that they could take advantage of the situation.But Jiaming ignored them at all, and gradually they stopped asking for trouble.

Jiaming seemed to be a little unconscious from drinking, and he didn't know that there were people around him, let alone that they were still talking to him.After drinking a bottle of beer, he took it out of the box on the ground. The table was full of empty bottles, some of which had been taken away by the boss and some of which had rolled to the ground. Jiaming was lying on his stomach. Drinking with eyes closed on the table, the whole picture doesn't look like trying to relieve sorrow, but more like putting one's life to death.In this situation, the boss didn't dare to sell him any more wine, and even quietly took away a few unopened bottles, so that he could leave quickly.

Jia Ming felt that his body was light and his head was heavy, but everything was spinning when he was sitting, even the shape of the wine bottle was distorted.

It was so bad, so bad I didn't know if it was from drinking too much or something else.

How to love someone?

Treat him wholeheartedly, let him drink more hot water and less stay up late, bring him meals in the cafeteria and take express delivery, and take notes for him to take leave.Spend more time with him, do everything you can for him, cling to him but don't make him feel too clingy.

I have to endure it.

You must silently endure not being able to reveal your heart, you must silently put away your love, this feeling cannot be known to anyone other than yourself.

I tried to give up but let myself understand my own mind more clearly. In the end, I don't know what to do.The relationship between the two is like friends, more like lovers, more like family.But unfortunately,

Less and less like myself.

All this is probably because I am a man, and so is that person.

But enough has been endured.Why can't I be the one standing beside him, why does the world look down on people like us so much!Is it wrong for us to live?

We are also human beings, and we also want to enjoy loving and being loved.

But why is it so difficult?

Just being found will be executed and sentenced to death. Why is this?

what did we do wrong...

Maybe it was because he had been emboldened by drinking, and he was not so bold, but Jia Ming had the idea of ​​telling Xie Weiwen, telling him what he wanted.

He knew that if other people found out about this matter, he would be killed himself.But he is not afraid, what he wants to do now is to know what kind of existence he is in Xie Weiwen's mind, and he just wants to force him to choose one of the two.Jiaming is envious and jealous, this feeling is more than that of a jealous wife, the emotion stimulates him to make him sober and also makes him crazy.Even if what he sees in front of his eyes is distorted and out of shape, even if his mind is so dizzy that he can't even solve elementary school math problems, he still knows what he wants to say, what he wants to say, and what he wants to do.

Jia Ming took out all the money from his body and put it on the table, and walked out of the shop step by step uprightly. If he looked behind him, he didn't look drunk at all.

The night was deep, and the evening wind in midsummer blows away the heat and alcohol smell from Jiaming's body.The night sky is full of stars, Chopin etudes are played from the nearby piano room, and the path is full of flowers and trees. It should be a summer night worth enjoying, but Jia Ming is not thinking about it at all.

Jiaming hid in a corner where no one was around, fumbling left and right in his clothes and trousers, he searched for a long time before he found his phone.He knelt down and dialed the number for Xie Weiwen proficiently. Although Jia Ming is now drunk and clumsy, this number has appeared in his mind countless times and has long been imprinted in his memory, and he can type it out just by relying on muscle memory.

Every second of waiting for the other party to connect is torture for Jia Ming.He wants a relief, no matter what the outcome is, he wants a result now.

On the other hand, Xie Weiwen felt that what he said at noon today was indeed a bit heavy. After he calmed down, he kept wanting to apologize to Jiaming, but he didn't know how to say it.Seeing Jia Ming's call at this time, he answered the call after thinking for ten seconds.

After the call was connected, neither of them spoke.It seems to be a tacit understanding, but the truth is the same way.

After the silence, Xie Weiwen spoke first: "Jiaming, I'm sorry."

Hearing this sentence of sorry, Jiaming's tears burst suddenly: "Why do you say sorry? Why!"

Xie Weiwen hadn't seen Jiaming cry for more than ten years. At this time, the other party suddenly cried and he panicked: "I'm sorry for talking nonsense at noon. Where are you now, why are you crying? Who bullied you?" After that, he ran out of the dormitory.

Jia Ming buried his face between his knees and cried, "Don't say sorry..."

Xie Weiwen: "What's wrong?"

"Don't say I'm sorry..."

Xie Weiwen was a little bit dumbfounded, such a big person still acted like a baby: "Okay, okay, don't say sorry." Xie Weiwen stopped after running downstairs in the dormitory, listened carefully to Jiaming's words, and found that he was breathing heavily and was a little alert, "You drink gone?"

As if to prove this point, Jia Ming hiccupped and made Xie Weiwen laugh.

"Where are you? I'll go find you now." Xie Weiwen worried.

"Xie Weiwen." Jia Ming was sober at the moment, "I have something to tell you."

"Okay. Tell me, I'll listen."

Jia Ming was tired from squatting, so he changed his position and leaned under the tree and said, "If I want you to choose one from Huang Anqi now, you can only have one, who do you choose?"

Xie Weiwen sighed: "What I said at noon is all nonsense, don't believe it or take it seriously. You are my own brother, why would I not want you?"

"That's not what I mean. I don't want to be your brother, I want to be your lover, I like you, do you understand?!"

Xie Weiwen smiled wryly: "Stop talking nonsense, I'm looking for you. Can you tell me where you are? Is it the barbecue restaurant where you drank before?"

Jiaming closed his eyes and took a deep breath: "I'm serious, I'm sober now, more sober than ever. I like you, I've liked you for many, many years, you are a big fool."

Xie Weiwen was very shocked. After being stunned for several seconds, he whispered: "You are crazy! Do you know what you are talking about?" The passers-by next to him looked at him strangely.

Jia Ming resolutely and firmly said: "I know."

"we are brothers!"

Jia Ming put all his eggs in one basket and took another deep breath: "You choose." He said it lightly, but who knew that he shouted in his heart: Please, stand by my side.Please choose me for me, even if it is to deceive me.

"Sorry……"

ok, sorry...

Jia Ming quickly hung up the phone, stood up and stumbled towards the hotel in front of the school.

……

He thought that he needed to use physical methods to calm himself down and calm down.