rainy tonight

After blurting out the words, Chang Jiayu's ears were completely red.

He felt hesitant for a moment. For the first time, the lights, temperature, and breath in the bedroom made him feel strange and difficult to rely on.

But at the same time, he felt a sense of relief, the relief in his heart after getting rid of the heavy depression and worries.

He finally said it out, no matter what the result is, he no longer has to worry about whether he should confide this emotion.

Chang Jiayu exhaled slowly, and after exhaling, he glanced at Yan Jun with strong anxiety, then turned his face away uncomfortably, unable to say anything for a while.

He didn't need to say anything more, he just had to wait for Yan Jun's answer.

He looked out of the window, the light was flickering, and it was the broken street lamp that was lingering and emitting intermittent light.

Yan Jun's voice finally rang in his ear.

"This kind of thing can't be joked casually."

Chang Jiayu sat up straight, tilted his head and said, "No, I'm serious."

He paused, and said with some difficulty: "I didn't need to be so joking, and I didn't lie... What about you? You... What do you think of me?"

After Chang Jiayu finished speaking the last word, he didn't feel embarrassed to look at Yan Jun's face. He lowered his hands and opened his fingers, and the blush spread from the pinna to his cheeks.

The atmosphere became silent again, and the glass windows rustled, as if it had started to snow again, and it didn't stop for a long time.

But Luoxue's voice didn't seem to be that loud, Chang Jiayu thought confusedly, maybe it was raining outside.

It's just that his body was stiff and he didn't turn around to look out the window. He was waiting for Yan Jun's reply.

"I don't have any thoughts of crossing the line towards you," Yan Jun clenched his hands, and said in a hoarse voice, "Jia Yu, you are not yet an adult, maybe when you look back in a few years, you will find that it was all just illusions and misunderstandings. Your liking for me may have been biased, not what you think now. I like you very much, but it is no different from any of your elders. I am more than ten years older than you, and you still have many possibilities... "

Yan Jun said a lot, but Chang Jiayu never raised his head.The boy's soft forehead hair hangs down in front of his eyes, Yan Jun can't see his expression clearly.

He accepted the words in a timely manner, and remained silent for a long time, but still did not wait for the other party's response.

Yan Jun's heart sank a little, he knew that his response had hurt the other party, but he could only do this.

He sighed, stood up and walked to the bed, stretched out his hand to press Chang Jiayu's shoulder, but the other side dodged, lying on the bed, covering his head with the quilt, all he could see was The top of the jet-black hair.

Yan Jun sighed almost inaudibly, and said in a low voice: "I'll go to the company first, you should think about it."

The door is closed.

The room was quieter.

The sound on the window pane became more and more obvious.

Chang Jiayu held the quilt against his forehead, as if a huge stone was blocked in his chest, the stone oppressed his heart, the stagnation made his difficult emotions tumbling, his throat was full of choking, this time will be delicious again It's hard to swallow things in front of you.

In the end, it was said frankly, but it also failed completely.After breaking the boat, it is possible to win the victory in one go, and it is also possible to lose even the original things.

Chang Jiayu thought in a daze, the only clear thought in his mind was: he probably couldn't stay here any longer.

After an unknown amount of time, Chang Jiayu turned over, exhaled towards the ceiling, sucked his nose, and closed his eyes again.

At the moment when Yan Jun pointed it out, he was really impulsive.

Originally, he had decided not to say anything and just got along peacefully, but the moment the secret was revealed, there was a voice in his heart urging him to tell everything, but in the end he lost the only bargaining chip in his hand.

"Dong dong dong."

He managed to regain his senses, and heard Mrs. Li's voice from outside, saying that Yan Jun ordered him to drink the medicine again.

Chang Jiayu closed his eyes and said, "I don't drink anymore, I want to sleep, thank you, auntie."

Mrs. Li went out with a plate to persuade her, but she didn't persuade her, she returned to the kitchen with the plate and called Yan Jun.

"Hi," Aunt Li said in a low voice after the call was connected, "Sir, Jia Yu doesn't want to take medicine. I persuaded him for a while, but the child said he wanted to sleep."

Yan Jun was silent for a while, and said: "If you really don't want to drink, let it go, don't force it, and pay more attention."

"Okay, sir."

After hanging up the phone, Yan Jun leaned back on the business chair, folded his arms and rubbed the center of his brows, then lowered his hands, not moving for a long time.

The snow had stopped long ago, but it was raining again.The rain was as dense as needles, falling on the ground in a messy manner, making the city that had been irrigated by snow water even wetter.

The high-rise buildings in the distance stood in the gushing mist, and they couldn't see clearly in the night. Chang Jiayu stared blankly for a while, then turned over and buried his face in the pillow.

He didn't know when he fell asleep, and when he woke up and looked at his watch, it was already five o'clock in the morning.

In winter, the sun came out late, and it was pitch black outside, and the black air pressed directly on his heart through the window, making Chang Jiayu inexplicably feel a little suffocated.

There is no familiar car outside the villa, and Yan Jun did not come back last night.

Chang Jiayu stood by the window for a while, then turned back to the bed, pulled out his suitcase, and sat on the bed to pack his clothes.

When he left home, he didn't bring much, and later when Yan Jun took him out to play, he bought a few more clothes.How harmonious the relationship was at that time, it is even more embarrassing now in retrospect.

Chang Jiayu stared blankly at the black sweater with letters printed on it, then bit his lip and threw it into the trash can beside him.

He set a watch for six o'clock, which was nearly up, and everything was packed.

Mrs. Li lived on the first floor, and he opened the bedroom door, walking back and forth in the corridor.There is a door at the end of the corridor that is used for debris, and no one has ever entered it.He went outside the door, stepped back to the landing, and looked down.

Mrs. Li has already got up, yawned and went to wash up.

At 06:30, Chang Jiayu carried his schoolbag, opened the bedroom door, and carried the suitcase downstairs.

Mrs. Li just took out a bottle of milk from the refrigerator, turned around and saw Chang Jiayu, and immediately went out and asked, "Why did Jiayu wake up so early? Hey, why did you carry a suitcase, where are you going? "

Chang Jiayu smiled lightly: "If you don't go anywhere, you just go home."

Mrs. Li asked, "Does sir know?"

Chang Jiayu lowered his head, and wiped the handle of the suitcase a few times with his right thumb.

"No, please ask auntie to tell me when uncle comes back."

Aunt Li didn't know what happened between the two of them, but Chang Jiayu carried the suitcase and went out, and she sent him out the door with a bit of a daze.

A few minutes later, Chang Jiayu stopped a taxi. He held an umbrella and waved back to Aunt Li: "Auntie, I'm leaving, you go back."

Mrs. Li opened her mouth and nodded, "Slow down on the road, and call when you get home."

"Understood, goodbye, aunt."

"Goodbye."

The suitcase was placed in the trunk, and as soon as Chang Jiayu sat in the back seat, he put the hat on his head backwards, blocking his vision.

"Go to Liyuan New Area."

The rain was getting heavy, and it was banging on the car window, and the sound was mixed with the howling winter wind, like ghosts crying and wolves howling.

Chang Jiayu closed his eyes and lowered his head, listening to the sounds one after another in his ears, and let go of his thoughts.

He got a headache and felt uncomfortable after thinking too much, so he simply didn't think about anything.

After 10 minutes, the car stopped at the destination.

Chang Jiayu took a few times out of his pocket and found that he didn't bring any change, so he scanned the QR code with his mobile phone to pay for the car, and walked to the door with the suitcase.

The nanny and Yan Jing were having breakfast at the dining table, the door was opened from the outside, and both of them were a little surprised when they saw the person who came back with the suitcase.

Yan Jing put down the spoon in her hand, supported her back and stood up and said, "Jia Yu? Why are you here so early?"

Chang Jiayu walked in the door holding the key, and felt a little uncomfortable smelling the smell in the living room that was obviously different from a year ago.

It seems that going home is not going back to the previous home.

He jingled the keys, pulled the suitcase and walked upstairs, and at the same time replied: "Well, I want to come back early, just to catch up on sleep."

He went upstairs step by step, entered his bedroom, and when he closed the door, he heard the nanny come upstairs and asked, "Jia Yu, would you like something to eat? I haven't had breakfast in the morning, have I?"

Chang Jiayu took off his coat and shoes and got under the covers, and said in a low voice, "Don't worry about me, I'll go down and eat by myself when I'm hungry."

The nanny said yes, the footsteps gradually faded away, and the surroundings became quiet.

After lying in the cold quilt for a while, he slowly warmed up. Chang Jiayu continued to let himself go, and fell asleep again. It was almost noon when he woke up.

He went downstairs, Yan Jing had already gone to work, and the nanny was cleaning the dust at the base of the wall with a mop.

He simply ordered some dried noodles for himself, adjusted the sauce and chili oil, the noodles were bright red, soft and smooth in his mouth.

Chang Jiayu finished eating at the dinner table and washed the dishes. The nanny wanted to help but he refused.

"It's okay, I can wash it myself."

After tidying up, he put the bowl into the cabinet, inserted the chopsticks into the chopstick holder, shook his hands and went upstairs.

Picking up the phone, there are two missed calls, from Yan Jun.

Chang Jiayu stared at the name on the screen for a while, then threw the phone on the bed, leaned over and took out a piece of candy from the table.

It's plum flavored.

He peeled off the icing and put the candy in his mouth. The sweet and sour taste spread in his mouth, and the place where the candy was placed quickly became astringent.

Licking his left cheek, Chang Jiayu picked up the phone again and called back.

The connection over there was very fast, Yan Jun didn't seem to expect that he would take the initiative to call himself, and there was a bit of joy in his voice.

"Jia Yu." He called.

With just such a sound, Chang Jiayu almost had a sore nose.

He licked the inside of his mouth again with the tip of his tongue, and the sour taste of plums became stronger.

He leaned on the bed, his fingers buckling the iron buckle on the belt.

Once, once, but there was no sound.

Yan Jun paused for a while, and then said: "Why did you run back without telling me, have you eaten yet?"

Chang Jiayu didn't answer, the words were stuck in his throat, as if he lost his voice.

He turned his head and saw the leaves of the sycamore trees outside the window fluttering in the sleet, completely soaked, as if they had just been fished out of the water, and the melted snow flowed along the smooth veins of the leaves. It slid down little by little, and then fell from the tip of the leaf.

Yan Jun continued: "What I said last night made you unhappy, I'm sorry. I should think more clearly and put it more tactfully—"

"Uncle Yan." Chang Jiayu spoke suddenly, but Yan Jun's words stopped abruptly.

He took a breath and spoke slowly.

"You don't need to call me," Chang Jiayu grinned with a bitter taste of sugar in his mouth, "It's not interesting, really, it's better for us... not to contact, so as not to I always think about it not.”

In fact, he still wanted to say something else to make this conversation less hasty. For example, thank you for taking care of me these past few months. A relationship has come to an end, and it is best to be as perfect as possible.

But Chang Jiayu's lips trembled, but he couldn't say anything else.There seemed to be a crack in the chest, and all the cold air of winter penetrated in, and the flesh and blood were so cold that it couldn't be colder.

A few seconds later, he neatly put the phone down from his ear, hung up the phone, turned off the phone and threw it aside.

There was a glass of water on the table, Chang Jiayu picked it up and drank it with his head raised, then rubbed his cheeks and the corners of his mouth.

This plum candy is really bitter, I have to buy another brand in the future.