Ten Years of Light and Shadow

[-]. After ten years

"News from our newspaper: Today, the famous singer and actor Jiang Ran was exposed to a large number of intimate private photos with the same sex. The person who broke the news said that Jiang Ran cheated on several people at the same time, and he was one of the people who were cheated. He expressed his sadness. and indignation, so he prepared to expose Jiang Ran's true face to the public. The reporter of this newspaper once questioned the face-coded photos sent by the informant. The reporter believed that although the faces of these photos were all coded, the characteristics of these people They are still very similar, like a photo of the same person. The reporter said that although Jiang Ran is a scumbag, his aesthetics are still very consistent. He likes this kind of appearance, so it is okay to cheat on people who look alike understand.

Jiang Ran, once a member of the famous male duo Eighteen, and his teammate Ming Yao are multi-purpose artists, involved in both music and film, and the two have been popular all over the country.It is reported that the two debuted at the same time. After supporting each other for five years, they each started a new career. The group was disbanded by its management company after the members went solo for three years.Jiang Ran's development focuses on singing and dancing, while former teammate Ming Yao has launched his own acting career..."

Having not slept all night, Ming Yao, who had just finished filming on the set and was sitting in his private car preparing to rush back to the hotel, took off his earphones, and let out a long breath looking at the receding scenery outside the window.When was the last time you met Jiang Ran?That's right, at the press conference for the disbandment of the group two years ago.People say this is their last reunion, who says it isn't? , Since then, they have been strangers, because of their different development focuses, they never had the chance to meet again.

Mingyao bowed his head and smiled wryly. Some people say that this world is small. When he turns his head lightly, he often sees the person he most wants to see, the person he least wants to see, the person he most wants to see and the person he least wants to see. seen.The world is so big, so big that two people who used to be acquainted with each other can't even meet by chance after they don't want to see each other again.

Closing his eyes and not thinking any more, Mingyao leaned heavily on the back of the chair.

Jiang Ran was sitting by his bed. His friend called him early this morning and told him to watch the news. The news about him has already blown up all the media.Jiang Ran silently opened and read all the news reports, threw the phone aside, and then lay down on the bed.It seems to have a premonition to cause today's situation.You Shen's determined expression seemed to appear in front of him again, "Since you are like this, don't blame me for being too cruel to you." The resolute voice played back in his ears again.

"It turns out that you hate me to this extent." Jiang Ran's face was a little dazed. Although the faces of the photos in the news were coded, Jiang Ran still recognized it as You Shen at a glance. Yes, no one else , all Youshen, Youshen with all hairstyles and ages.

It's really ironic, last Christmas, the two of them seemed to be happily embracing each other in front of the Christmas tree they built, but today the photo was covered with layers of mosaics by You Shen and sent to the major media by himself.

"Dingling——" the phone rang, and Jiang Ran touched the phone a few times on the bed, and held it in front of his eyes.After a long silence, he still picked up the phone.

"Hello..." He said softly, exhausting Jiang Ran's helplessness.

"Have you seen it all?" You Shen's endless paleness could only be heard from the voice on the other end of the phone.

"Well, I see. Why bother? Why bother to put yourself—" Before Jiang Ran finished speaking, he was interrupted by You Shen's hysteria, "Why?! Why do you ask me when you treat me like this? You don't know ?"

Jiang Ran was silent for a while, "I just want to say, why do you torture yourself."

You Shen cried helplessly again, "Jiang Ran, I was wrong, don't do this, okay? Come back to me, okay, I know I have cheated your savings, I know I was wrong Don't leave me, okay? You see, I'm back, and you accepted me again, can't we go back to the past?" There was a pleading in those words.

"You Shen, you have to know that before you did this to me, we did go back to the past. We have been together again for almost a year."

"You didn't! You didn't accept it at all. If you accepted me, how could you fall in love with someone else!" You Shen growled, "Or, you never loved me at all, so you don't mind if I cheated you of your savings." Just ignore me. I'm back again and you don't accept me because you love me! You know that!"

You Shen hung up the phone with a "snap", and Jiang Ran threw the phone aside again.You Shen questioned himself that he had never loved him, why did he think so?How could it be possible not to have loved?

After all, You Shen looks so much like him.

Possibly - not yet deeply in love.

12. [-] years ago

12 years ago, Jiang Ran was only 16 years old. At that year, he became a trainee of GJ Entertainment with a dream in mind. The life of a trainee is so bitter and tiring. In addition to the fixed study time, he also has to spend a lot of time every day. Time to practice and improve your abilities.He was so tired that he didn't even have time to sleep, that's all, but what made him most helpless was that there were all kinds of intrigue among the trainees. Jiang Ran couldn't understand that he couldn't just rely on his own ability to make his debut ?His dancing shoes were once put into nails.

The road of sticking to the dream is bitter and sour, until the arrival of Mingyao, Mingyao is like the sun, he is Jiang Ran’s sun, Jiang Ran seems to be able to see the dazzling light shining behind Mingyao since the first day he saw Mingyao , can bring warmth and light to Jiang Ran.

That day, Jiang Ran arrived at the dance practice room and was about to put on his dancing shoes, but Mingyao stopped him suddenly. Mingyao said, "Student, I think your shoes are great! Come here and let me take a look?"

Hearing this sentence, Jiang Ran was a little embarrassed. Although he is also a clean person, after all, he spends a lot of time practicing dancing every day. No matter how clean he is, his dancing shoes still smell of sweat, but Mingyao Don't care, when Jiang Ran was in a daze, he brought the shoes over, said the compliment, and then took out a needle.

Seeing this needle, Jiang Ran was about to break out in a cold sweat. The trainee stage has reached a critical moment. I heard that the company has already started a meeting to discuss the positioning of the group to be launched, and has begun preparations for the album. At this time It is true that some people will be distracted, after all, Jiang Ran's assessments are excellent every time.Jiang Ran looked at Mingyao gratefully, but Min Yao winked mischievously at him, and returned the shoes to Jiang Ran.

"Ah, it turned out to be this brand of dancing shoes. No wonder they look so good. I carefully looked at the style of the shoes, and I will buy a pair after my training is over." Mingyao stretched out his right hand to Jiang Ran, and Jiang Ran agreed. He shook hands, "Hi, I'm Mingyao, a new trainee."

Jiang Ran said, "Hi, I'm Jiang Ran."

After the day's practice, Jiang Ran invited Mingyao to dinner to express his gratitude. Mingyao readily agreed, and then told Jiang Ran that when he came that day, he saw someone put something in Jiang Ran's shoe, and he wanted to take it out when people were not paying attention. , but was called away by the company's producer, but he forgot about it. He didn't remember it until Jiang Ran arrived and saw the shoes Jiang Ran was about to change.I didn't see who the person who put the needle was, and felt that it was inappropriate to make a public announcement in the dance practice room, and I didn't see clearly that it was the needle, so I didn't tell Jiang Ran directly.

Jiang Ran smiled, "Then thank you for helping me avoid an injury."

Mingyao waved his hand, "Hey, we're both trainees, we're friends, it's just a trivial matter, but you have to pay attention, just because I can find out once doesn't mean I can do it a second time."

Jiang Ran said seriously, "I will, but you have to be careful."

Mingyao smiled brightly, "That's natural."

After that, the two quickly established a revolutionary friendship and stayed together day and night. Two years later, based on the excellent performance and outstanding appearance of Jiang Ran and Ming Yao, the company decided to take risks and launched a duo combination.

Three or ten years ago

Combinations with only two people are very rare in this era. Occasional duo combinations are also limited. They are not fixed combinations like Eighteen, but the market proves that the company's decision is still very correct.After the group was launched, it was very popular, and quickly attracted a wave of fans, and because of Jiang Ran and Mingyao's outstanding business ability, they attracted another wave of fans with their strength. There are film and television works that invite them to make guest appearances.After two years of development, the group has steadily entered the ranks of second-tier groups.

It was late at night, and a van was steadily driving towards the hotel. The agent sitting in the co-pilot rubbed his brows tiredly, but he couldn't hide his excitement in the exhaustion. The group's schedule was full every day, but the invitation was still Keep coming in, the schedule has been scheduled for a few months later, the agent looked at the schedule in his hand, and talked to Jiang Ran Mingyao in the back seat, "Recently, I have been very tired, you should go through it first. Just wait until you get through the initial stage and stabilize."

After waiting for a long time but no one answered, the manager looked back and couldn't help but smiled. It turned out that the two of them had already fallen asleep leaning on each other. He asked the driver to drive slowly, but the driver accidentally crushed something and the car swayed.Jiang Ran was awakened by the shaking, turned his head a few times and found that he had fallen asleep leaning on Mingyao's shoulder, looked up at Mingyao, Mingyao frowned slightly, Jiang Ran sat up straight after thinking about it, and gently moved Mingyao's head was brought over so that he could sleep comfortably on his shoulders, he hesitated for a while, and put the wristband around Mingyao's waist.After completing this series of actions, Jiang Ran closed his eyes and fell asleep, but there was a happy smile on his face.

That was Jiang Ran's careful thinking. At this moment, Mingyao was defenseless and relied on his appearance, which made Jiang Ran's heart very satisfied. When did Jiang Ran's gaze stop on Mingyao's body and he could no longer move away? Whenever Mingyao's reliance on him can satisfy him.Forget it, completely forget it, when I realize it, I see him in my eyes, I think about him in my heart, I think about him when I am free, and it is him who wants to hold it in my hand, I am full of eyes, but I am afraid that Mingyao will know his own. There will be more conflicts in the mind, Jiang Ran has been silently restraining himself, showing his concern at the right time, just like now, when Mingyao fell asleep tired.

Finally back at the hotel, Mingyao didn't want to move after getting into the quilt. Jiang Ran silently poured footwashing water and put it beside the bed, then pulled Mingyao's legs out of the quilt.Well, I couldn't reach the water, so I had to pull Mingyao out again, so Mingyao kept lying down to soak his feet.

"Hey, rub your feet yourself," Jiang Ran said.So Mingyao's feet rubbed against each other. The first time Jiang Ran helped Mingyao prepare water for washing his feet, Mingyao was surprised. He asked Jiang Ran why he was so kind to him, but Jiang Ran smiled calmly, "We are teammates. Ah, what’s the point of fetching water for you when you’re tired?” Mingyao accepted it after thinking about it for a while, the kid back then has grown into a half-grown young man, he’s a very caring person, sometimes Mingyao doesn’t care after washing his feet. If you wipe it directly into the quilt, you will be stopped by Jiang Ran. Jiang Ran will carefully wipe off the water from each toe, and the hands are gentle and soft as if caring for some treasure. It is the same today.

Jiang Ran tidied up everything and came back, carefully stuffed the quilt corners for Mingyao, then turned off the lights and went to bed, sleeping in the direction of Mingyao. Mingyao often praised Jiang Ran for being so good at taking care of others, and being a teammate with him was really a pleasure, But what he didn't know was that he was the only one who could make Jiang Ran careful, and he was the only one who wanted Jiang Ran to take care of him.

It is also difficult for Jiang Ran to suppress himself and keep a proper distance.There were still a lot of activities on the second day. In the afternoon, there was a fan meeting. Jiang Ran liked occasions like fan meeting very much. He could say some half-truths and half-fakes to express his feelings. No one would doubt it, but what he got was cheers. .

The host invited a few enthusiastic female fans to come on stage, and had an intimate group photo with Jiang Ran Mingyao. Everything was as usual, but one female fan asked if she could hold Mingyao in her arms for a group photo. Jiang Ran, who was getting more and more serious, stopped and came out. He smiled happily: "Mingyao is mine!" The female fans were stunned, and even Mingyao's smile stopped, but there were cheers and screams from the fans below. Call.Jiang Ran gently hugged the fans' shoulders, "Just kidding! Just take pictures with me, and I will be jealous if you ask Mingyao to take pictures." The female fans who were embraced instantly blushed, and the atmosphere gradually became warmer .

Mingyao has been feeling more and more uncomfortable recently. The two are a combination. When the company booked a hotel, they reserved a room for the two of them. Jiang Ran's sleeping posture is very good, but every time Mingyao dreams of tossing and turning in his sleeping posture at midnight Sometimes, with the light of the moon or stars outside the window, I can always see Jiang Ran's peaceful face sleeping towards him.At first, Mingyao thought that Jiang Ran liked to sleep on his side facing the window. After changing the bed a few times, he found that Jiang Ran would face him when he fell asleep. He said "good night" softly, and the breath came out, like a feather gently scratching his earlobe.On occasions like fan meetings, Jiang Ran always showed a vague possessiveness towards him. When he asked him, Jiang Ran just smiled and said, "This is just to satisfy the fans, didn't you see?" ? How excited they are."

Not normal, it's clearly not a normal feeling between friends.Jiang Ran was getting more and more weird about his appearance, until last night, Mingyao woke up again in the middle of the night, and heard Jiang Ran's whisper in his dream, the voice was soft and shallow, but it got into Mingyao's ears very clearly, " Mingyao, Mingyao." Jiang Ran was still calling Mingyao in his sleep, but when he heard Mingyao whispering, he felt a strange feeling in his heart, there was resistance and other inexplicable things.

It's weird, and it gets weird too.Mingyao began to reject Jiang Ran's intimate actions, washing his feet with water, and wiping his own feet. In public, Mingyao stood up straight and maintained a certain relationship with Jiang Ran, except for necessary games. small distance.

But what about Jiang Ran?Jiang Ran has been a little flustered recently. In the past six months, Mingyao began to refuse to get close to him. He would gently remind himself to pay attention before some activities. Mingyao stopped his kindness. Jiang Ran didn't want to do this. This kind of small contact I can't do it anymore, which makes Jiang Ran feel even more depressed.The host of today's event wanted to test the tacit understanding between himself and Mingyao, and brought a silk scarf to cover Jiang Ran's eyes, so that he could find out which of several people was Mingyao without relying on vision.

Don't rely on vision?What's so difficult about it, no matter what Mingyao thinks, he is his closest person. Jiang Ran knows Mingyao's usual body lotion and perfume very clearly, and he can tell which one is him.But Jiang Ran had other ideas, he walked towards those people under the guidance of the host, his hand lightly brushed over the people in front of Mingyao, touching his face and shoulders intentionally, and walked over like that, Walking to Mingyao's side, someone called out from the stage.

Don't get excited, the clean and faint green tea smell is a familiar body fragrance. Jiang Ran already knew that he was by Mingyao's side. His hand passed over Mingyao's head and gently stroked Mingyao's earlobe, and then he gently hugged him from behind. Looking at Mingyao, there were screams from below, Mingyao's body became stiff, Jiang Ran paused for a moment, then embraced Mingyao enthusiastically, shouting happily, "I found it!"

The activity continued, Mingyao suppressed his wanting to be irritable, and reluctantly finished the activity, Mingyao decided to return to the hotel today for a showdown against Jiang Ran.

"Jiang Ran, I hope you will avoid any intimacy, even though we are teammates and buddies." When the two returned to the hotel room, Ming Yao immediately closed the door and said impatiently.

Jiang Ran was silent, he walked up to Mingyao, the distance was very close, so close that the breaths of the two were lingering on each other.

Jiang Ran explained slowly, "Don't think too much, look, the fans are very happy. Although we are stars, we are also idols serving fans."

Mingyao pursed his lips, "Maybe I think too much, I always feel that you pay too much attention to me, which makes me very uncomfortable, we can relax some distance, you understand what I mean?"

Jiang Ran smiled lowly, "I understand, I understand, you go wash up first, go to bed early, I will pay attention to it later."

"Okay, I'll use the bathroom first."

The sound of rushing water slapping the ground was like slapping on his own heart. Jiang Ran sat quietly by the bed and listened to the sound of the other party taking a bath. Drying his hair, not now, he told himself to learn restraint.

But restraint and suppression will eventually lead to explosions.

four or five years ago

Time has passed, and this is two and a half years later. The development direction of the group formulated by the company is very good. The two have become popular among all boy groups, and their albums often occupy the top of the list.

This is the first new album released a year later. Before it was officially released, the reservation volume of the album has exceeded one million. The two have been on the music show, and it has been four weeks since they won the weekly championship. The company held a celebration banquet for the two.

At the celebration banquet, Jiang Ran drank a lot of wine. Apart from other things, he was very shocked that he could achieve today's results. At the beginning, all the desperate bets with dreams were rewarded, but Jiang Ran felt that all success was inseparable. Kai Mingyao.If there is no Mingyao, who will have such a tacit understanding with him, who will accompany him, insist on supporting each other and go to today with him.Jiang Ran was drunk, drinking too much water seemed to reach his eyes, Ming Yao looked at Jiang Ran's eyes as if he saw two clear waters.

Mingyao is not used to drinking, even if it was a celebration banquet, he just had a few drinks for fun. Now he is very sober, Jiang Ran's eyes are always on Mingyao's body, like a hot flame burning him, Mingyao feels that even if he drinks Even when he was drunk, he could feel the hotness of that gaze, so he turned his head and glared at Jiang Ran, but Jiang Ran saw his angry gaze and did not restrain himself, but a peach blossom-like smile bloomed on his face, and the straight eyes were even more intense. Ripples like water.Embarrassed by being stared at, Mingyao quickly turned his head.

After the celebration banquet was over, Mingyao resigned himself to supporting the muddy Jiang Ran back to his room.Just now, the handsome man was like a peach blossom in full bloom, but now he is like mud that has been run over, his whole body is limp, so that he can't hold it up. He resigned himself to his fate and asked the staff to help him, put Jiang Ran on his back, and carried it on his back go back.Along the way, Jiang Ran's breathing kept burning behind his ears, only burning Mingyao's ears as red as peach blossoms.

Finally, he carried the man back to the room and threw him on the bed. Ming Yao stood still and moved his shoulders and neck, but was suddenly pulled down on the bed and pressed under the man, "I love you so much, why don't you love me?" ?” The man’s murmured words exploded in Mingyao’s mind.Before Mingyao had time to think about anything, his lips felt soft. Mingyao was so frightened that he struggled. Jiang Ran was obviously drunk, but his strength was astonishing. He held Mingyao to keep him from moving, but his lips and tongue were still on the other side. lips rolled.

It took a lot of effort to break free, Mingyao ran away in a hurry, found the waiter and opened another room to hide in.

The next night, Jiang Ran came to Mingyao to apologize. Jiang Ran was drunk last night, but he was not in a mess. The vague beauty, even if it was a forced beauty, he remembered more clearly. Mingyao must have been frightened, Mingyao Definitely feel gross.It seemed so, Mingyao didn't even want to talk to Jiang Ran, shut him out of his room and didn't open the door, and let Jiang Ran stay outside the door all night.

Mingyao thought for a long time in the room, and finally called the boss of the company, "Hi, I'm Mingyao, I want to transform into an actor, and I don't want to continue the activities of the group."

The person in charge of the company held a meeting. Mingyao's attitude was too firm, and he stopped going to any activities related to the group. In order to avoid more troubles, and the group has developed for so long, it is indeed time for a transformation, blindly being an idol The singer is not a long-term solution, so he agreed to Mingyao's request.

Jiang Ran, who knew the news, felt as if he had been abandoned, so he lingered in the bar until Jiang Ran, who had drunk too much that day, saw You Shen when he was drunk and his eyes were dim.

[-]. Today and in the future

Maybe Youshen is right, I really don't love him, I just love his face that resembles Mingyao, so after Youshen cheated my savings away, I didn't have much reaction, and when Youshen came back and fell into my arms, I also Gladly accepted.But one month before Youshen reported himself to the media, Youshen discovered the secret he had kept for a long time, which was the contents of his diary and the photo of only one person in his mobile phone.When You Shen questioned himself, Jiang Ran chose to remain silent and decided to break up.

It has been two days since You Shen reported his affairs to the media. Jiang Ran trapped himself in the house without going out, but in the morning of the third day, he ushered in an unexpected visitor.

The man smiled brightly, still like the sun.

"Long time no see, Jiang Ran."

"Long time no see—Mingyao."

The next day, Jiang Ran expressed his apology through the Internet, and directly explained to the public that he was indeed gay, but he did not cheat.As expected, the world is becoming more and more enlightened now, and most of the fans are still very friendly, expressing their respect for Jiang Ran's choice.

Another month later, Jiang Ran released a new song. At the beginning of the new song, he wrote his message: This song is written to the person who loves himself and the person he loves. The name is "Thank you"

"Thank you for loving me

no thanks i love you as always ten years

We are all creatures in the river of time

white dove flying in the sky

Ripples on the water

me and you both disappear

But I will still love you for the next ten years

Thank you for loving me as much as I love you

The ripples touched by the dove will also ripple

reaccumulated clouds

flowers climbing the wall

Seems like they're all in the right place

I can still spend half my life with you"

Mingyao, who was driving, played this song. Many people thought that Jiang Ran wrote this song for the people who supported him. Of course, it might also be written for them, but Mingyao knew exactly who Jiang Ran wrote it for.At the beginning, Mingyao would run away after being kissed by Jiang Ran. At that time, Mingyao would be afraid, but now Mingyao will not. Mingyao clearly knows his own heart, the heart that he has moved is still beating, and dreams come back at midnight Sometimes I would turn around and want to see someone beside me, and I couldn't change it after several years.That person was once abandoned by Mingyao because Mingyao was afraid of his own change, and never again.

Thank you for loving me as always for ten years.

Fortunately, Jiang Ran was always there, behind Mingyao, where Mingyao could find it when he turned around.That day he knocked on Jiang Ran's door, and after entering the room, Mingyao continued to say the second sentence.It was a sentence that had been hidden in his chest for a long time, but entangled in his heart like a wild weed and forced him to say it.

"Jiang Ran, I'm sorry, and, I love you."