Indomitable [E-sports]

After drinking a little too much, Chu Ling went to the bathroom, and when he came out, he saw Qin Shaoting waiting for him at the door.

There was no one here, so Qin Shaoting walked closer and said, "There is An Yi in the middle, it's really troublesome."

Chu Ling smiled lightly: "An Yi is a nice person. He even asked me to go shopping together."

"His taste is good, but his sitting position is not good." One size counts for one size, and Qin Shaoting can figure it out.

"Qi Hao asked him to sit, but he couldn't help it."

"How about I encourage him to rebel and usurp the throne?"

"It's not that bad, Nine Layers City is pretty good now."

Qin Shaoting sighed, Chu Ling couldn't understand his desire to sit next to him.

"I won't arrange Xue Miao's training during this time, let him practice with Qi Hao." Qin Shaoting said.

Chu Ling nodded, "It's just during this time that I also practice Dudian."

After washing their hands, Chu Ling and Qin Shaoting went back together.

Qin Shaoting thought that in a few days it would be the anniversary of Chu Ling's mother's death, and Chu Ling would go to pay her respects. Then he would see if he could take the opportunity to listen to Chu Ling talk about family affairs.

Passing by a small private room, the door of the private room just opened, and saw Si Luan, He Qiao and Qu Xiuwen walking out, it seemed that they were about to leave after eating.

They were also very surprised to see Qin Shaoting and Chu Ling, but they still took care of themselves and said hello.

Qin Shaoting sized them up, and said with a smirk: "What? Do you want to be independent?"

Qu Xiuwen hurriedly said: "No, no, just a casual meal."

Qin Shaoting smiled lightly, obviously he didn't believe it, when he came out to eat, he didn't even have a smiling face, so was that eating?

"By the way, I heard that you have changed to a new manager, but I haven't seen you all this time, how is it?" Qin Shaoting pretended to be concerned.

When the new manager was mentioned, He Qiao's expression became even uglier.

Qu Xiuwen said: "Very good, very good."

"That's good, I look forward to the performance of the dark night."

Si Luan stared at Qin Shaoting and Chu Ling's holding hands and frowned.

Qin Shaoting smiled smugly, just as he wanted to wish Si Luan and He Qiao grow old, An Yi came out of the private room.

Since Si Luan and the others turned their backs to An Yi, An Yi didn't recognize them and thought they were passing by, so he asked directly: "Tingshen, Chu Ling, they want egg tarts, do they want it?"

Qin Shaoting said: "Four."

Just as An Yi was about to go back, he saw He Qiao turned around, and he realized that it was An Ye's person.

They were not very familiar with An Ye in Jiuchong City, and with the matter of Chu Ling before, they also had some opinions on An Ye, so they just nodded and went back.

Si Luan looked at Chu Ling and asked, "Win An Yi?"

Qin Shaoting sneered and said: "I don't like to hear these words anymore. An Yi still needs us to win over? The whole e-sports club knows about our relationship with Jiuchong City, right? But you, if you want to eat, you can eat together. It's okay for the three of you to come out and eat alone. nice."

The three of them in An Ye were a little embarrassed.

Qin Shaoting was too lazy to add to this happy day, so he dragged Chu Ling back to the private room.

The door of the private room was left open, waiting for the waiter to serve the egg tarts.When the three of An Ye passed by, they saw that both teams were there, the atmosphere was very lively, and their faces hurt.

For the next few days, Xue Miao was learning pronunciation from Qi Haolian.

No one arranged other training content for Xue Miao, hoping that Xue Miao would gain something as soon as possible.

Back in the dormitory at night, Chu Ling said to Qin Shaoting: "Well, can you lend me the car the day after tomorrow morning?"

"What's the matter?" Qin Shaoting asked knowingly, the day after tomorrow was Chu Ling's mother's death day.

"I want to go out for something. It's convenient to drive. I've already asked Manager Rong for leave."

For things like offering sacrifices, you usually go in the morning and come back before noon.

"I'll give it to you." If he just borrowed it directly, Chu Ling might be suspicious.

"No, I can do it myself. I'll be back before noon."

"That's okay, drive slowly and pay attention to safety." After speaking, Qin Shaoting entered the room and handed the key to Chu Ling.

Chu Ling replied with a smile, "Okay."

When Chu Ling went to pay homage to his mother, it suddenly became cold and cloudy. He didn't know if it was going to rain or not, and the wind was quite strong.

Qin Shaoting was really worried, so he quietly took a taxi and followed.

Chu Ling bought a bunch of flowers on the side of the road and went straight to the cemetery.

Qin Shaoting got out of the car and followed. There were still some family members in the cemetery, but it didn't seem particularly empty. Qin Shaoting followed quietly, without appearing abrupt.

Qin Shaoting watched Chu Ling walk to the grave, put down the flowers, and remained silent for a long time.After a while, he raised his hand and wiped his face, as if crying.

Qin Shaoting walked around softly, and heard Chu Ling repeating sorry, just like a dream that day.

Qin Shaoting frowned, distressed, and when he got closer, he heard Chu Ling say: "Mom, I really like Qin Shaoting and I don't want to be separated from him... You, don't be angry with me..."

Hearing this, Qin Shaoting felt that he should no longer hide behind and listen, so he strode over and hugged Chu Ling.

Chu Ling was taken aback, looked up and saw that it was him, and was dumbfounded.

Qin Shaoting stroked his hair, smiled lightly and said, "Why are you so stupid?"

"you……"

Qin Shaoting helped him wipe away his tears, kissed his face again, then turned his head to Chu Ling's mother's tombstone and said, "Auntie, I am Chu Ling's boyfriend. I guess, you may not want us to be together, But I want to take care of him, protect him, and love him. I think I have a sense of responsibility, and I have the same hobbies as Chu Ling, and I am not short of money. So please forgive me."

Chu Ling suddenly squatted down, broke down and cried.

Qin Shaoting sighed, how could he not understand Chu Ling like this?He squatted next to Chu Ling and hugged him.

When Chu Ling cried so much that he could only choke, Qin Shaoting half hugged and half hugged him and carried him to the car.And took a bottle of water for him to drink from the back seat.

Chu Ling slowly recovered, sitting in the well-heated car, she didn't look cold.

Qin Shaoting sighed and asked, "What's going on? If you don't want to tell me, then pretend I didn't ask."

He wanted to know, but he didn't want to force Chu Ling.

Chu Ling said in a hoarse voice: "When I first entered junior high school, I found out that I liked boys, but I never told my mother. Later, my mother fell ill, and she has been actively treating her, but she was still able to control it. In high school , One day, my homeroom teacher called my mother and said that I was a little weird, I always liked to look at boys, and I always watched boys when I was distracted in class. In fact, I was sitting by the window at that time, and there was a good-looking boy who played basketball at school. I always want to see it, not because I like it, but because I appreciate it.”

"My mother somehow thought that I was gay from here, so she questioned me that night. I never lied to her. It's one thing to hide, but another thing to lie. I admitted it. She was angry at the time I fainted, and my condition suddenly deteriorated after being sent to the hospital, and I left after half a month."

"I think I was the one who pissed her off, and I always felt sorry for her. But I couldn't change my sexual orientation, so while hating myself for being gay, I couldn't help liking boys."

Qin Shaoting sighed for a long time. This was the reason why his Chu Ling felt insecure. It wasn't because he didn't do well, but because Chu Ling himself was troubled by this contradictory psychology.

At this time, it was useless to say chicken soup for the soul, Qin Shaoting only grabbed Chu Ling's hand and said, "I won't leave you, we can take things slowly."

Chu Ling didn't speak, as if he hadn't recovered yet.

Qin Shaoting thought for a while and said, "Where are you going now?"

Chu Ling said: "Go home, my mother and I's home."

Every year on this day, he will go back once.

Qin Shaoting nodded and said, "Where is it? I'll see you off."

Chu Ling said the address.

Qin Shaoting started the car and went.

This is an older building.

After entering the door, there is a damp smell in the room, which is also the reason why no one has lived in it for a long time, and it is on the first floor, so it is inevitable to be damp.

The house is not big, with two bedrooms and one living room. The living room is still a dark hall, and the place is small, with only a dining table.

After Chu Ling entered, she didn't go anywhere. She went directly into the bathroom, wrung out a wet rag, and went to one of the rooms.

Qin Shaoting walked around here casually, the kitchen is also small, only enough for one person to stay, the other room should be Chu Ling's, there is a single bed, a desk, and some high school students are placed on the table. It seems that it has been flipped through many times, and I took out one to read. The handwriting is neat and there are no traces of revisions. It is obvious that I usually study well.

Qin Shaoting pulled out the chair and sat down, looking at the door, imagining the little Chu Ling running into the house with a big schoolbag on his back, and happily saying "I'm back", he felt very healing and warm.

After a while, Qin Shaoting got up and put the chair back in place, and went to another room.

There is a double bed in the room, and there is also a writing desk, which is much larger than Chu Ling's room, and there is also a bookcase and wardrobe.

The bookcase is not big, only about one meter wide, and it is full of books.

At this time, Chu Ling was carefully wiping the bookcase, his movements were sharp and gentle.

"Is this your mother's bookcase?" There are novels and the like on it, which don't seem to be things that Chu Ling would like to read at his age.

"Well, Mom likes this bookcase very much, and she wipes it carefully every week." Chu Ling smiled lightly.

Qin Shaoting saw that the bottom row was some notebooks of different shapes, colors, and thicknesses. He thought they were for taking notes, but he asked, "What are these?"

Chu Ling kept her hands on, and said: "It's the diary written by my mother. She has the habit of keeping a diary every day. She can't sleep if she doesn't write."

Qin Shaoting looked at him, "Have you seen it?"

Chu Ling shook her head, "Mom said reading other people's diaries is immoral."

"Did you also write when your mother was hospitalized at the end?"

"I wrote it. It was okay at the beginning. Although it was serious, I could still sit up and hold a pen. But after that, I didn't wake up." Thinking back to that time, Chu Ling didn't even know what he was. How did you survive.

"Are these diaries placed in chronological order?" Qin Shaoting guessed that people who like to keep diaries must have a deeper understanding of time, so it makes sense for things like diaries to be sorted by time.

Chu Ling nodded.

Qin Shaoting took out the last book and started flipping through it.

"What are you doing?" Chu Ling was upset. He didn't look at his mother's things, and he certainly couldn't let others see them.

Qin Shaoting didn't speak, and after holding him with one hand, he turned to the last page.

After turning two pages, Qin Shaoting stopped and showed the diary in front of Chu Ling.

There were mother's words on it, Chu Ling remembered, and the above words made Chu Ling stop struggling, and after Qin Shaoting let go of his hand, he picked up the diary.

My son is gay and I was shocked, angry there was, but the shock far outweighed the anger.I am not an uneducated woman, and I also understand that being born gay is a genetic thing, and it cannot be forcibly reversed, and there is no need to reverse it.

Chu Ling is my son, I love him, so I naturally accept his homosexuality.When I got out of the ICU, I told him I didn't blame him.He can only look at me through the window these days. I know he is sad, and I also know that I was not sent to the hospital by his anger.

Staying in the ICU was boring, and I was thinking that I must get better.My son is a minority, and it must be very difficult for him to face. I have to support him, I have to stand by his side and fight for his rights.I hope my son is happy, I hope he can find someone he loves, who can live with peace of mind, so, what does it matter if he is a man or a woman?

It's just... Although I want to get better, I can feel my body is overwhelmed, but I still have to try my best to persevere.At least until I tell my son, I don't blame him, I hope he is happy.

Chu Ling's tears burst again, and he wept bitterly holding the diary.His heart knot over the years should have been untied long ago, but his mother didn't have the chance to tell him.

Qin Shaoting sat on the ground, hugged Chu Ling, and comforted him: "It's okay, look, Auntie is so open-minded. Next time I will accompany you to the memorial ceremony, and let Auntie take a good look at me, and I will show my attitude. In this way, she You can feel at ease."

Chu Ling nodded while crying, and the burden in her heart was completely let go.

When Chu Ling had cried enough, Qin Shaoting wiped his face and smiled at him: "Little crying bag."

Chu Ling laughed through tears, and it was also the most comfortable smile he had ever seen with Qin Shaoting.

"I'll call back in a while and ask the two of us for today's leave. Otherwise, if you go back like this, they will think I've done something to you."

"Where are you going?" Chu Ling's nasal voice was heavy.

Qin Shaoting said: "Let's have a meal first, and then go shopping for electronic products. I want to buy a pair of earphones for mobile phones, and then go to massage and watch movies. I will take you to eat your favorite ice cream later, okay?"

Chu Ling nodded.

Qin Shaoting said again: "I will be your driver for a day, and I asked for leave for you. Didn't you show anything?"

"How do you express it?" Chu Ling felt that a kiss was still acceptable.

Qin Shaoting said: "Let's take a bath together at night, I have good bath salts."

Even if Chu Ling cried to the point of lack of oxygen in his brain, his reaction was a little slow, but he knew it couldn't be done, so he quickly refused, "No, get another one."

"Why not?" Qin Shaoting leaned over, "My bathtub is very comfortable."

The team does not provide a bathtub, but if a player wants to install one, he can discuss it with the club and buy it at his own expense, but it should not be too large.

"Too...too fast..." Chu Ling blushed.

"It's almost there?" Qin Shaoting felt that Chu Ling was quite conservative, but extremely cute.

"Wait... later."

Qin Shaoting smiled and said, "That's fine, but you will sleep with me tonight, and I promise not to do anything else."

Chu Ling knew that Qin Shaoting's room had been replaced with a double bed, which could completely sleep two people, but he still felt that it was quite fast.

So he leaned forward and kissed Qin Shaoting proactively, "That's it, the rest... we'll talk about it later, okay?"

When Chu Ling asked him "Is it okay" with red and swollen eyes, Qin Shaoting felt his heart flutter, it was really cute and distressing.

Although this one-touch kiss did not satisfy him very much, he, Chu Ling, said that he would talk about it later, so let's talk about it later, who made him feel bad about Chu Ling.