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This sounds quite absurd, it's not that Jiu'er is asking for something from himself, and it's not that he is tacitly satisfying his small request as usual.

Jiu'er's words seemed to be an urgently needed request, wanting to get some answers to satisfy the emptiness in his heart.

Ren Kuan could understand Jiu'er's mood, but he couldn't sort out his thoughts. His thoughts were like crumpled waste paper, which would ignite if he didn't pay attention, making people inexplicably irritable.

Therefore, those promises that came at hand were like a stick in his throat, Ren Kuan patted Jiu'er on the back, "Don't cry..."

Jiu'er listened carefully to Ren Kuan's tone, it was only three words, not as free and easy as usual, Ren Kuan was evading his own question, the reason why people evade is because they can't give the other party a decent answer.

But Ren Kuan was not like this usually, those frankness and recklessness disappeared in the whole day when the two didn't meet each other.

Jiu'er propped his head up, faced Ren Kuan, and asked, "Brother Kuan... woo... Can't you get married?"

It was the first time Ren Kuan saw such a leek, even when he lost his helmet, he didn't cry like this. His whole body was shaking, his out-of-focus pupils were full of tears and pain, and his slender fingers were entangled on his shoulders , venting the uneasiness in his heart lightly and heavily, the smooth nails gradually sank into the flesh, as if they wanted to take root on Ren Kuan's shoulders, or wanted to keep Ren Kuan between his fingers.

"Leek..."

Ren Kuan has seen many people cry, such as immature children, weak women, and incompetent men. Liao'er does not belong to any of them. Liu'er seldom cries, which is a kind of stubbornness from the weak.

But I have seen it twice, and the hysteria each time gave Ren Kuan the illusion that he was on the verge of despair.

Because Chiu'er is sad.

Ren Kuan rarely had such an experience. He didn't know under what circumstances a blind person would lose control of his emotions, and to what extent he would lose control. He only knew that every time Liao'er screamed, he shuddered. Son, like a lonely cactus, even he can't get close.

Ren Kuan only knew that he was wrong, but he didn't know where he was wrong, so he couldn't change it.

Maybe Jiu'er's sadness came from her failure to tell the truth, or because she was going to get married.

"Jiu'er..." Ren Kuan chewed on Jiu'er's name over and over again, but he couldn't find the right words.

When people have eyes, the more they see, the less purity they have left. From their point of view, there will be maneuvers when there is hesitation. Some things are well known and do not need to be said too clearly.

In fact, the answer Jiu'er wanted was very simple, he didn't understand those detours, he only knew likes and dislikes, wanting and not wanting, whether Ren Kuan agreed or not.

Ren Kuan's indecision was like a knife hanging high in the sky, and he was always refusing to give himself a good time.

Not only Jiu'er, but even Ren Kuan is tired of himself like this, when did he become timid in front of Jiu'er, what is there for him to look forward to?

"Marriage..." Ren Kuan followed Jiu'er's back, "Actually, I'm not that anxious..."

Not in such a hurry, after talking about it or evading, Jiu'er broke away from Ren Kuan's arm, and bumped into Ren Kuan's chin in a panic.

Jiu'er endured the pain and stood up, "I don't want...I don't want you to get married...I don't want you to get married..."

He only wanted an affirmation from Ren Kuan, but Ren Kuan always gave him some plausible answers. Ren Kuan didn't understand, and he didn't understand how possessive he was.

Jiu'er jumped on Ren Kuan's body, wrapped his hands around Ren Kuan's neck indiscriminately, his lips frantically moved from his cheeks to his earlobes, and begged in pain, "Don't get married...Ren Kuan...don't get married..."

This was the first time that Jiu'er called Ren Kuan by his full name, with a hint of pleading and commanding.

The softness of the lips and the wet marks on the cheeks, and the slightly frightened kiss made Ren Kuan startled, and he was stunned for a moment before pushing Jiu'er away, his face changed drastically under the incandescent light.

He never had a moment, like now, glad that Jiu'er couldn't see, couldn't see the change of his expression, the expression of a person is like a sharp knife, which can stab people at any time.

He knew too well what Jiu'er's actions meant, and when those details were connected together, there was an explanation for Jiu'er's anomaly, and the answer was ready to come out.

After piercing the paper on the window, I thought about all of this. If Jiuer was a girl, Ren Kuan would have understood what he meant, and almost no need for Liuer to take the initiative. Some cautious temptations would get his own response. .

The fault was that Ren Kuan never treated Jiu'er as an adult. He always thought that Jiu'er was a child who still needed to be taken care of.

But it is the connection of these points, the purpose of the leek is obvious.

Ren Kuan is not a sloppy person, at least emotionally, the previous relationship for several years was broken at any time. Many times, he could afford it and let it go, but when he faced Jiu'er, pity prevailed. , reason seems to be disintegrating a little bit.

Even if he couldn't see Ren Kuan's expression, Jiu'er could feel Ren Kuan's movements. Ren Kuan pushed him away with a little force, hitting his pain directly.

Ren Kuan didn't say anything, and Jiu'er knew he was rejecting her, "Brother Kuan..."

There was an air of resistance in his bones, and he was approaching Jiu'er. He instinctively wanted to let go of Ren Kuan, but he was afraid that once he let go, Ren Kuan would take the opportunity to slip away.

Ren Kuan shrunk his neck and opened Jiu'er's arm, he was very complicated, he didn't know how to talk to Jiu'er, "Let go first..."

The persistence in Jiu'er's bones was competing with his fear of Ren Kuan. He was already very afraid.

The fingers on the neck moved, and it seemed that there was no sign of letting go. Ren Kuan repeated in a low voice, "Let go of the leek first."

Jiu'er had never seen Ren Kuan like this, since the first day he knew Ren Kuan, he had never seen Ren Kuan talk to him in such a serious tone.

Under the pressure, Jiu'er had to let go, sobbing, desperately trying to suppress his voice.

"Marriage..." Now it's not a question of getting married or not, Ren Kuan still answered Jiu'er's question ambiguously, "We'll talk about it later, I'm not in a hurry to get married right now, I can't come in a hurry..."

Ren Kuan is not a good guide, just like when a child is in puppy love, he has no good way to communicate, and Jiu'er is beyond the scope of puppy love.

He never thought that for the rest of his life, he would be inextricably linked with a little boy.

Getting married and having children seems to be farther away from him.

Countless people have sounded the alarm to Ren Kuan. Wang Rui has told him many times to put away his pitiful sympathy, and Jiang Ke has long said that Jiuer is a "trouble". Things, even if they get stained, they won't fall off.

Ren Kuan was confused, he didn't know what kind of relationship he had maintained with Jiu'er all this time, was Jiu'er really a "trouble"?