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He knew the relationship between Pei Chongyuan and Jiang Xi.

If you really don't love, you can't be together for so long.

He was too aware of what was going on with him, and it was the first time in so many years that he put someone on top of his heart.

But the more he puts it on the tip of his heart, the more uneasy he feels, probably because he is used to not handing over his sincerity, and once it really falls into someone's hands, he is always afraid that one day it will fail.

He was used to being in control of everything, and was afraid of the feeling of being controlled.

"Let's talk about it." Pei Chongyuan said, "I didn't expect this kind of thing to last forever."

"Stop fucking farting." Kong Xun said, "Although I'm not a good person, I don't seem to have the position to criticize you, but love is quite interesting, and it can change your life even more than the college entrance examination."

Pei Chongyuan scolded him with a smile: "You are the only one who can talk."

The two chatted and drank slowly, Kong Xun said, "Do you remember what you said when you were in school?"

"I've said a lot." Pei Chongyuan stared at the burning smoke and asked, "What did you say?"

"You said you wouldn't fall in love with anyone," Kong Xun laughed jokingly. "At that time, you were like a love expert, and you spoke clearly and logically. Now? Fuck it!"

Pei Chongyuan smiled and shook his head.

"I'm not joking with you, sometimes it's quite tiring." Pei Chongyuan said to Kong Xun, "It's hard to say about this."

He took a drag on his cigarette and looked outside: "Maybe it's just getting used to it."

Kong Xun looked at the flickering smoke, picked up the wine bottle, and took a sip.

"It is said that it only takes 21 days to form a new habit." Kong Xun put down the wine, pushed it in front of him, and jokingly said, "Whenever you want to form a new habit, tell your buddies, buddies will help you. "

It was all just a joke, the two looked at each other and smiled, clinked glasses, and cursed while drinking.

When he came out of the bar, the driver Pei Chongyuan called hadn't arrived yet.

He sat in the car by himself, smoking with the windows open.

He suddenly remembered that Jiang Xi had said before that he wanted to go on a self-driving tour during the [-]th National Day holiday. It had been more than a month since this happened, and he wondered if that kid still remembered.

With a cigarette in his mouth, he sent a message to Jiang Xi: How to arrange for the eleventh?

Jiang Xi was sitting in the rehearsal room beating the drum desperately, holding the same set of drum sticks that Pei Chongyuan gave him back then.

His cell phone was placed on the table by the window, and he didn't see Tong Ye's phone call or Pei Chongyuan's message.

There was a fire in Jiang Xi's heart, and there was nowhere to vent it.

Is this what happens to all people who are in love after a long time?Because after a long time, you start to see each other and get tired of seeing each other?

Jiang Xi didn't think he was tired of watching Pei Chongyuan, he still liked it, and would still stare at him when he woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep.

In fact, Pei Chongyuan treated him no differently than before, he still let him do everything and everything, and accommodated him gently in every possible way.

Still not right.

During the time they met, they were doing A most of the time.

Occasionally, Jiang Xi would ask Pei Chongyuan what he was up to recently and who he was in contact with. While chatting, he would fall between the two of them again, and then repeat what he had done countless times before.

Sometimes Jiang Xi would be in a trance, asking himself if other couples were also like this, just kept doing A's when they met.

He likes to do it with Pei Chongyuan, he enjoys it very much, but he always feels that something is wrong, something is missing.

He always knew that he lacked a sense of security, and only when Pei Chongyuan hugged him would he feel at ease, so he kept asking for it, but for some reason, it was okay at first, but the more it happened later, the more uneasy he became.

When the two were making love, he would stare at the ring on Pei Chongyuan's hand in a daze, and would bite the ring on his chest and couldn't help frowning.

They tried many positions, but slowly, none of them seemed to make him as happy as before.

Jiang Xi was very confused, but he didn't know who to turn to for clarification.

When the last drumbeat fell, Jiang Xi suddenly remembered the conversation between the two of them when they chatted before.

They stayed at home and watched a movie that day. Jiang Xi asked Pei Chongyuan to comment, but what Pei Chongyuan said was: "It's not true."

"why?"

"Where is this kind of love?" Pei Chongyuan stood up, smiled and lit a cigarette, and walked to the backyard while saying, "It's only in movies that we can never forget after so many years apart."

Jiang Xi looked at him at the time, and wanted to ask something but didn't ask it.

If we are separated, will you still miss me?

It's been a long time, but I suddenly remembered it this night.

Jiang Xi wanted to ask again: If we separated, would you be sad?How long will you miss me?

He sighed, collected all his drum sticks, and prepared to go back to the dormitory.

Jiang Xi didn't want to be separated, and he didn't think about it at all.

He put on his coat and went to the table to get his cell phone.

I clicked on the screen and saw the missed calls and messages, took a look, and replied to Pei Chongyuan first.

As soon as he replied "let's talk", Pei Chongyuan called.

"Didn't you say you wanted to travel by car on October [-]?" Pei Chongyuan had already arrived home at this time, and sat in the car to call Jiang Xi without entering the house. "It's going to be a holiday, plan it soon?"

Before Jiang Xi walked out of the teaching building, he was stunned for a moment when he heard what Pei Chongyuan said.

He smiled, he really didn't expect Pei Chongyuan to remember this.

At that time, he just said it casually, Pei Chongyuan didn't express his opinion, he thought it was okay.

"Do you have time?" Jiang Xi sat on a bench in the hall on the first floor, facing the huge French windows.

He suddenly remembered that when he and Pei Chongyuan first met, he was sitting here like this, waiting for Pei Chongyuan to pick him up.

He had a fever that day.

Jiang Xi remembered what Li Zongsheng sang in that song: Love is nothing but a high fever.

His high fever for Pei Chongyuan started at that time and has continued to the present, and perhaps it will continue for a long, long time.

"It must be." Pei Chongyuan smiled, "I have seven days of vacation, you plan it? I will follow you."

I will follow you.

This sentence is so beautiful.

Jiang Xi lowered his head and smiled, rubbing the hem of his coat with his fingers.

"Row."

Pei Chongyuan heard his laughter, and his dull heart seemed to open the window to breathe.

"Tomorrow, Saturday, I'll pick you up," Pei Chongyuan said, "Let's plan this together, we'll be on vacation soon, and there are a lot of things to prepare for a self-driving tour."

"Well, then I'll wait for you."

Ever since the two got together, Jiang Xi seemed to have a home.

Although he doesn't admit it and doesn't want to think about it, it is true that he is no longer alone on many holidays.

The two spent two Spring Festivals together and spent more than a dozen holidays.

As long as Pei Chongyuan is free, the two will get tired of being together.

Their lives are so simple that they only have sex and love talk, which seems very sweet, but in the end, it always seems that something is missing.

Therefore, Jiang Xi attached great importance to this self-driving tour. After making an appointment with Pei Chongyuan, he began to check information and arrange the itinerary all night.

As a result, it fell through.

Pei Chongyuan's company was temporarily busy, and his holiday on November was changed to a business trip.

Jiang Xi is not an ignorant person, of course he can't stop him if something happens, but he feels a little uncomfortable.

"How about you go with me?" Pei Chongyuan said jokingly, "It's also very good. I go out to work during the day, and I can still fuck you when I go back to the hotel at night. It's like we're on vacation."

If it was normal, Jiang Xi might take this as a joke, and it would be over after a few words of laughing and cursing. It's not like they haven't made such jokes before.

But not today, Jiang Xi was angry, all his expectations had been dashed, Pei Chongyuan still said such words, hit his minefield.

"Am I fucking your inflatable doll?" Jiang Xi looked at Pei Chongyuan coldly, "I deserve to wait for you to fuck me in an empty room during my vacation?"

"...I didn't mean that," Pei Chongyuan didn't expect that he would really get angry because of this sentence, so he took advantage of the red light to hold the hand to comfort him, "Isn't this a joke?"

"I'm not in the mood to joke with you today." With a cold face, Jiang Xi withdrew his hand, turned his head and looked out the window and said, "I don't blame you for this matter, the company's decision, what can you do?"

Pei Chongyuan rubbed his hair with a smile: "Yes, so you understand."

I understand.

Jiang Xi frowned and looked outside, no matter how unhappy he was, there was nothing he could do, and he couldn't understand.

That night, Jiang Xi didn't fall asleep, looking at Pei Chongyuan's sleeping face, frowning and thinking wildly.

The result of opening his eyes until dawn was that his mood was even worse the next day, and he completely locked himself in the upstairs study room, and he didn't even send Pei Chongyuan to the airport.

On the afternoon when Pei Chongyuan left, Jiang Xi also left.

He booked a hotel, bought a plane ticket, and set out to travel by himself.

He didn't want to stay at Pei Chongyuan's house. Without Pei Chongyuan's house, he was very anxious.

It's good to go out to play, relax your mind, and clear your mind.

These days, he is always anxious because of emotional problems, which makes him not like himself.

Worry about gain and loss.

Preoccupied.

Do people in love do this?

Jiang Xi lay on the bed in the hotel, looking at the sunshine outside, despising himself like that.

He sent a message to Tong Ye: What are you doing?

Tong Ye quickly called: "Brother Xi! What are you doing?"

"Come out for a trip." Jiang Xi said, "This place is too hot, I'll just short-sleeve after getting off the plane."

Tong Ye was startled: "Where is it?"

Jiang Xi said the name of the place and asked Tong Ye: "What are you busy with?"

Hearing that Tong Ye was so lively, he was a little curious.

"Going shopping with my mother, it seems that a little star has come to the mall, and it's crowded three floors in and three floors out."

Jiang Xi laughed, feeling a little lonely after laughing.

The two chatted casually, and after hanging up the phone, Jiang Xi sighed deeply.

He missed Pei Chongyuan.

Jiang Xi has a stubborn temper. He didn't even say goodbye in the morning, and he doesn't want to take the initiative to contact the other party right now.

He didn't know when Pei Chongyuan would call him, and he didn't know if he would be contacted.

After all, he was the one who had been throwing temper tantrums before, which was quite annoying.

Jiang Xi turned over, grabbed the pillow and covered his head, not in the mood to go out to play, and fell asleep lying on the bed.

He didn't know how long he slept, but he was finally woken up by the phone call.

"Xiaoxi, what are you doing?"

The call was from Pei Chongyuan, who was separated by mountains and rivers, and had already put on a sweater over there, but Jiang Xi was still wearing short sleeves, as if it had been a whole season.

Jiang Xi was sleepy and hadn't woken up yet.

Holding the phone, he murmured and said coquettishly, "Brother Pei..."

Pei Chongyuan smiled when he heard his voice.

When he left before, Jiang Xi ignored him, and he felt very unhappy.

They're all human, and no one really has no temper at all.

Pei Chongyuan believed that he was not entirely responsible for this incident. It was true that there was something urgent and there was nothing he could do. He apologized well, but when Jiang Xi's temper came up, he refused to listen to what he said, and he also became angry.

When he was leaving, he deliberately knocked on the door of the study room, but he was ignored, and Pei Chongyuan was also angry.

Getting angry all the way, when he got off the plane, Pei Chongyuan suddenly thought, why should he do this.

What's the point of being angry with a child.

When I arrived at the hotel, I took a rest, met with the partner and chatted briefly, and immediately called.

Originally Pei Chongyuan was still thinking, after getting through the phone, the two of them had a good chat, Jiang Xi had a stubborn temper, and if he was unhappy, he would coax him more, isn't that what children do, they have to be coaxed.

But I didn't expect that the other party was acting like a baby as soon as he picked it up, which made him laugh.

The previous anger was gone, and the resentment was gone.

Pei Chongyuan asked softly, "Is this sleeping?"

Jiang Xi hadn't woken up yet, so his reaction was a bit slow. He turned over and said "um" slowly.

"Then I woke you up?"

Jiang Xi calmed down, and then realized that he was not at home, but lying in a hotel room.

His mind slowly cleared up, and he also realized that it was Pei Chongyuan who was calling.

"Brother Pei." Jiang Xi sighed.

"Well, what happened?"

"I apologize to you." Jiang Xi sat up, then got out of bed barefoot, and stood on the balcony.

In the city in the evening, the sunset is just right.

He was facing west, looking at the sky that was dyed pink and orange.

The scenery is beautiful and the temperature is suitable.

It would be great if Pei Chongyuan was by his side at this time.

"I shouldn't lose my temper with you." Jiang Xi said, "I should be considerate of you."

Hearing his voice, Pei Chongyuan also softened his heart.

"It's okay, it's not all your problem."

"Do you think other people will do the same when they are in love?" Jiang Xi asked, "Sensitive, suspicious, selfish, and petty."

"But you don't have any of these." Pei Chongyuan didn't want to hear him say this, "Xiao Xi, you have to know that two people have to get in touch slowly when they get together, and some people will find that after the passion fades, the two are not in harmony. It’s not suitable, and some people get more and more suitable after being together for a long time.”

"Then which one do you think we are?" Jiang Xi asked, "Brother Pei, which one do you think we are?"