A famous mouth [entertainment circle]

How did we meet?

Shan Yang had asked this question many times before, and every time Miao Qianxiu angrily avoided talking about it.Well, maybe he forgot, but it's not entirely his fault, is it?Shan Yang also felt strange, his memory has always been very good, even if he only met people once, he would usually remember them.But for Miao Qianxiu, he has no impression at all. He searched all the corners of his brain and found nothing.

Maybe it was Miao Qianxiu who remembered wrongly.

The Tianluo girl agreed with her body, and after several years, she suddenly found out that she had repaid her kindness to the wrong person.Shan Yang hopes that this kind of oolong story will not happen.Even if it happened...everything has already happened, it's too late for Miss Tianluo to regret it.

"I really don't remember, I was wrong, please tell me kindly." Shan Yang took the initiative to admit his mistake, and kissed Miao Qianxiu's cheek again.

Maybe it was because the atmosphere was so good, Miao Qianxiu did not evade this question for the first time.He frowned slightly, as if he was thinking about how to speak. "Do you know how old Jin Yuanbao is?" He changed the subject and suddenly asked an irrelevant question.

Shan Yang was taken aback.He really didn't know, he had asked before, but Miao Qianxiu didn't tell him.Shan Yang thought it was because he himself didn't know, after all, the cat's body shape won't change too much when it grows up.If a stray cat like Jin Yuanbao is adopted after adulthood, even doctors are not very good at judging its exact age.

Unexpectedly, Miao Qianxiu was very sure. "Ten years old," he said.

Shan Yang was surprised, "Ten years old?" He thought Yuan Bao was a six or seven-year-old uncle cat at most, but he didn't expect to be ten years old.I really can't see it, I usually like to act like a baby, and I always think of myself as a little milk cat, but in fact I have entered old age.

Miao Qianxiu turned his head and looked at him fixedly.

Shan Yang suddenly felt blessed, "So we first met ten years ago?"

Miao Qianxiu did not refute.

Shan Yang let out a breath.

Ten years ago, he should have been in college, probably at the end of his junior year.What happened at that time?

The four years in college were the most tormenting period for him. The conflicts between life planning and existing majors, and doubts about sexual orientation were intertwined, clamoring for an answer.Before college, Shan Yang only somewhat understood that he had the same concern for beautiful boys and girls.He didn't think it was abnormal because he never had further thoughts in his mind.His emotional buds came much, much later than his peers.

When he was a sophomore, he met a senior fellow in the laboratory.According to Xiao Qingqing's romantic statement, this brother is his first love.But this process of falling in love does not have much romantic content.Most of the time is spent in the laboratory, running programs, fixing bugs, writing papers, rushing in the dormitory, laboratory and cafeteria.In less than half a year, the relationship died young.The senior brother is about to graduate, but he is not in the other party's life plan.

At that time, it was very popular among classmates to apply for studying in the United States.Shan Yang also followed suit, and even started to prepare application materials.But he quickly forgot. Now that I think about it, I just remember that in the document, there will often be a question asking what is the biggest setback in your life.When Shan Yang was still young, he would definitely feel that losing the opportunity for further communication just after he recognized his own orientation was a life dilemma worth mourning.If life is lived backwards, it is a joke.

But compared to the vague feeling of losing your first love, the possibility of losing the affection of your parents is even more terrifying.Shan Yang has searched many cases on the Internet, and when he heard people in the forum talk about the storm of coming out that he personally experienced, he only felt fear.At that time, he firmly believed that he would definitely not make it this far.If one day, he can find someone he likes, he will definitely run away and hide it well, so that his parents will not find out.

When it comes to philosophy, everyone knows that there are three questions, who am I, where did I come from, and where am I going.When most people talk about the three philosophical questions, they are more or less ridiculed or ridiculed.They feel that these questions are meaningless.Only those who have truly struggled with it understand the frightening truth of not knowing who you are.If you don't understand the root of your own existence, you will lose the value of existence and the meaning of life.

Shan Yang's father was originally a professor of philosophy. When he was very young, Shan Yang tried to guide him to think about the world around him.How should my existence be determined?Can what I like become part of me?Am I the code name or is the code name me?The material self, the conscious self, the id, the superego, is there really a definition that can define a person?

Even today, Shan Yang still has no answer—of course not only him, but also the human race itself.But he already knows what kind of life is meaningful to him, and he has always moved in this direction.

At that time, his three outlooks were hit by an unprecedented impact, almost reshaping.It was also during that time that Shan Yang finally decided to give up his undergraduate studies and engage in an industry that could really make him shine.He re-selected courses, used his spare time to participate in relevant clubs and internships as much as possible, turned all his energy to unknown directions, and cut off other retreats.

Did Miao Qianxiu appear in his life so early?

"Before I was 12 years old, I was just an ordinary kid." Miao Qianxiu stared at the ceiling with a calm tone, as if he was just telling an irrelevant story, "My brother is very powerful, almost fulfilling the expectations of all adults for a child .My grandparents and my parents don’t have any demands on me, I just need to have fun every day.”

Shan Yang had seen photos of Miao Qianxiu's parents.Both he and his brother looked more like their mother, a gentle and intelligent beauty.

"When I was 12 years old in the Mid-Autumn Festival, there was a heavy rain and I had a fever. The drivers at home were all on holiday. Dad drove me to the hospital, and my mother and I were in the back seat. The rain was very heavy and fierce..."

Shan Yang held Miao Qianxiu's hand subconsciously.His hands are cold.Shan Yang wanted to stop him from continuing, but Miao Qianxiu shook his head.

A drunk driver temporarily changed lanes and collided with Miao's car on the intersection, causing the vehicle to roll over and lose control.Heavy rain delayed the rescue.The drunk driver and Miao's father died on the spot.Miao's mother was seriously injured and died during the rescue process in the hospital.Because Miao Qianxiu was protected by his mother's vital parts, he was rescued and finally out of danger and survived.

"Since then, I have become a little strange. Dr. Du said that the etiology is very complicated, and it may not be a single event. It may be genetic, biological, or external pressure. But for me, everything , all occurred after the age of 12.

I still remember the day my brother came back from the funeral with me on his back, and it was raining the same way.I held an umbrella for my brother. The umbrella was too big and I was not strong enough. Most of his body was wet.After returning home, my brother told me that from today on, he will take care of me, and I can live as before and do whatever I want.He was only five years older than me, but he looked very mature, just like Dad.I laughed at his self-righteousness in my heart. "

Miao Qianxiu pursed his lips and smiled.

"I didn't say anything. I went upstairs to my room and planned to take a hot shower. I found that the towel I always used was not in the place I used to. I suddenly broke down and smashed it with hand sanitizer. Shattered the mirror and screamed like a monster for a good 10 minutes in a horrible sound I've never made before.

My brother rushed up and hugged me.I knew he was scared, he was shaking all over.But I can't help myself.I think I'm justifiably angry because someone touched my towel and didn't put it back.But everyone does not understand.

There were good days and bad days, and I seemed to be emotionally unstable all the time, a monster.Until, I didn't know that I was sick. "

Shan Yang hugged Miao Qianxiu tightly, he didn't like the word monster.The oppressive feeling of this power is easily reassuring.Miao Qianxiu paused for a while before continuing.

"After taking the medicine, it's getting better, but not stable. I feel bored, and nothing is interesting. My brother asks me what I want, and I don't want anything. Eating makes me sick, walking makes me sick, and going to school makes me sick." Nausea. Everything is exhausting and cumbersome. I only feel relieved when my bad temper comes up. I get angry and announce my grievances loudly. But then again, time passes too slowly and is completely unsatisfying I want the desire to run. I want to roll, roll, roll, keep moving like a wind-up toy.

I can't stay still anymore.

So one day, it was the Mid-Autumn Festival again, and it rained again. I decided to go out by myself while others were not paying attention.I don't know where to go, I just don't want to be in the house.It was very cold, and I rushed directly into the rain curtain wearing only short-sleeved shorts.The rain was so heavy that the streets were flooded.I walked for a while and my shoe fell off. "

Shan Yang was taken aback for a moment, and suddenly remembered something.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival ten years ago, there was a heavy rainstorm caused by a typhoon in City X. The rainfall reached a historical peak within [-] hours, and the school was suspended for two days because of this.

Shan Yang was deeply impressed by this, because it was the day before the rainstorm that his first love was declared broken.

At that time, he found an intern job at a local TV station. The place to work was far away, and it took him two hours each time. Every time Shan Yang went there, he had to ride a bicycle for more than half an hour and then change to a bus.When the rainstorm came, the news columns were all rushing to report the flood situation.Shan Yang went out to the location twice with the camera brother, and returned to the university town after nine o'clock in the evening.

The river surged and poured into the city. The streets were waist-deep in water. Even buses couldn't move, and pedestrians walked through the water.Shan Yang bypassed his usual path and chose another path with less deep water.

As long as you grasp a point, the thoughts of memory will be stripped away, and a clear picture will gradually appear.

Shan Yang recalled that there were not many pedestrians on that road, and he met a strange person.The man looked young, dressed in thin clothes, covered in mud, standing alone in the rain, with his arms folded, his back bent, and shivering.His hair is very long, close to his face, his head is bowed, and his facial features cannot be seen.

Shan Yang felt a little weird, but ignored it.When passing by that person, I heard a small cry, like a cat meowing.

He couldn't hold back and turned around.

The man was actually holding a cat in his arms.A palm-sized kitten, with blood or mud on its fur, was washed by the rain, crying helplessly.

Shan Yang suddenly felt unbearable.Probably subconsciously felt that such a young man holding a kitten would not be a bad person.So he walked over without hesitation and asked, do you need help?

The young man didn't speak or look up at anyone, but just hugged the kitten in his arms tightly.

Shan Yang felt strange, but not afraid.He knew that there was an animal hospital affiliated to the Medical University nearby, and motioned for the young man to follow him.The man did not refuse.

Shan Yang gave up his umbrella to the other party.Although it didn't make much difference whether there was an umbrella or not under such a violent rain, the umbrella could provide some protection for the weak kitten.

The young man remained silent.

There was no one in the hospital, only a few students on duty, and there happened to be a classmate of Shan Yang, a friend from the cross-school club.He came to an acquaintance to help check the kitten. He said it was a trauma, possibly caused by a car accident. Although it was not too serious, the cat was too small to be treated and bandaged, and its immunity was not strong, so it was easy to get infected. Prepare them mentally.

"You picked this cat up. It's too dirty. You can't even tell the breed. Maybe it's ugly. Do you want to raise it? It looks like it's only two months old."

Shan Yang just smiled, didn't say anything, and turned around to pay the medical bills in advance.When paying, the little nurse needs to register, and Shan Yang left his ID name and student card.He asked the kitten's name again, but Shan Yang was not sure, so he casually said one.

When he came back, the young man was still hanging his head, sitting on the bench in the corridor without changing his posture.His legs are so long that they take up half the aisle.The shoes must have been lost, the feet were bare, the nails were covered with mud, and there were a few fresh blood spots on the ankles.He was very dirty, wet all over, with mud dripping from his hair, somewhat similar to that poor kitten.

Shan Yang wanted to go over and say something, but he didn't know how to speak.At this time, his phone rang. It was his college roommate Lin Zihao who had a stomach problem alone in the dormitory and couldn't find anyone to take him to the hospital, asking when Shan Yang would come back.

Shan Yang hurried back, just walked out of the hospital, always felt uneasy.After thinking about it, he went into the convenience store next to the hospital, bought a hot rice ball and a bottle of water, grabbed a box of Band-Aids and a pair of slippers, and rushed into the hospital again.

The young man was like a stone sculpture, sitting on the bench, the water stains under his body had already been stained.

Shan Yang doubted whether he could not hear or speak.He left his coat and other mess on the bench, and emptied his pockets of change, which he gave to the young man.

"Eat something, wash the wound on your foot first. The bandage is waterproof, and you need to disinfect the wound later." Shan Yang said softly, he spoke very fast, regardless of whether the other party cared, "In a moment, kitten Come out, you both need a warm nest. Don't forget to contact your family, don't let them worry. If you have anything to do, go home first."

The young man seemed to look up at him.Shan Yang didn't pay attention, turned his head and quickly rushed into the rain curtain, and quickly disappeared.

--Wait a moment!

So far, Shan Yang's memory has almost been pieced together.He asked in surprise, so that black guy is Jin Yuanbao?

Miao Qianxiu glanced at him meaningfully.

"So Jin Yuanbao is really my name. What am I thinking? Why do you name a little tabby cat Jin Yuanbao?" Shan Yang searched in his mind for a long time, unable to understand.

"Is the point the gold ingot?" Miao Qianxiu interrupted him angrily.

Uh... Shan Yang grinned, leaned over obediently, and gently smoothed Shun Miao Qianxiu's hair. "Yes, yes, the point is you. I don't even remember. It's my fault." He changed the subject, "However, it can't be considered a big mistake. After all, it was so late that day, the rain was so heavy, and the sudden incident There are so many, and your hair is so unconventional... Uh, in short, in a hurry, I can't remember the face for a while, it's normal, isn't it?"

Miao Qianxiu snorted, obviously dissatisfied. "You paid the medical expenses for others, and you don't even want to pay it back?"

Shan Yang never puts these things at ease.He went back the next day to see if the advance payment yesterday was enough and whether he should make up for it. He was told that the cat and the person had been taken away, and there was no shortage of medical expenses.He completely forgot about it.

"You don't expect anything in return for helping others, are you a pig?" Miao Qianxiu mercilessly knocked him on the head.

Shan Yang covered his head and rubbed it, and suddenly had an epiphany.So all this is really the story of the snail girl repaying her kindness?

"But I just gave you a rice ball and a bottle of water."

This deal is too cost-effective.

Miao Qianxiu gave him a sideways glance, and didn't bother to explain.

In addition to rice balls and water, there are his coat, umbrella, Band-Aid, slippers, paper towels, and 120 eight dollars.In those years, for an ordinary student, this was not a small amount of money.Few people give so much without expecting anything in return.

More importantly, he kept both Miao Qianxiu and Jin Yuanbao alive.

Even Miao Qianxiu himself couldn't explain why he ran to the motorway that day.The appearance of Jin Yuanbao was an accident.A kitten that got into a car accident seemed to have no way out in the heavy rain but to die.

Miao Qianxiu stared at the kitten for a long time, finally picked it up and hugged it.Such a small one, it seems that as long as it is squeezed hard, it will close its eyes forever.

But it still kept struggling, as if it didn't know that it would definitely die.

Dr. Du said that as long as you go down and keep going, you will always find something exciting.

Miao Qianxiu didn't believe it at all.

He thought to himself, what can I do, I can't do anything.I can't save anyone in this world.

Then, the person who could save him appeared.