Backtracking boat

"Shen Mo, are you, acting, enough, already!" With just a few words, there was a thunderous sound.The muscles of the person who was struck by the lightning were all stiff, and he could barely utter a word, out of breath: "You, who the hell are you calling Shen..."

"Shen Mo, as I said before, don't think I'm easy to bully, so, that's enough!"

The air stagnates and the air pressure gets lower and lower.After a long time, Shen Mo suddenly laughed, his whole body trembling from the laughter, a tear couldn't stop, it slipped from the socket of his eye, leaving a light water stain on his pale face.He put his hand on his eyes: "Hey~ I was noticed by you, it's boring. There's no more fun now. I'm leaving, the show is over."

After finishing speaking, he pushed away Xiao Yi's arm that was restraining him, staggered, and walked towards the door. Before his hand touched the doorknob, a strong force pulled him back again: "The play is over? When is it up to you to decide?" Is it? You didn’t think about it when you came here, can you go or not?”

Xiao Yi picked up the forgotten plastic bag on the ground with one hand, dragged and hugged Shen Mo into the bedroom next to him, closed the door and locked it, a set of movements made the other party completely powerless to resist.If it wasn't for Shen Mo himself or the poor other party involved, he couldn't help but applaud Xiao Yi for his neat skills.Now, when I am discouraged, there is a sudden change.Shen Mo was startled and anxious, his voice was hoarse: "Xiao Yi! What are you doing! Are you crazy! Let me go!"

Shen Mo struggled desperately, trying to shake off the opponent's hand tearing his clothes and rush out the door, but Xiao Yi exerted too much strength, and after several struggles, he was still pushed down on the bed.

His hands were held high above his head and he couldn't move, so he could only kick and push him with his knees.Once it hit Xiao Yi's stomach, the pain made Xiao Yi tremble all over, he still held on to the person under him tightly and refused to let go, but Shen Mo couldn't kick his feet the second time.Not long after, the sweater cardigan was torn apart and thrown aside, and the T-shirt was about to fall.When the two were wrestling, they accidentally touched the bedside light switch, and the room suddenly fell into darkness.

Losing his visual support, Shen Mo gradually gave up his resistance. He lay down on his back without strength, staring blankly at the void, and let the opponent move... The skin exposed to the air was tense due to tension.He murmured, "Xiao Yi, I disagree."

"It's not up to you."

Xiao Yi's movements slowed down and became more gentle as Shen Mo stopped struggling.He kissed his eyes, nose, and earlobes one after another, and kissed the cool lips almost cherishingly, absorbing the sweetness in his lips.Kissed the neck, collarbone... felt the other person's heart beating wildly.Shen Mo lay flat, motionless, neither refusing nor responding, he just said over and over again: "I don't want to." In exchange for Xiao Yi's soft and slightly sticky responses again and again: "I can't help you... ...."

Everything was not as expected, including the pain.

Shen Mo had a very messy dream.In the dream, he returned to his home 12 years ago, standing in the porch with his schoolbag on his back, the sun was shining brightly, but the room was very dark, as if there was an invisible barrier blocking all things that could bring light and warmth between the doors and windows In addition, the air is cold, humid, and has an indescribable smell unique to the south.He walked through the kitchen, remembering that the stove was off and the stove was cold.Walking through my bedroom again, I read half of the comic book and spread it on the bed casually.He walked towards a tightly closed door and stood at the door. There was no sound inside the door, and a thicker and thicker smell broke free from the crack of the door, flying wantonly in the air.A voice told him in his dream, hurry up, get out of the room, and go outside.But his body dictated him to open the door, just like 12 years ago.The door opened, and he saw his mother lying in the bathtub again, a pool as bright red as blooming Bana flowers.He wanted to jump over and shout, but also wanted to run away, but his footsteps stayed where he was, letting the bloody smell linger in his nostrils, engulfing his sanity.

The next scene changed suddenly. The aunt whom he hadn’t seen for several years stood in front of him and yelled at him. His voice was so harsh. He tried to cover his ears, but those sword-like words were still slipping into his ears. He looked again. Seeing the contemptuous eyes of the little uncle standing aside, he wanted to beg the little aunt to stop scolding, and wanted to say that he was not a pervert, nor an accomplice who killed his mother, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't make a sound.

In the end, everything disappeared, blood, insults, cold eyes... The four-dimensional space was replaced by large expanses of eye-catching white, Xiao Yi appeared, handsome and elegant, he was the only color in this endless pure white, he He stretched out his hand to Shen Mo, smiled, and said, "Come on, follow me, and I'll take you to places you've never seen before." Shen Mo thought he was crying, but when he touched his hand, his eyes were dry. He stretched out his hand to hold Xiao Yi, but he was only a finger away.Xiao Yi looked at him, his smile was gradually replaced by sadness, and he said, "Shen Mo, then I have to leave too."

Drops of blood dripped from Xiao Yi's wrist, merged into a river, and meandered to Shen Mo's feet. Shen Mo felt the air around him being sucked away, and the suffocation became more and more serious: "Xiao Yi! Don't! Xiao Yi! Yi!"

Shen Mo yelled, sat up abruptly, and bounced back on the bed due to the pain in his buttocks.He took a few breaths violently and was dripping with cold sweat.A voice rang in my ear: "Did you have a nightmare?" It was already bright day.

Shen Mo turned his head and saw Xiao Yi lying sideways and staring at him intently, his eyes were full of worry and shyness, and there was an ambiguity in the air that couldn't go away.Shen Mo rubbed his face vigorously with his hands, feeling a little more awake, resisting the pain in his waist and struggling, picked up the clothes on the ground and put them on his back.

Oh shit!The zippers are all broken, the pants are unwearable now, the clothes are all wrinkled, two buttons of the sweater are missing, and the warm and moist jade is a fucking illusion, it is obviously a wolf.Shen Mo angrily said to the people behind him, "Find me a pair of pants."

Xiao Yi got up unhurriedly, found a shirt and slacks from the cabinet and handed them over, Shen Mo snatched them and limped into the bathroom.Standing in front of the mirror, Shen Mo was taken aback. In the mirror, his body was covered with bruises and purple scars, indicating that the battle was fierce.

Reluctantly tidying himself up, Shen Mo bit the bullet and went out of the bathroom.Seeing Xiao Yi leaning against the wall next to the bathroom door: "What's the matter, are you hurt? Sorry, I... have no experience."

Shen Mo simply leaned against the wall on the other side, rolled his eyes, and said nothing.Tian Shui wagged his tail at their feet.Not long after, Shen Mo broke the silence: "Today is Thursday, it's 10:30 in the morning, do you know what that means?"

"What does it mean?"

"It means we both missed work..."

Xiao Yi laughed softly: "You are wrong, which means you have a partner who is as careful as silk. I stole your mobile phone while you were still asleep, and asked for leave by SMS for you. Do you have any secrets on your mobile phone?" I don't know, but I know and there is no password."

Shen Mo glanced at Xiao Yi, Xiao Yi was looking at him with light in his eyes and affectionate smile, Shen Mo immediately looked away, cleared his throat: "Thank you, excellent 419 partner."

Xiao Yi's smile faded: "Shen Mo, let's talk."

Shen Mo lowered his head and pretended to be looking at Tianshui: "What's there to talk about? It's an adult's game. Asking for responsibility is meaningless."

"Why can't we have another relationship, you obviously don't hate me, you even made up another personality to hold me..."

"Another personality... When I was a teenager, I used to think that it would be great if I had another personality, to replace the original useless me. Later, I tried to conjure up one, but I knew That's fake, I'm still me. How can it be so easy to come up with a second personality, that also requires talent and genes. I can only still be myself." Shen Mo said with a smile, but his tone made him The person is sad: "Speaking of which, I haven't played Jingfen for more than ten years. I played it this time, but I didn't expect you to see it through. It's really bad."

Xiao Yi has been paying attention to Shen Mo's expression, and said softly: "Part of it is because your acting skills are too bad, and the other half, do you know how many books on psychology and multiple personality I have read these days? The last time I worked so hard, Or apply for school before graduating from high school. Shen Mo, I know everything about your past, and I hope I can share it with you in the future, or forget it with you. Give me a chance, okay?"

"You, have you asked Ren Hong?" With Xiao Yi's acquiescence, Shen Mo tried to smile, but failed: "It seems that brothers are for sale."

When Shen Mo spoke again, he was so exhausted that he seemed to have exhausted all the energy in his body: "Although I don't have a second personality, I'm not a mentally healthy person. I don't know what you like about me, so I don't know what I should change. Drop something. It is impossible for us, this is my answer, it will not change."

After finishing speaking, he let out a long sigh, and was about to say goodbye.A mobile phone was stretched out in front of him, and there was a picture on the screen of the mobile phone.In the photo, the boy is sitting on the waiting seat of the bus, with a half-sized raccoon cat at his feet, and the man and the cat look at each other gently.The moment the boy stretched out his index finger and lightly touched the cat's raised paw was frozen in the photo and remained in the photographer's memory.Shen Mo looked up at Xiao Yi in disbelief: "Here, you..."

Xiao Yi rubbed the screen with his thumb: "You would never imagine how pleasantly surprised I was when I met you in late autumn last year. Three years ago, I returned to China due to business, and on the day I returned from the airport, I took this photo in the taxi , less than 20 meters away from you. I was not a person who believed in love at first sight, but until now, I am grateful for the traffic jam in Beijing that day. Do you know? Originally, like Yiqi, I was ready to sign a contract with a company in the UK , but after seeing you, I decided to go back to my country, even if I didn’t have the fate to find you, my ideal partner would still be in the east.”

Xiao Yi straightened up, faced Shen Mo, and said with great importance: "I don't know what kind of person I am in your eyes, but I am definitely not as good as you think. I am not a persistent person in my bones. Everything goes smoothly. Naturally, it may be more in line with my principles of doing things. But this time, I would like to exchange the photos I have stored for three years in exchange for your three months. There are still three months left for my suspension period. During these three months, do I have a boyfriend with a deadline. If the deadline is up, if you don’t want to continue, I will be transferred from here and will not bother you. So, I ask again, can you give me a chance? "

Shen Mo looked at himself in the photo, the old days were too dull and boring, they had long been submerged in time, and midnight dreams never touched them.But there is really a person who records the ordinary moments of his ordinary day and treats them as treasures, so what can he do.

Xiao Yi waited for a long time, and when he thought that the other party would not answer, he suddenly heard a faint voice that could not be ignored: "Okay."

The author has something to say: the sub-cp small theater at the end of the chapter:

Tian Shui: "Babababa, do I want a temporary stepmother?"

Tangyuan: "Fuck! I have a bad feeling..."