He looks like a dog

The dilapidated yellow light bulb above his head kept shaking, as if he had woken up from Zezhou, the light bulb had been there all the time, not bright or dark, with yellow dirt on it.

Zezhou thought, this light bulb must be old, maybe it should be wiped.His eyes fell on the man who was wiping the glasses aside, and he was startled, as if he had forgotten who it was.When the man turned his head, he reacted for a long time. It wasn't until the man thumped the table heavily that he couldn't help but raised the corners of his mouth and raised his eyebrows at the man.Damn it, maybe those few knives hit his head, otherwise he wouldn't know this little boy who played with urine and mud together since he was a child.If it weren't for the bandages all over his body, he would really like to go up and kiss.

Seeing that he was awake, Fa Xiao showed no joy on his expression. It could even be said that for a moment, Zezhou thought that he would rush up and slash himself a few more times, chop up his undead body and serve it to the dog with bibimbap.

"Don't look at me like that." Zezhou smiled, "Look at you, your eyes are red."

Of course Pengfei wouldn't do that, if he wanted to, then he should be lying in a dirt pit somewhere, maybe his feet were resting next to his head, smelling bad and disgusting.

Pengfei wanted to speak, but the bloodshot eyes were clearly visible.I don't know if he was disgusted by Zezhou's indifferent attitude, so he didn't even wipe the cup, and went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette.

Zezhou smiled, and the yellow light bulb reflected his sunken face, which looked a bit hideous.He watched Pengfei smoking, smacking his lips, and laughing again, looking at the immobile hand under the quilt, he could only take a few deep breaths of air, and then exhale slowly to relieve his addiction.

He didn't know how many cigarettes Pengfei had smoked, until the man's feet were piled up with cigarette butts, then he opened the door and came in under his envious eyes.

Pengfei sat down beside his bed without saying a word, and grabbed his hand with an expression like he was about to cry.Zezhou grinned in pain, and said in a hoarse voice: "Honey, you hurt me."

"You know it hurts, where did you go early? Careless." Pengfei's Adam's apple twitched, and he quickly replied.

Zezhou immediately shut up and put his head heavily on the pillow, laughing uglier than crying.

That's right, where did he go early? He clearly knew it was a trap, but he still jumped into it eagerly. Was it lack of heart or something?

"There must be a limit to committing cheapness. You treat others as treasures, but what do they take you for? A disposable condom! Let me tell you, from now on, if you have any contact with that person again, I will call you Break your leg, I will do what I say..."

While Zezhou wanted to laugh, his eyes slowly dimmed bit by bit, and finally only self-mockery remained.He really wanted to interrupt, but Pengfei didn't seem to give him this chance, so slowly, he could only choose to keep silent or answer a few words now and then.

In fact, it doesn't need to be said by him, Zezhou also understands that from now on, it is impossible for him to have any contact with that person.Does he love that person?Of course love, at least until it hurts.It can be said that he has never loved someone so humblely.He loves so cautiously and without expecting anything in return. After he gambled all his self-esteem and pride into it, what he got in the end was nothing but this bleak end.

Pain is also self-inflicted.Do you think he doesn't know who Cheng Yi is? He knows, but he overestimates his fatherly heart. He always thinks that as long as he stays with that person wholeheartedly, he will always get a small reward.Just like a dog running around its master, begging him for a bone or two, no matter how big or small, as long as there are bones to eat, there is always hope for life.If there is any difference between it and a real dog, the average owner will not fuck his dog, but he, where the owner points out, bites and bites, works hard for the owner on the ground, and relieves the owner on the bed. It is a rare good dog.Therefore, in Jianghu, people call him a mad dog, which is quite appropriate.

So the price is that he was poisoned by Cheng Yi, and he turned from a human into a dog, and now, he was sacrificed and turned into a dog in the water.

Pengfei's voice was also a little hoarse, he said, "Zezhou, let's stop loving that bastard, okay?"

Zezhou looked at his dark pupils, they were so cute and shiny, he nodded, fearing that the arc would not be obvious, he added: "Okay".

Pengfei laughed mockingly, unable to believe his answer.They have said this simple dialogue at least three times, but which one is true?As long as that bastard named Chengyi coaxed him with a few nice words, no matter how beautifully he promised Zezhou, wouldn't he just follow along?Pengfei didn't want to say the word "cheap" to him anymore, and if he said one more word, he was afraid that he would vomit blood.How many times have I mourned, but which time, did this person listen to me?

"A Fei, I'm tired. I don't want to be a dog anymore." Zezhou smiled mockingly.

"Zezhou, it's not that I don't believe in you, but I know your personality. Once you fall in love with someone, you can't change it easily. Even if you just fell in love with a piece of shit, you will never leave that piece of shit. "

"But you know it, A Fei. If I don't love me anymore, I will definitely not change easily."

"are you serious?"

Zezhou stretched out his hand, and held Tengfei's hand with difficulty, "Trust me this time, if I don't know how to repent, you will kill me."

Tengfei's pupils suddenly darkened, and he glared at him with bloodshot eyes, "Then don't blame me for being cruel."

Another "good".

Zezhou felt that he must have been lying down too much, and his head hurt a little.But Pengfei told him that he had only slept for three days.For three days, the ups and downs he experienced were more exaggerated than in his entire life.The man he had loved for five years used him as a bait, and he was hacked more than a dozen times, and he, after waking up, had a complete understanding and decided to change his mind and be a good man.

The phone next to the pillow never rang.

He didn't expect it to ring. The number of this mobile phone is only known by that person except for Fa Xiao.He would not come to him, just like he knew that he would hide himself to heal his wounds and prevent him from seeing his messy side. Zezhou was always clean and tidy when he appeared in front of him.So, he shouldn't be calling.

He always waited for him to heal his wounds, walked out of the dark and cramped corner by himself, and then returned to him, as long as he hooked his hands, a person and a dog should bite and bite, and those who should go to bed would go to bed, as if nothing never happened.They have always been like this, and this time is no exception.

Pengfei said that his injury looked terrible, but it was actually not serious, and no internal organs or bones were injured.Zezhou felt fortunate that he didn't end up being disabled when he left him. In that case, he would not be reconciled to leaving with all his illnesses.

Pengfei's family lives in the suburbs, a very cheap two-bedroom apartment, and there are two Er Yuelan plants at home.The oily green leaves are shining, which makes Zezhou like it.Seeing him watering Er Yuelan, Pengfei couldn't help but snatched the water bottle, and immediately cursed, "You've done all kinds of bad things, it's almost soaking in the water, and you still water it. Watering it four or five times a day won't make you tired." Are you tired? I have never seen you have such leisure before."

Zezhou nodded and said yes, in the past, he was always indifferent to everything else, and he couldn't tell which flowers looked good and which flowers didn't.Mainly because I don't care.That's right, after exhausting all my energy for one person, how could there be so many extra eyes to look at others.He was glad that he had finally liberated himself, finally had the opportunity to see all the beautiful things around him, and make up for those innocent moments he had missed.

Zezhou said that he wanted to buy him across the street, and the two families would be connected, so it would be convenient to go straight.Pengfei rolled his eyes at him, and said, come on, who doesn't know that you like men, don't torment me again at night to make me have a needle eye.Zezhou turned back without looking up, don't you love men?Pengfei was choked, stared at him, blushed suddenly, didn't speak for a while, and went back to the kitchen angrily with the kettle, busy going to lunch.At his hand, there is also the yellow croaker that Zezhou loves that he didn't have time to get just now.

Zezhou smiled, there were a few faint fine lines on his originally young face.When he looked in the mirror yesterday, he only noticed these few fine lines. After much deliberation, he could only have developed them in the past few days.Maybe he is not as calm and content as he appears on the surface, and even, he doesn't want to live a good life.After Pengfei found out that he had taken nearly half a bottle of sleeping pills one night, he slapped him severely, and while taking him to the best hospital, he scolded him: "I hate you the most. Is there a living person, is there only love left in this world? Is your damn love the only thing in your eyes? Can't you see anything else? Your parents, your friends, your career, what do you do? Cowardice has become this damn look! Are you still that mad dog I used to know? Let me tell you, even if you die, even if you rot, he won't even come to see you!"

After hearing Pengfei's angry howl, Zezhou gradually became numb.

If it is said that he loved someone for five full years, but only removed them completely in a few days, it can only be said that he did not love deeply enough.Therefore, he is willing to give himself time to forget and digest.He will not laugh at his reluctance, on the contrary, he will remember this relationship and set up a clear tombstone for all the courage he has exhausted in his life.Proof that he loved too.

He said, you have to give me time, I don't want to pretend that I don't love him at all.Although I know that there will be a day when I will completely forget him, at least you have to give me this time.

Pengfei sneered, almost gritted his teeth and turned his head away.

Pengfei had to go to work during the day, and he had to come back to cook at noon. On a hot day, running around the city made Zezhou feel bad.After staying for more than a month, the injury has completely healed, and he is not in such a good psychological quality to be served by others.

Wearing Pengfei's clothes, he came out in a state of desperation and then went back in a state of desperation.

When he went back, he repeatedly promised that he would not look back.Looking back, he is a dog.Although, in some people's eyes, he is like a dog.

But where can he go? The rent is due long ago, and he and Cheng Yi lived together as a matter of course.So he thought, he deserves it right now that he doesn't even have a kennel.After a few laps aimlessly on the street, he even began to think about whether he should fight for a piece of land with the wild dogs next to the trash can.That might be his final and perfect destination.

The silent cell phone rang.He only thought it was Pengfei, so he quickly picked it up. "Hey honey, did you leave anything else at your house?"

"Honey?" A deep and thick voice came from the other end of the phone, seeming a little annoyed.

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