summer and roses

Xie Zeyuan was not sent to the airport on the day he left the country. He went to the airport alone with his suitcase. After passing the customs, he sent a Moments message with the symbol of a small plane.

I heard Lingo say that he had to go to the preparatory school for half a year first, and I also heard Lingo say that his parents value such an excellent son less than their own business.Since then, Xie Zeyuan seems to have suddenly disappeared from their circle of friends. Occasionally Lingo mentioned something, and it passed away in a few words.

Graduation is complicated, files, volunteers, moving out of the dormitory... everything has to be done before the grades come out.Then came the graduation ceremony, the atmosphere was warm, and it was rare for the whole class to gather after the college entrance examination.

In Mucha's memory, the last graduation ceremony didn't seem to be so grand. Most of the students were well dressed, and some classes even uniformed their uniforms. His simple white Tee jeans were rather plain.In view of the fact that Lucky Cat, the head teacher of Class [-], is not upright, the lower beams seem too normal in a group of differently dressed groups——

"Female students of the Republic of China, sailor uniforms are all forgot." Mucha lowered his voice, and pointed to a class not far away to show You Yi, "Why do some people still wear suits, girls are dress skirts... Such a hot day!"

You Yi took a look: "Hey, isn't that Jiu... Li Shu's class, look at Li Shu's face is dark."

Mucha: "It's too exaggerated."

He lowered his head and tugged at the white Tee that he had written all the signatures of his classmates. The colored pen penetrated the thin handwriting and turned around.Lin Zhan signed it on his shoulder, and Meng actually wrote his name on the sewing thread on his side waist. Most of the girls who are not so close usually wrote on the hem and back.

This dress was vacated by Mucha, he looked up, the principal was summing up his speech on the stage in the auditorium.With a thought, Mu Xia poked You Yi's arm: "Brother You, hello."

"What?" You Yi has a better name than him, he is fierce, his interpersonal relationship is not even as good as Mucha's, and there are fewer people who come to take pictures with him.

Mucha pointed to his chest: "Signature."

After two or three seconds of You Cruising's reaction, he chuckled and said, "It's specially reserved for me, what's the matter?"

Mucha said, "Really!"

He lowered his head to find a watercolor pen and stuffed it into You Yi's hand. The two of them sat in the last row of the class. Even the students in the front row couldn't notice the movement when they were a little short.You Yi glanced at the pen, and said with disgust, "I don't want green."

Then Mucha stuffed him with a pink one, and a black cross almost popped out from the corner of his forehead, Mucha innocently spread out his schoolbag and handed it to his eyes: "Only these two, they took the rest—— Today, I was the only one in our class who brought colored pens, which I pretended to be the last time Ringo insisted on painting."

As a result, there was an extra piece of pink in a row of colorful patterns. You You looked disgusted, but he wrote meticulously.It is rare for him to write his name neatly and neatly, which is more serious than filling out the answer sheet of the college entrance examination.

The outline of the word "Yi" is very long, You Yi just finished writing and wanted to close the pen, Mu Xia pointed to that point again: "Draw a heart."

He always made some lingering requests with a serious face, black lines all over his hair, pulled him past and slapped him on the head, then threw the pink colored pen back into Mucha's schoolbag, he flatly refused: "Think too much! "

Mucha hooked his fingers, bit his ear and said, "Can I do that tonight?"

These words sounded malicious, You You didn't know what to think, and covered his red ears and turned his head away.

He listened to most of the principal's speech, but didn't remember much of it. Talents such as "Mingde", "Great Talent", "Boya" and "Extensive Knowledge" seem to be a little far away from him.Later, the choir from the first year of high school sang farewell, friends were scattered, and the grass filled the sky. It was clearly midsummer, but he was a little at a loss.

Whether parting is bitter or not, everyone has their own aftertaste.

At least at this moment, Mucha felt that their teacher would definitely be reluctant.He stayed in Yucai for two years, always thought that he was separated from the crowd, but when everyone called his name and said "take a photo", he felt inexplicably emotional.

This sense of belonging is also like spring breeze turning into rain, moistening things silently.

The boy next to him was held by his finger for a while, the red tide on his face finally faded, he leaned over and whispered, "Can I go out to play after I get my diploma?"

He rarely asked this question, and it was at the graduation ceremony again, Mucha said, "Where do you want to go?"

Youyou's deep-lined eyes sparkled, just like when they first met: "Take the train to Lhasa."

"Pfft... I'll go after passing the exam." Mu Xia said, grabbing You Yi's nose, with great difficulty resisting the urge not to kiss him on the spot, her heart beat violently for no reason.

A few days later, the college entrance examination result inquiry system was opened, and Mu Xia was sitting on the balcony of You Yi's house, with the landline in front of him and a blank sheet of paper next to him.He took a sip of lemonade, sat with his legs spread apart, and dialed a series of numbers—youyou later said that his expression at that time was as if he was about to die heroically, and if the revolution failed, he would jump off the building directly.

The score line was exposed the night before, and it is slightly lower than in previous years. The line of the art test is not much different, and the admission line of each school has not yet been announced. It is still unknown whether they can get into the university of their choice.

Every time the mechanical female voice reported a subject, Mucha trembled along with its ending.The pen fell on the paper and made a rustling sound. After writing the last number, Mucha pressed hard with her fingertips, and the lead of the pencil was broken.

Then he threw the pencil aside and threw himself on the balcony: "Ah——!"

You Yi was still sorting out the used test papers in the room, when he heard the movement, he rushed forward and said, "Don't get too overwhelmed!"

He grabbed Mucha's waist, and pulled him back to the sofa from the dangerous position where most of his body was leaning out of the window.You Yi stepped on the piece of paper, leaned over to pick it up and looked at it from the beginning to the end, suddenly full of doubts: "What are you crying about?"

"Unbelievable!" Mucha was restless when he was pressed on the sofa, and almost twisted his waist, "Damn it! I passed English! If you want to learn oil painting, you need English. You got 90 points, and I got 100! Really! Great!"

You Yi: "Then you should thank Xie Zeyuan."

Mucha: "Thank you!"

The young man in front of him couldn't help laughing, he took another look, and was taken aback for a moment, as if he suddenly understood some shocking secret, and found that the number on that piece of paper was nothing else, You Yi looked at Mu Xia: "... Can you check the results of the college entrance examination?! "

Mucha: "..."

He covered his face with a sofa cushion: "Are you a pig?"

You Yi: "I'll look for the admission ticket."

There was another earth-shaking commotion in the bedroom, and Mucha was speechless.He shouted at Youyou: "The admission ticket is in the English folder, I saw it yesterday!"

"Love you!" You You returned to him, rushed from the bedroom to the study, and took out the test paper bag that he had just sorted out.

Mucha smiled, and picked up the piece of paper with the college entrance examination results.Just about to take another look, the phone rang, and Li Shu @ him in the WeChat group, saying that the score could be checked.The group of students who were born at the same time in the wilderness studio has exploded. Everyone announced the good news after checking the results.

Guan Yunji had the highest cultural achievement, and Li Shu did not perform well in mathematics but was also online.In addition, Mu Xia's familiar faces seemed to have done well in the exam. He was about to speak when he saw Li Yan handing out red envelopes in the group, so he quickly grabbed one.

Yuan Ye laughed at him: "Grab a red envelope when you have time, where's your report card?"

Mucha: "Three hundred and nine!"

Li Yan: "Yes, there should be no problem."

Although the score line was announced early in the morning, after all, the admission is from high to low, and his professional courses are not considered the highest. The teacher affirmed it so directly, Mucha couldn't help being excited for a moment.His typing hands trembled a little, and he felt nervous belatedly. He gave Li Yan an expression of melon, and was thinking about whether to say something when the people in the study rushed out.

"Mucha, hurry up, call me!" You Yi said, holding his admission ticket in his hand.

In the opened checking channel, there are always 404 errors on the webpage, so making a phone call has become a more convenient way.Mucha put the phone aside, sat on the ground, picked up the landline, and pressed redial.

His heart, which hadn't finished being excited, started beating fast again. Mucha pressed the pad to his chest, and he fished Youyou's neck and kissed the root of his ear, thinking: "If you do it a few more times, I might die before I finish my mission. ... is that the right word?"

While struggling with the usage of idioms, the same mechanical female voice as before came from the hands-free phone.

On the balcony in the afternoon, there were two pots of jasmine in full bloom by the window - Mucha bought it when she bought breakfast two days after the college entrance examination - the fragrance was warmed by the sun, making me slightly drunk.

Mucha yawned.

"Drip-drip-"

You Yi hangs up the phone with a "pat", and throws the white paper with his college entrance examination results into the distance: "Do it!"

Mucha was startled by the movement, he swam his mind and finished listening to the grades, but he didn't hear it.Getting up to pick up the piece of paper, Mucha muttered: "What are you doing...fuck! Are you serious about your score?"

"It seems to be." You Yi said, pointing to the piece of paper, "How can I pass the exam so high?"

Mucha: "...Maybe I read it wrong, you can get on the same line."

But the more he talked, the more obvious the smile on his lips became. As soon as he finished speaking, You You rushed up and hugged Mu Xia's waist, his head resting on the protruding spine of his neck, and the short soft hair rubbed against his skin, making it itchy .When he heard the sound of cruising, he was excited like never before, with a slight trembling imperceptible: "Really!"

"Excellent!" After Mu Xia finished speaking, she wanted to praise him but was at a loss for words.

You Yi immediately signaled Mucha to open the WeChat group of their small circle, and the others were announcing the good news.

Xueba classmate Lin Zhan's score is also high, he passed 5 in the test, which is already in the top three in Class [-], breaking Lin Zhan's previous high score record.Ringo is better than him, and the two siblings should be able to enter the top [-] elite schools as they wish.

As for Meng Ranran, he was originally a middle-level student, and there were no major accidents in the college entrance examination. Both he and his parents happily accepted the scores, and made plans for the whole family to climb Mount Tai during the summer vacation.

"Where's Xu Wenke?" Mucha asked suddenly, and You Yi next to him was taken aback.

"What did you ask him for?"

Mucha stretched his legs aggressively, and lay down on the sofa: "Why not, I just want to know which level of university this idiot despises you for so long, and finally goes to which level of university to harm people—what era is it, who engages in LGBT discrimination, There will be a lot of suffering in the future."

Lin Zhan and the others couldn't hear this passage. He glanced at his phone, and Lin Zhan said, "I don't know about Xu Wenke. I haven't heard about it. I guess he didn't do well in the exam. If he did well in the exam, he would have come out and said it. There is no movement now, probably it is too different from what I expected, and I can’t even accept it.”

There was a bit of meanness in his words, Mu Xia felt that this sarcasm was too similar to someone, after a while he couldn't help laughing, and put the phone in front of You Yi: "You see, Brother Zhan talks like Xie Zeyuan."

"A little bit." Youyou nodded, holding down his calf that was resting on the armrest of the sofa, "Why do you keep talking about Xie Zeyuan—"

"Wow, are you jealous at last!" Mu Xia grabbed You Yu's clothes and dragged him towards her with a carp. The two of them fell on the sofa, and their center of gravity was unstable, rolling all the way to the floor.

Mu Xia's waist bumped against the foot of the coffee table, he rubbed that place, it felt like it was going to swell, but he refused to let go while holding You Yi.

"Follow me to go to school in H City." He whispered in You You's ear, low and light, like a mantra.

Youyou kissed his lips, blocking back all the unspoken promises.

His high school career ended on a calm evening, and his graduation certificate was placed at home, together with his sketches and plaster drawings of more than a year.He only had time to touch the acceptance letter from the university he wanted, before he packed his bags and hurried out, locking Twilight on the balcony.

It was not yet completely dark, and there was a shining star hanging in the west.Holding two tickets to Lhasa, Mucha waited at the train station for Cruise to buy dinner.

Half of this trip came on a whim, and half came from the five-star recommendation of Mucha's mother.

At the beginning of June, Liang Ning and some friends from the Photography Association went to Tibet to take pictures. The blue sky and white clouds that came back really shook Mucha's idea of ​​going.The roof of the world is famous, he showed the photos to Youyou, and thought later, perhaps he had already tacitly listed this place as one of the travel destinations together at that time.

Liang Ning wrote a strategy guide for Mucha, and booked a return ticket for him, and Mucha bought the train ticket himself.Afraid of altitude sickness, he forced the cruise to drink rhodiola for more than a week, and chose the Qinghai-Tibet Railway.

The condition of the soft sleeper car was good, You Yi and Mucha bought two lower berths, and the other two were not there when they boarded the car.Mucha struggled for a while, and sat on the edge of You Yi's bed with the tablet in his arms.

The train started rumbling, and the twilight in the south outside the window was approaching. The sky was blue after the rain and had not been touched by industrial pollution. The clouds were misty, and the steel forest and the lights of thousands of houses slowly left only a dark outline.

"What are you drawing?" You You asked, watching him paint on the drawing board with his fingers.

Mucha's iPad was newly replaced, and it is said that he used his messy avatar illustrations from his third year of high school to save the first installment.He was concentrating on erasing the red line, and looked up at the night outside the narrow car window.

"I want to draw the details of going out during this time." Mucha pointed to the small black dot at one end of the screen, "This is you, this is me, you buy me food... Finally, when I go home to detail, I always feel that The trip will be comfortable."

You Yi lay down, he was a little sleepy, he bent up to give Mucha a place to sit: "Will you go back to sleep later?"

Mucha made a mistake: "Go to sleep, the bed here is too narrow, we will arrive in Qinghai tomorrow morning."

You Yi: "Not so fast."

After he finished speaking, he turned over and covered his face with Mucha's coat.

The sketch was not finished after all, Mucha used earphones to block the rumble of the train, with little effect.Not long after, he began to drill the tunnel, and the sound seemed to shake his internal organs out of his throat. Mucha felt uncomfortable, drank the tea made from sedum sedum, and was so tormented by the strange bitter taste that he wanted to retch.

He admitted that his physical fitness was not good, and he didn't like sports, so he simply hugged his knees and sat against the wall at the end of the cruising bed.

Even the lights outside the car window gradually disappeared, and he used the map on his mobile phone to see where he was going.You Yi fell into a drowsy sleep, one leg wanted to straighten, Mu Xia took advantage of the situation and asked him to put the leg on her body.

His long-lost habit has come back again. Mucha used to be alone and likes to reflect before going to bed at night.But most of the content has nothing to do with learning. Later, it was more like giving myself a time to complain about life.Ever since I got to No. [-] Middle School and met You Yi, my two years of high school life, which I thought I would be alone, suddenly became interesting.

"What else should I ask for?" Mu Xia closed her eyes and thought, "What I get, whether it's a person or... I didn't expect it before. Learning to paint, falling in love with him, always leaving home."

For him, leaving home is tantamount to freedom, ending the life of worrying about not knowing which city he will be in next semester.

The train was still moving forward, Mucha took away his cruising legs, and spread out the quilt for him to cover it up.He quietly got off the bed, opened the soft sleeper box, and sat down by the window in the outer room.

The screen of the phone glowed faintly, and he said in the group that he had already set off, so he looked up Liang Ning's strategy.

It was the first time for him to go to a strange city purely for tourism, not for exams or for his parents, just because he wanted to go.He is talented, and he may be able to go to more places in the future.

Mucha opened the memo and wrote a diary on it.

"In mid-July, You Yi and I received our respective university admission notices. We will spend the next four years in City H. His school takes an hour's bus ride to the Academy of Fine Arts. It's a bit far away, but it doesn't matter. See you on the weekend.

"We are on the way to Lhasa. I don't have any special feelings for Tibet, but it seems to be of great significance to choose this place as the end of my graduation trip. If we can walk hand in hand with him at a very high altitude, maybe there will be a feeling of 'again' Go ten years 20 years' illusion.

"I don't like the promise of 'forever'. How can a person love someone the same as before? This has always puzzled me. The failure of my parents' relationship made me lose confidence in it. Appropriate. Occasionally when I think of the future, I will draw a picture in my mind, a yard full of flowers, preferably with a pond, and a cat, tiger skin pattern, the house must be a duplex, work downstairs, and us upstairs a place to sleep.

"At times like this, I feel that the promise of 'love you forever' can also be delivered to the rest of my life to fulfill.

"I don't have any faith either. Occasionally I feel empty inside because of this. I used to wonder if this has become a manifestation of spiritual incompleteness. Cruising is not my religion. This saying is earthy and vulgar. At first he should be my The light of life, but I hold the light in my hand, and the light disappears and spreads out again, like the sunrise.

"I think it's not just about love anymore."

He put down his phone and looked at the mountains outside the train window.

Mucha didn't sleep for a long time that night, and when he woke up the next day, they were almost in Qinghai.

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