Warm water

After saying this, Ji Yan didn't even look at Lu Yichen, he quickly intercepted a taxi and got into the car.

It's not that I don't look at it, but I don't dare, I don't have the courage.

A person who has been in love for three years, he couldn't bear to see the expression on that person's face.Afraid to see pain on his face, but even more afraid to see indifference.

How much does Lu Yichen love himself?

Ji Yan is not sure.

The taxi drove slowly, and after a certain distance, Ji Yan couldn't help turning his head back after all.Through the rear window, he saw Lu Yichen standing quietly in the distance, like a flagpole in the wind, motionless.He couldn't see the expression on Lu Yichen's face clearly, the figure gradually blurred, and in the end, he couldn't see anything.

Ji Yan cried.

I buried my head in my arms and shoulders, very disappointed, and cried very spinelessly.There are many reasons for breaking up in this world, and most of them are not because they don't love anymore, but because they can't love anymore.

Ji Yan cried silently for a long time, his eyes were unbearably swollen when he raised his head, he hurried to find a tissue, his pocket was empty.

The master driver glanced at Ji Yan, and handed over a pack of paper.

Ji Yan took the tissue, bowed his head and thanked him, it was really embarrassing.

"What's wrong with the young man? Broken love? Or homesick?"

Ji Yan was stunned.

"Are you right?" The driver smiled, "There is nothing you can do about falling out of love. Relationships are the hardest thing to talk about. But if you feel homesick and can't go back, just call your parents. It's not easy to go out."

Ji Yan suddenly realized that he hadn't been home for a long time, and he hadn't called his father for a long time.But Ji Yan has no face to go back. Back then, he insisted on staying with Lu Yichen, regardless of his father's objection, and resolutely left.

The phone vibrated suddenly, Ji Yan thought it was Lu Yichen, he calmed down for a while before looking.

The person who sent him the message surprised him, it was his father.

【What's wrong?When you see your friend coupon, come back if you are having a bad time. 】

Ji Yan posted a message blocking Lu Yichen's circle of friends three days ago:

tired.

Ji Yan suddenly held his breath in his throat. His father was actually an upstart raising pigs, with little education, and the word "quan" was even spelled as "coupon".I am not open-minded, let alone accept homosexuality.

In the past, he didn't understand why his father discriminated against him like outsiders.Now Ji Yan understands how worthless he used to be.His father was both a father and a mother, and he gave himself the best, but he left him and ran away with a kid.

So stupid.

Stupid to the extreme.

In this world, besides love, there are more things that he can cherish.

After getting off the car, Ji Yan called his father.

For the first time in three years.

The father's voice seemed a little excited, instead of the expected abuse, he asked calmly, "Are you coming back?"

"Come back." Ji Yan suppressed his sobs.

"That... the boy is coming here too? Let me see what he likes."

The old father finally made concessions and compromises.

For a moment, Ji Yan just wanted to slap himself hard.

"No, he won't come, we're not together anymore." Ji Yan tried to keep calm.

"Ah..." Then a woman's voice came out from the phone, "Xiao Yan, you brat, you don't even call back."

"aunt?"

"I still remember your aunt... Let me tell you..." The woman suddenly lowered her voice, "Your father is sick, I'll come and take care of him for a few days. Don't worry, it's not a big problem, it's almost healed .”

"I'm going back tonight!"

"Don't be in a hurry. Actually... your dad misses you a lot. At that time, he was angry when he said that he wouldn't let you come back. How could you take it seriously? You, that child, are not our feudal stubbornness. Do you want to lose face? It's not a big deal, it's that the child is too young, how can he be responsible at such a young age? Two men... Sigh!" The woman paused and said: "There is a long way to go, just go up the mountain with us in the countryside It’s like cutting wood, it’s hard to walk.”

After finishing the phone call, Ji Yan stood downstairs for a long time unable to recover.

He was wrong, everything was wrong.

Back upstairs, Ji Yan found the suitcase that hadn't been used for a long time, and began to pack things.After tidying up indiscriminately, I found that there were very few things I wanted to take away.

At some point, there was a knock on the door.The sound lasted for a long time, disturbing Ji Yan.

At some point, the knocking on the door stopped.The room was so quiet that Ji Yan could hear his own heartbeat.

Ji Yan sat on the bed for a while, sitting like this for the whole afternoon.

He thought of a lot of things, many, many, recurring in his mind over and over again.

Three years ago, Ji Yan first opened a dessert shop near a key high school in Suzhou.He has never learned desserts, but delicacies are all interoperable.He groped and researched and understood desserts by himself, so he wanted to try to open a shop by himself.

As soon as the store opened, there was an endless stream of people, whether they were high school students or adults.Ji Yan is very picky when it comes to making desserts. He uses the best ingredients and spends a lot of energy. Naturally, the desserts in the store are not cheap.

At the end of spring, Ji Yan's store offers new cold drinks.A group of young and energetic little girls are sitting in the store drinking cold drinks and talking about the troubles that belong to girls.

Among them, the name he heard the most from girls was "Lu Yichen".

No. [-] in the school, No. [-] in the city's entrance examination, and a genius among men and women in the same grade.

Genius.

Ji Yan, who never thought he was inferior to others, was also curious about this genius.

As the weather got hotter and more students were drinking cold drinks, Ji Yan couldn't handle it all by himself, so he posted a part-time job offer.

That night, when Ji Yan was about to close the shop, a pleasant voice suddenly came from behind him, "Do you still need staff?"

Ji Yan turned his head in a daze, and saw a tall and handsome boy. The boy's face was still childish, and he had two small canine teeth when he was talking, which was very cute.

"No one has been recruited yet." Ji Yan opened the door that had just been locked, "Come in."

Ji Yan made him a glass of lemonade with ice and put it in front of the boy, "I can only do this at this time."

"Thank you." The boy was a little shy.

"How old are you?"

"Eighteen, third year in high school."

"Senior year!" Ji Yan thought for a while, "Hey? Then you are about to take the college entrance examination?"

"Less than two months."

"Why do you want to work part-time?" Ji Yan stared at the boy's pretty face, thinking he had seen this guy somewhere before.

"Want to give myself money to go to college."

It was only then that Ji Yan noticed that the boy's clothes were too plain, and although the shoes looked clean, they were of an old style.

"what's your name?"

"Lu Yichen." The boy replied.

Ji Yan was taken aback, he was too familiar with this name.

He was a little shocked, "Based on your grades, I heard that you have been admitted to Tsinghua University, right? What tuition fees do you still earn?"

"I want to go to Harvard." Lu Yichen's eyes lit up when he said this.

At that time, Ji Yan only felt that the child had ambition.

What he didn't know was that Harvard was the school Xia Jinian was going to.

……

The knocking sounded again.

Ji Yan came back to his senses, he didn't expect Lu Yichen to still be there.

He picked up the suitcase and walked around the house, and finally opened the door.

Lu Yichen's tall figure enveloped Ji Yan, his eyes were red.

Ji Yan pushed Lu Yichen away, he didn't even have the energy to argue, "I paid half a year's rent for this house, you can continue to live in it."

"Brother Yan." Lu Yichen hugged Ji Yan nervously, his voice was low and trembling, "Where are you going?"

"Back to Changchun, I miss home."

"Then... are you coming back?"

"Not coming back."

Then Ji Yan felt his shoulders were wet, and Lu Yichen cried.The last time he saw this person cry was three years ago, the day before Xia Jinian went abroad to study.

"Then... I'll go find you when the time comes, okay?"

Ji Yan didn't answer.

An unspeakable sadness invaded Lu Yichen's heart and suddenly occupied his body.He hugged Ji Yan tightly, didn't want to let go, and didn't dare to let go.

In the end it was Ji Yan who broke free from Lu Yichen.

Ji Yan turned around and left, carrying the suitcase, and went downstairs step by step.

When he reached the corner, Ji Yan glanced at Lu Yichen.Lu Yichen lowered his head, his shoulders trembled slightly.

That night, Ji Yan got on the plane back to Changchun.

On the plane, Ji Yan thought over and over again of Lu Yichen standing in the dark corridor with a depressed expression.

In fact, at that time he wanted to ask Lu Yichen whether he loved him or not, but no matter whether he loved him or not, he was afraid of any answer.

Afraid of being indecisive or afraid of being heartbroken.

On the plane, Ji Yan was groggy.

The past repeats itself over and over again in the dream.

……

"Come early tomorrow, or tonight, is it convenient for you to leave later?" Ji Yan looked at Lu Yichen, who was very eye-catching, and said with a smile: "I will teach you how to make cold drinks. The operation is not difficult. You are so smart, you should be able to do it soon."

Lu Yichen lowered his eyebrows, drank the cool and sweet lemonade, nodded, "I can do it tonight, thank you."

"But it was agreed in advance, ten yuan an hour."

"Got it, thank you."

Ji Yan brought Lu Yichen backstage and began to teach Lu Yichen how to make cold drinks.Lu Yichen learned quickly, in front of all kinds of concentrated jams, milk tea powder, and pearl coconuts, what kind of drinks should be put in what proportion, and Ji Yan told him once.

Ji Yan stared at Lu Yichen who was working hard, and sincerely admired such a person.

The next day, Ji Yan's store was twice as popular as usual.

The girls crowded in front of the stage, calling for Lu Yichen to make drinks.

Ji Yan hooked the corner of his mouth, this is the benefit of the handsome guy effect.

After noon, Ji Yan came out with a plate of egg fried rice and put it in front of Lu Yichen who was about to leave.

"Eat it, I made it." He took out a stack of banknotes from his pocket, "By the way, this is your salary just now."

Lu Yichen took it and counted it, "Why is there an extra ten yuan?"

"For your reward, keep it. There is no time to buy food at this time. You are about to go to class, so hurry up and eat."

Lu Yichen looked at Ji Yan puzzled.

"Eat, you're welcome."

Lu Yichen didn't say anything more, put the money in his bag, took a bite with a spoon.Immediately afterwards, the second bite, the third bite, the fourth bite, until the whole plate was finished.

"Is it delicious?" Ji Yan leaned on his chin and stared at Lu Yichen with a smile.

"It's delicious, boss, then I'm leaving." Lu Yichen quickly ran out the door.

Looking at Lu Yichen's back, Ji Yan couldn't help sighing, young people are so energetic!

That night, when Lu Yichen finished his work, two tall and thin boys were waiting for him at the door.

"Lu Yichen! Hurry up! Today is the birthday!"

"It's okay, don't rush him."

When Ji Yan heard the sound, he saw a boy wearing the short-sleeved jeans that are popular at the moment, speaking in a ruffian tone.

The other boy was wearing a school uniform, with powder on his face, gentle and gentle, with a gentle smile.

The cowboy boy continued: "Brother, it's your birthday. If you're not in a hurry, then I don't care."

The gentle boy replied: "It's okay to wait."

And Lu Yichen was cleaning the molds in the back kitchen.

Ji Yan put on his apron and walked to the pool, "Is your classmate waiting for you? Go, I'll come here."

Lu Yichen shook his head, "No, I haven't finished my work."

"It's fine if I come, don't make people wait, the salary will be paid."

Lu Yichen hesitated for a moment.

The cowboy boy outside the door called him again, Lu Yichen took off his apron, wiped his hands, and put on his schoolbag, "Thank you boss, then I'm leaving."

"See you tomorrow."

"See you."

After Ji Yan cleaned up, he looked at the time, and it happened to be the live broadcast of the football game.He turned on the small TV in the store and decided to leave after watching the game.

Halfway through the game, Ji Yan was standing in the shop dancing and cheering for the goal he just scored, when the door was suddenly pushed open.

Looking back, it was Lu Yichen.

Ji Yan was stunned for a moment, "Why are you here?"

"Can I stay here for a while?" Lu Yichen's eyes were red and his mouth was pouted.

Ji Yan immediately agreed, guessing where the child was wronged.

"Come and sit here and watch the football game?"

Lu Yichen sat next to Ji Yan and shook his head.

"you've been drinking?"

Ji Yan nodded and shook his head, "I didn't drink too much, just a little."

"what happened?"

"..."

Seeing that Lu Yichen didn't say anything, Ji Yan seemed unwilling to say anything.After all, it's a private matter, so I didn't ask much.

At this critical moment, Ji Yan couldn't help but turn his attention to the TV and concentrate on watching the football game.

"He... wants to..." Lu Yichen muttered something in a low voice.

"Ah? What?" Ji Yan was still staring at the TV.

Then Ji Yan was hugged into his arms, and a disappointed voice came from his ear: "He is going abroad, he doesn't want me anymore."

"Huh? What? Who?"

"Boss, am I sick... I like men."

Ji Yan suddenly froze.

After a long time, Lu Yichen fell asleep.

Sitting beside him, Ji Yan said softly: "You are not sick, this is not a disease."

I also like men.