cure

When Ning Jinyue walked downstairs, the smell of tobacco became stronger and stronger. I don't know when Qiu Xing woke up, or how long he had been sitting here smoking. He was not a smoker in the first place.

Ning Jinyue didn't bother him hastily, but called softly: "Qiu Xing." After the sitting figure moved, Ning Jinyue asked, "Do you want to turn on the light?"

Qiu Xing shook his head, and it took a while to remember that the light was dim, only the light leaked from a door upstairs and a little bit of hazy skylight, so he said hoarsely: "Don't open it."

Ning Jinyue's eyes adapted to the dim light, and he went to the kitchen to pour a glass of water for Qiu Xing, who had a hoarse throat, and then sat beside him: "Drink some water."

Qiu Xing took it with the hand holding the cigarette butt, didn't drink it, and put it directly on the small wooden table next to him.

No one spoke for a while, Qiu Xing took a deep drag on his cigarette, and extinguished the cigarette butt in the ashtray, which was already half full.

After a while, he used two fingers to pick out another cigarette from the box on the table. The blue flame briefly illuminated Qiu Xing's tired face.

Ning Jinyue also took a cigarette from the cigarette case on the table. Instead of using a lighter, he took a puff at Qiu Xing's burning cigarette butt, and exhaled the smoke skillfully.

His voice was a little hoarse, and Qiu Xing lowered his voice, and asked, "Do you usually smoke?"

"Occasionally," Ning Jinyue took another breath slowly, "When you're in a good mood," he added, "I learned from you."

Qiu Xing smiled: "I don't learn well." He paused, and then said, "I'm in a bad mood right now."

"I know." Ning Jinyue sat down, next to Qiu Xing, and pressed his head on his shoulder.

Qiu Xing leaned down docilely and smoked slowly.Perhaps it was because the light was very dim, which helped him hide a large part of his emotions, so he was able to speak slowly. This was the first time that Qiu Xing had honestly talked about himself with other people except in front of the doctor.

"I'm not well, moderately depressed with obvious anxiety, weight issues, public opinion, upcoming movie, and this relationship with you, it's all making me miserable."

"The psychiatrist said that my weight and you are both sources of anxiety, as well as public opinion. I used to think I didn't care, but maybe I actually did. I just kept pretending not to care."

Ning Jinyue stretched out one hand to wrap Qiu Xing's shoulders, hugged him tighter, and comforted him softly: "Public opinion is short-term, and soon the public's attention will be attracted by others, and it will pass soon. You will also lose weight slowly, too fast will not be effective.”

He asked again: "Why did I become a source of anxiety for you? Tell me what I'm not doing well."

Qiu Xing put out half of the cigarette, lowered his head and said, "It's my problem. You are doing a good job. The better you are, the more pressure I have. I can't give back, and I can't do anything." Qiu Xing said Bend your legs and put them on the sofa to hug, as if hugging yourself is the only comfort.

Ning Jinyue's voice became colder by two minutes: "I don't need your feedback." He suddenly didn't want Qiu Xing to continue talking, he felt that the conclusion he didn't like was about to come out.

Qiu Xing raised his eyes and stared at Ning Jinyue, his pupils were like beasts in the darkness, he suddenly roared: "But I want to give back, I can't do it, I can't do anything, just can't..." He buried his face On his knees, holding his head, scratching his hair.

Ning Jinyue grabbed his hand, trying to pull it off, lest he hurt herself.

The collapse was like water that had been accumulated for a long time. At the moment when the embankment burst, Qiu Xing suddenly began to push and beat Ning Jinyue, and even kicked him.Ning Jinyue fell off the sofa, the table fell, and the water glass on the table fell to the ground, and there was a shattering sound.

Qiu Xing was stunned for a second, crawled over from the sofa in panic, pulled Ning Jinyue who was lying on the ground, and apologized in a panic: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, and I don't know how it happened..." Qiu Xing The voice was crying, "I'm really sorry, I don't know why..."

Ning Jinyue grabbed Qiu Xing's hand and got up from the ground: "I'm fine."

"Sorry……"

"I'm fine." He pulled Qiu Xing into his arms, patted his back lightly, and said repeatedly, "I'm fine, don't blame yourself."

Qiu Xing was stuffed in Ning Jinyue's arms, crying subduedly and restrainedly, almost silently, if it wasn't for his slightly trembling shoulders, people probably wouldn't have realized that he was crying.

Qiu Xing cried for a long time, until the sky turned white and the room became clear.After the sobbing stopped, he buried himself in Ning Jinyue's arms for a while. When he raised his head, except for the redness of his eyes and nose, it was not obvious that he had cried so unbearably.

"You feel better?"

Qiu Xinghe was a little slow to react, and subconsciously nodded after two seconds.In fact, he didn't feel better at all, he just felt heavy, tired, and unable to sleep, and he almost forgot why he was crying so sadly just now.

Ning Jinyue's voice seemed to come from another time and space: "Then what do you want me to do?"

It took Qiu Xing a while to discern the meaning of his words and understand his equally sad and hopeless emotions.

Qiu Xing didn't say anything to death, giving Ning Jinyue a chance was also giving him a chance.He said slowly: "Leave me alone."

After a while, he explained: "I mean we'll be separated for a while." Seeing Ning Jinyue looking at him with a pitiful and painful expression, Qiu Xing said helplessly, "I mean the physical distance, don't think about it." .”

Ning Jinyue swallowed, opened his mouth and closed it again, opened it again and said in a hoarse voice: "How long is a period of time?"

Qiu Xing thought for a long time, and licked his lips. He is very thirsty now, but the water glass has just been broken, and he is still lying on the ground in disarray.

"A month."

"What about in a month?"

His head started hurting again, or worse, getting worse each time he got used to a level of pain.

"I don't know, please let me take it easy, you all let me take it easy, I'm really out of breath." He seemed to be suffocated, and he opened his mouth to breathe.

"Okay, I'll see you again in a month."

If Ning Jinyue's pain had any substance, he looked at Qiu Xing and said, "But you can't be alone, I'll ask Sister Zhao to come and take care of you."

"I just called my mum and she'll be back."

"Sister Zhao can clean and cook. You like her cooking, don't you?"

Qiu Xing still agreed, he knew that if he didn't let someone he trusted guard him, Ning Jinyue couldn't rest assured.

Ning Jinyue asked again: "When will your mother arrive?"

"the day after tomorrow."

"Then I'll contact Sister Zhao, and I'll leave when she comes." Ning Jinyue stared at Qiu Xing with red eyes, as if he was the one who cried.

"it is good."

When Sister Zhao came, Qiu Xing took the initiative to avoid it.Ning Jinyue told her a lot of things, fearing that she would not be able to remember them, so he took a pen and paper and wrote them down one by one. In particular, he had to watch Qiu Xing all the time, and be careful if he spent too long washing in the bathroom .

Seeing Ning Jinyue's serious expression, Sister Zhao also listened attentively.

Finally Ning Jinyue said: "You have to call me every day and tell me his situation."

Sister Zhao nodded, the boss also asked for it last time.Even if she is a person who can only do things with her head down, she knows that her boss treats this person very unusually, and she doesn't dare to take it lightly.

After Ning Jinyue finished speaking, he went upstairs and opened Qiu Xing's room. He didn't sleep, but sat by the bed and stared at the door in a daze, with a gloomy expression.

"Sister Zhao is here, downstairs, tell her if you need anything."

"Okay." Qiu Xing smiled hard at Ning Jinyue, probably to let him not worry, but he also knew that his smile was very ugly, so he lowered his head.

"Recently, you don't need to surf the Internet, and your mobile phone should also filter incoming calls. Don't go looking for it, and be obedient." Ning Jinyue came over and took Qiu Xing's hand.

"I know."

"I found another consultant for you, and I will come to your home to chat with you according to your previous frequency and time."

Qiu Xing suddenly put his arms around Ning Jinyue's waist, he regretted what he said just now, how could he say that, he didn't want to hurt anyone, but he hurt the person who treated him best.He grabbed Ning Jinyue's clothes, buried him where he had just cried, and said, "I take back what I said just now, you let Sister Zhao go back, and all the consultants go back, can you stay?"

"Can't live without you."

"It won't be without me." Ning Jinyue knelt down and sat on the ground, holding Qiu Xing's face in his hands, "Didn't you say that I am the source of your anxiety, and it is right to temporarily avoid the source of anxiety. Don't worry, I said I will wait and I will wait, no matter when you reach out, I will be there."

"Sorry……"

Ning Jinyue put his fingers on Qiu Xing's lips to stop him from speaking, but pulled Qiu Xing onto his shoulders, gently pressed the back of his neck, and said, "Qiu Xing, I love you very much, and you want to Love yourself a little more."

Qiu Xing leaned on his shoulder and nodded.

Looking at Ning Jinyue's leaving figure, he suddenly felt empty in his heart, and at the same time he felt a little relieved.

It seems that the pressure on him to make him better has been reduced a little, and the urgency has also been reduced a bit. He has a whole month to make a little change when Ning Jinyue can't see it. After hugging, love yourself a little more.

Qiu Xing exhaled lightly, a little bit is fine, even if it's just a little better mood.He felt that he was indeed not very useful, but subconsciously, the desire to survive was extremely strong.

Ning Jinyue came out of Qiu Xing's house in a very bad mood, so he called Qiu Fang and asked him if he had a racing scene recently.Qiu Fang said that he has been so busy recently that he has no time to play tricks of those dudes.

Ning Jinyue was too lazy to talk to Qiu Fangpin, and said coldly: "Go and find out, if there is no one, you can form a game."

"Boss, what's the matter with you, Brother Xing has been so rough recently, do you still have time to play and get in the car?"

"I ordered a one77, and it will be delivered by air in two days. Don't you want to try?"

Ning Jinyue could feel the smile on Qiu Fang's face through the mobile phone: "Of course I do, I like to give luxury cars the most, followed by young models. You say a day, I will Group."

"Let's say it's New Year's Eve. After twelve o'clock, by the way, you call You Jun."

"...You Jun?"

Before Qiu Fang could question him, Ning Jinyue hung up the phone.