cure

The next morning, Qiu Xing was awakened by pressure.

In a dream, he dreamed that the wall at home was built higher and higher, and finally fell down. He was unable to escape, and his legs were crushed.

When he woke up, he found that Ning Jinyue's face was pressed against his chest, his arms wrapped around his waist, his whole head was buried in the quilt, only a lock of hair was exposed from under the thin quilt, which made Qiuxing's chin itchy .And his legs were tightly clamped by Ning Jinyue's thighs, sore and painful, and the lower one was numb, no wonder he had such a dream.

Qiu Xing tried to pull his legs out lightly, and as soon as he moved a little, Ning Jinyue clamped him even tighter, and touched the numbness, the feeling was really uncomfortable.He patted Ning Jinyue's shoulder from outside the quilt, and said, "My legs are numb, please relax."

I don't know if Ning Jinyue is awake or not, but the strength of his legs became looser, and Qiu Xing took out his legs.He lifted the quilt a little more, always feeling that Ning Jinyue couldn't breathe at all in this posture.

They haven't slept in the same bed for more than a month. They are filled with great anger and grievances, but their bodies are very honest. They are used to sleeping with Ning Jinyue and his breath, so this is a lot of trouble. Yue Lai Qiu Xing slept the best and most peaceful night.

People are so contradictory. He obviously hates Ning Jinyue's actions, but he still likes him, in his heart, and in his body.In fact, as long as he gives up struggling, giving up freedom, and giving up himself, he can have all of these, and he no longer has to be so entangled and sad.The balance in Qiu Xing's heart is always swinging left and right, but he can't let go of either end after all.

Qiu Xing turned over and lay flat, staring blankly at the ceiling.

The quilt on his chest moved, and Ning Jinyue's head came out of the quilt. He half-opened his eyes sleepily, looked at Qiu Xing, and hummed to him in a daze as always: "Good morning, I love you .”

After speaking, she leaned against Qiu Xing's side and kissed him, and then looked at him again, expecting a good morning kiss as usual, or a "I love you too".However, Qiu Xing found that he couldn't speak, so he glanced away from the other's eyes in embarrassment.

Ning Jinyue's sleepy eyes became clear, unable to conceal his disappointment, and he didn't say anything.

Qiu Xing removed Ning Jinyue's arm on his waist and sat up: "Get up when you wake up."

Qiu Xing got up, and Ning Jinyue also got up.He went to the bathroom with Qiu Xing to wash up like before, but the door was shut outside: "Wait a minute, I'll finish soon."

Ning Jinyue stood outside the door, a little frustrated, but thinking about it, they did well last night, and they also slept together for a night. The cold war between them finally came to an end, and the next thing is to wake up Qiu a little more In time, they will go back to how they were before.

Qiu Xing will eventually understand her feelings for him, and understand his hard work.

Soon after Qiu Xing came out of the shower, he changed into Ning Jinyue and went in. He took a cigarette from the drawer and went to the balcony to light it.I don't know if it's because he has too much free time during this period, and he always feels bored, which makes his addiction to smoking heavier.

Coming out of the air-conditioned room, the midsummer morning was scorching hot, and after a while, Qiu Xing began to sweat finely on his forehead.

Ning Jinyue also came out of the shower and stood on the balcony, looking at the bay below the mountain with Qiu Xing.In summer, the woods are lush and green, the sea water is blue and transparent, and the sun is bright and dazzling. The cicadas can't wait to sing "squeak, squeak" early in the morning.

However, whether it is the woods, the sea, or the blue sky, they are all cut into vertical strips by the alloy that closes the balcony in front of them. Even the cicadas seem to be cut off and cannot be connected, turning into pure noise.Looking out from here, Qiu Xing no longer has the feeling of an open space, but looks like looking at the outside world through the bars of a prison.

He exhaled a long puff of smoke, and passed the bitten cigarette holder to Ning Jinyue's lips, and Ning Jinyue grabbed his hand and took a puff.

Qiu Xing said: "This is too scenic."

Not only the alloy window, but also the cement wall of the yard.From the second floor, you can still see the scenery cut into vertical strips. On the lawn chairs on the first floor, you can only see hard concrete walls.The window rails and concrete walls that are incompatible with this scenery make people feel inexplicably aggrieved and angry.

Hearing what Qiu Xing said, Ning Jinyue didn't open his mouth as if he couldn't bear to spit out the puff of cigarette in his mouth.He knew what Qiu Xing meant, but he couldn't do it.

Qiu Xing feels that this house is his cage, and Qiu Xing is not Ning Jinyue's cage.Can't take it, can't let it go, can't break free and can't escape, the only way is to lock yourself with the cage, so that you can get a little bit of freedom and security.

Seeing that Ning Jinyue didn't speak, Qiu Xing already got the answer, Ning Jinyue still chose the way he insisted on, even if it would hurt himself.

Qiu Xing put out the cigarette on the alloy railing, and fanned it with his hands: "It's too hot, let's go in."

Seeing Qiu Xing speak again, Ning Jinyue let out a suffocated breath.

Qiu Xing didn't seem to care, and continued to babble: "Why is it so hot this year, it's going to be so hot."

Ning Jinyue took a step forward and grabbed Qiu Xing's hand: "I haven't finished the tremella soup yesterday, do you want to drink it?"

"Drink."

They walked upstairs and downstairs holding hands, Ning Jinyue asked: "What do you want to eat today?"

“Spaghetti Baked with Lobster and Cheese.”

"Ok."

"Tired of eating?"

"Eat it every day if you like."

"My cooking is not very delicious." Qiu Xing is very self-aware.

"Today we do it together."

Qiu Xing was inexplicably in a good mood today, so he turned on the stereo when he went downstairs early in the morning.He swayed very relaxedly to the music, squinted his eyes and smiled at Ning Jinyue and waved to Ning Jinyue.

It's been a long time since he smiled at Ning Jinyue. Ning Jinyue stepped forward to gently hold Qiu Xing's hand, and gently turned it with the force in his hand.Qiu Xing is always smiling when he lowers his eyes or raises his eyes. There are a few thin lines of laughter at the corners of his eyes. The indoor light is bright. A pair of eyes that are light to almost amber are like a bowl of melted honey in the bright light. Sweet, Gentle, gurgling into Ning Jinyue's heart, filling the cracks opened by cowardice and despicableness.

Ning Jinyue also melted away with this honey-like smile. He loved Qiu Xing so much that he couldn't extricate himself from breathing. This was the only sweetness and joy in his life. Jin Yue didn't know what to do.

After a few laps, Qiu Xing laughed deeper, until Ning Jinyue stepped on him unintentionally again, and Qiu Xing laughed out loud.

"Can't dance?" He didn't expect that Ning Jinyue, who knew everything, didn't know how to dance, and even seemed to be in a hurry when being led.

Ning Jinyue showed embarrassment: "I'm not very good at it."

"Have you learned it before?"

"Well, maybe it's because I'm not very sensitive to the rhythm."

"It turns out that you also have areas that you are not good at." Qiu Xing smiled happily as if he had discovered something interesting.

"I can learn," Ning Jinyue put his arms around Qiu Xing's waist and leaned close to him, whispering in his ear, "You teach me."

Qiu Xing shrank his neck: "I don't teach students who are too stupid."

Ning Jinyue hugged Qiu Xing even tighter, wrapped his arms around Qiu Xing's waist, led him to shake gently from side to side, and said against his lips, "I will work hard."

Seeing that the atmosphere was starting to become uncomfortable, the thing on his lower abdomen also proved this point.However, Qiu Xing is not in that mood now, he twisted his body, and staggered away from Ning Jinyue's arms: "Teach me how to make pasta first, didn't we agree."

As he spoke, he turned around and walked to the cooking table in the open kitchen, put out the knives, took out another lobster that had been refrigerated, rinsed it, and placed it on the chopping board, waiting for Ning Jinyue to finish it.

Ning Jinyue endured the rather lively thoughts in the early morning, and walked into the kitchen.

He put the sharp knife that Qiu Xing handed him back into Qiu Xing's hand: "Start teaching by killing lobsters."

Qiu Xing stared at him with rounded eyes: "It's better not to."

"You're scared?"

"No, I just think, what, it's a little disgusting."

"Oh, you don't have to kill it. It's the same as throwing it into the pot and boiling it when the water boils later." He added water to the pot and turned on the fire.

Qiu Xing frowned when he heard what he said. After a while, he heard the water in the pot sizzling, and finally made up his mind and rolled his sleeves: "I'll kill you."

Ning Jinyue was the same as before, holding his right hand from behind, but this time Qiu Xing was holding a sharp knife in his hand. Ning Jinyue found the right position and stabbed in with Qiu Xing's hand.

For a moment, Qiu Xing felt his scalp numb, but soon he comforted himself that it was better to die like this than to cook slowly in the pot, and then he threw the killed lobster into the pot with peace of mind.

Qiu Xing cleaned the vegetables and boiled pasta, Ning Jinyue took out the boiled shrimp and peeled them. After peeling and peeling, he suddenly said, "I'm just like it."

"how?"

"It's like putting it in boiling water without killing it," Ning Jinyue said without emotion, as if stating an ordinary fact, "It's when I quarreled with you."

Qiu Xing felt as if his internal organs had been pinched severely, not only the pain, but also a kind of unexplainable sadness.He looked down at the vegetables in his hands, and said in a heavy and sad tone, "I know..."

Qiu Xing knew that Ning Jinyue was probably at a loss as well. He still couldn't understand their essential differences. In order to make Qiu Xing happy for a while, all he could do was to humbly obey.He didn't know how serious the injury he had caused Qiu Xing. He would only come to the wounded person again and again after being hurt by the other party, and tell him that I was in pain.

Qiu Xing wanted to hug him, to soothe his pain, but he couldn't because he himself was covered in scars.People who clearly love each other can only choose between themselves and the other party, abandoning themselves or abandoning the other party.Ning Jinyue had already chosen himself in his ignorance and fearlessness. Qiu Xing didn't know who he would choose in the end. The future that belonged to the two of them was beyond expectation, so let's simply be happy now.

Ning Jinyue didn't care much about Qiu Xing's sudden silence. He just said something so distressing, but he turned his head and threw it away. This is the rare sweetness they have had in this period of time. Continuing, so he suggested: "When I come back from the United States, let's go to Australia for vacation. Those strategies will be used."

Qiu Xing raised his head and smiled brightly at Ning Jinyue: "Okay."