King Jack Sue

Yan Ci left the cafe alone.

The sky is not yet completely dark, and the afterglow of the sunset is still a bit hot.

He turned the corner of the street and came to a secluded alley, then turned on his phone and watched the audio he had just recorded.

He stared blankly for a while, then locked the phone screen, sighed, leaned against the wall as if exhausted, slid down the wall, and finally squatted on the ground, completely losing the domineering aura just now.

What Gao Gaoyue said was right, the relationship between him and Gu Xuan, he couldn't see Gu Siyuan, or even other people.

He thinks he and Gu Xuan are lovers?Yes, that's right.But what kind of lover is afraid to see family members, friends, or other people?

It just so happened that he was with Gu Xuan.

Gao Qingyue came prepared, the fact that Gu Siyuan hated homosexuality must not be false, so he was afraid of Gu Siyuan; and he also knew He Shuqian's temperament, so he was also afraid of He Shuqian.

So he was like this, silent.

He didn't mention it, and Gu Xuan didn't say anything, as if they were not together at all with a tacit understanding, they only lit a small cluster of flames invisible to others in the dark where there was no light.

He didn't know how long this situation would last, and he didn't know how to solve it. He even thought that if he saw Gu Xuan walking with others in school, should he run into each other face to face, or should he stagger away, or should he call Gu Xuan? He, Gu Xuan, is still...Senior Gu.

Many times he avoids thinking about these problems, thinking that if he avoids them, they will not exist, and he can escape the pain.But when it was mentioned today, he suddenly felt that his whole body was covered with a layer of frost, so cold that he wanted to shiver.

What originally existed has always existed, and there is no escape.

Am I doing something wrong, no?No.

I just like a person, should I like him?Why shouldn't it?

Just because I'm a man?Just because that was the person Qianqian liked?

Yan Ci laughed at himself, then sat down on the ground, he wanted to cry a little, and then simply closed his eyes.

He felt that he was playing with a small temper, like a child, such a big person shouldn't think so simple, but he couldn't help thinking in this direction.

He felt wronged, just wronged, what the hell did I do?I didn't kill people and set fires to harm the world, so why should I be so sad?Why should I be sad alone?Why don't you help me feel sad, Gu Xuan?

He thought viciously, but his eyes became more and more red, and he didn't dare to lower his head, for fear that some warm liquid would fall down if he lowered his head.

He sniffed, dialed Gu Xuan's phone, and yelled at the phone in what he thought was the most imposing tone in his life: "Gu Xuan, I don't care where you are, you will be there within 10 minutes." The back alley of the school cafe, immediately! Immediately! Act!"

After speaking, without waiting for Gu Xuan's reaction, he hung up the phone.

He hung up the phone, was stunned for a moment, but suddenly burst into tears.

He remembered that when he was a child, he was alone at home, his father was having a good time outside, and his mother was angry and returned to her natal family, so he could only play with toy ducklings by himself.At night when there was a power outage, he couldn’t see anything. He walked carefully step by step in the house with the duckling in his arms, but accidentally tripped over the bench, and the duckling flew away. less than.He was alone without a partner, and then he cried in fear, hiding under the bed, in the darkest place, hugging his knees and whimpering.

Yan Ci wiped away tears with trembling hands, but for some reason, more and more wiped away.He is thoughtful, thoughtful, and sensitive, and if he is not careful, he will get emotional. He thinks it shouldn't be like this, but he can't change it, even if he dies.

Then he hugged his knees, lowered his head, and bit his arm to keep the cry from coming out.

He regretted talking to Gu Xuan like that just now, what if he was busy and disturbed him?What if he is angry? What if he doesn't come?

But he really wanted Gu Xuan to come over, call his name, and tell him Ah Ci, I'm here, don't cry.

The more he thought about it, the sadder he became, the more he bit his arm, the pain was unbearable, and the lacrimal gland was stimulated, making him want to cry even more.

Then he tasted the smell of blood, mixed with salty and hot tears, into his mouth and into his heart.He let go of the piece of flesh that had been bitten blurred, covered his face with one hand, and heard himself choking.

Then I felt the sound of light footsteps standing beside me.

Yan Ci was so frightened that he quickly fell silent. He was about to wipe away the tears on his face when he heard a familiar voice: "A Ci."

Then the man squatted down beside him: "What's wrong with you?"

Gu Xuan's voice was very gentle, without any impatience, which made Yan Ci's eyes sore again.

Then he turned his head, and Gu Xuan clearly saw Yan Ci who was crying like a fool, Gu Xuan smiled, and reached out to help him gently wipe away his tears: "Why are you crying, huh?"

"Gu Xuan..." Yan Ci's voice was a little hoarse, trying to restrain the sourness of crying.

"Well, I'm here." Gu Xuan stretched out his hand to gently wrap him in his arms, and then followed his back one by one.

Thousands of words are choked in my throat, I don’t know where to start, say I’m afraid of your father, say I’m afraid of Qianqian, say someone took pictures of us and threaten me, say I’m afraid that this relationship will be known, say I’m afraid that one day we It ended suddenly, saying that I was afraid and sad.

He opened his mouth, and all the words merged into one sentence: "Will you...don't want me?"

All emotional thresholds seem to be irrelevant, but also seem to be crucial.

Gu Xuan paused along the hand behind his back, and then did not move for a second, two seconds, three seconds.

Yan Ci's heart rose, he was so close to Gu Xuan, he could feel his heartbeat suddenly quickened, and his own heartbeat faster than his.

Gu Xuan really didn't want to answer this question, he remembered the last time Yan Ci asked him, "Will you leave?" He had already lied to Yan Ci once, and he didn't want to lie to him a second time.But you can't stop deceiving people. After the first time, you have to use the second time to complete the first time.

Gu Xuan is no match for Yan Ci. He is calmer than Yan Ci, more rational than Yan Ci, and not as sentimental as Yan Ci. He has seriously thought about it. He has no future with Yan Ci, so he does not plan to follow Yan Ci. Being together for a long time, it is indeed impossible to be together openly.But he is selfish and likes Yanci, so he doesn't want to let him go.

He was afraid that Yan Ci would ask him such a question.

But Yan Ci's tears suddenly fell, hitting his shoulder drop by drop, and then he felt Yan Ci reach out to hug him, hugging him tighter and tighter, calling his name between crying: "Gu Xuan..."

Gu Xuan let out a long sigh inwardly, he closed his eyes, and hugged Yan Ci tightly with his hands back: "No, Ah Ci, no."

Every word was pierced in his heart, and it hurt so badly.

You said why there is such a thing as emotion in the world, which makes you laugh and cry, makes you hope and disappoints you, why are you still reluctant to let go?

Probably because people have greed.