Husband chasing is too exciting

48.

He was sitting in the wind and rain, watching Yan Yan and Yan Yan mingling with each other, and for a moment he forgot what kind of emotion he should have and what kind of expression he should make.He heard the noise and exclamation behind him, it seemed to be very close, but at the same time it seemed to be very far away, true and false, unreal, too unreal.In the field of vision, the flow of people and the scene of lights quickly fell backwards, as if caught in a layer of water vapor, in a daze, only Zhou Heqing could be seen.A well-tailored suit and a polite gentleman's smile are all prepared for another person.

My mind is a little empty, and I feel a little bit unwilling, obviously I have worked so hard, why can't I still hold your hand.

love?hate it?Crazy?complain?

He just felt tight in his chest, a little out of breath, maybe a little wronged, his nasal cavity seemed to be a little sour, and the sourness flooded into his eyes and turned into tears, and dripped into the apex of his heart into a sea of ​​blood.

The annoying kid flew past him on the skateboard again, and then slipped over and looked at him curiously, as if he didn't understand why he was wronged first when he told him to get the hell out of him just now.He was a little dry, not sure whether he should go up to make trouble, but he saw the little brother beckoning him to come over.

The child went forward with the skateboard in his arms, but Xu Shanliang grabbed the skateboard in his hand, threw it on the ground, and ran away with it.

Xu Shanliang wasn't sure if Zhou Heqing saw him, maybe he didn't recognize him, or he didn't care if he recognized him.He was afraid in his heart, afraid that Zhou Heqing would have a showdown with him and tell him, yes, I was dating a woman, what would I do then?Want to break up?Do you want to make a clean break?He began to regret it, regretted going out early, regretted not listening to Zhou Heqing and staying at home, regretting why he appeared there...

If only he hadn't seen it.

If he didn't see it, then he would believe everything Zhou Heqing told him, and he would stay at home and wait for Zhou Heqing to go back, to their home, and live a peaceful and happy life.He obviously had a hard time getting it.

He hadn't played skateboarding much before, and he stepped on it carelessly and skillfully, twisting and turning for a while, the kid behind him seemed to wake up from the stupefaction, ran towards him, yelled, and threw himself on him, "You snatch me!" What are you doing with the skateboard!"

Xu Shanliang just woke up like a dream. He stroked the back of his head and the top of the child's hair, and walked away without saying a word, leaving the child standing there with a dazed expression on his face.

Before he took two steps, the phone in his pocket vibrated.Only then did he realize that his hands were shaking badly. He wanted to refuse, but he pressed the answer. Zhou Heqing's helpless voice came from the other side, asking where he was?Where is he?Xu Shanliang looked around in a daze, where is he?He was also a little uncertain, opened his mouth, and could only say guiltily, "I'm at home."

He was not good at lying since he was a child. When lying, he would blush, tremble, and slur his speech. But it was only when he lied face to face. But he only found out today that he could be full of flaws over the phone.

Zhou Heqing told him that what he saw was not all.

Xu Shanliang's heart twisted again, panicked, he didn't know whether to believe what Teacher Xiao Zhou said, or what he saw with his own eyes.

He knew that he should go home now, and it was best to stay at home and wait for Zhou Heqing to give him an explanation, so as not to let his thoughts run amok and panic all day long.But deep down in his heart, he didn't really want to go back. What would he do when he went back?Sitting by the window with her knees hugged, like every Qin Xianglian who was abandoned by Chen Shimei.He was even more afraid, what if Zhou Heqing really said that he wanted to separate?That is, if you don't go back, you will never get the answer, just like Schrödinger's cat.

He put his hands in his pockets and walked on this bustling street like a nocturnal god. Maybe he bumped into a few people, or was stepped on a few times.He was in a daze, walking aimlessly, not knowing where to go for a while.

Xu Shanliang waved and stopped a taxi. The address of his home came to his lips, but he swallowed it again. He thought for a while and said, "Huakang Hospital."

The gastroenterology department is on the [-]th floor of the inpatient department. The corridor has seven turns and eight turns. There are several VIP wards inside, and ordinary people are not allowed to enter.Xu Shanliang stood on tiptoe at the door and looked in. The passing nurse glanced at him suspiciously. After seeing his face clearly, she smiled and said, "Come and see Mr. Xu? Go in, he's awake now." Come on, I just finished changing his medicine."

Xu Shan nodded, thanked her, and waited for the little nurse to go away, but still stood hesitantly by the window and dared not go in.

Father Xu took off the ventilator and coughed: "If you don't want to come in, go back."

Xu Shanliang had no choice but to take his hands out of his pockets, only to realize that his fists had been clenched tightly, and several clear crescent moon marks had been pinched out on his palms.He bit the bullet and turned the doorknob to open the door, stood at the door and shouted: "Dad." He didn't dare to move again.

Xu Qing snorted: "Why, let's see if I'm dead?"

Xu Shanliang stood aside without saying a word, and his father sighed: "But it's coming soon."

Xu Shanliang's eyes turned red immediately, and the tears that he had endured for a long time just now finally poured down.

He has grown up, and he is not able to say: "Dad, you will live a long life." In this case, even if he really thinks so.The curtains are tightly closed, and there is a long strip of light squeezed through the blinds, which hangs obliquely at the end of the bed, hangs on the indwelling needle, and hangs on the bubbles rising from the oxygen bottle.Those transparent liquids flowed into his father's body bit by bit through the long hose, and the whole room was filled with the smell of medicine, as well as a smell of death.

Xu Shanliang covered half of his face tightly, so that he could swallow the grief and suffering in his mouth.Tears ran across the backs of the hands along the fingers and then disappeared into the cuffs, where a small piece was soon soaked, and the color was gray-blue.

"What about mourning?" Father Xu lay on his back on the bed, staring at the ceiling, and said in a calm tone, "I'm not dead yet."

Xu Shanliang wiped his face vigorously, wiped away all the tears that had welled up, and muttered: "Can't you talk well."

Father Xu opened his mouth as if to let out a sigh.

They were silent with each other, the room was terribly quiet, as if his mind was getting hot, Xu Shanliang asked him: "My mother... what kind of person is she. I mean... um..."

Xu's father turned his head to look at him, the ventilator was tilted to the side, Xu Shining could see clearly, his father's lips were black and blue, covered with rough dead skin, his eyes were blurred and loose, as if I'm reminiscing, but probably just lack of strength.

Father Xu asked him, "How are you doing?"

Xu Shanliang thought of Zhou Heqing's community, the lunch he had that day, and the school, so he nodded: "It's okay."

Xu's father: "I'm not well." He then asked: "How have you been all these years?"

Xu Shanliang: "Not good."

Father Xu nodded, "I'm not good to you."

He looked at the ceiling again, and it was a vast expanse of white, with neither engraved patterns nor any sophisticated instruments hanging on it. The only thing worth seeing was a lamp, dim and hanging there.

"Your mother...she is a very capable and thoughtful woman."

Xu Shanliang was a little nervous.

"After finishing her Ph.D. in economics in the UK, she returned to China as a consultant. At that time, everyone heard that she was fluent in English, so they entrusted her to help negotiate an international business. At that time, the company was in crisis and needed it very much. A business also needs money to turn around. Those ghosts just took a fancy to our weakness, and even the lion opened his mouth to annex us, but I am not reconciled. Your mother is really powerful, showing her sleeves and arguing with people at the negotiating table The saliva was flying all over the place, and the folder was swaying wildly, and I almost got into a fight with someone." He laughed and said, "I'm really afraid, firstly, I'm afraid that the negotiation won't succeed, and secondly, I'm afraid that those ghosts will retaliate. Your mother is a weak woman, if something happens to her, it will be bad."

Unconsciously, a smile appeared on Xu Shanliang's lips, faintly, as if a young woman appeared in front of him, wearing a neat suit but with her arms crossed on her hips, yelling at people.

"At that time, we were in a foreign country, and the communication was not particularly developed. We spent half a year there, and I had to send her home every day, and pick her up early the next day. It's really embarrassing to say, my English No, to put it bluntly, I can only say 'hello' and 'goodbye', so I have to ask your mother to accompany me wherever I go, she was not very happy at first, but then I invited her to dinner and a movie, and I got to know her after a while Yes. During that time, we all had a good time.”

"It's an accident to have you."

He sighed heavily, "It's my fault."

"Your mother has a resolute personality. After returning to China, she knew that I had a family, so she left without saying a word. I never found her again, but after several months, a baby boy suddenly appeared at the door of the house. I saw it I knew it was your mother who had been here. You really looked like your mother when you were a child, especially the eyes, but then it got bigger and bigger, and the outline of the face changed, but the eyes were still the same. You had a picture in your swaddle Note, Xu Shanliang is the name your mother gave you."

"She may want you to become dazzling and strong, like a star, shining brightly even in the dark night."

Xu Shanliang said: "Then my name should be Xu Xingchen."

Father Xu: "..."

Xu Shanliang: "No more?"

Father Xu said: "No more. I know that you have had a bad life these years. You can't say anything when you feel wronged. You dare not ask for what you want. You dare not even express what you like. I am afraid that you will be bullied and laughed at. I don't care about it. I can see it in my eyes. But I dare not, and I can’t show you anything. If I treat you well, it may make you feel even more sad when I leave home. I am sorry for you, sorry for you Your biological mother. If you miss your mother, look into your eyes in the mirror. I'm tired, so go back."

Xu Shanliang didn't move, he said: "But have you ever thought that even if you ignore me, I will not be doing well. There are so many pairs of eyes in the house, all staring at you, what do you do, they will feel uncomfortable Countless times, sometimes when I have a fever, if I want to take a sip of water, I have to drink the water from the tap. Even if you treat me a little bit better, at least the servants will not dare to do whatever they want. In the end, you are selfish and only want to look at yourself."

Father Xu was startled and didn't speak.

"Do you regret it? Regret knowing my mother, regret giving birth to me?"

Before Xu Qing could answer, Xu Shanliang helped him and said, "You regret it, and so does my mother, but you don't regret knowing her, but she regrets giving birth to me."

He stood up and put on his peaked cap again: "I'm leaving, I'll see you next time."