Ten years of life and death

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Feng Shaomin, you swore in front of me that day that you would use the rest of your life to be buried with Tianxiang, and now I'm asking you again, are you serious?In the side hall, the young emperor held a memorial and asked Feng Shaomin as he read it, occasionally raising his head to see her expression.

Yes, this is serious, Feng Shaomin said firmly.

The corner of the emperor's mouth opened slightly, a half-smile, Feng Shaomin, how many months has Tianxiang been gone?

Three months.

Well, three months, how time flies, the imperial examination is about to take place, and there are young talents who can serve the country again.

Students study hard for ten years in order to serve the country and glorify their families.

Speaking of this imperial examination, I want to appoint you as the chief examiner.

Your Majesty, I haven't asked about official affairs for many years, and I don't have the heart to take care of them. I think it's better to appoint someone else for this important task of recruiting talents for the court.

Feng Shaomin, it's up to you to do this. I want to choose one of the dragons and phoenixes to be Tianxin's son-in-law. You have been with her for a long time. You should know what kind of man is worthy. The emperor circled around and said real intention.

this?Feng Shaomin was a little unexpected.

how?Are you reluctant?

No, it is my wish for the emperor to grant a marriage for Xin'er. It's just that I have been away from the court for many years, and I suddenly have to preside over the imperial examination. Will it be a bit unfair?Feng Shaomin understood what the emperor meant, and she was very happy in her heart. She had always wanted to find an opportunity to talk to the emperor about Xin'er's lifelong events, and she even wanted to personally choose a husband for Xin'er. Unexpectedly, the emperor spoke first. That's great.

I've thought about this question a long time ago, so someone will bring you the official robes of the son-in-law.

The red official robe, embroidered with phoenix, was exactly the same as before. Wearing it on Feng Shaomin's body, he amazed everyone in an instant. The legendary and peerless son-in-law has returned!

During those days of the imperial examination, Feng Shaomin put all his heart into it, just to find the most suitable husband-in-law for Xiner. When she was free, she would miss Tianxiang and play with Nianer. To be honest, when an official came to visit her occasionally, she just politely returned the salute, and then had no further contact with her. She put on this official robe for the sake of her heart, and she would still take it off after the matter was over. I owe a favor, but it's not easy to pay it back.

After the names of the top three were determined, the emperor ordered people to pass the news that Feng Shaomin and the three tops entered the palace to face the saints. The civil and military officials of the Manchu Dynasty asked each other below. What they asked was not the top three candidates, but the rumored peerless son-in-law Feng Shaomin.

Xuan, son-in-law Feng Shaomin, the top three of the new division enter the hall to face the saint.

My minister, Feng Shaomin, has met the emperor, long live my emperor, long live, long live, long live.

The ministers have seen the emperor, long live long live long live.

Hahaha, all the gentlemen are flat.

Thank you, Your Majesty.

I heard that the top three this time are all capable of both civil and military skills. It seems that the son-in-law has really selected a lot of talents for me this time.

As long as I put in some effort, it is the ability of the three of them to be able to enter the top three. Now that the emperor has added a few talents, I will be able to make the country rich and the people safe in the future, and the better I go.

well said!Hahaha, according to my order, a banquet will be held in the palace at night, and all civil and military officials must attend!

When the court was over, some people who had never met Feng Shaomin seized the opportunity to get close to Feng Shaomin. They had just sent off a few adults, and then followed a few more. Feng Shaomin, who hadn't used so much talk for a long time, was almost overwhelmed. Now, she was only thinking about someone coming to save her, and it so happened that Zhang Shaomin and Li Zhaoting also walked over from behind, and Feng Shaomin immediately greeted them, Brother Zhang, Brother Li.

What advice does the consort have?Zhang Shaomin said.

Um?Why didn't you see Brother Liu?Feng Shaomin looked for something to say when he had nothing to say.

Brother Liu has been feeling unwell recently and is resting at home. Li Zhaoting's tone of voice is a bit forced, as if he didn't want to talk to Feng Shaomin.

Feng Shaomin knew that he had bumped into a wall, and instead of talking to the two of them like this, it would be better to deal with these officials who were trying to gain ties. My lords, let's talk while walking.

Feng Shaomin, stop here!Zhang Shaomin didn't see Feng Shaomin, it was fine, but when he saw Feng Shaomin, he felt angry from the heart, without saying a word, he just punched Feng Shaomin in the face, Feng Shaomin, you are not a man!

Brother Zhang, calm down, this is the imperial palace, not a place where you can mess around, Li Zhaoting pulled Zhang Shaomin who was about to fight again, looked at Feng Shaomin who was lying on the ground, and said, Sir, please take the concubine away , otherwise, something will happen right now.

Yes, yes, son-in-law, let's go quickly, the officials ordered someone to take you back to the mansion, several adults helped Feng Shaomin up, and left quickly.

Feng Shaomin, stand up for me if you are a man, don't get out, let's have a good match, Feng Shaomin!

Brother Zhang, enough is enough, you are a person of status, how can you make people laugh at you? What Brother Feng did is really chilling, but you also ask yourself, the princess is now in such a state, do you Don't you have any responsibility?

Tianxiang will run away from home, I have a great responsibility, but he Feng Shaomin was still alive back then, why did he let Tianxiang marry me? The wedding will be held as scheduled, and Tianxiang will become my wife. If I still want to save him like this, then I have the heart to kill him.

But Brother Zhang, if you kill him now, he is still the one the princess loves. You have already married someone else, so you should forget about the princess, otherwise you will really have to worry about it in the future.

I can't accept fate like you, and I can't stop hating Feng Shaomin. I can only allow this to be the last time he hurts Tianxiang. If there is a next time, I will definitely kill him with my own hands.

Li Zhaoting could understand Zhang Shaomin's anger and hatred, but he couldn't empathize with him. He watched Zhang Shaomin vent everything in his heart regardless of his image, and what he said would not help. There will be more anger and hatred than Zhang Shaomin, and it will almost destroy everything he has today.

Snow, when it fell, Xin'er was wearing a thick warm robe, looking at the snow outside through the window, coughing from time to time, getting worse and worse, and finally coughed up blood, she wanted to cry, but the more she thought about it , her head became more and more dizzy, and the outline of that person appeared in front of her eyes from time to time, she thought, she missed him so much.

Don't you realize that I love you until the day I die, if you can accompany me at this time, even if I die, I will be happy.

Xin'er, guess what I brought for you, Feng Shaomin in disguise came in with his hands behind his back and a smile on his face.

You are here, Xin'er wiped the corners of her mouth for fear that Feng Shaomin would see blood, but her movements still couldn't catch up with Feng Shaomin's eyes, Feng Shaomin took her hand away and touched the blood that hadn't been wiped off the corner of her mouth, Xin'er immediately Get up, Xin'er, you're coughing up blood.

Can you stay with me today?Xin'er hugged Feng Shaomin, avoiding their eye contact.

Okay, I'll be with you, but you can't be so worried anymore, it's not good for your illness at all, I feel distressed when you look like this, Feng Shaomin also holds his heart, feeling a little sad that he can't help her.

What kind of consort did you choose for me?

Xin'er, don't worry, he is absolutely worthy of you. The emperor has entrusted many things to Zhang Yi, the number one scholar, just to test him. If he can pass the emperor's test, the emperor will let him come to see you.

Well, when I get married, will Miss Huang come back?

This, um, I think she will come back, she loves you so much, she will definitely come back when she sees the royal list for your marriage.

Feng Shaomin comforted Xin'er, thinking that no matter what Tianxiang said, she should come back to take a look at Xin'er's wedding. Back to the capital.

That day was the winter solstice, and she had made an appointment with Xin'er to take a walk outside when the weather was good. Just when she was about to go out to meet Xin'er, someone came from the princess mansion and said that the princess was back, so she took the Forget about the agreement with Xin'er, he led the horse and ran all the way to the princess mansion.

Tianxiang had already taken off her Jianghu outfit and changed into a princess costume, eating the meal prepared by Nanny Zhuang for her, quite contentedly, Nian'er clung to her side, clamoring for this and that from time to time , Tianxiang was all smiling, and fed her happily.

Feng Shaomin rushed in like a breeze, with a chill, Nian'er shivered from the cold, shrank his neck, and went straight into Tianxiang's arms.

Feng Suzhen, is your nervous expression because of me?

Tianxiang looked at Feng Shaomin who was rushing straight in front of her, and moved her lips, son-in-law, what does your expression of wanting to cry and laugh at the same time mean?

Feng Shaomin knew that his mood at this time was all expressed on his face, Tianxiang was right in front of her eyes, but she couldn't open her mouth, and wanted to speak several times, but she just couldn't speak out, touching Tianxiang's eyes, there was some resentment, this She didn't dare to look at Tianxiang anymore, and turned her attention to Nian'er, Nian'er, come to me and let mother have a good meal.

Feng Suzhen, you have nothing to say to me!

Tianxiang pursed her lips, looked away, handed Nian'er to Feng Shaomin, and started eating by herself, neither of them spoke or looked at each other until Nian'er fell asleep unknowingly in Feng Shaomin's arms, Tianxiang tapped the bowl in front of Feng Shaomin with chopsticks, signaling that Feng Shaomin was distracted.

I carry her to sleep, you eat slowly, Feng Shaomin was awakened abruptly, and then quickly went to the bedroom with Nian'er in his arms, her figure flashed in Tianxiang's sight, Tianxiang's heart was completely cold .

Feng Suzhen, do you really have nothing to say to me?Or, you don't want to say anything anymore?

In less than a year, I came back because of Xin'er's marriage, not for you, really not for you.

Tianxiang stood under a dry peach blossom tree, closed her eyes and thought about it quietly, she felt dizzy, and hurriedly supported the tree trunk, the palm of her hand was probably pierced by the dry tree trunk, she frowned slightly, but she didn't I would like to move my hand away, but instead put my head close to the hand holding the tree trunk, the pain in the palm suddenly intensified.

Dongfang Tianxiang, you are a princess with supreme glory, but why do you trample on your dignity like this for others!

Feng Shaomin was standing one step behind Tianxiang, watching her quietly, her lip had been bitten off by himself, and there was a little bloodshot, she had a lot to say to Tianxiang, but she bit her lip She still couldn't speak, she didn't know where to start, and she didn't know if Tianxiang would listen to her, let alone what she and Tianxiang could say.

The one who said she loved her was me, the one who said she was willing to take her away was also me, and the one who said she would never make her sad was still me.

But he was the one who said he didn't love her, he was the one who said he wanted to give up on her, and he was the one who broke her heart again.

Feng Suzhen, in this life, can you stop hurting her for anyone else and give up on her!

The wind was blowing, Feng Shaomin didn't know how long Tianxiang would stay here, she raised her hand to remind Tianxiang not to blow the cold wind anymore, but as soon as she raised her hand in the air, Tianxiang raised her head and turned around.

Looking at each other, the atmosphere was a little awkward, Feng Shaomin bit his lips again, smiled, and put down his hands in mid-air, the wind picked up, let's go into the house.

Your mouth is torn, Tianxiang saw Feng Shaomin's bloodshot lips, and couldn't help reaching out to wipe it.

ah?Really, Feng Shaomin took a step back abruptly when Tianxiang touched him, and opened the distance between them again.

Tianxiang saw Feng Shaomin's retreat, and looked for a place to hide ridiculously with his empty hands, Tianxiang forced a smile, passed her by, let's go in.

At night, it was too cold, and Nanny Zhuang didn't know whether it was intentional or not, she ordered Xing'er to add another quilt, fiddled with the charcoal fire, said good night to the two, then closed the door and retreated, Tianxiang sat in the bronze mirror He combed his hair before, and went to bed on his own, without calling Feng Shaomin.

Feng Shaomin leaned on the back of the chair, watched Tianxiang's movements, and didn't speak. The room was awkward, but it was awkward. It was such a cold day, he couldn't sit on the chair all night. Feng Shaomin thought of this, and looked at Looking at the other untouched quilt on the bed, he got up.

Pulling down the curtain, Feng Shaomin lay flat on Tianxiang's right side, crossed his hands on his chest, and breathed evenly. After a while, she thought about what she should say, so she turned her body and faced Tianxiang, Tianxiang?Are you asleep?

Just say what you have to say, Tianxiang still has her eyes closed.

You have lost a lot of weight.

You also lost a lot of weight.

Feng Shaomin let out a sigh of relief, pursed his lips and smiled, and gently held Tianxiang's hand that was also on his chest, and put it under the quilt, it would be warmer.

Well, I'm tired, go to sleep.

Ok.

The embarrassment in the room was instantly shattered. Feng Shaomin leaned forward and kissed Tianxiang's forehead, then retracted into his quilt and fell asleep. The charcoal fire in the stove burned more and more vigorously, and the warmth filled the whole room. Soon they all entered their respective dreams, with smiles on their faces, because they had waited for this day for too long, too long.

The next day was very bright and the sun was still shining. Although it was still cold, people would feel much more comfortable with a ray of sunshine. Madam Zhuang ordered her servants not to disturb the princess and the consort, so Tianxiang's bedroom was very special. It is quiet, only the maids are left to wait for orders.

Although everyone in this mansion is knowledgeable, there are always people outside the mansion who are not. Before the door of the mansion was opened, someone shouted outside, open the door quickly, open the door quickly, I want to see the son-in-law!

My son, may I ask you to find a son-in-law, what are you talking about?

Old mother, I can't tell you clearly, Feng Shaomin, come out!Feng Shaomin!

Hey, this is the princess mansion, how could you break into it, guard, drive him out!

So what about the princess mansion, even if it is the imperial palace, I will still break into it!The speaker evaded the guard's interception with three swipes, and rushed straight into the hall.

They all backed off, Feng Shaomin probably heard the noise, so he put on his clothes and came out to see what happened, Master Zhang, what do you want me for?

Where is Princess Tianxin?For the first time, Zhang Yi turned a dark face on Feng Shaomin, a benefactor.

Tianxin?Oops!Yesterday, he only cared about Tianxiang and forgot all about the agreement with Tianxin. Feng Shaomin couldn't help becoming nervous when he thought of this. Does it mean that Xin'er has not returned?Is she still waiting for herself there?

Who is this?Tianxiang came out from the back hall and asked.

This is Master Zhang Yi Zhang, the number one scholar hand-picked by the emperor this year, and Xin'er's fiancé-in-law.

Oh, it turned out to be Mr. Zhang. I don't know what the so-called Mr. Zhang came to this palace in the morning.

When Zhang Yi saw Tianxiang coming out, his face was more gloomy than before, and he left in a hurry without even saying a word of greeting.

Don't you think this Zhang Yi has a feeling of deja vu?Tianxiang noticed that Zhang Yi looked at her strangely, and asked Feng Shaomin. She felt that with Feng Shaomin's carefulness, it was impossible not to see that Zhang Yi was different.

No matter who he is, entrusting Xin'er to him will never go wrong, Feng Shaomin said flatly.

There seems to be something in your words?Tianxiang looked at Feng Shaomin, still a little suspicious.

Don't care about him, let's go to Xin'er. I made an appointment with her to go to Xiangguo Temple yesterday, but as soon as I heard that you came back, I forgot our agreement. She didn't go back last night, so I'm afraid she will still wait in Xiangguo Temple. I.

That's right, it's important to find your heart first, how is her body?

It's much better, the emperor provided all the medicinal materials needed for her illness, and raising her in the capital is better than going back to Lingnan mansion.

Ok.

Along the way, both of them talked about things related to Xin'er and the government, but they didn't say anything about the two of them. They just talked about it, and they arrived at Xiangguo Temple , Mr. Feng, you are here.

Master, did Miss Xin'er come here yesterday?

I've been here before, and I'm still in the side room of the temple at this time, Lao Na took the two of you there, this way please.

Thank you Master.

Feng Shaomin, when did you come to this place of Buddhism?Tianxiang asked.

Feng Shaomin said with a smile, when you are not around, I have nowhere to go. One day, I walked into this place by chance and found that it is a good place. There is a bamboo forest on the back cliff, which is a good place for meditation.

As long as the heart is calm and there is nothing to do, the whole world is a good place to go. If the heart is full of troubles, there is no good place to go all over the world!

What the female benefactor said was very reasonable, all worries are due to love, and the heart is calm and safe. I only sigh that in this world, few people can do it.

Abbot, Mr. Zhuangyuan talked with Miss Xin'er inside and refused to be disturbed. A young monk stood guard in front of the corridor and saw several people coming over.

How did this Zhang Yi know that the place Xin'er agreed with you is here?Tianxiang was a little surprised that Zhang Yi appeared here, he knew that Xin'er would be here, why did he go to the princess mansion to ask Feng Shaomin for someone important.

He is Xin'er's fiancé, it's strange to know that Xin'er is here, Feng Shaomin still replied calmly.

What are you hiding from me?Tianxiang felt that Feng Shaomin's answer was not justifiable at all.

How could I hide it from you?

I do not believe.

Don't bother them anymore, I'll take you to the bamboo forest for a walk, Feng Shaomin took Tianxiang's hand and walked towards the back cliff.

The back cliff and the bustle of the temple are only separated by a small road, but they are two worlds. The steps paved with bluestone slabs are inlaid on the hill in a patchwork way. In the mist, the branches cannot be seen clearly.

So quiet!Just one bad thing.

which point?

So cold!

I hold you.

As Feng Shaomin spoke, he stretched out his arms and tightly wrapped Tianxiang in his arms.

still cold?

cold!But it wasn't the body, it was here. Tianxiang turned around, faced Feng Shaomin, pointed to the position of her heart, and suddenly shed two lines of tears.

Xianger!

That year, why did you push me to others?

Because I am incompetent, unable to give you a safe love.

Do you love me?

Love.

how much love

More love than you can imagine.

Then why do you want to break my heart into pieces?

I am sorry.

I'm sorry, can I return my original heart to me?

Xiang'er, the past is the past after all, you have been for me all these years, then for the rest of my time, I am willing to do it all for you, not for anyone else!

Promises are like the years of this woman, once they are gone, they will never return like the water flowing eastward.

Xiang'er, you believe me, I will never let you go again.

Feng Shaomin, I still like to call you like this. I married you, lost you at 21, and got you again at 24. In a blink of an eye, it has been six years. These are the most precious years in a woman’s life. You hold me back , I also tie you down.

Xiang'er, I don't regret it, I really don't regret it.

Do you know, I often think, that year, after I found out about your identity, if Li Zhaoting hadn't fallen in love with Liu Qian, I think she would be the same as me, happy to fulfill you, but his heart is out Wrong, you can't go back to the beginning, and neither can I.

Xiang'er, Zhao Ting's heart, there is nothing wrong, what is wrong is my heart, I love you, I fell in love with you very early, in those days when you took Wangqing Pill, there is not a single thing in your memory Jian Piaohong, there is no Zhang Shaomin, only me, you rely on me wholeheartedly, making me feel that I am the whole world in your heart, this feeling really makes me very happy, I really want you to recover, but I am afraid After you recovered, you ignored me and stopped relying on me. Do you know that after the poison on your body was released, you followed Yijian Piaohong without saying a word, even though I am not a man, but, You are the wife I am marrying. I watched you go away with someone else, but for your happiness, I can’t stop you. My heart is really sad. When I saw you came back, you still treated me When everything is in my heart, my heart feels more guilty than happy. I am very afraid that after you know the truth, you will hate me for the rest of your life. This is more painful than death.

Tianxiang's kiss blocked Feng Shaomin's lips in time, preventing her from continuing.

Her tears are what Feng Shaomin can't bear the most in this life, and Feng Shaomin's tears are the biggest calamity in her life. She knows that Feng Shaomin loves her, but she just doesn't know how much Feng Shaomin loves her, but now, she knows, she also I believe that Feng Shaomin will never give up on her again.

Feng Shaomin, you owe me too much.

How do you want me to pay you back?

I want a happy wedding.

I promise you.

You still owe me something important.

What is it?

Wedding candles.

fool.

I don't want you to marry me.

Ok?

I marry you.

what?

Hahahaha.

On the eve of Tianxin's wedding, Tianxiang took her into the Princess Mansion together with Lingnan King. She felt that Tianxin was her own sister after all, and letting her marry from the Princess Mansion was a kind of compensation for her. The official who sewed clothes for the royal family tailored a red wedding dress embroidered with a phoenix for Tianxin.

Tianxin gently touched the wedding dress on the rack, full of thoughts, Tianxiang took her hand and smiled at her, Xin'er, you will get married tomorrow, sister Huang has prepared a gift for you, you wait Come on, I'll get it for you.

Sister Huang, you treat me so well, I am already satisfied, I really don't need any gifts.

No, this gift must be given, and I will get it now.

Xin'er, let Tianxiang get it, this is also a gift from me, Feng Shaomin said.

The two of you just gave me a gift, wouldn't you be too petty? With a smile in my heart, I walked back to the wedding dress.

Heh, you don't want to give you a copy, and now you say we are petty, you, villain, Feng Shaomin also said with a smile.

Royal brother-in-law?

Um?Xin'er, why do you call me that, it's weird.

Otherwise, how should I call you, Shaotian?Shaomin?or something else?

Hahaha, well, you can call it whatever you like.

What are you talking about, you are smiling so happily, Xiner, come and see, do you like it?Tianxiang walked in with a box in her arms, and looked at the smiling Tianxin.

This Ruyi is really beautiful!Xin'er looked at the pair of Yu Ruyi in the box and couldn't help sighing.

This was given to me by my father when I got married. I ordered people to remake it and made two pairs of small jade ruyis. I keep a pair for myself. This pair is given to you. I hope you will, Everything goes well.

Sister Huang, how can I take what the late emperor left you?When Tianxin heard about Ruyi's origin, she immediately shirked it.

Xin'er, don't shirk anymore, the emperor didn't leave anything for you, so this wishful handle should be regarded as my gift to you for him.

Tianxiang's persistence makes her feel bad and pushes it back, so she can only accept it, sister Huang, thank you.

Son-in-law, I will stay with Xiner to sleep tonight, you can go back to the bedroom by yourself.

No need, Miss Huang, you all go back to sleep, I want to be alone for a while, Xin'er said while pushing the two of them away.

Okay, let's go, but don't sleep too late, Nanny Zhuang will come to wash you up tomorrow morning.

Ok.

Under the eaves, the cold wind was blowing, Feng Shaomin held Tianxiang's hand tightly, walked side by side, and asked Tianxiang about her own doubts, Xiang'er, you seem to care more about Tianxin than other sisters .

She is my half-sister, and her mother is the younger sister of my mother's mother. In terms of closeness, she and I are closest except for the emperor's brother. By the way, there is also the king of Luoyang. Son and he are brothers and sisters.

this?Is this all true?Feng Shaomin was taken aback. She had been asking why King Luoyang and King Lingnan had such a good personal relationship. Unexpectedly, it was because of this relationship. Xin'er is King Luoyang's biological sister. There is no reason why she would not know that there are two Dongfangluos. , either Xin'er has been lying to her, or the King of Luoyang has been lying to Xin'er!

Hey, what are you thinking with that surprised expression on your face?

Oh, it's nothing, no wonder when I saw Xin'er for the first time, I thought she looked like you.

Don't tell me, I haven't discovered that among the few princesses my father left behind, only Xin'er is similar to me.

The news of Xin'er's big wedding has been published on the imperial list, but it seems that the king of Luoyang has not come to Beijing. How could the elder brother not come to the younger sister's wedding?Feng Shaomin said.

I asked Uncle Wang, and Uncle Wang said that the King of Luoyang was in poor health, and Xin'er's wedding might not come in time.

Then his elder brother is not competent at all.

how?You want him to come to the capital and take you away again, Tianxiang pouted.

Realizing that he had said something wrong, Feng Shaomin slapped his lips and hurriedly explained, of course not.

Hmph, if not, what is it?

Well, my lady princess, I said something wrong, don't bother with me, okay?

Hmph, who cares about you!Ignore you.

If you ignore me, I'll go drink flower wine, the girls in the fireworks building, I haven't seen you for a long time.

Feng Shaomin, you are so annoying!

Hahahaha.