please stop being jealous

My feelings towards Xu Luoye are more complicated. If I had to put a label on it, it would definitely be more "poor".

So I feel that my atypical nurturing is actually doing good deeds.

If you want to ask me when I started accumulating virtue and doing good deeds, I don't know.

Judging from the current situation, Xu Luo is also lucky because she met me.

I charged her a high price, even if she was my little lover, I didn't do anything to her.

Sometimes I can't figure it out, because no one's money comes from the wind. I give her 3 yuan a month, but my current salary is about half of that every month.

I saved most of the money myself. When I was in school, I sold plans to big companies several times. They were very generous and gave a lot of money.

In addition, my parents are very tolerant of me. If Song Chicheng used to have the least pocket money, then I have the most pocket money. In addition, I will not spend money randomly, and I have saved some over the years .

To my own surprise, one of the uses of the deposit was to provide support funds.

Am I at a loss?It doesn't seem too bad.

With Xu Luoye, my sleep has improved. Judging from the previous alcohol and medical expenses, I didn't lose much.

I don't know what Xu Luo thinks. She is obedient enough in front of me. Although she occasionally has a little bit of a strong point, it is usually what I say and do.

She asked me why I was so nice to her before, but what I wanted to answer was——

I do not know either.

Pity her past, sympathize with her experience, especially when she talked about her father that night later, the reddish eye sockets made me feel like I wanted to hug her and coax her down.

But an illusion is an illusion. I realized it in less than a second and changed the subject.

Xu Luo also heard my question and didn't avoid it. She seemed to have grown up, and she didn't answer many questions before.

For example, I asked her the night before if she was shy, and now.

She shook her head, her eyes were very calm, and she ignored my teasing: "I never have such an accident."

She paused and added: "Dipping accident."

So serious, serious, and serious.

It's amazing to be able to cook at the age of six.

I raised my lower lip and stopped teasing her, because she was right.

The dipping sauce she made was combined with pork ribs, kelp and white radish. It was so delicious that I was so full that I finally collapsed on the sofa.

Fangyuan would come to my place to cook a meal before, but it was rare, maybe once every six months, so my kitchen was always a decoration.

I didn't expect that after Xu Luo also came, there would be a useful place in my kitchen. Every kitchen utensil seemed to have been used by the new guests. I don't know if they are happy or sad.

But I think it's not bad.

In the end, I went to the bedroom to catch up on sleep. Xu Luo also went to the driving school to learn to drive. She is now in subject three.

But I didn't sleep very well because my mother called me, I didn't answer at first, and then called me again.

After answering, it was exactly the same content as yesterday, so I asked my cousin to go around.

"Mom." I was forced to wake up, a little angry, "If you really want to be a landlord, can you take him there yourself?"

My mother immediately became angry: "You child!"

"mom."

"I'm not free, I'm very busy, let me go, okay?"

I feel like I am reciting the Three Character Classic.

But I really don't want to be pushed out by them to receive people anymore. This cousin has been here for half a month since he came, so it's hard to let me accompany him every day.

Do I think I'm not tired enough?

I didn't hang up her phone after I finished speaking, she let out a deep breath on the other end of the phone, and called me by my name: "Yu Ji." She didn't show mercy to me, "Be busy on weekends, other times What are you busy with? Sleeping until the afternoon to go to work every day, and going to drink after work, do you think I don't know?"

"You really don't know." Hearing her words, I touched my face, "Our principal gave me a task, and I will finish it before Friday."

After receiving the phone call, I was so drowsy, I continued: "Stop talking, I'm busy writing."

Only then did I cut off her phone and mute the phone, but instead of continuing to lie down and take a nap, I got up and turned on the computer, and started writing the host manuscript.

But there are two hosts, Tang Jianan and I. The opening host needs interaction and tacit understanding. When I write, I must also take him into consideration.

I haven't exchanged his thoughts yet, and finally stared at the "respected teachers..." I just wrote down for a while, then deleted it again.

Let's talk about it when we arrive at the company tomorrow.

Two days passed without feeling at all, and it was time to go to work in the company again in a blink of an eye.

When I woke up, Xu Luo had already left, and this time he was going to leave me for five days.

Except for my own business trip, this is the first time she has been away from me for such a long time since more than a month.

I was sent back to school because I was angry before, but it was only two days.

I opened my eyes, looked at the empty space on one side of the pillow, and waited for a long time before getting up.

Xu Luo also sent me a message. This is what I asked her to report to me on the progress.

【On the bus. 】

[We have arrived at the station. 】

【Get on the bus. 】

[The bus is off. 】

……

Very blunt content, as if I put a knife on her neck and asked her to post it. I thought about it for a while and didn't reply.

not worth it.

The world is not worth it.

When I arrived at the company, I went into the meeting room with my notebook to hold a teaching seminar. This time I couldn’t doze off anymore, because I had to go up front to talk about the key points of Yuncheng’s training and share my experience with my colleagues.

I know this, so when I was still in Yuncheng, I was already working on the app. I modified some content before going to bed last night, and now I’m going to talk about it directly.

There is a video of my original assessment on the company app, but it is just like the exam when I was studying in the past. What everyone sees is only the answer, without steps.

What I want to share now is the steps to solve the problem.

I have been in the company for more than a year. I am not a veteran in terms of experience, but it is definitely not bad. After the last page of the ppt, the academic director took the lead in applauding.

Kong You smiled below, more excited than me.

After the meeting was over, he left the meeting room with Kong You.

She praised me sincerely: "Mr. Yu, you are too good." She said, "You speak clearly and fluently. I have benefited a lot."

The corner of my mouth turned up a little: "Next time you go on a business trip, you will benefit me a lot."

Training on a business trip is actually a very meaningful thing. If you stay there for half a month, you can quickly improve your teaching level.

When I was about to get to the office, I remembered the matter of hosting the manuscript. I turned my head and saw Tang Jian'an walking behind, chatting with other teachers.

I called him: "Teacher Tang."

Tang Jianan looked up at me, a little surprised, and quickly responded: "Call me?"

It seemed to be the first time I took the initiative to call him.

I nodded: "Yes."

In front of everyone, I can tell my purpose: "Can I talk about the host manuscript later?"

"Okay, no problem." Tang Jian'an smiled, "I just wanted to talk to you about this."

Some other colleagues cast slightly curious eyes, and then talked to people normally.

Not many people seem to know that Tang Jianan and I will be the opening hosts of the sports meeting. Kong You is the closest to me, and she knows about it, so when she knew that Tang Jianan and I were going to discuss the host draft, she took the initiative I hurriedly gave up my chair and went to the empty classroom to write the syllabus.

She might really want to make me and Tang Jian'an a pair, but she doesn't know what is good about accepting Tang Jian'an to help him like this.

Tang Jian'an took a notebook, borrowed a pen from me, and discussed with me about hosting the manuscript.

The day after tomorrow is Friday, and my manuscript is only a prototype, still in my mind.

After a brief exchange with Tang Jian'an, I found that it was not without reason that Principal Fan arranged for him to host the event. He had also been a host at the school before.

Tang Jian'an seemed to be in a good mood regarding this common ground. He said, "No wonder I think Mr. Yu and I will be able to chat. It turns out that it's all fate."

I:"……"

I don't quite understand his brain circuit.

If Song Chicheng is gay, he must have been compared to me.

I finally breathed a sigh of relief when Tang Jianan returned to his station.

It is really necessary to pretend to be cold in the company, so as to avoid doing a lot of meaningless things and saying a lot of meaningless words.

The matter of the manuscript was finalized quickly, anyway, it was very simple, and a search of the browser could also find a lot of templates.

Before the class, I was basically busy with this matter, and I was ready to go to class after I finished my work.

It was a very fulfilling day.

This made me a little confused because of the contrast when I returned to the apartment.

On the way, it occurred to me that Xu Luo had also returned to his hometown.

Xu Luo, who was not wearing a little dinosaur pajamas, was sitting there on the sofa in the living room, and there was no picture of her bowing her head while doing homework in the study.

I sat by the bed, took out my phone, and clicked on the chat dialog with Xu Luoye.

She has been sending me messages, but the number of words does not exceed four words.

It's neat and tidy.

I slipped and turned back to her: [I just came back. 】

After returning, I lay down, stared at the ceiling, and gradually closed my eyes.

Xu Luo didn't reply me right away, maybe she was busy, and at ten o'clock, she sent me an audio message on time.

When I asked her to tell me the price of the microphone, I was actually taken aback because the price of the equipment is not cheap.

I transferred some of the lover fees to Xu Luo, but she took some out for me, which made me feel a little indescribable at the time.

In order not to owe her anything, I transferred the money to her.

The 3 yuan per month is for her, and I have never instilled in her the concept that this money will also be spent on me.

The situation in her family is so complicated, and I don't need this little money.

The equipment is good and the quality is high. After I took a shower, I put on the earphones and listened to the audio recorded by her to sleep.

As always it worked great and I had a good night's sleep.

No, it's just that I slept soundly at night, and I was woken up by my mother's phone call again in the morning.

She persevered and asked me to take my cousin to have a meal before going to work. She didn't expect me to take him around. A meal is always okay.

I was speechless, I had nothing to say, and finally resigned to my fate and drove to the hotel where my cousin lived.

My mother paid for the hotel. When I knew about this matter, I didn't turn the corner because my mother was too enthusiastic about this matter.

My cousin looked very energetic. He got into my car, took off his sunglasses, and said with a smile, "Good afternoon, cousin."

"..."

It's too embarrassing.

I used to be young and it was easy to make friends. Now that I am 27 or [-], my mother still thinks that I am a child and can become good friends with others after eating a meal?

Besides, this cousin really feels a little strange to me.

But I wanted to maintain a superficial smile, and then randomly reported the name of a restaurant and drove him there.

Along the way, this cousin praised me, sometimes saying that I was excellent, sometimes saying that I was beautiful.

In short, I am saying that I have both talents and looks.

He had a big smile, big white teeth, and it was obvious that he didn't smoke.

and I?I don't even want to show a smile, no matter how white my teeth are, I won't show them.

When the game was over, I never wanted to see him again, because after this meal, I was more tired than I had been working all day.

On the way home, my mother called me to ask me about my situation, and asked if I had done anything for my cousin.

I was really angry: "What can I do?"

Over the years, I have mixed feelings about my parents.

After asking, I said: "I'm busy, Mom, don't call me for a while."

There are really enough things to do every day, but she still does this for me, so that I can't sleep because of tossing and turning in bed at night.

I couldn't calm down, and the audio that Xu Luo also sent me had no effect for a while.

Just when I was about to get up and drink to solve the problem, what Xu Luoye said popped into my mind.

She said I could call her.

I pursed my lips, held the wine glass, hesitated for a while, put the glass away again, nestled under the quilt, and called Xu Luo too.

Before that, she sent me an audio message as if she had completed a daily task. If it was normal, I would have fallen asleep by this time.

So I call and she's kind of surprised.

I didn't speak, but she called me uncertainly, "Teacher Yu."

It was quiet on either side of us, she didn't hold her phone very close, but I could still hear her breathing.

Shallow breathing.

The desk lamp has been turned off by me, the mobile phone has also been locked, and there is no place in the room that is shining.

She called me, but seeing that I didn't respond, she said to me again: "Wait a minute, the dog outside is barking, I'll go and have a look."

"it is good."

There was indeed a dog barking from her side, and it barked several times, but when it reached me, the volume was much lower.

After maybe five or six minutes, Xu Luoye's voice finally appeared again.

She told me about the situation: "A hare came to the vegetable field, but it was blocked by the fence, and the dog was barking there."

When Xu Luo also spoke, her tone remained the same, but I don't know if it was because she was in her hometown, and her voice was relaxed again, and it sounded better than when I was here.

With my eyes closed, I became a fox in the forest again, feeling the trickle of water.

I asked, "How long have you had the dog?"

"ten years."

"How old is it in human years?"

"60 is old."

I tightened the quilt, curled my legs slightly, and said, "I also raised a dog before, a little Pomeranian, very cute, but the time I kept it was very short, and he was ill and couldn't be rescued."

"My condolences." Xu Luo also comforted me.

She was right, the countryside is really quiet, and the quietness is very comfortable, although the most I hear is her dog barking.

This also made me a little confused, because I didn't know when I fell asleep, and I only got the answer after looking at the call time.

I also talked to Xu Luo for about ten minutes, and I lost consciousness at all.

Although Xu Luo has also returned home, their school's sports meeting is still going on.

No, the sports meeting between their school and Miqi's school is still going on.

Mi Qi applied for the women's 800 meters, and the race was just this afternoon, and she sent me a special message to tell me about it.

I sent her my blessing: "Come on, win the first place, but don't let yourself get hurt."

About half an hour later, Mi Qi sent me another message saying that the running results came out. She really got No.1, but she twisted her foot a little in the process.

In fact, I am still a little confused now, because Mi Qi has gotten to know me very quickly, but it is a bit inexplicable.

I won't be so narcissistic that I think she likes me and behaves like this. It may not be impossible to be friends with me.

At the end of the day, I am narcissistic again.

But in fact, Mi Qi's own conditions are not bad, and she has no need to maintain a friendship with me who is six or seven years younger.

I really don't understand it, and I don't think I need to understand it, because the relationship between human beings is sometimes so delicate.

Perhaps with just one glance, two people can become lifelong friends or lovers.

Too normal though.

The host manuscript was almost finished. I went to the company on Friday afternoon, and Tang Jian'an printed out the manuscript, and took it to Principal Fan's office.

Principal Fan has emphasized before that she needs to read the paper, otherwise I will send her email and the job will be over, so why bother to go to the office.

And still with Tang Jianan.

I don't have much opinion of Tang Jian'an, except occasionally that he feels too good about himself.

He is not greasy, but not refreshing, not to mention that I am too lazy to communicate in the company.

"I have already rented the venue for the sports meeting, which is in a gymnasium one kilometer away."

"The project list has also been made, and I will post it to the group in a while, and every teacher has to participate."

When Principal Fan was speaking, she still had a smile on her face. She glanced at the host manuscript, nodded, and asked us to go back and think about what projects we can apply for.

When I left the principal's office, my face completely collapsed, because I had no interest in the sports meeting at all.

This is the same as team building in a company. Even if you don't like it very much, you have to participate, otherwise you will lose the conversation and give your boss a bad impression.

This educational institution is not run by my family.

After returning to her work station, Kong You came over and pointed to her mobile phone: "Mr. Yu, do you want to apply for any project?"

We have a total of 32 teachers. It is not like when we were in school with many people and everything was lively. We have set up five sports events, but they are basically group events.

Two-person three-legged running, toss-ball running, collective rope skipping...

After reading the documents posted in the group, I fell silent, took a deep breath, and replied, "Maybe jump rope."

Kong You nodded: "These are fun projects." She has stayed in the company longer than me, "It was the same as when I was studying, 50 meters long jump."

I rubbed my temples: "It's not as good as these."

Forcibly interacting with colleagues makes me feel a little irritable.

After get off work at night, I drove to Hou Jin's place and returned the clothes I borrowed from her.

I didn't enter her room, it was just outside the community, and I didn't even get out of the car. Hou Jin leaned against my car door and asked me with a smile: "I said you can pay me back later."

After washing and drying her, I returned it to her.

I held the steering wheel, glanced at the empty co-pilot, and said, "Forget it, I won't worry about returning this clothes late."

Hou Jin gave a "tsk" sound, "Isn't that little lover in your family not letting me go?"

"how come?"

"She's back home."

Hou Jin's smile didn't go away: "So that's how it is. I just said why come and deliver clothes to me when you have time." She blinked her eyes and moved her head closer, "Are you lonely? Do you want me to accompany you? I just happen to be free." For a long time."

"Go away."

After separating from Hou Jin, my mood has improved a lot. After all, there are still some odd and small things on the company side and my mother's side recently, which makes me feel a little uncomfortable when I think about it.

Rarely, my mood improved a bit. I went back and took a shower as usual and dried my hair. I was ready to listen to Xu Luoye's sleep aid channel on time at ten o'clock.

But it was ten o'clock, and Xu Luo hadn't sent me the audio file yet. I thought there was a network error, so I reconnected to Wi-Fi.

However, there is no problem with the network. After 5 minutes, there is still no new message.

I bit my lip and thought for a while before calling Xu Luoye again.

But there was a long beep over there, until the mechanical female voice reminded that the other party was busy, but no one answered.

This made me frown, glanced at the phone interface, and called Xu Luoye.

This time, after more than ten seconds, the other side finally answered.

I pursed my lips and asked her, "Are you asleep?"

"No."

"It's dealing with things."

She finished and asked me, "Can I call you later?"

"it is good."

She spoke seriously, and after hanging up the phone, I received her audio file.

It may be to let me brew sleepiness first.

And it was the first time she wasn't on time.

I put on the earphones and turned it on. It was Yu Hua's "To Live" that she read when I bumped into her that day.

An extremely sad novel, she read it with the same meaning, there was no noise around me, and she was very quiet when she recorded it.

Xu Luoye's enunciation is very clear, and her flat tongue is also divided correctly. Listening to her is a kind of enjoyment.

If it was normal, maybe I would have been drowsy, but when I thought of her normal tone just now, I didn't feel much sleepy.

Wait for her to contact me again.

After more than 20 minutes, "Alive" in the earphones became the ringtone of my mobile phone.

Xu Luo also called.

I answered, but didn't speak, and she didn't say anything immediately.

Five seconds later, Xu Luo also spoke, "Teacher Yu."

She said calmly: "My parents called back."

I froze for a moment: "What?"

I frowned: "Did you say anything?"

"Ask me if I am married now. If I am married, will the other party give a betrothal gift, and how much is the betrothal gift?"

Xu Luo also sniffed: "Why is this happening?"

She asked: "After so many years, why do you come up and ask all these questions?"