This crash lasted a long time.

From evening to midnight, from midnight to early morning.

His eyes were so red and swollen that he couldn't stop his body from trembling uncontrollably until the tears ran out.

Fortunately, someone has been holding him.

Give him a hug, give him warmth, give him encouragement.

Just like when he was bullied by others when he was a child, when he was bored alone, there would always be an angel-like little brother who would come to give him sweets, tell him stories, and teach him more knowledge that other little ghosts don't know.

Thinking about it carefully, in fact, he has always been by his side.

The man hugged him all the time, and finally, when the sun showed its first light, he hummed a song in his ear.

It's their chorus...

I can't forget... my persistence.

Thank you for catching your light in the dark.

The darkness fades away, and the dawn is approaching... make a promise with me to meet in the future.

When it was dawn, the boy spoke hoarsely.

"elder brother."

"I'm here."

... He took a deep breath and rubbed against the man, his hair limply stuck between his collarbones.

"Brother, I love you."

"Hey, I love you too. I will always love you."

After the ninth episode of "Sword" was broadcast, audiences across the Internet ushered in a wave of crying.

Many people said that this is the first time that Li Zhan has been suppressed since his debut four years ago.

At the end, He Xiao was hugged by Yan Lang, and Yan Lang's crying became popular in the hot search, and the comments were reposted by tens of millions. Every fan who watched the drama was infected by his emotions, and baskets of tissues were thrown away.

——I literally cried out all the negative emotions in my life with him!Many people say so.

The popularity is climbing upwards, and there are various topics about Li Zhan and Yi Bo, as well as their cp, one after another, especially various gossip about Yi Bo's childhood experience that was exposed before.

Good and bad stories are mixed together, and thousands of versions of the story about a generation of top platinum princes have been compiled.

Everyone is curious about the truth.

On this day, Yibo really participated in a radio interview.

His voice came from the sound of the radio current.

He is always unique.

Whether it's the eyes like the Milky Way, or the voice like the snow.

The sound enters the hearts of the people and takes the hearts of the people.

There were only a few people in the studio, the lights in the city were turned off, and His Royal Highness was telling bedtime stories...

"

Hello everyone, I am Yibo, or...you can call me Merovingian.

I'm here to respond to a lot of things that have happened recently.

Thank you to all my friends and Boliu who care about me, thank you, I have received all your wishes.

I read a lot of reviews online.As many platinum streams are very sad after seeing the recorded photos and videos, they want me to come forward and clarify that I was not like that before... Maybe some fans can't accept my childhood experience, can't imagine my flawed childhood, can't accept I look great but I used to be like that...but now I have to admit that what happened in those videos is true.

Well, it's all true.

I'm afraid the truth will disappoint many people, I'm not as perfect as you see.I also used to hate being so cowardly and inferior. Occasionally when I recalled the past, I would be very puzzled. Why I couldn’t fight back at that time, why I was isolated...

I didn't know the answer before, and maybe I don't know the real answer now, but I have a lot of ideas along the way, and I hope to share them with you.

Especially sharing it with friends who had the same childhood adversity as me.

People living in this world will encounter different dangers at different times.

For those of you who can hear my words, you should all be adults, or soon to be adults, all in all, this is the time when you can start to control the direction of your life.

And everyone can't control their own time, the most easily overlooked time, and the most critical time is childhood.

People have needs since birth. They need water when they are thirsty, eat when they are hungry, rest when they are tired, and entertainment when they are bored.Little children are defenseless and helpless, and all their wants and needs come from the outside world.From the most basic survival needs to high-level spiritual needs, if the outside world does not give or gives negative feedback, then children will naturally be ignored and suppressed, resulting in a distorted cognition of the self.

I suffered from it.

For me, as a child, I longed to play with other children to gain a sense of social identity, but they isolated me, so I lost my identity.

They were always talking badly to me, so I had doubts about my appearance.

They say that everything I have does not belong to me, it is a charity from others, and I don't deserve to have good things, so I also have doubts about my inner self.

The accumulation of all negative feedback and stimulation made me sensitive and inferior.

What you want, never dare to tell.

I dare not cry when I am sad, for fear of causing trouble to others.

I feel like I'm not worth being taken seriously.

Perhaps at that time, I subconsciously thought that everything in this world... was malicious.

But how do children know what is malicious and what is good intentions?

Children take everything they receive for granted.

So I let it take its course and thought that I was as unbearable as they said.

Mom was just like me...even worse than me.

I used to hate everything and think why was I born into this world?This world is so painful and sad, why should I live?

... Then I remembered what my mother said, because there will be very good people waiting for me on the road in the future.

She has already met.

And so will I.

If... life is too painful for you, it must be because you haven't met the right person.

To me, those kids who are violent are the wrong ones.

So I will feel very painful, but unfortunately I have no way to escape when I was young.

Although childhood was difficult, both me and my mother were lucky to meet someone who made our lives meaningful.

In the most difficult time, the saddest time, I only need to look at him—not much, just one look, and I can stand up and move on.

Because I know that this person is waiting for me on the road of growth.

I want to catch up with him. At that time, he is the meaning of my life.

He is very good, it is not an exaggeration to say that he is the only sun in my world.

Who is he?

Hmm... a very important person.

You can see that many of the qualities that you like in me are learned from him... He is tenacious and strong, and I will not give up easily; he strives for excellence, and I will pursue perfection; he never said 'I can't do it' ', I always keep in mind that everything is possible... You see, the bullying I have been bullied since I was a child is true, but my persistence in the past 20 years is also true.

My world is very dark, the darkness creates many cracks, and the dazzling him walks into my world through the cracks.

Those cracks made me cringe and feel inferior.

Low self-esteem and flaws can make people grow.

As long as I admit I'm flawed, admit it, get over it.

You may think that my life experience is confusing, and I agree, because when I was a child, I always had doubts about myself.

Why do other kids have parents and I don't?

Why do they all say I'm a monster without a dad, am I really a monster?

Because of their pointing and pointing, I fell into a deep inferiority complex until after my debut, I became a beloved platinum prince, with so many honors added to me and loved by so many fans. I still haven't affirmed myself.

Everyone lives with a mask, a camera and a lens, that's my mask.The image that I am active in front of the screen may be modeled after that person, because I want to learn from him and become an omnipotent person.

So I dare not face my true self--

Until recently, I never really saw my old self.

Only then did I know that those people pointing fingers at me are just jealous that I have more things than them, more things they can't get.

For example, they used to say that my eyes were monsters, but it was only because my eyes were different from theirs.

Different - doesn't mean it's bad.

Is it okay to be like them?

I just now understand such a simple truth, we just need to be ourselves.

Only after being yourself can you find the meaning of life. Well, although I am still groping, I have already figured out some clues.I also want to chat with you.

Poor me who was bullied before, right?Are you also timid?It looks so weak, even so cowardly that people feel that I hate iron and steel, I hate it myself...

But, that's me.

I have no flaws in front of the camera, and my every move is dazzling.

This is me too.

...No matter what, I am me, and you are you.

Do you feel abnormal by comparing yourself with those around you?Are you always envious of others being better than yourself?

But what is good, what is bad, what is beautiful, what is ugly... Is there a standard?

Some people laugh at your small eyes, laugh at your thick mouth, laugh at your short and thick legs, say that you are too fat, if you are thinner, if you are too thin, you will be more fleshy, and say that you are so short, why don’t you grow long? Gao, say that other people’s children are proficient in everything from piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, why can’t you know anything, and say that your voice is too ugly and you are too stupid, we won’t take you to play...

Is the person who said these words better than you?

Big eyes and thin mouth?Is dark skin unhealthy?Is it because you are stupid and stupid if you fail the exam this time?

no.

It's just that the time to bloom has not yet come.

We are still working on it.

Everyone is unique.No one else in this world can replace you.

The person who is waiting for you in the future will like you, no conditions, never picky, as long as you come to him——

As long as you grow up separately, you will finally meet solemnly at a certain moment.

You be yourself.

He will also be a better person.

The road to overcome childhood adversity is long and difficult.

But hold on.

There is always someone walking by your side, and you cheer each other on.

Sometimes someone leaves early, but there are others who make a new debut.

……

Every part of life will have regrets. Disappointment is not terrible, but loss of hope is the most terrible.

Those difficulties don't kill a person.

Beat the odds and survive.

……

I survived.

That's why you can see that I am worthy of your liking.

Now I can finally say with confidence that I... am worthy of your liking.

Do you know who is waiting for you in the future?

It doesn't matter if you don't know, just think about me first.

If no one can give you warmth and encouragement for the time being, just look at me...

I am here.

Without that person, I am that person.

Only by holding on can everything in the future come.

Good night then.

Tonight, have a good dream.

"

When it was over, he took off the earphones slowly.

I was stunned for a while, and my palms were sweaty.

...It's not difficult to put it this way.

Then he stood up and raised his eyelashes.

The person leaning against the door frame over there, tall and dignified, smiled gently at him.

The author has something to say:

How did I turn a joyous flirting showbiz into an academic research article?When I started the essay, my outline was only 30 words.

This article is also called:

A Survival Guide to Childhood Adversity

"How to Find Your Light in the Dark"

"Resist Cold Violence From Childhood"

"Child Growth Science and Care Psychology"

"lay down"

"Face Your Heart"

"The Meaning of Education"

"Practice of Rehabilitation of Target Center of Gravity Subtype Depression"

"Little Milk Dog, Be Good"

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