Surrender I

Have you ever trusted a person so much that you can give everything you have to him without reservation.

He knows everything about you, including those unspeakable secrets and unspeakable pasts.

He is the lighthouse when you are confused, the fishing boat when you are lonely, the shield when you are afraid, and the sword when you are rebellious.

He is like the stars and the sea, making you up and down, and also making you surrender.

The night is quiet and the galaxy is bright.Outside the white gauze curtains gently blown by the wind, there is a sandy beach gently caressed by the waves.There are two empty goblets on the wine cabinet by the floor-to-ceiling windows, and there is still a faint background of red wine on the clear glass walls.

On the huge European-style round bed, a naked man opened his body to form a large character. Looking carefully, his hands and feet were fixed to the four bed feet by leather ropes.The body was covered with bright red marks, which were the marks of being whipped by something long and thin, and blood beads had even ooze out in some places, which looked seductive and bewitching on his fair skin.It was a young face, with a high nose bridge that outlined the contours of the face more linearly.At this moment, he was panting with his eyes closed, his red-stained chest heaving violently.

A pair of hands wandered over him, stroking and kneading vigorously to reveal all the eroticism.The bound person has no ability to resist at all, and can only let the hands touch any part of his body.He opened his eyes as the hands moved to his lower body.

"Enough." His voice was a bit cold, just like his black eyes, without any color stained by lust.The man who was fiddling with his body was startled, and asked, "Are you going to stop?" He looked at the ceiling expressionlessly, and said, "Your level is not enough to excite me, and I don't want to waste any more time."

Such words obviously hurt the man's nerves. He rolled over and got out of bed with a gloomy face, untied the knot tied at the foot of the bed, and then took off the black horsewhip hanging from his wrist and put it on the bedside table. A little mockingly dropped a sentence: "Is it because my level is not enough, or is Xu Shao's excitement too low?"

Xu Ye, who was still lying in a big character without moving, frowned, and closed his eyes tiredly.

That's right.

It's his problem.

His rejection of the opposite sex in love comes from the few sexual encounters he encountered when he was young.At that time, he was still young, and the marriage between his father Xu Ting and his mother Zhou Jia was already in name only, but the two who got married because of the family business were very indifferent to each other, and giving birth to him was just a task of carrying on the family line.Zhou Jia likes to travel and spends much more time going out than at home.Xu Ting often finds time to bring different women home.It was the first time that eight-year-old Xu Ye stood downstairs and watched his father press the girl against the window, and his whole body froze with fright.It was the same afterward, the kind of physical collision without any sense of beauty made him feel sick to his stomach.

As he grew up, he discovered that he had no desire for women.He had girlfriends before, and he tried to break through this mental shackle more than once. He tried psychiatrists, medication and other methods, but he failed repeatedly. Facing all kinds of women, he even had difficulty getting an erection .

It was a wealthy second generation surnamed Liu who brought him into the same-sex circle. At that time, Xu Ting's catering business had already reached the north and south of the river, and his net worth skyrocketed.These sons and brothers played a lot of games, some Xu Ye couldn't accept it at all, and didn't participate in it.Liu Jing is one of them who came out openly. He is a gangster and often has some beautiful men around him.After getting acquainted with each other, he saw that Xu Ye had no interest in women, so he simply tempted him to try men, and very generously packed the boy with long eyelashes beside him to him for the night.

That night, the other party's initiative made Xu Ye feel a different kind of excitement for the first time.He tossed and tossed all night, almost failing the boy with long eyelashes.When he sent the person to Liu Jing the next day, he blushed and apologized repeatedly.Liu Jing laughed loudly, patted him on the shoulder and told him not to be so violent next time.After that, I often called him to play together.

But soon, Xu Ye found that his desire was constantly weakening.He even gradually lost interest in men.At that time, he had already graduated from university and joined Xu Ting's company. He started as a novice and gradually assumed important responsibilities.

What really changed him was a video on someone's phone at a party.The lawless young master tied up a subordinate who offended him with a rope and whipped him and took a video to show off.

Strong rope, fragile flesh.Scarlet welts, sobbing necks.

Xu Ye sat on the spot with a flushed face, looking at the blindfolded man in the mobile phone, a certain part of him sleeping between his legs under the table suddenly hardened uncontrollably.That night, he couldn't sleep in bed at all, and he fantasized about being tied up.He gets pleasure from such fantasies, and then releases them exhaustingly.

He started to take the initiative to contact sm, and then when he found that the means he craved became more and more intense, and he relied more and more on pain for pleasure, he began to collapse.He felt like a monster, a pervert, a disgusting guy who needed to be abused to get out.He began to hate himself for this, but kept relying on this feeling, unable to stop, like taking drugs.

At this moment, Xu Ye was not only tired physically, but more mentally.The man who left just now is named Luo Tuo, which is of course not his real name, but just his nickname in the gay circle.The relationship between Xu Ye and him lasted for almost half a year. He was good at it. He could satisfy Xu Ye at first, but then gradually lost his effectiveness, which made him very helpless.He has gradually become numb to pain, unable to get the pleasure he wants.He is worried that if this continues, he will really become a sexually impotent.

He needs a lifeline.