Sharp first test

Before tonight, Mingxu had fantasized about saying "I like you" to Yang Shiqing many times.

Where, day or night.Yang Shiqing definitely wouldn't guess that he was going to say he liked him, would his expression be surprise or rejection?

In the imagination, after Mingxu finished saying "I like you", he stepped forward and boldly kissed Yang Shiqing's lips.Different from the casual pecking kisses in reality, the kisses that Mingxu expects are warm and turbulent, coming like a storm wrapped in strong passion.His kiss first landed on the corner of Yang Shiqing's mouth, then on his neck, and then on his collarbone... Every touch of hot skin is suffocating.

Even Mingxu once fantasized that he would push Yang Shiqing down on the clean and soft bed, and the soft and white belly of the person under him could be faintly seen.He stretched out his hand and pushed the hem of Yang Shiqing's clothes to his chest, and covered it with a delicate and gentle kiss... Then, he frightened Yang Shiqing.

Yang Shiqing looked at him with surprised and bewildered eyes, and all the heat quickly turned cold.

Then came now, that night, after Ming Xu let go of Yang Shiqing, the New Year's fireworks bloomed in front of the two of them, blurring the sound of the lake in their ears.

Yang Shiqing also had the same look in his eyes.

Ming Xu was almost stung, and after a long time, Yang Shiqing smiled and said, "Impossible."

Mingxu was so worn out that he lost his temper. He was angry and helpless. In a moment of heat, he almost rushed to kiss him again, but Yang Shiqing quickly separated him with his hands. This time, Yang Shiqing's face became even more ugly: "...Are you serious? ?”

Neither of them said a word until they returned to the hotel.

Mingxu suddenly felt a little regretful, did he choose the wrong timing?Maybe men are selfish and cruel.He didn't even give Yang Shiqing any space or opportunity to buffer, and directly forcibly lost an unexpected idea to him.This is actually unfair to Yang Shiqing.

Ming Xu obviously has 1 choices, but why can't he bear it now?

Before today, Mingxu was only Yang Shiqing's friend, their friendship was precious and pure.After tonight, they are still friends, but this kind of relationship is not pure, and everything they do seems to have a purpose.

Yang Shiqing must have felt very uncomfortable.

Ming Xu sighed, looked at Yang Shiqing who was standing on the balcony without showing his face, consciously picked up his coat, and said: "I'll go downstairs...to buy a bottle of drink."

Mingxu closed the door, but instead of going to the convenience store downstairs, he bought a can of iced black tea from the vending machine, and walked to the farther square.

The square is very lively, it is already two o'clock in the morning, but the festive atmosphere is still very strong.Ming Xu stood on the bridge and looked at the neon lights of the city, and there were people coming and going on the street.

Mingxu took a sip of the iced black tea, the sweet and cool taste was in his mouth, but his heart was messed up.

Mingxu thought a lot, he remembered that Yang Shiqing was a child a long time ago, he remembered that Yang Shiqing sincerely treated him like a brother, he remembered Yang Shiqing's complicated and lonely expression just now.

The more he thought about it, the more confused his mind became, Ming Xu almost lost sleep.

Mingxu didn't return to the hotel until nearly five o'clock, Yang Shiqing was still still awake, so he took the initiative to open the door for him.

Mingxu was a little surprised, Yang Shiqing frowned, lowered his head and thought for a while, and suddenly said: "I don't know..."

"Ah."

Seeing that Yang Shiqing seemed to have recovered from being kissed by the man just now, Ming Xu breathed a sigh of relief.

Yang Shiqing said seriously, "...Can we talk?"

Today Yang Shiqing sat a little far away from Mingxu.Mingxu put the iced black tea that he had only taken a sip on the side of the table, his eyes wandering.He was a little afraid to look at Yang Shiqing's lips, fearing that he would recall something he shouldn't.

"Mingxu, what you said...is that what I understand?"

"Yes," Ming Xu said, "You have not misunderstood."

Yang Shiqing continued to ask: "Why?"

Ming Xu was momentarily at a loss for words.

"are you gay?"

"Ah."

Yang Shiqing was so nervous that she couldn't even speak.After a long while, I tentatively said: "...Is it because Wenze and the others made a fuss about you being my boyfriend? Actually, they were joking, so don't take it too seriously..."

Mingxu couldn't help laughing, little fool Yang Shiqing, how can a person's feelings and inclinations be changed by a joke?

Seeing that Mingxu didn't speak, Yang Shiqing realized that his question seemed a little strange, and he lowered his head helplessly, and raised it again after a while, as if he wanted to explain the opening statement just now: "I don't know, you are..."

Mingxu smiled: "It's okay."

"Have you always been...?" Yang Shiqing seemed to be a little suspicious, and asked again.

Ming Xu paused for a moment: "...Yes."

Yang Shiqing hesitated to speak several times, but Mingxu took the initiative to break the ice and said, "Do you want to ask me since when did I like you?"

Yang Shiqing's eyes were a little nervous, and Mingxu's heart was in a mess, and he said: "I don't know—maybe, it was before I had this consciousness..."

Yang Shiqing didn't speak any more.

Mingxu asked: "Did I cause you any trouble?"

"……I have no idea……"

Yang Shiqing buried his head even lower, Mingxu sighed: "Do you feel embarrassed?"

"...A little bit." Yang Shiqing regretted it after finishing speaking, and said in a panic, "I don't know..."

Mingxu stared at the iced black tea on the table for a while, the plastic shell was covered with a layer of mist.

"I respect your decision," Ming Xu stretched out a hand towards Yang Shiqing, "We are still friends, if you don't mind, this will not change."

Yang Shiqing's eyes became a little complicated in an instant, and Ming Xu's heart felt sour, how did things become like this?

The next day Yang Shiqing lay in bed with his head covered and pretended to be asleep, unwilling to come out. Mingxu didn't bother him, but just put the breakfast he bought on the bedside table, turned around and went out by himself.

Ming Xu returned to Tsinghua University by bicycle, the school was quiet and peaceful in the early morning.The traces of yesterday's carnival had long since disappeared.

Pushing his bicycle, Ming Xu walked slowly past the auditorium and library... The school in front of him was magnificent and beautiful, but it seemed that something was missing, and Ming Xu's mood became a bit mixed.

Before leaving, Ming Xu finally stopped at the gate of the West School.The haze in his chest seems to be lingering forever, Mingxu turned around and took another look at the school gate he was already familiar with, and the shadow of a person was stretched very long.

The New Year's Day holiday has ended for two days, and the study and life of the third year of high school will soon return to normal.

In the self-study class that day, Wen Ze was halfway through writing the inscription when he suddenly felt like peeing, so he put down his pen and walked out the door, not caring if anyone was following him.

"Wen Ze!"

A voice suddenly sounded behind him, Wen Ze was taken aback for a moment, then turned his head to look, hehe, isn't this the kid Yang Shiqing?

Yang Shiqing ran a few steps to catch up with Wen Ze, but he hesitated for a long time but couldn't say a word.Wen Ze was about to go to the bathroom, and didn't have time to watch him coy, so he asked, "Brother, is there anything wrong? You go back to do your homework, and I'm here to relieve myself. Why are you joining in the fun?"

Yang Shiqing frowned, and immediately let go: "Okay, you go and relieve yourself first... Let's talk when we have time."

are you crazy?

Wen Ze rolled his eyes and ran to the bathroom.When he came out, Yang Shiqing had already returned to the classroom.

What's the matter, it's mysterious.

Wen Ze didn't think much, just sat down and started to organize his thoughts and write questions again.A class passed quickly, and when it was time for lunch in the afternoon, Wen Ze was about to go to the cafeteria with a bowl, but Liu Xi stepped forward and stopped him suddenly.

Wen Ze was taken aback subconsciously, and smiled a little embarrassedly: "Do you want to have dinner together?"

Liu Xi shook her head, and also smiled: "Yang Shiqing asked me to ask you: Are you free now?"

"..."

Well, why do you think so?Wen Ze put down the bowl, saw Yang Shiqing sitting on his seat in a daze through Liuxi, and couldn't help sighing: "Why didn't he ask me himself?"

"I don't know," Liu Xi smiled, "Maybe I'm a little embarrassed."

"What's wrong with me?"

While speaking, Wen Ze had already walked towards Yang Shiqing's seat.When Yang Shiqing came back to his senses, Wen Ze was handing him a piece of crispy rice: "Here, don't you want dinner?"

"I won't eat, thank you." Yang Shiqing took it, but just put it aside without tearing it apart.

Wen Ze was a little curious: "Brother Yang is not in a good mood today?"

Yang Shiqing looked into Wen Ze's eyes, but his words suddenly became choked up in his throat, and he only looked away a little bit disappointed for a long time.

Wen Ze let out a "tsk", and then saw that the test papers spread out on Yang Shiqing's desk were white. Isn't this the homework due today?Hey, Yang Shiqing, the little bully who doesn't like reading, has returned to his glory?

"What's the matter, you?" Wen Ze frowned, and took the test paper and slapped it on Yang Shiqing's forehead, "I was absent-minded every day. You seemed to be like this yesterday, too."

"I don't understand."

"I don't understand what."

"Wen Ze," Yang Shiqing suddenly looked at him seriously, "You said I looked gay before, why did you say that?"

"...Ah?" Wen Ze thought he was angry, and hurriedly explained, "No, I was just joking. Aren't you and Ming Xu on good terms? I'm talking nonsense."

"But you said before, I look at him differently?"

Wen Ze blinked. At that time, he had said something unintentionally, but Yang Shiqing remembered it for so long: "I'm talking nonsense... There is no other meaning."

Yang Shiqing stopped talking again, which could make Wen Ze die in a hurry.

Wen Ze pondered secretly for a long time, and said in his heart, why did he suddenly ask me this question today.Seeing Yang Shiqing's sentimental appearance... "What did Mingxu tell you?"

Yang Shiqing's back stiffened, and his expression was not right: "I didn't say anything."

Yang Shiqing was an easy guess.

Wen Ze was a little surprised, but for some reason, he was just a little surprised.

"real or fake?"

"What are you talking about?" The more Wen Ze pressed, the more Yang Shiqing's expression froze.

Wen Ze glanced around, no one was there, then bent a little, leaned into Yang Shiqing's ear and said, "You... really like him? He has a girlfriend, so you are—jealous?"

Yang Shiqing's face darkened, and he threw the textbook over Wen Ze's head: "What are you talking about! You idiot!"

"Then..." Wen Ze dodged Yang Shiqing's attack in a panic, and guessed again, "Is it the other way around?"

Yang Shiqing froze his movements this time, his face turned pale and red and then blue, and he choked out a sentence for a long time: "...I didn't have a girlfriend!"

Wen Ze was taken aback: "So it's true?"

Yang Shiqing looked away in embarrassment.

Wen Ze spent half a minute thinking about it, accepted the fact, and finally blew a whistle to express his understanding: "Actually, it's not easy to have a friend like Ming Xu. It's all about fate, don't say who else No way."

After thinking for a while, Wen Ze added: "But Mingxu came to you to talk about this at this time, isn't it a bit bad? You see, you are affected now, and you can't even read the book."

Yang Shiqing sighed, then shook his head again: "I'm just a little..."

"Accident?"

"Ah."

"Actually, I think—" Wen Ze scratched his hair, "It's okay, maybe it's because I also have a friend who is gay. In fact, Mingxu treats you... differently from ordinary friends. I used to be a little bit like this It's a feeling. I didn't expect it to be true."

"It's just being nice to friends, why is it different?"

"Of course a man would be willing to do something for a friend, but Mingxu's... is a bit different." Wen Ze frowned, unable to explain why for a long time, "That's right, how should I put it. I just feel it ! It feels a bit tired of a man doing that to another man..."

Yang Shiqing stopped talking.

"Actually, I think Mingxu may indeed have some thoughts about you. But you—you seem to be quite innocent, and you don't realize it at all."

"But in a word, I don't want to say much about this kind of thing. Now others are coming back from eating, and there are too many people in the classroom." Wen Ze patted Yang Shiqing's shoulder, "I think so, personal suggestion, now Well, you are still in the third year of high school, and you will take the exam in a few months. You want to be a brother or a friend, and you still have a lot of time in the future. I am a little surprised that Ming Xu came to tell you at this point, I didn’t expect him to be so serious. People who can’t hold their breath? In short, I want you to think carefully. Look at you now, people only say a few words to you, and your mind is messed up. You don’t even write a book or read it. Promise Woolen cloth."

In fact, Wen Ze is quite right.

Wen Ze did give him the most pertinent advice on his position as a friend.Yang Shiqing was worried that Wen Ze would be prejudiced against this kind of thing, so he couldn't take the initiative to speak up.Looking at it now...Yang Shiqing was actually quite lucky.

This matter was originally a matter between two people, and it was a very private matter. No matter what, Yang Shiqing was unwilling to talk about it with a third person.Seeking advice from Wen Ze this time, Yang Shiqing also had a depressing psychological struggle.

But on the one hand, Yang Shiqing was very scared, afraid that he would get into a dead end, afraid that he would be overwhelmed and do something against his heart.After returning from Beijing, Yang Shiqing had been hiding from Mingxu for two days, he knew that this would make both of them sad.

Mingxu is his very important friend, but at such a critical moment, he was the first to retreat...