Never be a bully again

"Is it possible? It's been such a long time, Ye Zi's big money and his family have accepted it, has my dad gradually figured it out?"

Xue Mu frowned: "Isn't it the same... They proposed and got married so vigorously, Ouyang Ye's mother and his aunt who had a lot of money also went to the wedding and walked the red carpet, if they figured it out It's justifiable, we two..."

"What's wrong with us?" Wan Chaoyang tilted his head and said, "Although we didn't propose marriage, our lives have been like this, isn't it better than them?"

Xue Mu couldn't laugh or cry: "Why do you keep comparing yourself with others? I mean, from your father's point of view, there is no development or change between us, and there is no reason to cause him to change his mind."

Wan Chaoyang pursed his lips and thought about it for a while, and finally waved his hand and said, "Oh, let him go, let's go first."

In fact, Xue Mu himself was not very afraid of meeting Wan Shuqing. Although he was a little guilty when he was bumped into the scene of the crime where he tasted the forbidden fruit when he was young, and he was forced to give up Qingbei by forcing Wan Chaoyang to give up Qingbei, but After work, he often accompanied Wan Chaoyang to visit him as a buddy, and gradually accumulated a lot of good feelings. However, after Wan Chaoyang came out, Wan Shuqing did not accept their relationship. It was also the news of Cui Lijun's death, and he hadn't seen it for nearly two years, so he was still a little embarrassed.

On the Friday before departure, Xue Mu went to the shopping mall to buy some nutritional and health products for Wan Shuqing. Later, he was afraid that this would make Wan Shuqing feel that he was being treated as an old man, so he did what he liked and ran to I went around the piano store, picked out a metronome that looked rather foreign, and bought a popular ukulele, and finally bought some cigarettes and alcohol, and stuffed them into the small Toyota trunk.

Wan Chaoyang asked him why he didn't drive back in a new car. After all, he had already driven back to Jingxi once during the Spring Festival. In the suburban town of Lianxing City, driving such a car was very cool. Shuqing has a long face.

Xue Mu laughed at him for not knowing the ways of the world. When he drove a luxury car home, it would be a glory for his ancestors. If he drove it, he would be squandering his son’s money. Only a broken car can reflect his excellent quality of thrift and housekeeping. .

Seeing that he was so serious and cautious, Wan Chaoyang couldn't laugh or cry. In fact, there was no other conflict between him and Wan Shuqing except that he and Wan Shuqing couldn't deal with the matter of coming out of the closet. They had rebelled and resisted in school, but gradually When I grow up, I understand Wan Shuqing, especially after Cui Lijun passed away, there is only such a close relative left in the world, two men who are not good at words, in fact, they care about and depend on each other more and more silently in their hearts, Wan Chaoyang knows very well that Wan Shuqing Shuqing's character and temper, his usual gentleness and kindness, are the last things that need such deliberate flattery.

But since Xue Mu insisted, he didn't say anything more. After all, it was Wan Shuqing who took the initiative to invite Xue Mu to Jingxi this time. If you don't ask for this meeting to bury the suspicion and everything will be fine, at least you can start this relationship again.

On the day of the Lantern Festival, Xue Mu got up early to clean up and wash, and changed clothes in the closet one after another, neither wanting to be too casual to look disrespectful, nor too formal to look unnatural. When Wan Chaoyang went to meet Xue Feng and He Donglan to buy a suit, he thought it was a bit funny in retrospect, and finally understood Wan Chaoyang's uneasy mood at the beginning.

Wan Chaoyang fell asleep with a lot of heart until after ten o'clock. After getting up, he swiped the daily life of Onmyoji, picked up Hui Yeji, and showed Xue Mu with a smile, saying, "I'm lucky today. An SSR will appear as soon as you open your eyes!"

Xue Mubian pursed his lips. He was no stranger to Wan Chaoyang's European spirit, and this could not be an argument for "today's luck is good". The meeting should also go well.

When the two arrived at Jingxi, it was almost noon, and they came to the door with big bags and small bags. Wan Shuqing had already set up a table of meals. Wan Shuqing carefully prepared.

Wan Chaoyang was a little moved when he saw it, and joked, "I've never cooked so many delicious dishes when I come back. Even if there are more Xue Mu today, the amount of dishes doesn't need to be doubled, right?"

Wan Shuqing smiled lightly, and only asked Wan Chaoyang and Xue Mu to wash their hands and sit down, but didn't say anything more.

Xue Mu and Wan Chaoyang washed their hands, and then opened the wine brought to Wan Shuqing, Wan Chaoyang looked at Wan Shuqing, and asked: "Do you want to drink with me or with Xue Mu? Anyway One of us has to drive."

Wan Shuqing pondered for a moment, then said: "Today is Saturday, don't even go back."

Xue Mu turned his head and looked at Wan Chaoyang, and quickly answered: "Then we both will have a drink with uncle." After finishing speaking, he filled a glass for all three of them one by one, then raised his glass and said with a smile: "Uncle, I respect you first and wish you good health and smooth work."

Wan Shuqing nodded, took a sip, and then looked at Wan Chaoyang. He wanted to tell him "don't drink too much due to allergies", but he felt that he was asking Xue Mu to block the wine for his son. Yes, it seems inappropriate, he was hesitating, but he heard Xue Mu whisper: "You drink less, don't feel uncomfortable later."

Wan Chaoyang responded, put down his wine glass and ate two mouthfuls of food hastily, but Wan Shuqing was very satisfied in his heart, couldn't help but smiled slightly, picked up the chopsticks, and said with a smile: "Come on, Xue Mu, try it, the craftsmanship is average, But still able to swallow."

Hearing this, Xue Mu quickly picked up two chopsticks and put them into his mouth. He even praised "delicious" before swallowing them. Wan Shuqing and Wan Chaoyang couldn't help but smile when they saw him. That smile is different like and love.

After chatting a few words about the Spring Festival Gala, about work, and about school, half a bottle of wine has gone down, and a lot of food has been consumed. The strings in his heart were still tense and he did not dare to let go, he chatted with Wan Shuqing with vigor, but the topic had to gradually focus on the elephant in the room.

"I saw Daqian'er's wedding on the Internet," Wan Shuqing said with a smile, stroking the wine glass with her fingers, "It went pretty well."

Xue Mu quietly looked at Wan Shuqing. Like Wan Chaoyang, he blushed when he drank alcohol. Maybe it was a symptom of allergies. He wanted to persuade him to drink less, but he was still here after all. He was much more cautious and didn't dare to overwhelm others, so he could only keep winking at Wan Chaoyang, but Wan Chaoyang himself had already passed out from drinking, and he didn't care about his father at all, he just hiccupped with his chin resting on his hands.

"Yangyang was an introverted child since he was a child, and he didn't have any particularly good classmates, and he didn't like to talk about school with me. It's rare to hear a few names, that is, you and Daqianer, and Dazhao, Xiao... Xiaopeng?"

"Yes, Xiaopeng," Xue Mu said with a smile, "In China and Japan, he seems to be an anesthetist. Dazhao is graceful, and he is the vice president of his father-in-law. He was married the year before last. For big money, their day is New Year’s Day.”

Wan Shuqing nodded, and said softly, "You have all grown up and are quite promising."

Xue Mu smiled lightly, remained silent for a moment, and then said: "No matter what they do, they are still working for others, and people like Chaoyang are the most enviable."

Wan Shuqing waved his hand and said with a smile: "You don't have to praise him in front of me all the time, I don't know yet, without you, he wouldn't be where he is today."

"Uncle, you are too serious." Xue Mu smiled and kicked the drowsy Wan Chaoyang lightly under the table.

"Huh?" Wan Chaoyang woke up suddenly, looked at the two people in front of him with confused eyes, and answered in a random way: "Ah, yes."

"..." Xue Mu stroked his forehead helplessly, but Wan Shuqing was amused by his befuddled appearance, raised his glass and said, "Come Xue Mu, uncle respects you."

"Hey, don't, don't..." Xue Mu hurriedly picked up his wine glass and stood up, "I should respect you..."

Wan Shuqing shook his head with a smile, and said, "I should toast you, thank you for taking care of Yangyang for so many years."

"Where is it?" Xue Mu laughed hurriedly, "He is the one who takes care of me."

Hearing what he said, Wan Chaoyang couldn't help but smile, and continued: "Take care of each other, take care of each other."

Wan Shuqing took a look at Wan Chaoyang, shook his head and said, "I don't understand Yangyang? I have never been good at taking care of others. I saw it when I had the operation last time. You are so busy, you are better than me. Take care."

"It should be... that should be..."

Wan Shuqing raised his glass again, Xue Mu hurriedly touched him lightly, Wan Shuqing drank the rest of the wine in the glass in one gulp, seeing Xue Mu, he had no choice but to bite the bullet and dry himself. Wan Chaoyang hurriedly picked up the wine bottle and filled Wan Shuqing with wine.

Wan Shuqing picked up the chopsticks and took another two mouthfuls of cold fish, Xue Mu hurriedly got up and said, "How about I reheat the dishes?"

Wan Shuqing smiled, put down his chopsticks, waved his hands and said, "Sit down, I'll talk to you for a while."

As soon as Xue Mu heard this, most of the wine woke up immediately, and he sat back on the chair anxiously, turned his head to look at Wan Chaoyang, and saw that he was also much more awake, and was trying to pull himself together to listen to Wan Shuqing's words, but his hands were under the table Holding him gently, Xue Mu felt more at ease.

"This matter between you two..." Wan Shuqing opened his mouth slowly, "To be honest, I really... I really find it hard to accept..."

No. 140 The third question has no despair that will not stop

Xue Mu's heart sank, he pursed his lips and forced a smile, knowing that there must be a turning point in the future, so he didn't answer, and also pulled Wan Chaoyang who couldn't sit still, telling him not to be impulsive.

Wan Shuqing was silent for a moment, as if talking to Xue Mu, and as if talking to himself, he continued: "I don't know what your parents' attitude is towards this matter, but from the time you were hospitalized, I think They should be more recognized. I don’t know what they think in their hearts, but... But at our age, who doesn’t want our children to get married and have children smoothly, and let us hug our grandchildren. Your father Mom is willing to accept you like this, but in fact it is just that she has suffered a lot."

Wan Chaoyang opened his mouth to refute, but was pulled by Xue Mu again, so he could only restrain himself, and listened to him quietly.

"I know, you are young and energetic now, and you are willing to risk everything for the so-called love," Wan Shuqing continued with lowered eyes, "I don't want to say whether this is love or not, what can you two boys have? As for the future, I really can't see it. Let's say that the big money is also married, so what, such a marriage... After all, it is meaningless. Even if the law is really amended in the future and you are allowed to get married, I still...I still can't understand, can't accept."

Xue Mu looked at Wan Shuqing, who looked painful and helpless, and couldn't help sighing softly. He knew that there were very few parents like Xue Feng and He Donglan in the world, and there were more parents like Wan Shuqing. They really want their children to live a happy life, but if they don’t live the life they envisioned, they really can’t imagine a good life, and they even feel pain for their children, so they always try to stop it. , not to let the tragedies they think happen.

"The last time Yangyang had surgery, I saw some... those things in the place where you lived, and I already knew the relationship between the two of you," Wan Shuqing continued with some frustration, "I was... I I was very desperate at the time, I really never... never thought that this kind of thing would happen to me, I didn't know what I could do, so I had to run back to Jingxi, pretending I didn't know anything, hoping that one day Yang Yang would be able to Correct the evil and return to the right, but the result... the result is that he personally admitted to me about the two of you. He told me that he didn't want to ask for my consent, but to get my blessing, and I answered him that I can only do To ignore him, but never accept, never bless."

Xue Mu's nose felt sour for a while, and he turned to look at Wan Chaoyang, who looked gloomy. He only knew that Wan Shuqing didn't want to accept their affairs, but he had never heard such a report from Wan Chaoyang, and was told by his father, " I will never bless you", he couldn't imagine how much pain Wan Chaoyang suffered in his heart at that time.

Wan Chaoyang was also a little depressed. These words reminded him of the painful past of Cui Lijun's death when he came out of the closet. He shook Xue Mu's hand vigorously, and Xue Mu held him back, as if they were conveying encouragement and courage to each other. .

"It's been almost two years since then. In the past two years, I have also watched his public coming out and the interviews he gave, as well as the parade you went to and the big money. I also know." Wan Shuqing's voice became more and more dull, "I looked around and on the Internet, all of which are support for this kind of thing. In fact, sometimes I wonder in my heart, am I too stubborn, or I can't keep up with the times? I really can't figure it out, I don't understand why the world is like this, allowing this kind of thing to prevail."

Wan Shuqing drank a sip of wine alone while talking, his expression became more and more painful and confused: "Everyone knows about Yangyang's troubles, many colleagues and relatives have come to ask me, I don't know how to tell them, I can only say I don't care about him, what he likes to do, and then they all persuade me, saying that I should accept it, saying that this is the general trend in the future, homosexuality and heterosexuality are the same. I don't know how sincere they are in these words, Do I really hope that there will be no barrier between me and Yang Yang, or just say a few beautiful words and watch the fun? I really want to ask them if their son is gay, can they accept it, but I can’t say──then is a curse.

"So I can only try my best to listen to what they say, and repeatedly persuade myself to accept this fact that cannot be changed. Sometimes I will suddenly figure it out, thinking that as long as he is willing, I don't have to care about him, but sometimes I couldn't understand it when I was young, I really don't want my son to be gay." Wan Shuqing held his head in both hands, and inserted his fingertips deeply into the roots of his hair, revealing large areas of gray and white color, "I know ...I know it's not an option to continue like this...I'm over 50, and my mother is gone, and I don't know if I got sick that day and turned around, if I can't fight with Yang Yang Speaking of which, it may be my life, and Yang Yang's life's regret... So I asked him to call you... But... But... I... I really can't say it, just accept your words ...I...I really...I can't accept it..."

Xue Mu quietly listened to Wan Shuqing finish what he wanted to say, and clearly felt his embarrassment and entanglement. He knew that he was a kind and gentle person, but he was also an ordinary and cowardly person. He hoped that his son would live a happy life. Free and unrestrained, but afraid that he is too different, he dared to sacrifice his life to fulfill Wan Chaoyang, but he couldn't convince himself to go over the hurdle in his heart, he knew that he had been abandoned by the times, but he refused to admit it. The sad fact, he tried to force himself not to interfere in his son's life, but found that he had already lost himself.

Wan Chaoyang also lowered his head silently. For the past two years, he has been himself with great fanfare and brazenness. Although he and Wan Shuqing did not discuss this matter, he has invisibly shifted the pressure of the whole world onto his father. He is the first brother of Zhange, he is the pioneer of entrepreneurship, he has an infinite bright future and fans and friends around him, he can be proud and proud of his love, but Wan Shuqing is innocent, he is so happy, On the contrary, it was exploiting him. Although Wan Shuqing had been indifferent to this matter for so long, he had never complained to him about this pain. Until now, he realized that his selfishness had given him a lot of money. How much damage was done.

Xue Mu looked at the two father and son in front of him, one was depressed because he couldn't let go of his heart to bless his son, the other blamed himself for hurting his father too much, he was silent for a long time, and said after deliberation: "Uncle, you can't accept... Just don't accept it."

The two of them raised their eyes to look at Xue Mu at the same time, with disbelief on their faces. Xue Mu smiled slightly and said, "In your opinion, how do you accept it? Are you asking me to come to our house for dinner? Are you agreeing?" We bought a house together? Or do we not interfere? We have lived together for seven or eight years and announced to the world that we are a couple? If these are not acceptable, what else can you not accept? Don’t accept those .”

Wan Shuqing stared at him blankly, not knowing what to say for a while, Xue Mu raised the corners of his lips again, and said, "Uncle, I know you understand very well that Chaoyang and we are together, whether it's studies, career or Love, family, step by step for so many years, no one or anything in this world can separate us, and you have never tried to persuade or threaten us to break up. It's just that although you don't stop, you don't want to encourage, we have After all, this kind of happiness is different from what you expected. You always feel that this kind of life is against your cognition and is wrong, so you tell yourself repeatedly in your heart, emphasizing that you did not accept it, and because you do not accept it and do not bless you , in our life, we don’t have to bear the responsibility of blessing and encouragement. But have you ever thought that our life, Chaoyang’s life, doesn’t require you to bear any responsibility.”

Wan Shuqing was tongue-tied, as if he had suddenly realized something, but also as if he didn't understand anything, Wan Chaoyang also frowned and looked at Xue Mu, having difficulty understanding the awkward words.

"Uncle, I know that you regard Chaoyang as more important than your own life, but after all, even if you don't want to admit it, Chaoyang will be 27 years old this year, and he doesn't belong to you anymore—he doesn't belong to me either. He belongs to himself. His life, his decisions, and his happiness are all his own responsibility. In other words, you have expressed your support and acceptance to him. If one day our relationship does not end well , he was heartbroken and miserable, so you are not at fault. Now you have repeatedly emphasized that you cannot accept it, and you can neither change nor save anything. You can only make everyone feel sad for no reason.

"I know I shouldn't compare you with my parents. After all, your life experiences are different, not to mention that my parents can support each other, and you live alone in Jingxi. But I think What I said is that my parents' support for me is not because you said that you keep the suffering for yourself, but because they understand that although I am their son, I am just their son, and they themselves Have a career, love and a richer life. Chaoyang told me that he persuaded you to find a wife and made you angry. In fact, it was his poor expression. He meant that he hoped that you would learn to enjoy your own life, but Not trapped in him.

"This kind of life of your own may not be realized by relying on your wife. For example, you have persisted in your love of music for so many years, and you can only use it as a tool for making a living for the sake of your family. Now Chaoyang is not doing anything. I need you to worry about it again, don’t you think this is an excellent time to pursue your music dream? Just imagine, if you start preparing for a piano competition seriously from now on, one month later, half a year later, or a year later, you Your hard work has been reaped, and your music has been affirmed and liked by more people, isn’t it more valuable than entangled in whether Chaoyang is gay or not?”

What he said left Wan Shuqing speechless, and Wan Chaoyang was also stunned. Since signing the contract with Zhange, the company has not experienced any large-scale negotiations for so many years. He has almost forgotten that Xue Mu has such a strong thinking ability .

What he said was well-founded and well-founded, and the words were sincere and humble, without any disrespect or arrogance. Although every word and every word was preaching and admonishing Wan Shuqing's puzzled confusion, it fell into his ears but It's all gentle and sincere, without a hint of superiority and enlightenment, even Wan Chaoyang is convinced by it—even though it's not for him at all.

Seeing Wan Shuqing's expression, Xue Mu breathed a sigh of relief, then slowed down his tone and continued: "I know that you may not like to hear what I just said, but I know that your starting point is for Chaoyang, Even when you were in such a troubled and depressed situation, you still invited me to come to our house, and you chose today as a day to reunite with your family. Although you said it was unacceptable, in my opinion, you have already Our relationship has already been approved, hasn't it?"

Hearing this, Wan Chaoyang quickly turned his head to look at Wan Shuqing, Wan Shuqing was still in a daze, and he was a little confused, even for a moment he didn't even know what he was thinking.

The topic was ended by Xue Mu, and the long lunch finally came to an end. After clearing the dining table, Wan Shuqing was still in a daze, and went back to the room to rest silently. In the Chaoyang hut, the clothes were folded on the bed.

"Baby, you are so awesome..." Wan Chaoyang put his arms around Xue Mu lightly, rubbing his fingers gently on his face, "I haven't explained it to my dad for two years, you just say a few words convinced him."

Xue Mu smiled and said: "Where did I convince you, in fact, your father figured it out by himself, I just helped him sort out his thoughts."

Wan Chaoyang let out a long sigh, and said, "It's not a matter of thinking about it...you...you are so good at oral work!"

Xue Mu laughed angrily, raised his hand and patted him on the chest, and turned his back to him pretending to be annoyed.

Wan Chaoyang smiled, leaned over and hugged him from behind, spit out the smell of alcohol from his ears, and said with a smile: "I suddenly have a little suspicion, after all these years, am I also like my dad, let you Is this job a cash cow for fooling around?"

"You fucking, don't you want to be shameless," Xue Mu scolded with a smile, "You're going to be a cash cow for me? Have you ever seen yourself dedicate yourself to being fucked by a cash cow!"

Wan Chaoyang became more and more happy: "Then what you said, wouldn't it be fun to fuck you, and it would make me tired."

"Get out, then don't fuck in the future!"

"Fuck, fuck, why not?"

"What are you..."

Amidst the giggling and obscenities, the two fell asleep unconsciously on the bed. The effect of alcohol and the sudden relaxation of the spirit made this afternoon nap very deep. When Xue Mu woke up again, it was almost dusk. Finding that Wan Chaoyang was no longer around him, he rubbed his eyes, looked at the pale surroundings, and listened to the noisy voices in the corridor, his heart sank little by little.

He woke up again.

The fourth question of 140 actually makes me very nervous looking at this world

After waking up for the fourth time, Xue Mu had already calmed down a lot. Although he still had the same resistance and resistance in his heart, he calmly pressed the beeper and notified the nurse that he had awakened again.

The nurse was not surprised by his repeated waking and drowsiness, asked him to check the basic situation, and asked him to rest first, and was about to notify Xue Feng and He Donglan, but Xue Mu raised his hand to stop her, and asked: " How long has it been since I last fell asleep?"

Upon hearing this, the nurse opened the drawer of the bedside cabinet, took out a book, flipped through it, and said, "It's been ten days."

"Ten days..." Xue Mu nodded, and asked again: "What's today's date, what's the day of the week?"

"Wednesday, April 25th."

Xue Muyou slightly nodded, smiled lightly and said: "Don't tell my parents, it's already dark, and if they come here, they won't be able to sleep all night, and they have to go to work tomorrow, besides, it's time to go to bed later , if I don't wake up tomorrow and let them have a happy time, it's better not to know, you can do your work first, thank you."

The nurse sighed softly and said, "It's not as long as you don't want to tell. You're awake now. We have to notify the family members. Just leave it alone. Just wait a while." Then she turned and walked out of the ward.

Xue Mu sighed for a long time, tried to move his body, but it was still weak and weak. He looked at his arm, it was shockingly thin, and the shriveled skin was lying loosely on top of the bone, without any moisture and vitality. Gently tearing off the collar, the chest and abdomen are also haggard, and there is a terrifying knife-cut scar on the left chest.

He touched his face with his dry hands, his dull sense of touch made it impossible for him to judge the condition of his face, so he sighed silently, put down his hands, and stared blankly at the ceiling, full of thoughts, and seemed to be blank.

After an unknown amount of time, the door was pushed open along with the sound of footsteps, and He Donglan and Xue Feng hurried to the ward.

Seeing Xue Mu awake again, even He Donglan couldn't cry, she could only hold Xue Mu's hand excitedly, but she didn't know what to say, she couldn't figure out why Xue Mu fell asleep and why he woke up , but he didn't dare to ask easily, for fear that if he said something wrong and stimulated him, he would be stimulated and fell into a coma again.

Xue Feng looked much older than the last time he saw him, he also looked at Xue Mu hesitating to speak, standing silently not far away, a little at a loss.

"I said I didn't ask you two to come here," Xue Mu tried to smile and said, "I didn't sleep well all night when I came here, and I have to go to work tomorrow."

"What kind of work do you have?" He Donglan stroked Xue Mu's face, "It doesn't matter if you wake up and we will stay with you every step of the way."

Hearing this, Xue Mu's heart was once again eroded by the long-lost sense of guilt. He opened his mouth, but couldn't bear to say those things that made He Donglan sad, so he could only pretend to ask casually: "What time is it?"

Xue Feng on the side hurriedly took out his mobile phone to look at it, raised his eyes and replied, "Ten past seven."

"It's just ten past seven..." Xue Mu felt a little helpless, he had just woke up from a deep sleep, and now he was full of energy, he really couldn't fall asleep again, and it was still so early, he didn't know what to do to pass the time, he Looking at the TV hanging on the wall facing the hospital bed, he turned his head and said, "Why don't you watch TV for a while."

"Okay, okay." He Donglan hurriedly rummaged in the drawer for a while, took out the remote control and turned on the TV, but after switching several channels in a row, there was only news broadcast.

"Forget it, let's read the news." Xue Mu shrugged, "It's been several months, and I don't know how the world is going now."

Even in the long-lost world, the news broadcast is still unavoidably boring. On the screen is a dull meeting in the Great Hall of the People. The Law on the Protection of Heroes and Martyrs and other new laws and regulations that Xue Mu has never heard of have been put on the agenda for discussion, but he can't help but think about the laws and policies that have been revised one after another in another world, and what is unknown this year? Whether the bill can be passed or not, I feel more and more bitter.

The second half of the news showed the situation of the reporter’s visit to Damascus. The screen was full of gunpowder and gunfire, and the narrator calmly described the situation of the battle between the government forces and extremist organizations. Such a war is taking place on an earth, and he hasn't seen such real and terrifying news for too long.

After the news was broadcast, He Donglan broadcasted a few more channels and asked Xue Mu if there was anything he wanted to watch. Xue Mu was still immersed in the depression just now, silently shook his head and said, "You can watch whatever you usually watch. TV show or something."

He Donglan casually broadcasted it to the film and television channel, which was broadcasting an anti-Japanese war drama. Xue Mu saw that the production level and value output were not even a star and a half worse than the dream world, and his heart became more and more depressed. He turned around and asked, "Where's my phone?"

He Donglan replied after hearing the words: "Don't look at your phone for now, it's not good for your eyes and cervical spine."

But Xue Feng said: "I took it home, turn around... I will bring it to you tomorrow."

Xue Mu could only nod his head when he heard the words, He Donglan glanced at Xue Feng, didn't speak any more, took Xue Mu's hand and gently massaged him.

Xue Mu looked at He Donglan's skillful technique, and asked, "The past few months...have you been giving me massages?"

He Donglan smiled lightly, nodded and said: "The doctor told you to press often, otherwise the muscle atrophy will be particularly serious. Look, it's still atrophy."

Xue Mu sighed silently, and said: "Give me your mobile phone, I want to look in the mirror."

He Donglan paused when he heard this, and turned to look at Xue Feng. Xue Feng hesitated for a moment, then opened the selfie camera of his mobile phone, and handed it to Xue Mu.

A haggard and thin face appeared in front of Xue Mu, with greasy hair lying on his forehead, his face was covered with sallow and dull colors, his eyes were hollow, and his skin was loose. He couldn't believe that this was his own appearance. .

"It'll be fine if you recover slowly." Xue Feng put back his phone and received it, "Besides, boys, don't care too much about your appearance."

Xue Mu lowered his eyes and didn't speak. He didn't care too much about his ugly appearance, but none of these things made him feel good. Even when he looked at his parents, he felt only guilt and anxiety in his heart, and there was nothing wrong with him. For any joy of surviving, he adjusted his posture, lay down again, and closed his eyes depressedly. Even if he didn't feel sleepy, he didn't want to take another look at the world.

Xue Feng and He Donglan looked at each other in disappointment, and had no choice but to cover him with the quilt, and sat on the edge of the bed in distress, hoping that their son would wake up again when the sun rose tomorrow.

God did not let them down, Xue Mu woke up naturally at dawn the next day, the two of them breathed a long sigh of relief, and hurriedly asked for leave, and they both wanted to stay in the hospital with him.

Xue Mu's heart was gray, like the smog-covered sky outside the window. When he fell asleep, of course what he expected was to wake up in Wan Chaoyang's bedroom. Shuqing eats the same food, but when he opened his eyes and looked at the cold ceiling, his heart fell to the bottom.

Xue Feng and He Donglan didn't understand why he was depressed, they just thought it was because he was not feeling well, so they encouraged him to carry out rehabilitation training, and at the same time racked his brains to tell some light-hearted jokes, hoping to make him happy stand up.

Of course Xue Mu understands the good intentions of his parents, and he also knows that the reality he is trying to escape also has their passionate love. He doesn't want to hurt the innocent people, so he has no choice but to suppress his inner frustration and cooperate with the treatment methods.

But after all, after lying on the bed for nearly five months, raising his hand and grasping these things is not a problem, but getting out of bed to stand up and walk will really kill Xue Mu.

For the first time, he understood what it was like to lose control of his body. It was obviously an extremely simple movement, but he just couldn't do it. And obviously a few days ago, he and Wan Chaoyang were sweating profusely in the gym, huddled together In the locker room, I took off my shirt to take pictures of my showing off my abs, but now I can only shake my arms with sweat profusely, grasping the low parallel bars weakly, trying my best, but I can't take that difficult step.

The attempt failed in the end, and the exhausted Xue Mu returned to the ward in a wheelchair, and lay back on the bed with Xue Feng's support, barely drank two sips of water, and ate half of the chocolate pie that Xue Feng bought for him at the beginning , Excessive consumption of energy made him a little sleepy, and soon he fell asleep in a daze.

When he woke up, it was still in the afternoon, and he found that he was still here in despair, and he still had to face the afternoon training.

One day passed, after dinner, and watching boring TV for a while, Xue Feng went home and brought Xue Mu's mobile phone over. Xue Mu took the mobile phone, but didn't have the slightest thought of sliding it away. pull the quilt, sleep with eyes closed