[Hokage] Underwater

Yaya walks in the dark without knowing the years.Until the darkness faded, she found that she had returned to her former home.The light-transmitting curtains were an old style eight years ago, and bits and pieces of dust floated in the air. She breathed cautiously, lest she inhaled even a single speck of dust.

Behind the sunlight, there was a figure of a woman with a baby in her arms. Yaya approached her and called out timidly, "Mom!"

"What are you screaming about, I'm not your mother! Your mother will die!" The woman turned around impatiently and continued to caress the swaddle in her hand.

There was a burst of crying behind her, and Yaya looked back, and saw her standing alone in the wide and empty hall when she was a child, weeping, her eyes were wet.She had just taken two or three steps towards her young self when she heard the sound of a key opening the door.She looked in the direction of the door in fear, her whole body was stiff, and suddenly realized that she was still crying when she was young, and she panicked.

No, don't cry, don't let him see you cry!Yaya panicked and tried to coax her young self to stop her tears, but found that she couldn't see herself at all, and no matter how many things she did, it was futile.She watched the man approaching in despair, backing away in fear.

The expected beating and scolding didn't happen, the man just patted the little girl's head wearily and said, "Mi Ye, why are you crying again."

This is not a question, in fact, she does not need to answer at all.

But she answered.

Yaya looked at her young self sobbing, and replied intermittently: "Mom said... I am not her child...my mother... woo... ... died a long time ago... woo woo..." Little Yaya cried to herself, not noticing her father's expression froze.

But now she sees it.

At that time, she grabbed her father's trousers as if grabbing a life-saving piece of driftwood, and asked him with red eyes: "Dad...is what Mom said is true?"

The father suddenly became irritable, pushed her hand away forcefully, and said, "Don't listen to her nonsense!" She was startled, fell to the ground, and then cried louder.

He also seemed to feel that he was too fierce, and his tone softened a little: "Go upstairs first. Don't come down." Then he turned and walked towards his mother.

At that time, what was I thinking?Ya Yaxu helped herself up when she was sitting on the ground, feeling bitter in her heart.

Yaya.

This name...

"Are you crazy enough?"

The man snatched the swaddling baby from the woman's hand and threw it on the ground.The swaddling comes loose to reveal the wrapped baby figure.

"Look clearly! Look clearly!" The man shouted at the woman: "Which one is your daughter!"

The woman's horrified eyes moved from the doll on the ground to the man's face, she screamed and wanted to pick up the doll.

"my child!"

The man hugged her from behind, "Please," he said with a weeping tone: "Recognize the facts, please, it's not our child! It's not..."

"My child...my..." the woman sat down on the ground in a daze, muttering to herself.

"Mi Ye, she is your child."

"Mi Ye?"

"Yes, Mi Ye."

"No!" The woman screamed at the man: "The girl you mentioned - she is not Mi Ye!"

"She's Yaya!"

"It's that demon and..." and who?Her mind went blank for a moment.

"...Yes, the child born to my sister. They are married, aren't they? That's why she is called Yaya!"

The woman clutched at the man's clothes nervously, trying hard to seek approval: "You said—did you say so? Is that so? Yaya—she is Yaya, Mi Ye is already dead, right? Ah? Answer me what!"

"Yes, yes, yes..." The man kept comforting the woman in his arms.None of them noticed that when she was young, she was covering her mouth at the corner of the stairs, and her tears flowed non-stop like a faucet turned on.

That night, her father told her that the name would be changed.Moreover, "Try not to appear in front of your mother in the future. She...sees you and will..." He carefully chooses words: "will... think of some unpleasant things. "

"Dad." She summoned up her courage and asked him, "I... am I your biological daughter?"

The father didn't look back, but just said: "You are indeed her biological daughter." When the dim light hit him, Yaya suddenly felt an inexplicable bitterness from her father's back, floating in the air like fine dust.She involuntarily held her breath.

"I...Yaya understands."

She understood that since then, no one will call her original name again.

After closing the door, the young Yaya reached out and turned off the lights in the room.That way, she could pretend she didn't know about the suspended matter in the air, and she could finally feel at ease and lick her wounds.

Turn off the lights.

Turn on the lights.

Turn off the lights again.

Turn on the light again.

The blinding light made Yaya close her eyes.

Gradually adapting to the light of the environment, the voices of the conversations around came to my ears and gradually became clearer.

Yaya opened her eyes, and found that the light switch she was pressing had turned into a computer switch at some point.

This is a computer class in junior high school.

She looked around, and there were some quick-witted students who opened their browsers, quickly entered a series of URLs, and minimized the window before the inspecting teacher arrived.

Yaya didn't understand, she didn't have any special feelings about the computer class, why did she come back here?

After the inspection teacher left, the student with extremely fast hands opened the browser again and read the latest animation information.

Yaya understood immediately.

That classmate watched the episode of Zhishui committing suicide by drowning himself in a river.

That was the first time she saw Naruto.

At that time, she just glanced curiously at that classmate before being kicked out of the computer room by the teacher, or—a glimpse—the man with his eyes closed, with two lines of blood and tears on his face, jumped from the cliff. Down......

Looking back at myself in the seat, I haven't seen the short video yet.But it's different now, she can watch, watch carefully...Suddenly there was a noise, she turned her head and saw the teacher scolding the classmate, the computer screen had been broadcast to the man with closed eyes, Zhishui, Give the eyeball in your hand to another person.

Then, he will fall into that river, the river named Nanhechuan, and become a drifting...corpse.

No!

When Yaya thought of him, the only one who looked at her squarely, he would die like this, her heart seemed to be grasped by invisible hands, and she felt extremely anxious.

Do not!She cried out in despair, and the computer screen was frozen at the moment when he was about to fall into the river.

Why?Why can't she see more?

She has to see more and know more before she can help Zhishui and avoid death!

Probably, because these scenes are all based on her own memory, she watched helplessly as the scenes around her gradually shattered like stardust, and the world collapsed.

She returned to the darkness, as before, the long groping, the long loneliness.

In the dark, the passage of time is always very slow, as if there is no light, there is no power to move forward.

Yaya couldn't help but move forward.

Why go forward?she thought.

Want to look for light, human beings cannot live without light.

She has stayed where she is for too long, and now she has to take the first step, to the Land of Light.

She began to trot.

Yaya can never forget that ray of sunshine.It's not because the dazzling sunlight makes people yearn for, but because through the sunlight, she can see the dust particles that are usually ignored, floating fragilely with the wind, and she can't help herself.

Yaya saw herself in the dust.

Has anyone ever noticed a speck of dust in the air?

She couldn't even ask her mother to prove her own life experience.

That day, she saw her father hugging her mother with red eyes, and he scolded her: "Get out! I don't want to see you again! ... Also, you are not my daughter, you don't deserve this surname!"

Everyone has a Ni Lin that cannot be touched, and the mother is the Ni Lin of the father.So when the angry father said that, Yaya really believed it, turned around and ran out.

That day, she lost her only ray of sunshine.

That day, she had no tomorrow in that world.

Later, in the world of Naruto, Yaya seemed to see the familiar light again from Zhishui's eyes.

They all looked at her with the same eyes, the same, Ai Wu Ji Wu.

"It doesn't matter, as long as you are willing to look at me, no matter what kind of eyes or feelings you have, it's fine."

"So, look at me, look at me!"

"Father, there is no way to look at me anymore... If you die too, Shishui, and you leave me, who else would want to look at me?"

"Who will it be?..." Yaya closed her eyes in despair, and murmured: "...There won't be any..."

In all fairness, Naruto is light, Grandpa Hokage is light, and Shisui is also light.But the first two are the lights that shine on the world, and the only one she can approach and hold on to is the latter.It would never be Naruto, the main character, or the busy Hokage-sama who could look after her so intently.

So she will never let go easily, just like a drowning person will not let go of driftwood, and a moth will not let go of the light.

No matter how timid a moth is, when it sees the light, it can't help but fly towards it.Although they don't know whether it is the real sun or the flame of death, they are still willing to fight with their lives.The temptation of light is fatal to them.

If still water represents light, then Yaya is a moth to a flame.

If she told Lord Hokage everything she knew, if she could provide more information, would the tragedy not happen, would Shisui not die?

She tried her best not to let herself think about the esoteric topic of "changing the future". Things like fate made her feel powerless, and she was afraid that she would be cowardly before trying.

Slowly opened his eyes, there was no sun or flames here, only cold light pipes.

The author has something to say: [-]. The husbands of the two sisters call each other Ya

[-]. The Roman pinyin of Mi Ye is Yaya, which is Yaya in Chinese pinyin