doctor is cold

The second time I talked about Zheng Xi was that morning two weeks later.

When Yin Linru knocked on the door and entered, Min Liyan was turning on the computer to extract the records on it, the records about Yin Linru.

"It happened again."

Yin Linru consciously sat in the seat that belonged to her, and said directly before Min Liyan stood up.

Min Liyan stopped writing, looked up at the person talking to himself, and couldn't help but fell into memories.

That foam soaked with blood, that watchful eyes, that slightly pursed lip corners enduring the pain, what kind of secret is that person hiding and living a life of guarding against everything?In the countless silences, what is the truth that I saw clearly, that I forbear to say?

"So, is it that time?"

"Ok?"

"It's always been a posture of cooperating with the treatment, but it's not like that at all, obviously... remembers everything, doesn't it?"

Yin Linru looked up, a little surprised, and suddenly smiled lightly.

"Ah, it was discovered."

The casual tone made Min Liyan a little annoyed, this person is always like this, he doesn't care about anything, he doesn't care about anything, and he faces the world with the most indifferent attitude.

"Let's live together." Min Liyan said.

Yin Linru finally turned his head and looked at Min Liyan.

"I don't want to say anything, and you just seem to cooperate. In this case... since that person is your switch, then get closer to her, maybe you can find a way." Min Liyan Said helplessly.

As soon as she said this, Min Liyan actually regretted it a little. If she had to say it, she probably knows her best except for Yin Linru herself. It is impossible for her to agree to such absurd suggestion and make such a suggestion I was really unprofessional at this time.

Sure enough, Yin Linru shook his head without hesitation.

"I'm well aware of my illness." Yin Linru said, "It doesn't matter if it's good or not. That's it. But... I asked her to talk to you later, she seems to have some psychological problems."

Min Liyan wanted to say something, but when the words came to her lips, she couldn't say anything. She didn't know what Yin Linru had experienced to be so desperate for life and so indifferent to this world.This is the indifference to the world that permeates from the inside out. Without the slightest bit of revenge, it is just indifference, that's all.

In the end, he just squeezed out a syllable from his throat with difficulty.

"Um......"

This attitude of being sober to the extreme is actually the most troublesome.

What Yin Linru didn't expect at this moment was that she was easily persuaded in less than one afternoon.

******

"Doctor Yin, can I ask you a question?"

Zheng Xi leaned against the door frame of the kitchen, looked at Yin Linru who was busy inside, and asked curiously.

"Ah."

"Why on earth did you agree to Dr. Min's suggestion? Is it really just because of your own problems?" Zheng Xi asked, actually she didn't know what kind of answer she wanted to get by asking this question.

"Otherwise, I want to ask if it's because of you?"

"Isn't it because of Dr. Min?"

"Doctor Min...she?" Yin Linru stopped what he was doing, turned around and looked at Zheng Xi, as if he wanted to know what she wanted to ask.

"Didn't you agree because Dr. Min wanted so much?" Zheng Xidao, tilting her head unnaturally, asking such a question inexplicably made her feel that she was not like herself, why did she care so much about such a thing?But since the question was out of her mouth, she became indifferent again, quietly waiting for Yin Linru's answer.

"..." Yin Linru turned his head and continued to chop vegetables, "Don't think too much."

This answer... can it be understood that besides her own reasons, it also has something to do with herself?

This thought made Zheng Xi feel better.

Yin Linru's cooking skills are very good, perhaps because she doesn't like to be in contact with people, she gradually likes to be alone, thus honing her good cooking skills.

Zheng Xi drank the last sip of soup contentedly, stood up, and stretched out her hand——

"what are you doing?"

"Washing the dishes..."

"My bowl can be washed by myself, don't move."

But Zheng Xi ignored Yin Linru's bowls and chopsticks, and said, "Didn't you mean to try to overcome it? It's useless if you can't accept this level. Now, Dr. Yin is in charge of cooking, and I am in charge of washing." Bowls, how reasonable the distribution is before and after meals!"

Yin Linru remained silent, and let her enter the kitchen with the bowls and chopsticks.

She was a little strange, why did she let the other party go so far?Even if he is semi-forced to do something like this, he doesn't seem to be angry at all. There is a reason for it, isn't it true? There is something in the subconscious, an unnoticed corner?

"looking at what?"

When Zheng Xi came out of the kitchen, he happened to see Yin Linru looking in the direction of the kitchen with erratic eyes, as if he had fallen into his own world, and couldn't help asking curiously.

Yin Linru's focus gradually returned to Zheng Xi, and he looked at her deeply: "I was wondering if I saw you at a moment when we didn't even know."

"It's very literary and artistic. Should it be said that you are a top student in the medical school?" Zheng Xi couldn't help laughing, she raised her head to block the light, "But Doctor Yin, the brightness of your lights is too high. It's so dazzling .”

"Is it dazzling? It's okay." Yin Linru raised his head as he spoke, and was immediately dazzled by the light, and raised his hand subconsciously.

"Of course you didn't feel anything when you turned your back to the light." Zheng Xi suppressed a smile and said, being attracted by such a doctor Yin.

Yin Linru was stunned as if he had been stabbed by something.

"What's wrong?" Zheng Xi asked worriedly.

That's right, why would he feel the light is dazzling when his back is facing the light? At that time, what he thought was dazzling was just right for Shen Xiangqi, so why did he...

"Miss Zheng, what do you think is the reason why a person suddenly put on a hat indoors?" Yin Linru said softly.

"Usually it's to hide from someone, or else the hairstyle is messed up." Zheng Xi said.

"Yeah, I can only explain it this way..." Yin Linru frowned, the faint joy of seeing an old friend again disappeared at this moment, leaving only a full sense of strangeness, ten years ago That gentle and honest classmate seemed to have disappeared at some point, or maybe...never existed.

"Doctor Yin."

"Ok?"

"I thought about it. For the time being, we have confirmed the joint tenancy relationship, right?"

Yin Linru thought for a while, then nodded.

"Then let's call the question, can we change it?" Zheng Xi asked tentatively.

"What do you want to be called?" Yin Linru asked. She didn't care much about the address, but she was used to those honorific names. If someone suddenly called her intimately, she would not get used to it. For example, Shen Xiangqi's "A Ru ", which made her very uncomfortable, as if she had returned to more than ten years ago, back to the past that she didn't want to go back.It's just that what Zheng Xi said made sense, so she didn't refuse.

Zheng Xi thought for a while, then carefully asked: "Lin Ru?"

Yin Linru thought for a while and hummed.

"Then what does Lin Ru want to call me?" Zheng Xi asked, getting excited, sat down opposite Yin Linru, and blinked at her.

"What do you want?" Yin Linru was a little at a loss. She had never been called by a familiar name with a surname, or with a surname with an identity. For example, Min Liyan was called Senior Sister Min before, but now she is Dr. Min, so when faced with Zheng Xi's question, she didn't have the slightest idea.

Zheng Xi shook his head pretending to be disappointed.

"It takes sincerity. Do I need to provide it myself?"

"Then..." Yin Linru thought about it seriously, "Ah...ah, ah..."

"Is Lin Ru stuttering now?" Zheng Xi laughed, as if he had discovered something interesting.

"Ah, Zheng Xi?" Yin Linru originally wanted to be called "A Zheng", but finally changed it directly.

"Well, it's okay to just let it go." Zheng Xi reluctantly said.

"Although I'm not an expert, my intuition tells me that what you need, Lin Ru, is a friend." Zheng Xi said with an unprecedentedly serious expression.

Yin Linru didn't speak for a long time, the corners of his mouth gradually pursed, and finally he stood up.

"I don't need that kind of thing."

"Why don't you need it? Wouldn't it be lonely if you were alone all the time?" Zheng Xi asked, grabbing Yin Linru's sleeve eagerly.

"In this way, Ms. Zheng should have a lot of friends, right?" Yin Linru asked.

"..."

"What kind of self-confidence do people who don't have themselves educate others?" Yin Linru sneered and tugged on his sleeves, but didn't.

"I have, why not—"

"Who? Why haven't you been to the hospital once in so many days?"

"Who—who said he didn't come!" Zheng Xi said, "You just didn't see it!"

"Really?" Yin Linru had a half-smile, "The one who drank milk tea with you today?"

"Yes!" Zheng Xi said.

Yin Linru moved the corner of his mouth, as if he wanted to make a mocking expression, but in the end he returned to his indifference.

"Besides, it's because I know how it feels to have no friends that I'm more qualified to say such things..." Zheng Xi said lonely. People are willing to get close to themselves, but she didn't mean to think that way. Anyone who has experienced the coldness and warmth of human relationships ten years ago will erect a wall to the whole world, right?

"Why, isn't it?!" Zheng Xi met Yin Linru's complicated gaze.

"My friend, I don't need it because I don't believe it."

"Do not believe?"

"There are more deceptions, betrayals, and injuries between people. As for those positive relationships, they may exist, but I don't want to waste time looking for them."

"If you can see the world with another perspective, maybe—"

"Really." Yin Linru sneered, "If you too—forget it, I still have something to do, you can do whatever you want."

Yin Linru entered the study.Zheng Xi looked at the closed door, like the door of Dr. Yin's heart, and told her intuitively that the if that Dr. Yin didn't finish was hiding all her secrets.