Still the same

Shu Le frowned, and immediately lifted off the thin quilt, put on his shoes, opened the door and left the bedroom.

The light in the living room was dim, and Shu Le followed the crying to find his mother sitting on the ground.

She was sitting on the ground, leaning against the sofa, lowering her head and covering her face, her shoulders shrugged.The crying has changed from the initial crying to suppressed sobbing.

Shu Le pursed her lips tightly, and her steps slowed down. She walked slowly in front of Shu's mother, and then squatted down.

Shu Le's eyes were flushed, she hadn't seen her mother in this state for a long time.The suppressed crying also tugged at Shu Le's heart, causing her to suffer.

The glass water cup on the tea table was half full of water, and there was medicine beside it.Shu Le sniffed, stretched out her hand, and gently placed it on Mother Shu's shoulder.

Shu Le spoke, in a low voice: "Mom." She moved her fingertips and patted Shu's mother on the shoulder.

"I am fine."

Mother Shu was wearing thin pajamas, she raised her head slightly, covered her face with her hands, tears overflowed from between her fingers, flowed from the back of her hands to her arms, and wet her sleeves.

When Shu's mother is crying, Shu Le usually sits next to her to accompany her, giving her her own space and not interfering, but will say something at the right time.

Now Shu Le is no exception. She changed from squatting to sitting, then leaned forward slightly, took a tissue from the coffee table, and handed it to Shu's mother.

Shu Le said: "Wipe it, Mom."

Shu's mother's illness is not serious. She can hear what Shu Le said, but sometimes she can't listen to it. She won't do what Shu Le said.

But tonight, she didn't keep falling into her own inner thoughts. She took the tissue, closed her eyes and wiped the tears on her face, then blew her nose again, and threw the tissue aside.

The lights are a bit dim, the neighborhood they live in is good, and the terrain is good, and there is basically no big movement at night, so the house seems to be extraordinarily quiet.

Shu Le bent her knees, hugged her legs, rested her chin on her knees, and turned her head to look at her mother from time to time.

She knew that Shu's mother's heart disease was more difficult to cure, or it could not be cured at all.

Shu's mother has been waiting for something, but she never got it. When Shu Le asked, she never got an answer.

Time slipped away quietly, and after an unknown amount of time, Shu Le felt that the floor was warmed by him sitting on it, and when she heard Shu's mother speak again, her hoarse voice was obviously due to crying.

"Okay." Shu's mother glanced sideways at Shu Le and said, "Lele, go back to sleep."

Saying this means that her current emotions have passed, Shu Le's heart is still hanging in the air, but she has to get up and go back to the bedroom, because Shu's mother has already drank some water and entered the bedroom.

She didn't sleep well all night, and Shu Le woke up at eight o'clock in the morning.

Mother Shu didn't wake her up for dinner this morning, and Shu Le left the bedroom without seeing anyone there.However, a post-it note was left for her on the dining table, saying that the rice was in the pot, and she went to relax by herself, saying that she might not be able to come back at noon, and asked Shu Le to pay attention to safety when returning to Qicheng.

Shu Le sighed heavily, and called Shu's mother. After a few seconds, Shu's mother got through, saying that she was sitting and drinking tea in a certain shop, so Shu Le didn't have to worry.

The tone was normal, and there was no problem with what he said. Although it was impossible for Shu Le not to be worried, he could only obediently hang up the phone.

At times like this, her mother likes to be alone, and doesn't like her to be by her side.

Since Zou Yunxi had dinner with Shu Le last time, he has been busy again, basically staying in his studio and not going home.

But at noon today, Shu Le was going back to Qicheng again, so she put down her work first, had lunch with Shu Le, and then sent Shu Le to the train station.

There was a red light ahead, and in the car, Zou Yunxi was holding the steering wheel, turned to look at Shu Le, and said, "Do you still have to make up lessons during summer vacation?"

"Yeah." Shu Le rubbed his temples, "At the end of June, their final exams will be held for about three days, and then they will go back to school to make up lessons for a month before going on vacation."

"awful."

Shu Le smiled lightly and looked at her: "It's okay, we have a month's vacation anyway, how about you?"

"I'm the boss, I can let it go whenever I want." Zou Yunxi raised his chin, looking arrogant.

When the light turned green, she drove steadily again, then as if she remembered something, she said, "That's right."

"Huh?" Shu Le was puzzled, "What's wrong?"

"I'm going to the capital next month."

"Go again?"

"Well, Xiao Qiao invited me over there again."

Shu Le touched her nose guiltily. She will go to the capital when she is on vacation. If so, wouldn't it be possible to bump into Zou Yunxi?

Shu Le was still thinking about this, and heard Zou Yunxi say again: "Then I met a boy over there, who looks a lot like my next boyfriend."

"..."

"Lele."

"what happened?"

"Have you thought about when you will get married?"

Married... Of course Shu Le thought about it, but what she thought about was how she and Qi Siqiao would look in wedding dresses, but now it seems that it is very difficult to realize.

In other words, it is difficult to achieve it in a public place, so you can try it in private?Although she hasn't asked Qi Siqiao what he thinks, but the other party should not disagree.

"I thought about getting married." Shu Le replied honestly, "But I don't know when I will get married, hahaha."

"I thought about it too."

The air conditioner in the car was on, and the temperature was moderate. Shu Le touched his arm, and heard Zou Yunxi continue to say: "But I still only want to fall in love, not get married."

Zou Yunxi continued: "I think marriage is a bondage to me, and I want freedom more."

"Nobody forces you to be unfree, you can do whatever you want."

Chatting between girls often cannot avoid topics such as feelings, and Shu Le and the others are no exception.Each age group has unique troubles for that age group. In the past, it may be study, and later it may be work, but now the trouble of their age is being urged to marry.

Shu Le's father thinks it's very important. He urged her before, but now it's clear that he hasn't contacted her. However, Shu Le went to his place this morning to have a look, and bought him some gifts. Shu Fu was laughing and laughing. Because Shu Le came back, his face looked better.

The two of them didn't mention Shu Le's boyfriend again, otherwise the scene might be full of blood.

"Yeah, that's why I thought about not getting married, no matter how much I like it, I don't want to get married."

It's not that Zou Yunxi has never had a boyfriend. She had three exes in total, high school, college, and work. There was only one reason for breaking up: she didn't want to get married.

He didn't want to get married, so the boys in high school couldn't accept it, because Zou Yunxi was planned in his future, but Zou Yunxi's future didn't include him. The young boys felt that they were let down and broke up.

What about the second term?Because Zou Yunxi didn't want to get married, he felt that Zou Yunxi had no sense of responsibility, so he simply cheated on himself quietly, and when Zou Yunxi found out, he asked her to break up.

It's still the same as the previous one, because everyone is in their 20s, and sooner or later they will have to get married and have children. Zou Yunxi expressed his thoughts not long after they got together, so as not to delay others for a long time and blame her instead.The results of it?People still blamed her, saying that she didn't want to get married, why didn't she make it clear earlier, Zou Yunxi was just playing hooligans.

Every time Shu Le heard her talking about these things, he felt that Zou Yunxi was cool, but also... miserable.

But she herself is not doing well, is she?After all, in the eyes of others, she has never been in love.

Shu Le thought about it carefully. The divorce of her parents had no effect on her, but she did not have any prejudice against boys. On the contrary, she also thought that some boys were cute, especially when she was in middle school.But cute is cute, but Shu Le doesn't have any thoughts. At most, they can be friends with them, and they can't talk in depth.

Of course, she has more contacts with girls, and Shu Le pays attention to more girls, but before the knowledge of these areas was not popularized enough, she didn't realize that she was different, so in middle school, Shu Le generally followed girls. The child has been dating, but at that time she hadn't been attracted to anyone, maybe because she subconsciously felt that she was better, and she didn't know enough about it.

Later, after she fell in love with Qi Siqiao, she was also afraid and worried, so she didn't tell others, she also kept it from her family, and she also kept it from her friends.

After so long, she still kept it a secret.

But the reason is different. In the past, it was because I didn’t have enough mental capacity, and I didn’t want to be pointed at by others when I looked at her and Qi Siqiao. After all, there were still many people who thought same-sex love was abnormal at that time. Once a couple of gays were scolded in public, so she had a shadow in her heart.

But now it's because of Qi Siqiao's work, the other party is now a public figure, no matter what, Shu Le can't just expose it.

It's like some male stars who dare not make it public when they are in a relationship, because their fans will basically lose in big waves, especially those who rely on fans for food.And Qi Siqiao's nature is not much different from theirs, but others lose fans, and she may be a fan and have a job.

Leaving aside the public opinion from the outside world for the time being, we can no longer stay in the entertainment circle, the lethality is already astonishing enough.

After getting out of the car and picking up the ticket, Shu Le waved to Zou Yunxi, and checked the ticket to enter the station.

While waiting, Shu Le's phone rang, she looked at the caller ID and smiled, Qi Siqiao finally woke up.

She sent a message at four in the morning last night, and the filming ended at that time, but Shu Le had already fallen asleep at that time, and she also sent a message to Qi Siqiao when she woke up, but Qi Siqiao may have just woken up now up.

Shu Le answered: "Are you only waking up now?"

"That's right..." Qi Siqiao's voice was a little waxy and sleepy, "I had a dream."

"What did you dream about?"

"I dreamed that I traveled to the ancient times with you, and then our two girls were reported to the court. The emperor said that we were witches and wanted to burn us."

"Huh?" Shu Le laughed, "The emperor of what dynasty? Such a no-brainer."

"do not know."

"and then?"

"Then I hugged you all the time, and when I was about to be set on fire, I woke up." Qi Siqiao said in a muffled voice, "Shu Shu, I didn't see you by my side when I opened my eyes, it feels too bad."

Shu Le lowered his eyelids and sighed softly.

Yeah, this feels really bad.

He heard Qi Siqiao say again: "Will it be all right when I quit the circle?"

The author has something to say: Carvin again

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