Withered vine new leaves

In December, the weather in S City was very cold, the sharp cold wind was like a knife, and it hurt people's faces. The thick clouds prevented the sunlight from getting in at all, and the whole city was shrouded in gloom.Chen Zhicun got off the heated taxi and stood at the entrance of the S City Municipal Hospital. The sudden temperature difference made him shiver suddenly. Since last year, he has become a frequent visitor to this place.

Although the familiar hospital building had only been renovated some time ago, it still looked dilapidated and terrifying under the drowsy weather, as if as soon as you walked in, you were stepping into death, saying goodbye to the freshness outside.

Chen Zhicun didn't sleep well for several days, the corners of his eyes were a little flushed, his expression was tired and his face was gray and unsightly, he raised his eyes and looked up and down the hospital building, heaved a sigh of relief, stretched out his hand to touch the Pulling up the scarf, he pushed the door and walked in in a familiar way. In an instant, a strong smell of disinfectant water came over his face.

Feng Xiao, Chen Zhicun's childhood friend, was lying in the ward area on the third floor of this building. This was his last day of chemotherapy.

Chen Zhicun lost his father when he was young, and he finally lived with his mother until he graduated from university. But before his mother could enjoy the blessings, he died from overwork.The successive departures of relatives and friends should have made him numb. If it was someone else, Chen Zhicun would not be so sad, but Feng Xiao is the only one who is different.

Chen Zhicun's mind was very confused at this time, like a scrapped machine in disrepair that was barely operating, making a "click click" noise, he stood at the door of the ward and took a deep breath, forced himself to put on a smile, and walked in .

"Hello, Auntie!" Chen Zhicun greeted Feng Xiao's mother. Feng Xiao's mother had just cleaned up the filth, and there were still wet traces left by the mop on the ground. Obviously, Feng Xiao vomited again due to a drug reaction.

"Xiaozhi is here." Mother Feng's cloudy eyes were bloodshot, as if she hadn't slept well all night.

"Auntie, why don't you go back to sleep for a while, I'm here." Just when Feng Xiao's mother was about to refuse, Chen Zhicun hastily continued, "I'm on paid leave for these two days, you go back quickly Rest for a while, don't let your body collapse again."

Mother Feng refused for no reason, glanced at Feng Xiao who was sleeping lightly with her eyes closed on the sickbed, nodded slightly towards Chen Zhicun, and left with the thermos in hand.

With the sound of closing the door, Feng Xiao Youyou woke up, Chen Zhicun pulled the chair and sat on the side of the bed jokingly said: "I didn't know that your skill of pretending to be asleep is so superb."

"Every time I open my eyes and see my mother's sad face, I blame myself so badly, I wish I could get well soon and be alive and kicking in front of her." Feng Xiao grinned with his head sideways, his chapped lips were oozing blood from this movement .

Chen Zhicun hastily picked up the cotton swab beside the hospital bed, dipped it in water, and carefully applied it on his lips: "Listen to the doctor's advice, take medicine on time and supplement nutrition, the illness will recover sooner or later, how about it? Do you feel better?" Chen Zhicun pretended to be relaxed.

After saying this, Chen Zhicun himself was very guilty. Seeing how he would get better after eating and vomiting, he regretted in his heart, his hands kept moving, his eyes were focused on the cotton swab, and he didn't notice Feng Xiao's eyes at all. Staring at himself.

After a long while, I heard a hoarse voice, "Well, I feel better when I see you." Feng Xiao has often said teasing words, if he hadn't been sick before, Chen Zhicun would have hit him twice Just relieved.Now seeing that he has lost a lot of weight due to the torment of the illness, even the original pair of bright eyes have dimmed, and he can no longer find the light shining like stars in the past.

Chen Zhicun looked into Feng Xiao's eyes and was stunned.

Feng Xiao smiled: "Xiaozhi, do you still remember that you always praised me for having good eyes when you were young?"

Chen Zhicun's face turned red: "How long ago did this happen, and you're still talking about it."

Only Feng Xiao's deep laughter responded to him: "I used to be busy, busy with school and busy with work, but in fact I have forgotten many things. Now I lie on the bed all day long, and the past flashes like a movie. You are the one with the most. Sometimes it’s good to lie down like this, at least..."

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Chen Zhicun frowned.

Seeing that he was angry, Feng Xiao squeezed his hand flatteringly.

"If you...you..." Before he could finish speaking, Chen Zhicun shed two tears in disappointment.

Feng Xiao stopped smiling, rubbed Chen Zhicun's hair, whispered comfortingly in his ear: "Okay, I'm the one talking nonsense, don't be angry."

You are so good, how can I be willing to leave you alone.

From childhood to adulthood, Feng Xiao and Chen Zhicun were in the same kindergarten, the same elementary school, the same junior high school, the same high school, and later even the same university.Every time he thinks of this, Chen Zhicun can't help but lament the wonderful fate of each other.Feng Xiao was one of the outstanding ones in school, with a height of 1.8m[-], inverted triangle and long legs, thin eyelids and European-style big double eyelids, and no romantic history, and capable of literary and martial arts, there are not many people Chased him, but he didn't agree.

Chen Zhicun once sighed when he was drunk: "Oh, Feng Xiao, you said that it would be great if you were a big girl, so that I can marry you."

Later Feng Xiao seemed to say something, but Chen Zhicun didn't hear it and passed out drunk on the table.Reluctantly, in the end, Feng Xiao carried the 1.8-meter-long, coquettish boy back.

After wiping Feng Xiao's lips, Chen Zhicun threw the cotton swab into the trash can, took out a few crystal candies from his pocket, spread them out in his palm, and put them in front of Feng Xiao with a smile.The fruit-flavored hard candy was wrapped in a transparent sugar wrapper, which looked extraordinarily crystal clear in Chen Zhicun's fair palm.

Feng Xiao couldn't help laughing: "You know I can't eat this now, so you still use it to recruit me."

Chen Zhicun cleared his throat, blinked his eyes and pretended to be mysterious: "This is not for you to eat, this is the elixir specially entrusted by God to me to bless your successful operation."

Feng Xiao smiled and did not expose him, and happily took it like a child, and counted exactly six, which is an auspicious number specially prepared by Chen Zhicun.

Holding the crystal candy tightly in his hand, Feng Xiao subconsciously cleared his throat and said solemnly: "Xiaozhi, I have something to tell you."

Chen Zhicun's neck chilled, seeing his serious face, he didn't feel like he was saying anything nice, so he immediately stopped him: "If you ask me to take care of your mother, you should not mention it to me, I didn't even take care of my own mother. Come on, if you are really worried about her, then get well soon."

Chen Zhicun said a lot like a cannonball, Feng Xiao's expression was gloomy.Finally couldn't bear it, reached out to hold his dry and cold hand, and comforted him: "Promise me, don't set up flags for yourself casually, if you have anything to say, talk about it after the operation is successful?"

Feng Xiao nodded and smiled in agreement.

On the day of the operation, it snowed all night for the first time, and when I got up in the morning, the outside was covered with snow, and even the temperature dropped two or three degrees.

The operation was not going well. After the laparotomy, it was found that the actual situation was very complicated. The operation, which was expected to be completed in two hours, was delayed for nearly six hours.

Chen Zhicun and Feng Xiao's mother were waiting outside the operating room, the poor old man was holding his hand tightly, but no matter how Chen Zhicun comforted him, it was of no avail.

When Feng Xiao was pushed out of the operating room, Chen Zhicun and Feng Xiao's mother rushed forward and called his name. Feng Xiao, who was still in a coma before the anesthesia had passed, shouted: " ...Xiaozhi, it hurts, it hurts so much." She didn't respond to her mother at all.

When Chen Zhi was standing next to him, his legs were a little weak, and he called softly: "...Feng Xiao", originally wanted to say something softly, but he suddenly choked up.

Feng Xiao slightly opened his dazed eyes, but waved his hands like a blind man who couldn't see anything, finally touched Chen Zhicun's hand, and grabbed it tightly: "Xiaozhi...Chen Zhicun?" At that moment, all of Chen Zhicun's emotions collapsed, tears flowed down like a bank, and he vaguely felt a hard object coming from Feng Xiao's hand. When he looked down, it turned out to be the crystal candy from before. , He even brought it into the operating room.

Perhaps because it was held in the hand for too long, the hard candy turned out to be a little soft.

But Feng Xiao could hear Feng Xiao saying: "Xiaozhi, have I ever told you that I love you?"

Shocked, Chen Zhicun slowly let go of his hand, and exchanged glances with Feng Xiao's mother, he knew that the other party must have heard it clearly.

Seeing Feng Xiao being pushed into the ward by the nurse, Chen Zhicun felt mixed feelings.

That operation was actually a failure, the cancer cells in Feng Xiao's body had already spread, and he was powerless to recover.Chen Zhicun hid intentionally, and it was already a month later when he saw him again. Feng Xiao's body weakened surprisingly fast. Chen Zhicun, who was still working, received a call from Feng Xiao's mother, saying that Feng Xiao was dying.

Chen Zhicun lost half of his three souls and six spirits, and ran to the hospital ward in disgrace. Seeing Feng Xiao's thin body sunk deep on the hospital bed, Chen Zhicun seemed to feel that the person in front of him was completely different from the sunny and handsome Feng Xiao he knew in his memory. no the same.

Feng Xiao's mother's face was full of tears. When she saw Chen Zhicun coming, she patted his hand and said, "Go quickly, he is holding on to his breath and is waiting for you."

Chen Zhicun walked stiffly to the edge of the hospital bed, seeing him like this, tears rolled down unconvincingly.

Feng Xiaoqiang, who was under the oxygen mask, smiled and took his hand: "I didn't cry, why did you cry first, I couldn't raise my hands, you almost wiped away the tears by yourself, it looks like you are crying for me Same."

Chen Zhicun wiped his face carelessly with the back of his hand, and said, "Bah, bah, it's about this time, you still don't know how to say something nice."

Feng Xiao squeezed his hand feebly: "For so many years I have hidden good things in my heart and dare not tell you, now I dare, and it is too late to say."

Chen Zhicun sat down and shook him back: "You never asked me."

"I'm afraid you are not. If I tell you, I'm afraid I won't even be friends." Feng Xiao paused, took a deep breath, and then said, "Xiaozhi, I have liked you since I was a child, I love you. I have never asked for results. I have been satisfied with being with you for nearly 30 years. I don’t ask for possession, and you will love me the same without asking for it. I just feel that I can meet you in my ordinary life. You are already satisfied."

Chen Zhicun on the side had already bent down, lying on the side of the bed sobbing, Feng Xiao stroked his hair, Feng Xiao's mother stood quietly at the side, seeing this scene, Cai Qian's tears filled again Eye sockets were closed, I couldn't bear it, and walked out softly.

After Chen Zhicun finished crying, he raised his head and approached Feng Xiao and said, "Feng Xiao, you are really bad."

Feng Xiao caressed his face wet with tears: "I'm sorry."

"You make me feel so regretful and guilty."

"I'm sorry." Feng Xiao's fingers circled around Chen Zhicun's hair, "I came out of the operating room and saw you in a daze. I wanted to take this to the coffin..."

"Feng Xiao, don't die, okay?" Chen Zhicun made a muffled voice with his face down.

Feng Xiao still smiled and said, "I'm sorry."

The author has something to say: revise the article, and it will be completed before the end of February (probably)