Chasing Tides
Chapter 71
Ning Lan didn't intend to answer it at first, but Sui Yi held it up for more than half a minute, his hands were stiff, and suddenly he heard the phone ringing, he went to touch the phone in which pocket he had stuffed in when he climbed over the wall, and there was nowhere to put the flowers in the panic, Ning Lan was helpless He threw the clothes back into the basin and reached out to pick up the flower.
"My young master." As soon as he picked up the phone, Wang Xu elongated his tone and shouted weakly, "Can't you keep a low profile? Your underwear is almost being ripped off."
Sui Yi turned around and walked to the corner, asking, "What underwear?"
"Someone took a picture of you and Ning Lan and posted it on an anonymous forum to ask what was going on. Within two hours, those fans picked up on the two of you. Even the food blogger you liked may be Ning Lan. Fortunately, Mi Jie found out early, and I went to someone to delete it, otherwise the matter would be caught by the media and fermented, and you would not even think about taking the remaining half-month vacation."
Sui Yi is quite satisfied with the job of an artist, not only is it a professional counterpart, but she can continue to play the piano.The only unbearable thing is that sometimes masks and hats are not useful when going out, and it doesn't feel good to be watched by the people of the whole country in your private life.
"Let's just pick it up," Sui Yi said, "I'm just about to make it public."
"What?" There was a muffled sound of something heavy being hit on the ground from Wang Xu's end, "Young Master, are you crazy? Now that it's public, do you still want your fans? Do you still want your future?"
Sui Yi said: "I thought my attitude was clear enough. The Weibo I posted for him back then, as well as the actions at the concert, were just buffering time for fans. I have never shy away from mentioning that I am looking for him over the years. This matter, now that people have found it, why can't it be made public?"
Wang Xu pressed his forehead, took a deep breath, and said, "I know there will be such a day sooner or later, but you just decided unilaterally. Have you asked Ning Lan what he means? He has been hiding for so long, isn't it just to live a peaceful life?" ? What do you think will happen to him once it is made public?"
Sui Yi said in a deep voice, "I will protect him well."
He had thought about this question a long time ago. He wanted to give Ning Lan a stable life, but also wanted to give him a name in an upright manner. The former was the source of Ning Lan's happiness, and the latter was the only sense of security he could give Ning Lan.
Sui Yi is not only Starlight Entertainment's ace entertainer, but also a true young master with a strong family background. Wang Xu can't screw him, fearing that if he becomes stubborn, he will give up his pick and quit the circle, so he has to settle for the next best thing: "Okay, it's okay to be open, We can find a time to sit down with the public relations department and have a good discussion, choose the most suitable time to make it public, minimize the harm to fans and the impact on public opinion, and release it regardless, it will not benefit anyone."
Sui Yi breathed a sigh of relief: "Yes, I know."
Wang Xu explained a few more words in a long-winded manner, telling him to hide it, and be careful not to be photographed by the paparazzi, and Sui Yi responded one by one.
After hanging up the phone and looking back, Ning Lan had already finished drying the last piece of clothes. He fixed the flower quilt on the clothesline with clips, and the petals were fluttering in the wind. When he approached, he could still smell the sweet fragrance of flowers.
Ning Lan bowed and picked up the empty basin and entered the room, Sui Yi followed behind and asked nonchalantly, "Have you had breakfast yet?"
"have eaten."
Putting the basin under the sink, Ning Lan turned on the tap to wash his hands.Sui Yi glanced at the two remaining steamed buns beside the kitchen stove, and his desire was palpable.
After Ning Lan washed her hands, she went back to her room to take her medicine, and Sui Yi followed; she went to sweep the floor in the living room, and Sui Yi followed; she went to pick green onions in the small vegetable garden in the front yard, and Sui Yi continued to follow, curiously asking, "Is this garlic? "
Ning Lan was defeated by him, so he compromised and warmed up the two buns for him to eat, hoping that he would leave quickly after eating, otherwise, not to mention Granny Zhang, he might not even be able to restrain the urge to call the police.
Just as the steamed stuffed buns were put into the steamer, Lu Binghua's heart-piercing howl suddenly came from outside: "Grandma, what's wrong with you, Grandma? Brother Ningning, come out quickly, Grandma has passed out!"
There was only one small clinic on Quanxi Street, Sui Yi carried Granny Zhang on her back, and Ning Lan ran behind with her support.The young man walked quickly, and within 10 minutes, he put the old man flat on the small bed in the clinic.
The weather is hot, and it is a period of high incidence of heat stroke and heat cold, and the consultation room is full of people.The doctor came to listen to the heartbeat, measure the body temperature, and asked the patient if he had any abnormal symptoms recently. After receiving a negative answer from Ning Lan, he gave him a bottle of Huoxiang Zhengqi Water, and then took a blood test.
Ning Lan squeezed her mother-in-law's mouth open and poured her some medicine.The mother-in-law is usually very picky when eating, but now the smell of Huoxiang Zhengqi water didn't wake her up.
Sui Yi helped to get the test results.
"The doctor said that my mother-in-law is old and has weak immunity. It is recommended to take her to a big hospital for a comprehensive physical examination." Seeing Ning Lan's tense expression, Sui Yi raised her hand and patted him on the back to help him relax, "Don't worry, we Going right now."
After many years, Ning Lan got into Sui Yi's car again.He sat in the back row with his mother-in-law, and after being reminded by Sui Yi, he called Lu Binghua on the way to help him close the store.
Sui Yi brought them to a private hospital with leading medical conditions in the city. Ning Lan was hesitant at first, but then thought that the public hospital was overcrowded, and she might not know when they would be able to get them, so she gritted her teeth and sent her mother-in-law on a stretcher.
As soon as the patient was pushed in, various examinations were arranged, accompanied by medical staff throughout the process.
Sui Yi placed Ning Lan in the waiting room, poured him a glass of water, and comforted him: "The medical equipment here is advanced, and the medical staff are professional. Don't worry, my mother-in-law will get the best treatment here."
Ning Lan nodded, and sat down slowly holding the cup.
At noon, the mother-in-law woke up leisurely, opened her eyes and saw the high-end facilities in the ward, and insisted on leaving the hospital to go home. After hearing that Ning Lan said that she had already paid today's money, she lay down reluctantly and muttered: "Tonight we will go home. Let's go, I can't hold on tomorrow."
In the afternoon, her mother-in-law fell asleep again, and Sui Yi brought lunch for Ning Lan. Seeing that he didn't have the test report in his hand, Ning Lan asked nervously, "How's the result? Is there anything wrong?"
Sui Yi said: "You eat your meal first, and then take a nap with your mother-in-law. I will wait there and let you know the result as soon as I get it, okay?"
Ning Lan was comforted by his words. The temperature in the ward was moderate. He slept on his stomach for a while, and when he woke up, he found that his body was covered with a blanket, and Sui Yi was sitting on the chair next to him, lost in thought.
Ning Lan seldom saw Sui Yi in a daze, and the uneasiness in her heart became more and more intense, and her voice trembled a little: "Mother...what's wrong with mother-in-law?"
Sui Yi took his hand and led him to the corridor outside the ward.Ning Lan was a little afraid to listen to the next words, but he was the only relative of her mother-in-law, so he had to listen.
Sui Yi squeezed his palm and said, "Modern medicine is advanced, so don't scare yourself first."
Ning Lan swallowed a mouthful of saliva with difficulty, and asked hoarsely, "What's the matter?"
Sui Yi didn't intend to hide anything, so he looked at him and said, "I'm not sure if the tumor has spread outside the organs, and I need to do several tests today and tomorrow."
Perhaps it was due to mental preparations, Ning Lan just felt a pain in his heart, and then began to find excuses to question: "No...impossible, mother-in-law is usually in good health, and she rarely even has headaches, why... how come……"
Sui Yi didn't want to comfort him with such illusory words as "birth, old age, sickness and death, the world is impermanent", so he just held his hand tightly and said, "We'll talk about it when we see a doctor, everything has a solution."
I saw the doctor in the evening, and the preliminary examination confirmed ovarian cancer.
"This kind of cancer has a higher incidence rate in menopausal nulliparous women. There are almost no other symptoms in the early stage, and it is easy to be confused with other diseases, so it is difficult to be discovered." The doctor said.
"Then... can it be cured?" Ning Lan asked eagerly.
"Through surgery, radiotherapy and chemotherapy, the patient's life can be extended as much as possible."
The doctor's words have been reserved, implying that the disease cannot be eradicated. From now on, Granny Zhang's life will enter the countdown stage.
Ning Lan was stunned for a while, and felt that her question was really funny.How can a malignant tumor be cured?
In the evening, Ning Lan was going to go home to get some daily necessities and a change of clothes.Although everything is available in the hospital, the mother-in-law still feels uncomfortable. She is not used to the air conditioner and the humidifier. The most frequently asked question is "When shall we go back?"
"Mother-in-law is not good." Ning Lan pressed her restless hand, "I didn't want to see a doctor before, and my mother-in-law always laughed at me about the kid next door who was afraid of getting an injection, now it's your turn, you can't Double standard."
The mother-in-law hangs out with young people all day long, and she also knows the meaning of "double standards", so she lay back and said, "That's fine, let the doctor treat it quickly and prescribe some special medicine, I want to leave the hospital early."
Ning Lan responded with a smile.
As soon as she walked out of the hospital, the smile on her face disappeared. Ning Lan raised her head and stared blankly at the night sky.Sui Yi knew that it was a kind of exhaustion that was sad and desperate but could only resign to fate.
On the way back, Sui Yi got out of the car and bought him a piece of strawberry cake. Ning Lan didn't refuse, she held it in her hand and stared at it all the way.When the red light stopped at the intersection, Sui Yi leaned over to help him open it, and put the small spoon in his hand, but he refused to eat it, and just watched without moving.
Back home, Ning Lan took a bag and began to pack her luggage into it.
He tidied things up far less swiftly than before. Halfway through tidying up, he kept looking back to check the things he had put in before.
Sui Yi went up to help, but Ning Lan didn't want it, so Sui Yi wanted to feed him something, forked up the strawberry on the cake and brought it to his mouth, but he raised his hand impatiently and waved it away with a bit of force, pushing Sui Yi away After a staggering step, the fork and strawberry fell to the ground.
The air was still for a few seconds, Ning Lan took a few deep breaths and said, "You go, thank you for your help today, I will ask Fang Yu to bring you the medical expenses."
With that said, he turned around and went to the room to take out the piano case, opened it and placed it in front of Sui Yi: "I broke your bow, if you still need it, I can compensate you for an identical one."
Sui Yi looked down at the broken bow. The broken part was wrapped with tape a few times, which looked a little funny, just like a broken bead was forcibly fixed with metal, trying to cover up something.
"Exactly the same?" Sui Yi repeated the word, as if talking to himself, "How can there be two identical bows in the world?"
This bow is engraved with Ning Lan's undeclared love, which is unique and irreplaceable to him.Now that the bow is broken, does it mean that Ning Lan's love for him is gone?
Sui Yi couldn't help himself to think this way, his breathing became stagnant, and he felt flustered and depressed all at the same time.
Before he could stabilize his mind, Ning Lan asked quietly: "Then, are there two identical people in the world?"
Sui Yi raised her head and looked at him hesitantly.
"I'm Zhang Ning now, not Ning Lan." Ning Lan was so calm that he seemed to be telling someone else's story, and only when he got closer could he see the uneven cracks in his eyes, "Why did I change my name and surname, why did you leave, don't you know?" ?”
"Lan Lan..."
Sui Yi called him softly, and wanted to say something more, but was interrupted by Ning Lan: "Because it's good to be anyone, I don't want to be Ning Lan. As long as I don't call Ning Lan, I can cry whenever I want, laugh whenever I want, no one They stepped on me and scolded me indiscriminately, and no one doubted me and drove me away."
After asking and answering himself, his eyes gradually became slack, as if caught in a predicament of self-doubt, he said blankly: "...Apart from having expectations that shouldn't be expected, what else did I do wrong? You tell me, I still do it." What's wrong?"
At the end, there was a weak sob in his voice.
In these years, he has never complained about himself. His family doesn't like him, his fans resist him, and those he likes treat him like nothing. He has endured all of them.
People will die if they don't drink water. What if there is no so-called love?
He admitted that he was selfish, and that his kindness to Granny Zhang also had other purposes, and he was willing to give anything for that little return.But why did God cruelly take it back after he finally got some warmth?
Didn't he get enough retribution?
"You are wrong, you are indeed wrong." Sui Yishen said suddenly, took a deep breath, and said firmly, "You gave all your enthusiasm to the unworthy people, and your mistake is loving others, but not yourself. "
Ning Lan was dazed by his words, and stared at him step by step, forgetting other reactions except trembling lips.
Sui Yi raised his hand, gently supporting the back of his neck with his warm palm, staring at him unobstructedly: "You are so cruel to yourself, why not be cruel to the person who loves you? It doesn't matter if the bow is broken or , don’t love others in the future, treat yourself better. If you think it’s not enough, it’s not even enough..."
Speaking of this, Sui Yi took Ning Lan's hand and pressed it to his undulating left chest: "From now on, don't love me anymore, I love you is enough. You take all my love Go, and then take revenge on me, scold me, trample on me, and let me repay you twice the pain you have endured."
The pulsating heartbeat was beating in the palm of his hand like a war drum. Ning Lan looked at the two small selves in Sui Yi's eyes, and felt terrified. He shook his head and wanted to withdraw his hand, but Sui Yi pressed him tightly on his chest, unable to move. .
"I don't, I don't want to..."
He kept shrinking back, but his shoulder was pressed down by Sui Yi's other arm, and he was pressed hard into his bosom.
Sui Yi almost gritted his teeth, and there was a fierce look between his strong eyebrows, and his jaw was stretched into a cold line because of too much force.
He didn't want Ning Lan to see him like this again.In the past, there was no weakness, but now the weakness is in his arms, it will break if touched, he is afraid of scaring him.
Sui Yi stroked Ning Lan's soft hair, listened to his disordered breathing, and made his voice as steady as possible: "If you don't want to be Ning Lan, then you won't be Ning Lan. It's okay if you don't love me, or you don't know me, I can take revenge... I can do whatever I want."
Feeling Ning Lan's body slowly relaxing in his arms, making a soft whimper like a kitten, Sui Yi also miraculously relaxed, with the corners of his mouth raised, and said softly: "Don't be afraid, no matter what happens, I will always be with you."
"My young master." As soon as he picked up the phone, Wang Xu elongated his tone and shouted weakly, "Can't you keep a low profile? Your underwear is almost being ripped off."
Sui Yi turned around and walked to the corner, asking, "What underwear?"
"Someone took a picture of you and Ning Lan and posted it on an anonymous forum to ask what was going on. Within two hours, those fans picked up on the two of you. Even the food blogger you liked may be Ning Lan. Fortunately, Mi Jie found out early, and I went to someone to delete it, otherwise the matter would be caught by the media and fermented, and you would not even think about taking the remaining half-month vacation."
Sui Yi is quite satisfied with the job of an artist, not only is it a professional counterpart, but she can continue to play the piano.The only unbearable thing is that sometimes masks and hats are not useful when going out, and it doesn't feel good to be watched by the people of the whole country in your private life.
"Let's just pick it up," Sui Yi said, "I'm just about to make it public."
"What?" There was a muffled sound of something heavy being hit on the ground from Wang Xu's end, "Young Master, are you crazy? Now that it's public, do you still want your fans? Do you still want your future?"
Sui Yi said: "I thought my attitude was clear enough. The Weibo I posted for him back then, as well as the actions at the concert, were just buffering time for fans. I have never shy away from mentioning that I am looking for him over the years. This matter, now that people have found it, why can't it be made public?"
Wang Xu pressed his forehead, took a deep breath, and said, "I know there will be such a day sooner or later, but you just decided unilaterally. Have you asked Ning Lan what he means? He has been hiding for so long, isn't it just to live a peaceful life?" ? What do you think will happen to him once it is made public?"
Sui Yi said in a deep voice, "I will protect him well."
He had thought about this question a long time ago. He wanted to give Ning Lan a stable life, but also wanted to give him a name in an upright manner. The former was the source of Ning Lan's happiness, and the latter was the only sense of security he could give Ning Lan.
Sui Yi is not only Starlight Entertainment's ace entertainer, but also a true young master with a strong family background. Wang Xu can't screw him, fearing that if he becomes stubborn, he will give up his pick and quit the circle, so he has to settle for the next best thing: "Okay, it's okay to be open, We can find a time to sit down with the public relations department and have a good discussion, choose the most suitable time to make it public, minimize the harm to fans and the impact on public opinion, and release it regardless, it will not benefit anyone."
Sui Yi breathed a sigh of relief: "Yes, I know."
Wang Xu explained a few more words in a long-winded manner, telling him to hide it, and be careful not to be photographed by the paparazzi, and Sui Yi responded one by one.
After hanging up the phone and looking back, Ning Lan had already finished drying the last piece of clothes. He fixed the flower quilt on the clothesline with clips, and the petals were fluttering in the wind. When he approached, he could still smell the sweet fragrance of flowers.
Ning Lan bowed and picked up the empty basin and entered the room, Sui Yi followed behind and asked nonchalantly, "Have you had breakfast yet?"
"have eaten."
Putting the basin under the sink, Ning Lan turned on the tap to wash his hands.Sui Yi glanced at the two remaining steamed buns beside the kitchen stove, and his desire was palpable.
After Ning Lan washed her hands, she went back to her room to take her medicine, and Sui Yi followed; she went to sweep the floor in the living room, and Sui Yi followed; she went to pick green onions in the small vegetable garden in the front yard, and Sui Yi continued to follow, curiously asking, "Is this garlic? "
Ning Lan was defeated by him, so he compromised and warmed up the two buns for him to eat, hoping that he would leave quickly after eating, otherwise, not to mention Granny Zhang, he might not even be able to restrain the urge to call the police.
Just as the steamed stuffed buns were put into the steamer, Lu Binghua's heart-piercing howl suddenly came from outside: "Grandma, what's wrong with you, Grandma? Brother Ningning, come out quickly, Grandma has passed out!"
There was only one small clinic on Quanxi Street, Sui Yi carried Granny Zhang on her back, and Ning Lan ran behind with her support.The young man walked quickly, and within 10 minutes, he put the old man flat on the small bed in the clinic.
The weather is hot, and it is a period of high incidence of heat stroke and heat cold, and the consultation room is full of people.The doctor came to listen to the heartbeat, measure the body temperature, and asked the patient if he had any abnormal symptoms recently. After receiving a negative answer from Ning Lan, he gave him a bottle of Huoxiang Zhengqi Water, and then took a blood test.
Ning Lan squeezed her mother-in-law's mouth open and poured her some medicine.The mother-in-law is usually very picky when eating, but now the smell of Huoxiang Zhengqi water didn't wake her up.
Sui Yi helped to get the test results.
"The doctor said that my mother-in-law is old and has weak immunity. It is recommended to take her to a big hospital for a comprehensive physical examination." Seeing Ning Lan's tense expression, Sui Yi raised her hand and patted him on the back to help him relax, "Don't worry, we Going right now."
After many years, Ning Lan got into Sui Yi's car again.He sat in the back row with his mother-in-law, and after being reminded by Sui Yi, he called Lu Binghua on the way to help him close the store.
Sui Yi brought them to a private hospital with leading medical conditions in the city. Ning Lan was hesitant at first, but then thought that the public hospital was overcrowded, and she might not know when they would be able to get them, so she gritted her teeth and sent her mother-in-law on a stretcher.
As soon as the patient was pushed in, various examinations were arranged, accompanied by medical staff throughout the process.
Sui Yi placed Ning Lan in the waiting room, poured him a glass of water, and comforted him: "The medical equipment here is advanced, and the medical staff are professional. Don't worry, my mother-in-law will get the best treatment here."
Ning Lan nodded, and sat down slowly holding the cup.
At noon, the mother-in-law woke up leisurely, opened her eyes and saw the high-end facilities in the ward, and insisted on leaving the hospital to go home. After hearing that Ning Lan said that she had already paid today's money, she lay down reluctantly and muttered: "Tonight we will go home. Let's go, I can't hold on tomorrow."
In the afternoon, her mother-in-law fell asleep again, and Sui Yi brought lunch for Ning Lan. Seeing that he didn't have the test report in his hand, Ning Lan asked nervously, "How's the result? Is there anything wrong?"
Sui Yi said: "You eat your meal first, and then take a nap with your mother-in-law. I will wait there and let you know the result as soon as I get it, okay?"
Ning Lan was comforted by his words. The temperature in the ward was moderate. He slept on his stomach for a while, and when he woke up, he found that his body was covered with a blanket, and Sui Yi was sitting on the chair next to him, lost in thought.
Ning Lan seldom saw Sui Yi in a daze, and the uneasiness in her heart became more and more intense, and her voice trembled a little: "Mother...what's wrong with mother-in-law?"
Sui Yi took his hand and led him to the corridor outside the ward.Ning Lan was a little afraid to listen to the next words, but he was the only relative of her mother-in-law, so he had to listen.
Sui Yi squeezed his palm and said, "Modern medicine is advanced, so don't scare yourself first."
Ning Lan swallowed a mouthful of saliva with difficulty, and asked hoarsely, "What's the matter?"
Sui Yi didn't intend to hide anything, so he looked at him and said, "I'm not sure if the tumor has spread outside the organs, and I need to do several tests today and tomorrow."
Perhaps it was due to mental preparations, Ning Lan just felt a pain in his heart, and then began to find excuses to question: "No...impossible, mother-in-law is usually in good health, and she rarely even has headaches, why... how come……"
Sui Yi didn't want to comfort him with such illusory words as "birth, old age, sickness and death, the world is impermanent", so he just held his hand tightly and said, "We'll talk about it when we see a doctor, everything has a solution."
I saw the doctor in the evening, and the preliminary examination confirmed ovarian cancer.
"This kind of cancer has a higher incidence rate in menopausal nulliparous women. There are almost no other symptoms in the early stage, and it is easy to be confused with other diseases, so it is difficult to be discovered." The doctor said.
"Then... can it be cured?" Ning Lan asked eagerly.
"Through surgery, radiotherapy and chemotherapy, the patient's life can be extended as much as possible."
The doctor's words have been reserved, implying that the disease cannot be eradicated. From now on, Granny Zhang's life will enter the countdown stage.
Ning Lan was stunned for a while, and felt that her question was really funny.How can a malignant tumor be cured?
In the evening, Ning Lan was going to go home to get some daily necessities and a change of clothes.Although everything is available in the hospital, the mother-in-law still feels uncomfortable. She is not used to the air conditioner and the humidifier. The most frequently asked question is "When shall we go back?"
"Mother-in-law is not good." Ning Lan pressed her restless hand, "I didn't want to see a doctor before, and my mother-in-law always laughed at me about the kid next door who was afraid of getting an injection, now it's your turn, you can't Double standard."
The mother-in-law hangs out with young people all day long, and she also knows the meaning of "double standards", so she lay back and said, "That's fine, let the doctor treat it quickly and prescribe some special medicine, I want to leave the hospital early."
Ning Lan responded with a smile.
As soon as she walked out of the hospital, the smile on her face disappeared. Ning Lan raised her head and stared blankly at the night sky.Sui Yi knew that it was a kind of exhaustion that was sad and desperate but could only resign to fate.
On the way back, Sui Yi got out of the car and bought him a piece of strawberry cake. Ning Lan didn't refuse, she held it in her hand and stared at it all the way.When the red light stopped at the intersection, Sui Yi leaned over to help him open it, and put the small spoon in his hand, but he refused to eat it, and just watched without moving.
Back home, Ning Lan took a bag and began to pack her luggage into it.
He tidied things up far less swiftly than before. Halfway through tidying up, he kept looking back to check the things he had put in before.
Sui Yi went up to help, but Ning Lan didn't want it, so Sui Yi wanted to feed him something, forked up the strawberry on the cake and brought it to his mouth, but he raised his hand impatiently and waved it away with a bit of force, pushing Sui Yi away After a staggering step, the fork and strawberry fell to the ground.
The air was still for a few seconds, Ning Lan took a few deep breaths and said, "You go, thank you for your help today, I will ask Fang Yu to bring you the medical expenses."
With that said, he turned around and went to the room to take out the piano case, opened it and placed it in front of Sui Yi: "I broke your bow, if you still need it, I can compensate you for an identical one."
Sui Yi looked down at the broken bow. The broken part was wrapped with tape a few times, which looked a little funny, just like a broken bead was forcibly fixed with metal, trying to cover up something.
"Exactly the same?" Sui Yi repeated the word, as if talking to himself, "How can there be two identical bows in the world?"
This bow is engraved with Ning Lan's undeclared love, which is unique and irreplaceable to him.Now that the bow is broken, does it mean that Ning Lan's love for him is gone?
Sui Yi couldn't help himself to think this way, his breathing became stagnant, and he felt flustered and depressed all at the same time.
Before he could stabilize his mind, Ning Lan asked quietly: "Then, are there two identical people in the world?"
Sui Yi raised her head and looked at him hesitantly.
"I'm Zhang Ning now, not Ning Lan." Ning Lan was so calm that he seemed to be telling someone else's story, and only when he got closer could he see the uneven cracks in his eyes, "Why did I change my name and surname, why did you leave, don't you know?" ?”
"Lan Lan..."
Sui Yi called him softly, and wanted to say something more, but was interrupted by Ning Lan: "Because it's good to be anyone, I don't want to be Ning Lan. As long as I don't call Ning Lan, I can cry whenever I want, laugh whenever I want, no one They stepped on me and scolded me indiscriminately, and no one doubted me and drove me away."
After asking and answering himself, his eyes gradually became slack, as if caught in a predicament of self-doubt, he said blankly: "...Apart from having expectations that shouldn't be expected, what else did I do wrong? You tell me, I still do it." What's wrong?"
At the end, there was a weak sob in his voice.
In these years, he has never complained about himself. His family doesn't like him, his fans resist him, and those he likes treat him like nothing. He has endured all of them.
People will die if they don't drink water. What if there is no so-called love?
He admitted that he was selfish, and that his kindness to Granny Zhang also had other purposes, and he was willing to give anything for that little return.But why did God cruelly take it back after he finally got some warmth?
Didn't he get enough retribution?
"You are wrong, you are indeed wrong." Sui Yishen said suddenly, took a deep breath, and said firmly, "You gave all your enthusiasm to the unworthy people, and your mistake is loving others, but not yourself. "
Ning Lan was dazed by his words, and stared at him step by step, forgetting other reactions except trembling lips.
Sui Yi raised his hand, gently supporting the back of his neck with his warm palm, staring at him unobstructedly: "You are so cruel to yourself, why not be cruel to the person who loves you? It doesn't matter if the bow is broken or , don’t love others in the future, treat yourself better. If you think it’s not enough, it’s not even enough..."
Speaking of this, Sui Yi took Ning Lan's hand and pressed it to his undulating left chest: "From now on, don't love me anymore, I love you is enough. You take all my love Go, and then take revenge on me, scold me, trample on me, and let me repay you twice the pain you have endured."
The pulsating heartbeat was beating in the palm of his hand like a war drum. Ning Lan looked at the two small selves in Sui Yi's eyes, and felt terrified. He shook his head and wanted to withdraw his hand, but Sui Yi pressed him tightly on his chest, unable to move. .
"I don't, I don't want to..."
He kept shrinking back, but his shoulder was pressed down by Sui Yi's other arm, and he was pressed hard into his bosom.
Sui Yi almost gritted his teeth, and there was a fierce look between his strong eyebrows, and his jaw was stretched into a cold line because of too much force.
He didn't want Ning Lan to see him like this again.In the past, there was no weakness, but now the weakness is in his arms, it will break if touched, he is afraid of scaring him.
Sui Yi stroked Ning Lan's soft hair, listened to his disordered breathing, and made his voice as steady as possible: "If you don't want to be Ning Lan, then you won't be Ning Lan. It's okay if you don't love me, or you don't know me, I can take revenge... I can do whatever I want."
Feeling Ning Lan's body slowly relaxing in his arms, making a soft whimper like a kitten, Sui Yi also miraculously relaxed, with the corners of his mouth raised, and said softly: "Don't be afraid, no matter what happens, I will always be with you."
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