Chasing Tides

Go to the corner of the stairs and bump into a person head-on.

The man was tall, dark, unshaven, with a cigarette dangling from his mouth.The stairs were narrow, and neither of them backed down immediately. The man's eyebrows were twisted into Sichuan characters, and he looked up at Ning Lan's house, which had just closed the door. His cruel eyes lingered on Sui Yi's body without any concealment, and said in a rough voice. : "Lanlan's new boss?"

Sui Yi wanted to go downstairs sideways, but after hearing what this person said, he immediately realized that he was the person who had just talked to Zhao Jinshan on the phone.Thinking of the dirty content on the phone, Sui Yi stood still and squinted at him: "Who are you?"

Xie Tianhao blew out his cigarette butt, squinted his eyes and said, "Then we are all the same."

With a half smile, he stretched out his hand to shake Sui Yi's hand.Sui Yi stood still, and Xie Tianhao was not angry either. He put his hands in his pockets and said casually: "Speaking of which, I fell in love with Ning Lan first, and you all came later."

The word "you" made Sui Yi subconsciously upset, and he said in a deep voice, "What did you do to him?"

Xie Tianhao spat on the ground, and said viciously: "What can he/mother do to him? That kid is very fierce, his mother sold him to me, and he bit his tongue to play with him and killed himself after touching him twice. Untied the rope and ran away, and stole the money in my pocket before leaving, are you angry?"

Sui Yi did not agree.Coming out of Ning Lan's house, he felt a faint throbbing pain in his chest, and many scenes that he didn't know before spontaneously appeared in his mind--Ning Lan who got good grades when he was a child and won awards every year, Ning Lan who missed the exam in the heavy rain, and his back. Ning Lan who was looking for a job in the capital, and Ning Lan who was betrayed by her mother and tied up in a dark room...

Each one is very strange, but it is reasonable to apply it to Ning Lan.He seems soft and deceitful, but in fact he is stubborn and strong. He never shows weakness to himself, and never uses miserable experiences to win sympathy. What he is best at is hiding his sadness and fragility with a heartless smile. Don't let anyone see it.

"If he hadn't paid back the money, I wouldn't have let him go if I was killed." After Xie Tianhao complained, he turned to ask Sui Yi, "Hey, did you fuck him before? How much did you pay? Are you happy? ah?"

Seeing that Sui Yi was still silent, he tilted his mouth and said with a smirk: "If you get tired of playing, you can transfer it to me at a cheap price? By the time a little bitch like him comes into your hands, he should have already been played to death, right? How about ...fuck me!"

Before Xie Tianhao could finish his sentence, Sui Yi's sudden fist punched his face distortedly, his foot slipped, he made two backward rolls along the steps, and hung his head on the stairs embarrassingly.

At eight/nine in the evening, the plane arrived in the capital on time.

Lu Xiaochuan drove to pick up Sui Yi. Sui Yi's face was painted, and the mask couldn't cover the bruises on the corners of his eyebrows. Lu Xiaochuan asked if he wanted to go to the hospital, Sui Yi shook his head and said, "Go back to the dormitory."

This state looked like nothing was achieved, so Lu Xiaochuan shut up and started the car.

On the way, Sui Yi asked, "Where's Fang Yu?"

Lu Xiaochuan knew that he wanted to inquire about Ning Lan's news, and said: "He entrusted his relatives to check the road monitoring, and there are people watching at the airport hotel station, as long as Ning Lan uses his ID card, I can receive it within 10 minutes. News." After a pause, he said, "Don't worry too much, he will be fine."

Sui Yi said "hmm", and asked after a while, "Where's your brother?"

As the last person to see Ning Lan, Lu Xiaozhou was interrogated by the crowd long ago to the point that he had no love in his life.He said that after Sui Yi left that day, he went into the room and stayed with Ning Lan for a while. Ning Lan sat on the ground and didn't speak. He went downstairs to buy him something to eat. When he came back, the door was locked, and no one came to open after knocking for a long time. , he thought Ning Lan had gone out, wandered around the door a few times and left.

"My brother went back to the United States today. Before he left, he asked me to find Ning Lan and inform him immediately. I think he... really doesn't know."

Lu Xiaochuan glanced at the tired-looking person on the co-pilot, and felt that it was cruel to say this.No one else knew how Sui Yi was looking for Ning Lan without sleeping or eating or drinking these days, but he saw it all.

After hearing his words, Sui Yi remained calm.He closed his eyes, and opened them again after a few seconds. The neon lights flickering outside the window were reflected in his eyes, but they did not bring him any color or vitality at all.

He said lightly: "Thank you."

Back in the dormitory, Sui Yi closed the window of the room, glanced at the furnishings in the room that hadn't changed a bit from before he left, walked to Ning Lan's bed and sat down, then lay down slowly.

He put his pillow on Ning Lan's bed, how he wished to see the pillow thrown back on the upper bunk when he came back, and heard Ning Lan half complaining and half coquettishly say to him: "I have so many pillows here, don't throw them away Take it down, the bed is too small to fit in."

Ning Lan used the pillows and dolls sent by fans as pillows, and placed them on the bed like a treasure.When Sui Yi slept with him, he felt that these things were in the way, so Ning Lan refused to throw them away. No matter how rough the doll was, he could treat it as a treasure.

Once when the two of them got together, a pillow was squeezed to the ground, and Ning Lan was about to pick it up. Sui Yi's face turned black, and when he was grabbed by his waist, there was a gust of wind and rain, and Ning Lan Being pushed by him, half of her body fell outside, and she hurriedly hugged him to avoid falling.

Sui Yi pinched his face to let him look at her, gritted her teeth and said, "Do you want me or that bastard?"

Ning Lan rarely heard such colloquial words from his mouth, and couldn't stop laughing for a while.Sui Yi was short of breath, and pushed his legs fiercely into the depths, brushing against the sensitive glands inside each time, only then did Ning Lan stop laughing, and buried herself in his arms, biting her lips and moaning softly.

After the matter was over, Sui Yi sat up and prepared to take a bath, but Ning Lan still circled Sui Yi and refused to let her go.Sui Yi couldn't open his arm, and asked him what he was doing, Ning Lan was so tired that she couldn't open her eyes, she curled her mouth and smiled with two dimples, and said in a soft voice: "I want you, I only want you, you are my big baby. "

Now, he didn't keep any of those treasures, but left Sui Yi here.

Sui Yi lay down for a while, reached under the pillow, and took out a bank card.

This was stuffed in Ning Lan's book before he left. For more than a year, he had long forgotten that he still had such a card. When he stuffed it into the ATM machine, he almost entered the wrong password.

He had never calculated how much money he gave Ning Lan, and the balance on the card surprised him.After being surprised, there was frustration and pain. Ning Lan had obviously been saving for a long time. For this money, he worked hard to get a salary. The padded jacket is worn and worn again.

In the past, he only knew that Ning Lan was short of money, very short of money, even though he was given a lot of money, he still didn't have enough.Sui Yi even suspected whether he was gambling or addicted to drugs, secretly observed his every move, and took a long time to rule out these two terrible possibilities.

He also sarcastically asked if he would settle the bill once in his sleep.

At that time, he would never have thought that Ning Lan was saving money to "redeem himself".

Ning Lan's life has been more difficult than most people since he was born, but he has never given up, and has never been polluted by the world. Under such a harsh environment, he still wants to be free.

Sui Yi checked the income and expenditure records of this card, and Ning Lan only deposited the money on the card the day before he returned to China.He should still have hope at that time, maybe he planned to return the card to himself on Valentine's Day, and said with a relaxed look: "Now you are not my benefactor." Maybe he would take out the box of chocolates and pretend to be calm Asked calmly: "Then do you want to upgrade from my big baby to be my boyfriend?"

His Ning Lan should be free and unrestrained, just like when he first met him, even though he was dressed in rags and looked embarrassed, he still held his head high, and his bright black eyes shone with a confident, intelligent, and fearless edge.

Instead of being cowardly and hesitant like that morning, pulling the hem of his clothes and begging him to stay and finish breakfast before leaving, being "given" to others so contemptuously and casually by him, still without saying a word Life suffers.

In the past, he felt that Ning Lan was too difficult to understand, he didn't know what he was thinking, and when he could "correct" and blindly judged him by his own standard for "good people", but never thought of getting close to him from a different angle. ,to understand.

The shell that Ning Lan used to protect himself looked extremely hard. He was blinded by the filth on the surface, and subconsciously backed away, but he didn't know that the shell would break if knocked, and a clean and pure heart was hidden inside.

Sui Yi felt as if his throat was being strangled by a pair of invisible hands, getting tighter and tighter, so tight that he couldn't breathe.He raised his hand and rubbed his face fiercely a few times. When he put his hand down, his fingertips brushed against the wall and landed on a round hard object.

He took out the thing stuck in the gap between the bed and the wall. It was a white plastic water pipe less than one meter long.It was very strange that this thing appeared on the bed. Sui Yi sat up and found that both ends of the water pipe were tightly wrapped with tape, and there seemed to be something inside.

One of the ends has been cut neatly. Sui Yi reached in and slowly pulled out a long and thin cloth bag.

Inside is a violin bow.

Sui Yi has been learning the piano for more than ten years, and has handled countless bows. This one can only be regarded as a relatively common one. It is ordinary sumac, ordinary sanding, and ordinary paint. The silver tangled thread is quite well-behaved and somewhat old-fashioned.

But when he thought of who was going to give it to him, his heart couldn't stop trembling, even his hands were shaking.The bow was new and hadn't been rosined, so it didn't feel sticky to the touch. The horse hairs hanging on the side showed that someone had opened it more than once, and broke two horse hairs clumsily.

His fingers slid down to the root of the bow, and he suddenly felt a patch of potholes. His heart stopped beating for no reason, and he turned the bow around, only to see a few words engraved on the place where he was holding the bow. But each stroke is carved extremely deep, if this is not a piece of wood but a piece of paper, it is about the level that the force penetrates the back of the paper.

Sui Yi hurriedly stood up, put the bow on the table, turned on the desk lamp and looked at it carefully, stroking the three characters one by one with his thumb.

I love you.

Sui Yi's mind was blank for a few seconds, and then he remembered the day when he was sulking because he didn't receive Ning Lan's birthday gift. Ning Lan hid the piano bow, put on sexy underwear and sent herself To him, and when he saw him picking up music again, what kind of mood did he secretly engrave these three words?

Ning Lan put all the love she didn't dare to say into every look, every hug, and every kiss, and left here a sincere heart that she didn't dare to show, so deep that it couldn't be wiped away .

What happened to him?Why do you think Ning Lan is difficult to understand, you think Ning Lan is a liar who can only tell lies?

In the end, only the sentence "I don't like you" is a big lie, it is the only bit of self-esteem left after he was harsh and trampled in every way, as long as he is warmed up with a little bit of warmth, he will melt, Will reveal the softest inner, dedicate yourself to Him without reservation.

But he didn't, because of stinginess, because of ignorance and prejudice, because of childish domineering, just missed a hot heart.

Sui Yi covered his face with his hands, and slowly lay down on the table.

Between his fingers, his eyelashes were trembling, and he tried his best to suppress the rapid panting, and took a few deep breaths, so that the reddened eyes were only slightly wet, and the blue veins on the side of his neck gradually disappeared. , until it disappears.

He stood up, opened the piano case, picked up the bow on the table, and put it in carefully.

Bring it with you, maybe Ning Lan will come back sooner.