Chasing Tides

5 minutes before entering the arena, Ning Lan returned to AOW's meeting point in the background.

An Lin stepped forward and said sternly: "Where did you go? You don't answer the phone, can you run around in this kind of situation?" Halfway through the conversation, she found that Ning Lan was not in the right state, so she took back the blame she hadn't said yet, and asked in a soft tone. , "What's wrong, uncomfortable?"

Ning Lan shook her head: "Sorry, I just went to the bathroom."

An Lin pulled Ning Lan aside and lowered her voice: "Is there any difficulty?"

Even the assistant knew that it was not the first time he was "difficult".Ning Lan wanted to laugh at herself, but couldn't. She looked down at the ground and said, "No, don't worry."

Seeing his preoccupied but silent appearance, An Lin sighed helplessly. Among the seven members of AOW, Ning Lan is not the most prominent, but he is considered the most worry-free one. When he first joined the group, he was excluded. An Lin noticed it and tried to coordinate behind his back.I heard that Ning Lan’s family’s conditions are not good. The company plans to invite his family to the birthday party to check his personal information left in the company. The column for parents is actually empty, and the emergency contact is also empty. No wonder he was sensible early , it can be said that it is a world of difference from those young masters who make trouble all day long.

"If you have anything to say to me and sister Zhang Fan, don't keep it in your heart." An Lin persuaded.

Ning Lan nodded and said yes, such things as Xindao can only rot in her stomach for a lifetime, and no one can say it.

"Oh, by the way, you were not here just now, so please remember something." An Lin lowered her voice, "Sister Zhang Fan said, if there is no accident, the best newcomer group is ours, and she asked you to come on stage to lead Don't be too happy with the award, at least don't make people look proud, it would be even better if it can be moved to tears, it's an inspirational and bitter lover's design."

Ning Lan raised his head and showed doubts. He came in by air, and there was no such thing as the joys and sorrows and emotions of years of hard training and finally surviving.

"You had a lot of black fans when you debuted, and now you are recognized by most of them. Thinking about the last time you signed a sale... um." An Lin braked in time, "When the music on the stage is played, you must feel a little bit. ?”

Ning Lan thought he couldn't cry. He has lived for 23 years and has experienced many things that are impossible for many people to experience in a lifetime. It stands to reason that he should have been invincible long ago, and nothing can move him or make him sad.

When the host on the stage announced that the best rookie group of the year was AOW, his heart was empty, and he didn't even feel honored as a bystander and witness, as if it was a voiceover that had nothing to do with him.

"Hey, come to the stage to accept the award." Fang Yu touched him who was still in a daze.

Seven people came to the stage in a neat line from the side of the stage, and Ning Lan followed at the end of the line. The passionate music echoed in his ears, revealing illusory unreality everywhere.

From just before taking the stage to now, Ning Lan has not looked at Sui Yi, or it would be more appropriate to say that she is avoiding him.He didn't know what to say to Sui Yi. After the piercing pain passed, he seemed to be still trapped in the cold weather, unable to break free.

Sui Yi is his poison, before he quits, he should not have any contact with him.

"Next, we invite guest Mr. Ji Zhinan to present the awards to the winning groups."

Ning Lan was stunned when she heard the name, and then her eyes drifted involuntarily to the source of the voice.He watched Sui Yi take the trophy from Ji Zhinan with his own eyes. The two stood under the light and looked at each other briefly, with smiles that complemented each other.

"First of all, I would like to thank the music festival organizers, our company Starlight Entertainment, and more importantly, our fans. Without you, AOW would not be where it is today..."

Sui Yi's words were correct, and he read the same acceptance speech calmly and solemnly.

The voice was very close to him, as if it was engraved in his heart, but it seemed to be far away, and after desperately chasing it, only a wisp of dust was caught.

As Ning Lan listened, her throat choked, and then her lower lip trembled, and the hot liquid rolled down just as soon as it filled her eye sockets.

He can't quit, until now, he is still delusional to catch up with that beam of light, get closer to him, and get closer.

How could it be possible to quit?

AOW sat in the audience until the end of the awards ceremony.

The company's celebration banquet was arranged at noon tomorrow, and it was already past eleven o'clock in the middle of the night when we returned to the nanny's car. Fang Yu and Lu Xiaochuan also followed the big team to the dormitory. The car was very lively, and they were passing the trophies they just got one by one. Wang Bingyang even took a bite, screaming in pain.

Fang Yu couldn't help laughing: "Do you think this is the Oscar statuette?" He snatched the trophy and said, "Lanlan hasn't seen it yet. Here, touch this trophy, something unexpected will happen tomorrow."

Ning Lan curled up in the corner and slowly turned her head, was stunned for a while, then raised her hand to touch it.

Lu Xiaochuan patted his legs and laughed loudly: "If it wasn't for an unexpected good thing, Lanlan wouldn't be willing to touch it hahahahaha."

Wang Bingyang stretched his neck to look at Ning Lan: "Brother Lan, are you okay?"

On the stage just now, Ning Lan cried the most. He didn't cry loudly, but burst into tears without saying a word. When the seven people hugged in a circle on the stage, the other members realized that he was crying. Gao Ming also teased him that he "really knows how to act".

"It's okay." Ning Lan whispered.

Sui Yi, who was sitting in the front row, turned around to accept the trophy handed over by Fang Yu, and glanced at it. Ning Lan's nose was still red, the corners of her mouth drooped slightly, and her eyes were staring out the window, looking indifferent and indifferent. There is a kind of indescribable pity.

This looks a bit like Ji Zhinan when he was a child.

Today he saw Ji Zhinan, his eyes were as clear as before, but the smile on the corner of his mouth was not as pure as before, the polite curve seemed to have been practiced many times in front of the mirror.He also seemed to have something on his mind.

Sui Yi should have been thinking about why Ji Zhinan was unhappy, maybe it was because he wasn't focused enough, but thinking about it, his thoughts turned back to the person in the corner of the back seat.

I don't know if Ning is really acting, or if he thought of something sad, if it's the latter, maybe it has something to do with what he said to him.

At that time, seeing him flirting with that fat old man, he said it without thinking about it. Looking back now, it was indeed a bit excessive.

Downstairs in the dormitory, everyone went out separately to find food. Gu, Gao, and Wang went to the entrance of the community to eat barbecue. Fang Yu and Lu Xiaochuan didn't drive, and asked Sui Yi to take them to eat hot pot.Ning Lan was about to go upstairs alone, Fang Yu slung his arm around his neck: "Lan Lan will go with me, as agreed last time, I will mix the secret sauce for me."

Fang Yu looked at a thin person, but as strong as a bull, and dragged Ning Lan to Sui Yi's car without any effort. Seeing that it would be inappropriate to refuse, Ning Lan had to compromise.

Sui Yi helped him open the passenger car door, Ning Lan took a step back, climbed into the back row and sat next to Fang Yu, Lu Xiaochuan saw that the two brothers were well, and took the initiative to give up his seat to the passenger car, shouting: "Let's go!"

In fact, Ning Lan didn't have any appetite at all, and even felt a little nauseous.

When he was young, he loved to cry a lot, because if he cried, the neighbors would hear him, and someone would come to take care of him, and persuade his father not to beat him like this. Because of face, his father would always strike lightly or end earlier.Later, his father thought he was noisy and stuffed a dirty rag into his mouth. He couldn't cry, and after gritting his teeth, he just wanted to vomit. As a result, he would gag reflexively as long as he shed tears.

He went to get the sauce for everyone, and when he came back, the dishes were already on the table, and the soup was gurgling and boiling.

"Hey, why didn't Lan Lan make any sauce for herself?" Fang Yu said, biting his chopsticks.

Sui Yi looked at the one in front of him, and pushed it to Ning Lan who was on the opposite side: "You eat it first, I don't eat sauce."

Ning Lan lowered her eyes for a while, then pushed back: "Your."

Sui Yi didn't understand.

"No garlic, coriander and green onion, slightly spicy, yours." Ning Lan added.

Sui Yi was stunned.He never told anyone about his tastes and preferences, and he never talked about his taboos at group dinners. Just avoid what he doesn't eat. He doesn't like to bother others.

She didn't expect Ning Lan to know her own taste so clearly.

Fang Yu tasted his own and Lu Xiaochuan's share, curled his lips and said, "Lanlan, you are biased, give the captain something special."

Lu Xiaochuan threw a plate of meatballs into the pot: "He sleeps in the same bed, can it be the same as you?"

The speaker didn't care about the listener, and Sui Yi's heart tightened. Looking at Ning Lan's expression, Ning Lan's face was still calm, as if she didn't hear anything.

After a meal until two in the morning, Fang Yu drank some fruit wine and sang from "The Great River Flows Eastward" to "The Cool Night Is a River of Thoughts for You" in the backseat. He felt that this song was unlucky and changed to "Good Luck Good luck to you", Lu Xiaochuan accompanied the B-BOX throughout the whole process, Sui Yi looked at Ning Lan from the rearview mirror several times, and he was clapping his hands to find the rhythm for the drunk Fang Yu.

Approaching the dormitory, the noise in the car subsided a bit.In the underground parking lot, Lu Xiaochuan got off the car and went to the back seat to carry Fang Yu out who was still humming. He shouted "Why is this guy so heavy" and went to the elevator. Sui Yi got out of the car and waited for a while, but there was no back seat Someone came down again and walked over to open the car door. Ning Lan lay motionless on the seat, as if she had fallen asleep.

"Ning Lan?" Sui Yi called out.

No one should.

Sui Yi stepped up with one foot, and patted Ning Lan's face closer: "Wake up, go back to sleep."

Ning Lan suddenly raised her hand to wrap around his waist, and pulled him onto her body. Sui Yi was caught off guard and fell on top of him, holding onto the back of the chair with one hand to stabilize her figure. When she recovered, the two had already met their eyes. , so close together that the tips of their noses almost touch each other.

Ning Lan stared into his eyes, wondering if he was really looking at that person through her, but Sui Yi looked back frankly, without a single crack in her pupils, as if she had no reservations, Ning Lan didn't care about anything. Can't find it.

He closed his eyes hopelessly, raised his hand and pushed Sui Yi, and was about to speak, when the car door, which was not closed tightly, was suddenly opened.

"My scarf is here—" A gust of cold wind drifted into the car with Fang Yu's voice, and then stopped abruptly.

Because Fang Yu and Lu Xiaochuan stayed overnight tonight, Gu Chenkai had to move back to the original dormitory.

Ning Lan felt uncomfortable in his stomach, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, Gu Chenkai, who was facing the bed, kicked the bed twice in annoyance, then he just sat up, hugged the quilt and went to sleep on the sofa in the living room.

Fang Yu couldn't sleep either, so he kept sending him text messages, asking him what happened to the captain, and whether the tooth mark was bitten by the captain last time. He said that he didn't ask any more questions after all, and he took the initiative to promise not to go out and talk nonsense, even Lu Xiaochuan didn't tell.

Ning Lan put down her phone, her stomach was in a throbbing pain, she couldn't take it anymore, she ran to the bathroom and vomited all the food she ate at night, until there was nothing to vomit, she still felt nauseous, hugged the toilet and almost vomited the acid in her stomach clean up.

After finally easing up, just standing up with the help of the sink, someone knocked on the bathroom door.

Only Sui Yi knocked in such an unhurried manner. Ning Lan opened the door without even looking at anyone, and turned to get a towel to wash her face.

He turned on the water to the maximum, and was about to pour water on his face with a handful of water. Sui Yi suddenly pressed his wrist wearing a red string, and turned the faucet to hot water with the other hand, saying: "You are not feeling well, don't Wash your face with cold water."

Ning Lan looked up at herself in a mess in the mirror, not knowing whether to cry or laugh.

This person is using the gentleness that slipped out between his fingers inadvertently, making him addicted, making him sink deep, letting him step on the soft clouds, but he doesn't tell him that after the clouds and mists are cleared, the vertical things below are all quenched. Poisoned sharp knife.

Ning Lan rubbed her face hard with a towel until the skin on her face became numb, so she turned on the faucet and walked around Sui Yi to go out.

Sui Yi stopped him: "What's wrong with you?"

"I'm sick, I'm sick," Ning Lan said.

Sui Yi frowned, it's not like he didn't have eyes to see.

"I asked you what happened on stage, why are you crying?"

Ning Lan replied: "I thought of something unpleasant."

This answer was impeccable, Sui Yi didn't think he was in a position to ask "what is it", he felt strange that he really wanted to continue asking.

Seeing that he stopped talking, Ning Lan turned sideways and wanted to squeeze out again. Sui Yi couldn't speak, her chest was stuffy, so she simply reached out and grabbed his arm.

Ning Lan looked at him quietly.

Sui Yi remembered that Ning Lan usually quarreled with him, and when he was restrained, she would always pretend to struggle, or in turn tickled him, and then giggled to herself, so that the corners of her eyes were dyed bright red.

This time his eyes were red too, but it was obviously not from happiness.

Ning Lan suddenly opened the corner of his mouth and smiled: "I want it? You said it earlier, why bother to go around like this." After finishing speaking, he squatted down and untied Sui Yi's pants with his free hands.

"What are you doing?" Sui Yi was startled, let go of his hand and pushed him.

Ning Lan was pushed to sit on the ground by him, stood up slowly with the sink, reached out to touch the toothbrush on the shelf: "Can I use my mouth today? My legs are weak, I can't stand... I'll brush my teeth first."

Sui Yi was even more depressed. This guy seemed to have not only grasped his appetite, but also figured out his minefield, and aimed at him with a gun.

"No, I'm going to sleep." Sui Yi dragged him back, suppressing his anger.

Ning Lan staggered before standing still, with the corners of her lips raised slightly, she took the initiative to wrap her arms around his neck and kissed him, then put her mouth against her ear, and softly said "good night".

A week later, Wang Bingyang said he was sick and missed the recording of a certain satellite TV Spring Festival Gala at the end of the year. Sui Yi learned from An Lin that the role originally assigned to Wang Bingyang in "Overturning the River and Mountain", which started filming after the year, was replaced by Ning Lan after the audition.

He called Ning Lan to the stairwell, and Ning Lan looked half-truthful and confused: "Why did you call me here? Is there any mango to eat?"

Sui Yi asked him straight to the point: "Why did you grab Wang Bingyang's role?"

Ning Lan let out a "tsk", and leaned lazily against the wall with her arms folded, "Don't say it so ugly, what is robbing? It's a fair competition until the final announcement, each according to his own ability."

Sui Yi couldn't understand his understatement, and said in a deep voice: "You know how much Wang Bingyang looks forward to this role, and you have congratulated him in front of so many people, but now you openly snatch his role and let him How will you hold your head up in front of your teammates in the future?"

Ning Lan looked out the window indifferently, the weather forecast said that it would snow today, and the sky looked like the mouth of a monster trying to devour the world, it was terribly gloomy.

"Why can't you raise your head?" He said leisurely, "The situation in the performing arts industry is very good now, and there are a bunch of new dramas starting to be filmed every month. He is still young, and there will be more opportunities in the future."

Sui Yi couldn't explain it to him, so he turned around and was about to leave. Ning Lan suddenly took two steps forward, hugged him from behind, and muttered with a different attitude: "The Chinese New Year will be soon, and I will join the team after the Chinese New Year. You will have I haven't seen me for a long time, why don't we have a few more rounds in the limited time? Today I brought lubrication..."

Sui Yi didn't wait for him to finish speaking, she broke his arm, opened the door of the stairwell, and left without looking back.

Ning Lan didn't chase after him any more, and took two steps back, leaning back against the wall.

He stood there for a long time, until the first snow of the year fell profusely.

He didn't know how much Wang Bingyang was looking forward to this role, he only knew that he couldn't miss this opportunity.

God didn't like him either, so he was harsh on him in every possible way.If you don't fight or grab, you can only watch the last hope disappear.