Xiyang Mourning

"call……"

Zheng Yang opened his eyes slowly, looking at the dark room in front of him, he turned on the bedside lamp casually and sat up from the bed with his hands propped up.Zheng Yang shifted his gaze to the cabinet under the desk lamp again. On top of the cabinet, a blue notebook lay there quietly, looking quiet under the warm light.

Zheng Yang picked it up with one hand, and gently polished the blue cover with the other.Zheng Yang opened the shell and looked at the word "Cheng Xi" on the title page, falling into his own thoughts.

It had been almost a week since he found the notebook that night, and when he woke up the next morning it was still the usual time, still the master's room, still the cold floor.It seemed that the voice, those hands, and the warmth on his body that he felt when he was not thinking clearly were all illusions.

He suspected it, but this is his villa, and there is night rain in the villa, no one should come in no matter what...

Maybe it was all his delirious delusion, and the last voice he heard was just his subconscious self-awareness due to fatigue... This is the answer given by the doctor, and it is also the most reasonable answer.After all, in the days after the master left, only he himself knew that he was not living as well as on the surface, even though his daily lifestyle was the same as before except for drinking.

But the strangest thing is that since he found this notebook, he has had dreams every night, and those dreams... have owners.There are their good and bad pasts that have happened, and there is a future that he never had but only dared to imagine.

In those dreams, he saw his first meeting with Cheng Xi, he saw him explaining all the reasons to Cheng Xi in Qin Haoyu's villa to get him to stay by his side, he saw that the weather was just right that day, and Cheng Xi was there He smiled gently at him in the coffee shop sent by his family Qin Haoyu, and the sunlight shone on them from their side through the glass, just like the slow motion in every step of a love movie.

He saw Cheng Xi standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the bedroom after breakfast every day, watching him sleep idly after leaving, he saw him cooking for Cheng Xi, and he saw Cheng Xi making lunch for him in the kitchen on the second floor of the coffee shop.

He saw him getting up to make breakfast many years later, and Cheng Xi hugged him from behind and kissed him on the face, then snatched away the kitchen utensils in his hand.He saw that they raised a cat. His owner was sitting on a chair in the courtyard. He knelt beside him and put his head on Cheng Xi's knee. The cat was still scratching in Cheng Xi's arms from time to time. his hair...

His cat died and was buried under the sycamore tree in the yard. He saw that they were all old, and then he died... and Cheng Xi kissed his eyes the moment he closed them, and at that moment he It was as if he had seen his master kiss him tenderly and lingeringly when he was young...

He no longer knew how many dreams he had in just one week, and how many scenes there were in each dream.He only knows that every scene, no matter good or bad, will disappear in the end... His heart-piercing at the beginning to the present calm, but he knows that no matter how many times he passes by, every time he sees the master disappearing in front of him like this, His heart still hurts, and his whole body hurts.

Zheng Yang looked at the still dim sky outside the window, and it turned out that it was almost autumn without knowing it.

Zheng Yang felt his head hurt a bit, so many chaotic and complicated dreams made him not in good spirits, but he was still reluctant to leave those dreams and leave the place with the owner.

Those dreams...maybe I thought about it after seeing the contents of that notebook. The so-called thinking every day also has dreams.

When Zheng Yang took care of himself and went downstairs to make breakfast, he looked at the familiar kitchen, and inexplicably thought of the scene in the dream where the master snatched the kitchen utensils to make breakfast.But it was only a moment of stupefaction, and he resumed the movements in his hands.

It's just that with those dreams, his desire to return to his master became deeper and deeper.If a seed was planted in Zheng Yang's heart during the days when he left Cheng Xi, then whether it was the notebook or the dreams, the seed would gradually start to take root, and it was almost about to break through. out.

When Zheng Yang brought the breakfast to the dining table and just ate for a while, he felt his eyes go dark.When Zheng Yang opened his eyes again, what he saw was his room and the doctor he was familiar with in the room.

"What's the matter?" Although he knew that he was not in good spirits, he never thought that he would pass out after eating breakfast.

"Mr. Zheng, I think you're not in good spirits. You can tell from your face that you're not sleeping well. It's better for you to pay attention." After the doctor finished speaking, he saw Zheng Yang nodded and left without saying anything. After that, he went out to explain the dosage and precautions of the medicine he prescribed to Ye Yu outside the door.

After Ye Yu sent the doctor away, he went back outside Zheng Yang's bedroom and knocked on the door. After hearing Zheng Yang's voice, he opened the door and went in.

She looked away from Zheng Yang, who was a bit haggard lying on the bed, and didn't dare to look away, but asked respectfully, "Do you have any orders, my lord?"

Zheng Yang looked at the cautious Ye Yu in front of him, and when he wanted to dismiss it directly, he suddenly thought of the dreams he had these days, so he changed his words and asked, "You go call and ask Qing Ye to find me a psychiatrist."

Although Ye Yu was a little surprised when he heard such a request, he still nodded and answered before going out.

After Ye Yu went out, Zheng Yang lay down for a while, then got up and walked to Cheng Xi's bedroom next to him.Zheng Yang looked at the room that had been tidied up, except that there was no smell of living in it, and he did not speak or express himself.

He walked to the floor-to-ceiling window and stood quietly, raising his hand to feel a cold touch, Zheng Yang was in a daze.He used to stand here and watch the master and Zheng Yang leave. In his dream, he stood here and watched the master watch him leave. Now what is he standing here for?

"In order to wait for the master to come back..."

When Zheng Yang realized what he said, he was a little surprised, or very surprised.Did you always have this thought?But the master has already been pushed away by him... pushed far away by him.

Zheng Yang turned around and wanted to leave, but when he saw the bed in the bedroom, he seemed to walk over uncontrollably.Zheng Yang stood and looked at the bed. The patterns on it were simple black and white, a bit like a chess board, but not so cold and ruthless.Zheng Yang opened the quilt and carefully placed himself on the bed, as if he was afraid of disturbing the bed under him.

Zheng Yang was lying on the bed, covered with a quilt, and rested on the pillow. It obviously didn't smell at all, but Zheng Yang just felt like his master was hugging him.

He gradually became drowsy. He closed his eyes and entered the darkness. In the end, he felt only a sense of peace in his dazed perception.

When Zheng Yang woke up, he didn't know how long it had been, but Zheng Yang stared blankly at the ceiling rarely.

He... wasn't dreaming.

It took him a while to realize where he was, and he quickly got up and made the bed he had slept in before going out. When he opened the door and went out, Zheng Yang looked at everything in the room and smiled, his eyes full of gentle.

"Thank you, Master"

When Zheng Yang walked to the corridor, he saw the food on the dining table in the living room, and Zheng Yang had to think that it was really time for him to wake up.When he went downstairs, Ye Yu had just brought out the last dish from the kitchen. After seeing Zheng Yang, Ye Yu bowed and left.

Zheng Yang just wanted to go out for a walk in the yard after eating, he vaguely remembered the beautiful phoenix trees in the yard in his dream.As soon as he walked into the living room, he saw Ye Yu opening the door. Zheng Yang saw that Ye Yu had no intention of changing his shoes, so he walked towards the sofa.

When he sat down, Ye Yu came in with a young man, "Mr. Zheng, this is Doctor Qin."

Hearing Ye Yu's words, Zheng Yang frowned and looked at the man in front of him, "Your surname is Qin?" This is not a pleasant surname for Zheng Yang.

"Yes, Mr. Qing Ye asked me to come, may I sit down?"

Zheng Yang looked at the gentle and polite man and nodded, "Of course, I'm Zheng Yang"

The doctor who was already sitting not far away smiled softly when he heard this, "Hello, Mr. Zheng, I am Qin Ling."

"Hello" Qinling, Qinglin, not only the surname, but also the name is not so pleasant.