Xiyang Mourning

In a quiet room, a man was lying on the big bed in the center of the room, quietly closing his eyes. The window was covered by thick curtains, and the room was a bit dark, making it difficult to see the man's face clearly.

"Ka" The closed door was opened, and a person walked in. He walked to the window lightly, opened the thick curtains, and the light shone into the dim room in an instant. Following the light, I felt Get those fine dust flying in the air.

He looked at the person lying on the bed through billions of dust like this, and it felt like a long time before he loosened his clenched fist and walked slowly to the bed.

He stared at the person on the bed, and slowly knelt down by the bed, sitting on the ground like a Japanese.

He stretched his hand into the quilt, grabbed the cold hand in the quilt, slowly tightened it, but then loosened his grip, and only covered it lightly.

He withdrew his gaze and looked at the person on the bed quietly, wept while watching, and then laughed again.

He rubbed his head close to the man's ear, then raised his head and muttered to himself, "Why are you so stupid? You can do whatever he asks you to do..."

Cheng Xi touched Zheng Yang's head with his hand, feeling the softness under his hand, Cheng Xi's voice was a little choked up, "Do you know... I will feel distressed"

After finishing speaking, he stopped, "Yes, how do you know...I don't even know myself"

Cheng Xi just knelt on the floor like this, covering Zheng Yang's with one hand, and babbling along with Zheng Yang's bedside with the other, as if he wanted to finish talking for a lifetime.

Zheng Yang was outside the door, stopped his hand on the doorknob, then withdrew his hand and pressed his forehead against the door, quietly listening to the one-man show in the room.

"I know that I treated you badly before, you don't blame me, I dare to treat you like that, it's just because you love me, I always knew it"

"I like you... Zheng Yang, I don't know when it started, I really didn't mean to not know, I just... don't believe it, you know? Zheng Yang"

"Zheng Yang...why do you like me? I don't have anything, I don't treat you well...will...treat you like that for others"

"You said...how many sins did you commit in your previous life to like me...you say...how are you so stupid?"

Cheng Xi cried while talking, but still smiled and said, "I know... I'm selfish... I think you hinder my freedom and my future... I know, you're just afraid, it's... I make you afraid ,sorry……"

"Qin Haoling said, I failed the love of two men, he was right"

Cheng Xi helped Zheng Yang straighten the quilt, looking at the sleeping Zheng Yang, Cheng Xi smiled, "You must have waited for me to wake up like this before, today... no, I will wait for you to wake up in the future, and I will make breakfast for you , I will hug you to sleep...I will treat you well...you believe me...Zheng Yang."

Cheng Xi was still about to say, when she heard a knock on the door, and then Zheng Yang opened the door and came in.

Cheng Xi looked at Zheng Yangbi's gesture of going out, he looked back at Zheng Yang, stood up and leaned over to put a soft text on Zheng Yang's lips, then stroked Zheng Yang's hair, "Zheng Yang... ...you wait for me, I'll be right back."

Then he turned around and went out with Zheng Yang. When the door closed, the one in the room, the one on the bed, should have closed their eyes, and the sleeping person opened their eyes.

Tears flowed down Zheng Yang's eyes into the pillow, Zheng Yang turned his head and looked at the re-closed door, Zheng Yang smiled, very happy, very happy.

"Master..., thank you, I'm so happy, really... so happy"

Zheng Yang just stared blankly at the door, his mind was full of scenes from his dreams, he saw Qinglin on his body, he saw the master... looking at him from the other side, watching him in Qinglin Underneath... so dirty!So dirty!Dirty... so dirty.

Zheng Yang closed his eyes, his ears were filled with voices from his dream.

"You've been fucked"

"I used to despise you for being dirty, but now? It's even dirtier."

"What qualifications do you have? What face has appeared in front of me?"

"Look, now your pants are wet with Qinglin's things, your body is full of marks, your lips...have been kissed by another man, do you know?"

"Dirty, disgusting..."

The master just said...he likes himself, he is very happy, he almost couldn't help but want to open his eyes and cry in his arms, but...

"You are dirty"

"I like you……"

"While you're clean..."

Zheng Yang tightly grasped the quilt with both hands, and the veins on his hands burst out, like a dying old man.Suddenly, Zheng Yang raised his left hand in front of his lips, and kissed it one after another. After kissing and kissing, he cried, crying so hard that he couldn't make a sound.

A tall man tightly covered his mouth with his hands, and carefully curled himself up into a ball. The quilt covered his head, covering his sight and the light.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry, Master! I'm sorry..." Zheng Yang apologized loudly, he didn't know why he apologized.He thought it would be all right as long as he rescued his master, he thought it would be all right as long as he could stay by his master's side, he thought...as long as the master didn't dare to leave him, he could stay by his master's side forever...he thought... They have a future.

The master now says that he likes him, that he will treat him well, that he will make breakfast for him, that he will hug him to sleep, and that he will... wait for him to wake up.

But...but...

"Everything is different..." Zheng Yang muttered to himself, he bit his left hand tightly, just now, the master held him for a long time, he... was very happy.

"Sorry...sorry...sorry master...sorry...sorry...Cheng Xi...sorry."

Master...I can't wait for your love...can't wait for your breakfast...sorry.

He is not worthy of his light...

Really sorry.