Xiyang Mourning

Cheng Xi stared at the screen in front of him. He watched Zheng Yang confront Qing Lin, saw Qing Lin's madness, and saw... Zheng Yang was pressed on the sofa.

When he saw that Zheng Yang tried his best to look at the "self" in that screen, he obviously couldn't cry anymore, and he obviously thought that he was sad enough, but looking at Zheng Yang's desperate and somewhat hopeful eyes, Cheng Xi It was as if seeing Zheng Yang's eyes turned into a knife, piercing his heart fiercely, it hurt so much.

I don't know if it was intentional, but Zheng Yang and Qinglin were the only figures on the screen. Cheng Xi felt that Zheng Yang's face had been magnified countless times, and the emotions on Zheng Yang's face had also been magnified countless times. He looked at the familiar The perfect face, that expression... used to be... I gave it to him.

Cheng Xi looked at the two entangled figures on the screen as if masochistic, watching the proud man being crushed by his subordinates, watching the man who gave him so much love because he was treated like this. Insult, looking at that person... Gritting his teeth and swallowing everything in despair and sadness, looking at "myself" with hope.

That person, obviously so proud, obviously... the one who should suffer the most is him.

Cheng Xi tried her best to raise her hand to wipe away the tears on Zheng Yang's face on the screen, even if she couldn't do anything, even if I just let me touch the man in front of me, just a touch... ok.

In the past, did Zheng Yang pray for his own tenderness countless times before? It turns out that this feeling is so uncomfortable.

Cheng Xi stared at the screen in front of him with dry eyes, a sense of powerlessness spread from his body to his heart, why, why did Zheng Yang have to bear such a thing.

It was obviously his fault, and he was already like this, why did Zheng Yang have to experience such pain.

No one could understand better than him what kind of despair it was, not to mention that person was his subordinate.

Cheng Xi tried his best to move his powerless hand, but suddenly he stopped exerting force. Zheng Yang's countless expectations had never been realized. You, who are like this, have no right to touch him. Cheng Xi slowly looked down. Holding his hand, he smiled slowly.

You see, you like this should be like this, always watching powerlessly, always feeling powerless and painful for your own.

But, why, if such a price is exchanged with Zheng Yang, why?

Suddenly, a hand covered Cheng Xi's hand, and slowly pulled that hand to cover the screen that was just a short distance away from him, and his fingers just touched Zheng Yang's eyes.

"Why, don't you want this?"

When Cheng Xi heard this voice, she wanted to turn her head, but she was slow to remember that she couldn't do anything, even a simple movement.

"why"

"Why? What you said is so funny, do you feel uncomfortable?"

Qin Haoling looked at the silent Cheng Xi, then saw the two people on the screen, and thought of a good idea.

he said in a slow tone

"Look, Zheng Yang can voluntarily dirty himself for you, he loves you very much, doesn't he?"

"Do not……"

"What about you? You can only watch here"

"say no more"

"What right do you have to enjoy Zheng Yang's love? From what you can see, Qinglin loves him more, doesn't he? He once knelt down and begged you to love Zheng Yang, how about you? How did you do it, remember? "

"Don't..." Cheng Xi thought of what he had done to Zheng Yang. He trembled all over. He seemed to see Zheng Yang kneeling in front of him again, raising his head. His face was full of despair and sadness, just like... the picture on the screen. Same.

"I told you not to say it!" Cheng Xi felt that he was like a machine that was about to be scrapped, and every reason for scrapping was Zheng Yang, Zheng Yang, Zheng Yang!Zheng Yang...

"Qinglin loves him, how about you? Cheng Xi" Qin Haoling looked at Cheng Xi who was almost in despair, "You failed the love of two men"

After speaking, he turned and left, glanced at the screen before leaving the room, and then looked down at his watch.

"It's almost here..."

Cheng Xi kept his hand on the screen, and slowly, his fingers covered the entire screen, covering everyone's face on it.

Qinglin's words that I heard before reappeared in my ears

"I forgot, Lord, you only care about Cheng Xi. You haven't even regretted attacking Cheng Xi's family. How could you regret it for us?"

He always knew that Zheng Yang loved him, he always knew, why didn't he believe it?

"My lord, I really thought that as long as you are happy, it is true..."

He... only wanted to let Zheng Yang go to hell... right?

"I once begged Cheng Xi, I wanted him to treat you well, but why did he treat you like that, just because of a fault that didn't belong to you?"

That's right, why did I treat Zheng Yang like this?How can I bear it myself?

"Obviously I met you first, obviously I came to you first! Why did Cheng Xi get your love! Why?! Why... He doesn't cherish things that I dare not even dream of, why?!"

Why... I don't cherish myself, why?

"I'm sorry, my lord...I obviously...just want you to be happy, I'm sorry."

Sorry Zheng Yang, I want you to be happy,

I'm sorry Zheng Yang, if I can, how I wish it was me instead of asking you to bear my selfishness,

sorry……

Zheng Yang... I love you,

I really... hope you are well

Why……

"You failed the love of two men"

sorry……