[Black Basket] Sakura's Basketball

Wait a moment.

Akashi continued to bury his head in kisses on the side of my neck, pulling my shirt with his other hand.

I stared at the ceiling, trying to clear my tangled thoughts.Wait a minute, don't get confused, and start over.I clearly felt that he did not intend to associate with me before, and I also asked him to prove it, otherwise I would be afraid that this muddled way would make him unhappy, and I didn't want to play this kind of game, I would give Answer.If I didn't recognize his thoughts clearly, I wouldn't allow him to hold my hand at all.We just want to hold hands, nothing else, until here is no problem, when will it become like this?

He touched me more and more, and then one day, in the hospital, he kissed my forehead for the first time, and that's when I felt unnatural.He is no longer the attitude I thought before, the reality is different from the perception, of course I feel unnatural.

Also, as I thought of before, go to bed.Idiot, it's only a matter of time before boys and girls of this age get so close.

I could feel the development between us, but because he and I were in a strange state when we got acquainted, I couldn't jump out for a while, and then my thinking direction was completely wrong.

──I say me.without.Late.pause!

I can feel it, but because what I said before is obviously that they are not friends but they are not dating.The other party is very important, but neither of us has that kind of meaning for the other party.

──My idiot.

However, I didn't mean to take all the responsibility on me, Ah Zheng—I squinted my eyes—he changed his meaning but didn't want to inform me who had agreed with me at all, and continued to use my previous acknowledgment Know, hug me unscrupulously.develop naturally?Naturally being fucked by him now?Turn me into his bear?Ah no, Xiong is too pure...

At the same time, Akashi reached into my shirt, fumbled around my back for a while, and then unbuttoned the back of my bra.

──It's a blow-up doll at all. Fuck you, you super scum!

"Ah Zheng..." I didn't want to complain about my voice anymore, "Stop, stop..."

He continued to kiss my neck, I don't think my voice can express what I mean well.

But at least I was warned.

Using my good left foot, I smoothly pressed my knee between Akashi's legs.

"hiss!"

──There will be retribution for pressing me in this posture.

Listen to me, go down.go.

Akashi froze for a moment, then finally got off me, and shrank his body with his back to me, preventing me from seeing his expression.It hurts, his back view expresses it like this.

I twitched the corner of my mouth.

Am I taking it too far?Responsibility is definitely one-half of one person, and it’s like... no——I sat up on the quilt and took the pillow——I don’t need to pity him. Of course, this kind of thing needs to be agreed by both parties. Don't want me to kiss you if you don't let me go.I hit Akashi's body hard with the pillow, and my cheeks burned.

"Akashi Seijuro!" I kept patting him with all my strength, "Didn't you fucking say that you don't want to associate with me? Hmm? What are you doing to me? Hmm? What do you want, brat!" Angry.

"Saki," he put his arms around his head, trying to prevent me from seeing his face, and his voice barely maintained a steady voice, "That happened last summer. We agreed that it was developing, and I didn't deny the possibility of dating. sex."

"Ha, that's really nice to say," I was so angry that my forehead and the back of my hand burst into blue veins, "but you only started to touch me in winter! You've grown fast enough, huh? It's this kind of If you mean it, do you think I will let you touch me so unclearly! I will give you the answer whether you agree or refuse! Anyone who is not in a relationship is not allowed to touch! I will let everyone who wants to date me touch and hang , Then what have I become? Fuck you, how many strange things have you done to me by using "Developing", don't tell me you don't remember!" Akashi's identity once changed from "friend Above" was placed in the position of "suiter", and his past behavior immediately became perverted.

No, it's not perverted, it's obscene.That's right, this word will also apply to Akashi one day.

──Is it the nature of all people to be wretched?

If it weren't for the fact that he and I were a little distorted at the beginning, and felt that the other party was important without definition, how could I have been led to this point by his thinking!Ah, I'm so stupid, I even have a day when I'm so stupid!

I felt like my whole body was burned like a lobster.

"Saki didn't refuse, you responded to me. You like it too, we just develop naturally. Even in the summer, you didn't mean to object to this direction. This is still within our consensus. Saki, I won't Denying that this is a development that I hope and guide, but at the same time, you allow."

"Ah, naturally," I slapped Akashi's head hard with the pillow before stopping, "Naturally, did you tell me to date me until you fucked me up? You said you weren't interested in me. Just because I'm stupid doesn't mean You lied to me right, you used what I said to lead me into a misunderstanding, and then what did you do to me? Huh? Damn boy, you took off my bra!" I squinted my eyes, "I didn't realize that you It means my fault. If it were someone else, I would readily admit my mistake, but don’t forget, it was you who said to be honest with each other. I really believed in you so I didn’t doubt you! Akashi Seijuro, what are you now, want to date Just tell me directly! If you get fucked, you will automatically get in touch. Do you think I’m so easy to handle? Do you think girls will be obedient when you get fucked? Fuck! Let me be obedient and fucked just because I like it, don’t give it to me Wrong! Or," I crossed my hips, "you are actually planning not to date but you want to fuck!" I raised my eyebrows, "Don't pay attention to other people's eyes, just be happy, just go out and not date It fits this sentence very well. Scum.”

Akashi sat up and turned to me, "Saki, I understand that I scared you, but please calm down and listen to me..."

"What the fuck!" I interrupted him.

"You don't hate me, do you?"

I sneered, "Do you hate it? Do you like it? You've seen too many weird things, why don't you ask me if I feel comfortable! What you want to ask is if it's okay!"

"...Saki," Akashi said blankly, "I said I hope you don't see Aomine again."

"These lines are also used in the eighteen forbidden love games. Compared with the girls, Gongkoufeng is inferior. If you have the feeling, go into the women's locker room and listen to the corner once!" I raised my eyebrows high, "Are you Am I misunderstanding my sister?" I slapped the pillow hard on his lower body to block it.Fuck you, can't I go soft after kicking so hard!

After Akashi's words were interrupted by me several times, he simply pulled my wrist and pressed me down again, and when I wanted to lift my foot, he also pressed his foot first.

"Akashi Seijuro!" Shit, he completely restrained my limbs.Never trust anyone who is stronger than me!

"Saki!" He raised his voice and stared at me, "Listen to me!"

I stare at him.

Akashi restrained my resisting hand with a little force, "Listen to me first! First, this is not using, you said it. I am not lying, but I admit that I deliberately misunderstood you. Second, I did not follow The plan of not dating after you are together. Third, I said that I need time. After I made clear the direction I want, I reiterated to you that I want time. The consequence of confessing to you immediately will only be to be rejected. Refuse, you don't need to deny this, except for Hongcun Xiuzhi, you never thought of giving the opportunity to anyone else."

……ha?What about building?I wanted to speak, but he interrupted me.

"You won't agree to someone you haven't gotten along with, and you won't give time to get along with someone who confessed to you. The only people who can stay with you are "friends". Others will not be able to get along with you, because you will immediately reject them. "If you don't feel it, you should reply immediately so as not to hurt others" and "I won't just agree to someone without feeling it". Then, I hate all the "friends" who stay by your side as if they are not friends. Do you understand? Saki, you Do you understand where your refusal is? Even if you let him go, the result will still be "not given a chance" and lock the position around you. This is no different to me. You don't need to say "It's not because of him, so even if the result is the same, the process is different." Saki, what I want is the result of me and you, I don't accept the result of no result in any process!"

I was stunned for a while, I didn't struggle with my hands and feet anymore, I just lay flat and looked at Akashi, calmed down, "You're right, but I didn't say I wouldn't try. It's not my fault that I can't easily fall in love with others."

Akashi raised the corner of his mouth, "You can like others, but others can't like you. Is that what you mean? Saki, you protect yourself very well, and you are so selfish that I have nothing to say. The person who likes first loses." , is this your rule?"

I looked into his eyes, "This is your point of view. My point of view is, only try with the person you like, what's wrong with that? I have to try every person who says they like me, so how many times do I have to try? It takes effort. Has anyone who criticized me for refusing to give a chance considered my feelings? I’m going to die of exhaustion.” Once I put my heart into it, it’s bad, “You can’t deny that simply refusing is more beneficial to both parties It hurts less. This is my feeling, and I can’t even make the decision? If you don’t like it, you don’t like it. Do you have to force yourself to try it? Even in the long run, I will never get married in my life, this will be my I have carefully considered the choice, and there is no room for others to say more. I know what I want and what I don’t want!"

"What about me? Have you considered me? In your already very complete thinking, have you considered me. I also told you that I hope you can accept my existence. I have stepped out of my Footsteps, according to the common intention of you and I, accept your existence, but the relationship between two people cannot be stepped out by only one person, you also need to step out. Didn’t you realize that you have accepted me?”

"..." I turned my face away, "I understand what you mean, but I still don't agree with you treating me this way."

"Even I can't?"

I suddenly felt a little hot in my eyes, "Fuck you, what do you think of me when you touch me to this extent!" Apart from feeling that I was stupid and Akashi's way was too much, the most embarrassing thing was that I didn't want to do anything to him at all. something angry.

I still disagree with his angle of explaining things, but he is right about one thing, which I like.More than not annoying, I like him touching me, and of course I only like him touching me.

To Akashi...

──Or is it just for training?

──I began to doubt myself again.

"Sorry." Akashi's tone slowed down, he let go of my sore wrist, held my face and turned my head back, and said to me, "Saki, I like you."

My eyes widened.This is completely different from the liking mentioned before, I know.

──But what kind of confession gesture is that?

You watch too many soap operas and light novels!

I instantly withdrew my softened eyes, stared at him, moved my left foot, and was restrained again by Akashi's quick reaction.

Akashi smiled bitterly and said: "I didn't expect what happened just now. I didn't want to scare you. I didn't think carefully. I'm sorry. According to my thoughts, it's also the reason for your anger. I planned to slow down. Take your time, wait until you are completely used to me."

"..." Kick him to death.In the future, you must never feel sorry for others, and you will be profited.use.of.

"I can understand your reaction, Saki, you are very sensitive, and your feeling is correct. Since I determined the direction I want, I have been pursuing you. I hope you can be mine, and the simplest and direct way It's a relationship. So, I didn't determine how I feel about you now when I first pursued you. During this period, you would hesitate about my attitude towards you, and I can understand. But whether it was before or now, I I didn't intend to leave a chance for you to escape. I really didn't want to lie to you, so since you asked, I knew you would be angry, but I can say it. Just now it was unexpected..." Looking out the window In the dim light that came in, I saw Akashi's slightly red face, "No, to be frank, I couldn't think about anything just now. I'm very sorry about this. No matter what time, I didn't mean to hurt you subjectively , to keep you by my side, I have seriously considered it, so even if you are angry, please at least accept the part of the explanation "I am serious from beginning to end."

Until now, I can still clearly feel his body temperature is higher than normal.

──I didn't destroy him, did I?

Suddenly, I felt that in the situation just now, it was too bad for me to be able to think clearly about all the things that I usually couldn't straighten out.Well, no, the problem is with the guy who only thinks with his lower body, what the fuck, I almost got hit home plate by Akashi before I even had time to react.

Also, he just broke some outrageous and scary things, hey.You're not sure you like me, so you've already shot first?He also said that he did it after thinking about it. Damn, what was he thinking about.

He was right, even if there are some changes, what remains the same remains the same, Akashi Seijuro is still Akashi Seijuro.

It's still that bastard who sees the world from an incomparably irritating perspective.

"Saki, although it makes you very unhappy, I have to say, I'm glad you finally have feelings. If you still don't respond, I will be quite troubled. It's not seniors, not classmates," he narrowed his eyes suddenly She rolled her eyes, "Absolutely not siblings, Saki, I am a man, and you are a woman, I hope you can recognize this."

"Are you trying to say that men and women can't be friends?" I rolled my eyes, "Did you really think that you can call yourself a man if you know how to get a woman?"

He directly ignored my last sentence, "No, I want to say that we can't be friends."

We looked at each other for a while, Akashi stretched out his hand to brush my forehead hair again, leaned over and kissed my forehead lightly, then backed away, straightened up and stepped aside, rearranged the messy quilt and covered it on me, then stood up and turned around to open the door, with his back to me.

"It's not appropriate for us to be in the same room at this time, and I hope you can at least take a good rest before dawn, but please don't get me wrong, I have no intention of letting go. Indeed, if you let go, I will It won't be forced, the relationship cannot be forced, but I never intend to leave a chance for you to let go. Good night, Takahashi." Akashi opened the door and walked out, then closed the door.

I looked at the closed door.

If you don't work hard, you will be played to death by him, super-bad stuff.I sat up against the floor, picked up the pillow and quickly crawled to the door, opened the door, and threw the pillow over to Akashi's back.His movements didn't seem to change, but he disappeared even faster.

Did he realize what he was doing now?

Wrapped in the quilt, I wriggled out to pick up the pillow, then climbed back to the department room, closed the door, leaned against the door, looked at the gradually brightening sky outside the window, and found that my body temperature was gradually rising again.

I put my hand on my left chest.

Well, I can’t go back to sleep, so I stood up when I came back to my senses, folded the quilt, fastened the back button of the bra with my backhand, put on my coat, and walked slowly to the bathroom to wash.That bastard just went out like this, didn't even wear a coat, wouldn't he feel cold?I pushed open the bathroom door, looked at the mirror that caught my eye, and froze.

Hold.

I punched the door panel expressionlessly, and there was a loud bang.

my neck.

to die.

Fuck me.

──I don't care to kill him!

I went back to my dormitory room, took out the windbreaker jacket, turned up the collar, and pulled the zipper to the top. Then I took the drawing board and went to the roof of the school teaching building. I calmed down and drew No. 30 objects on the campus. sketch.No matter what you do, you need perseverance. I found that I like painting, so I should spend more time.To make matters worse, my grades dropped in the third semester, and I became the seventh in the grade.

it's fine.

Within a certain range, willfulness is completely fine.

I raised the corners of my mouth, erased the unsatisfactory parts with an eraser, turned the sketch pen in the sunrise light, held the pen with my middle finger and index finger, stretched out my hand and put the pen horizontally at the level of my sight, and looked at the sun with one eye. out, and whistled.Not only the outline of the scene should be paid attention to, but also the luminosity at different times will bring completely different feelings.The more I paint against the same scene, the deeper this feeling will be.

Scenery, light, time, and the author interweave this flat world.

In the ukiyo-e competition that we made an appointment with Asakawa Nanmi before, we haven’t decided on the topic yet, and there is only less than a month left before the deadline for submitting works, but we discussed it seriously, and we also feel that it doesn’t matter if we don’t make it.I, too, want to see the gentle world of Nanmei Asakawa, and wonder how she puts down such soft brushstrokes.

Share the world, huh?

Speaking of which, Yuka Ota, my middle school classmate who sat next to me for two years, also belongs to the art club. I haven’t looked at her works carefully, but no matter what I think, I can only smell the smell of ramen... Let’s go to Tokyo to see her someday.I looked at my watch, packed up my things and stood up, starting a new day of camp for the basketball team.

"Good morning." Walking to the first army gymnasium, I raised my hand to the team members.

"Good morning," Shibuchi Lingyang looked at me and turned her head, "Little Saki, are you feeling well? It's rare to be wrapped tightly."

"Well, I have a cold." I turned to Akashi Seijuro who was looking over, "Captain Akashi, regarding the practice match, I have a meeting with the supervisor at ten o'clock, do you want to come to the meeting together or I will talk to you after the meeting Report?"

Nebu Gu Yongkichi and Hayama Kotaro who were next to him said at the same time with unknown meaning: "Hey!"

──Gee?

"My schedule is too tight, so I can only ask you, Takahashi. Can you prepare the content of the report at five o'clock in the afternoon?"

"Yes, no problem."

"sorry to bother you."

"No, you are being polite."

After Akashi walked away, Mibuchi lowered his head and whispered next to me: "Xiaosaki, are you and Xiaozheng fighting again? No matter how good the relationship is, don't quarrel too often. It will destroy the relationship and be taken advantage of by others." Woolen cloth."

"No," I said with a smile, "what a mess, a mess, unsightly ruined relationship, it's just fine if it's broken."

"... Kosaki? The smile scared Nebuya to tears. Very angry?"

"This guy is so tall and often cries, don't use him as a standard." I raised my eyebrows, "Price drop."

"If he is scared to cry, I have only seen you and Xiaozheng do it for the time being. Xiaosaki, what you said just now is serious. I mean the sentence about Xiaozheng. If he hears it, he will be sad. .Because they are two people who have a good relationship.”

I rolled my eyes, "I heard it just right. Speaking of which, have you noticed? He basically hears everything he says in the basketball club."

"... What?"

I dealt with the paper work with the managers, went to a meeting with the supervisor at ten o'clock, and at noon I went back to the gymnasium to find Akashi.I have something to do in the afternoon, so I want to take a short leave of absence.

"Can I come back before five o'clock? It doesn't matter if it's later, but I hope to finish the report at least before dinner," he said.

"No, it's fine as originally scheduled. I've finished the work I'm responsible for in the other afternoons. I just want to tell you that I will go out for a while, and I will contact you on my phone if there is anything to do."

"Okay." Akashi paused, "Can you tell me where you are going? If you need help, you can tell me, Takahashi, you are welcome."

"No, private matter, thank you."

"Ok, I see."

I nodded to leave, and when I turned around, I touched the pen on the cabinet. Akashi and I bent down to catch it at the same time. Our hands touched each other. Both of us froze for a second, and the pen fell to the ground with a bang. Akashi quickly retracted his hand at the same time.After a few seconds of silence, Akashi bent down again and picked up the pen.

"Sorry, I was careless." I said.

"No," he smiled slightly, "it's okay. Then, Takahashi-san, go early and come back early, be careful and safe."

"See you."

Akashi took the towel and walked quickly to the window, holding the window frame with both hands with a serious and focused expression, lowering his head and pressing his legs.But just after making the first move, the roots of his ears were already red.

"..." What is your reaction now? Fuck!

I turned my face away, pulled the neckline a little, and walked out slowly at my usual pace.

All broken just fine.

It doesn't matter if we can't go back, anyway, none of us want to go back, but it doesn't work if it's too messy, so let's do it again, according to the normal development.

──But what else is there to develop, isn’t it enough?

All in all, I can't accept myself who just came to feel hot now.

I squatted outside the gymnasium with a haggard face, with my hands hugging my knees.

What an idiot did I do before, I have already hugged it, and my neck... What I can't accept is the neck... I don't have amnesia... And he said, before I'm sure he likes me Hands and feet to me as if nothing had happened.

So start over what the fuck!Did he think that putting on this cute and innocent look could redeem his sins?

no way.

Ghosts will believe him.

I squint my eyes.

"Gaoqiao?" Lin Yangyou, the sophomore bench pick, leaned down and looked at me.

I raised my head expressionlessly, "It's okay, please leave me alone." I was about to stand up, when my right foot went numb, I fell down, and my nose was bleeding again.

Holding my nose, I went to the street, found a barber shop that looked good, walked in, and was greeted to sit down.

"Yes, hello," the barber combed my hair, "what do you want to do?"

"Please cut it short for me."

"Okay, do you want to trim the end of your hair?"

"No," I raised my head, put down my hand covering my nose, and looked at the lady barber in the mirror, "I cut my hair short, about an inch and a half below the ears. Don't leave any curly hair underneath, just keep it straight. .”

"Yeah? Yes, is that so? It's rare to be so cute, what a pity! If you add highlights, it will become very layered, and it won't be old-fashioned."

I raised the corner of my mouth, "I think short hair suits my face better."

Miss Barber looked at me in the mirror, held her head and thought for a while, "That's right, the hairstyle depends on one's own wishes, so that it will be comfortable. Well, I get it."

Back at school, I took the bento I bought from the convenience store and the drawing board to the rooftop...Cut, the drawing paper was dirty.I covered my forehead, put the bento aside, changed another piece of drawing paper, and carefully fixed it according to the angle of the corner.

When I fixed the drawing paper and raised my head, I saw the bright and peaceful Luoshan campus under a blue sky.The sunlight hits the windows of the teaching building, reflecting circles of eye-catching halos.

I smiled, let go of the drawing board, picked up the bento and poured all the rice into my mouth, then stretched my hands upwards, crossed my fingers, and stretched my waist while stretching the tense muscles in my arms.At this time the phone rang, it was my mother.

"Good afternoon, Mom."

"Good afternoon. Sakura, let me ask you one last time, do you want to change your mind?"

"No, I really like basketball."

"If I force it, you can't help it."

"No, mom, you will never win against me," I smiled, "because you are very gentle." Facing mothers, as children, as long as they give up on themselves, there are few parents who can resist.Of course I didn't want to do this. If my mother asks me to quit the team again, well, please trouble me and think of other ways.

However, will not retreat.

"You really don't blush when you say this. You can't help it. I know, Sakura, you have to make an appointment with me first. This is the last chance. If you can't afford it because of the basketball team, I will Will not promise again."

"Yes, I see. I'm sorry to worry you."

"Sakura, did your boyfriend bully you?"

I picked up the sketch pen I was playing with, and it was snapped in two when I heard the words, "Mom, I will never trust boys again." Am I so strong?I stared blankly at the broken sketch pen in my hand, and doubted myself.I underestimated myself so much, aha.

"Did you just find out now? It doesn't look like you are so stupid. Forget it, it's okay for young girls to try, and not only boys will be happy. They will beg you on their knees, but remember to protect yourself , pay attention to safety, the condom must be checked before use, be careful that it will be pierced if it is left for a long time."

"..." I shivered in the spring breeze.

Obviously, I'm actually an adult woman, but I still have a lot to learn from everyone.

──You are indeed a great woman who has studied abroad for many years.

After putting away my mobile phone, I sat on the edge of the roof, stretched my waist again, and looked at the beautiful scenery.

The year that everyone died together has passed, and a new year is ushering in.

Every April, the cherry blossoms bloom again.

SAKURA

The Japanese pronunciation of "Sakura" and "Sakura" are the same.

The author has something to say: Part Two.A year to remember forever, over.

Part three starts tomorrow.she he its fleeting time