Wrong Dream of Rebirth

Looking at these familiar content on Weibo, Qi Ruochu felt mixed feelings in his heart, as if it had been a lifetime.The hand holding the mouse froze for a long time, until he calmed down a little, and then slowly slid down.

After turning over a few pages, his gaze suddenly fell on a Weibo with a lock pattern, which was a private Weibo that was only visible to bloggers.

After a short surprise, Qi Ruochu quickly read the content of Weibo.

"Last night's party was disappointing. It turns out that it is not as long as hard work can be exchanged for equivalent returns. It turns out that there are so many shortcuts in this world. It is so difficult for me to achieve and win the concert. It turns out that in the eyes of others, it’s as easy as giving a gift, all they need is a good mood.”

Qi Ruochu looked at the release time of this Weibo, and the "party" mentioned by Yu Yuan should be the birthday celebration with Ji Yao and the others.He could clearly feel the loss and despair in Yu Yuan's words.Qi Ruochu felt that he guessed correctly, Yu Yuan's death must be related to those people.

He continued to scroll down the page with heartache, he did not expect Yu Yuan to have the habit of writing private Weibo, probably this is why Jiang Nian gave him this Weibo account.

Soon Qi Ruochu saw another one, and it was a long time since the last one, almost 2 months apart.

"Drugs have almost completely deprived me of my creative ability. I can't go on like this. If I can't be a singer-songwriter, what's the point of recovering from my illness? Although I'm sorry for Jiang Nian and my parents, I think I can't use this medicine. Eat it again."

"Medicine?" Qi Ruochu looked at the words on the screen in amazement, a lot of doubts flashed in his heart, judging from Yu Yuan's tone, he should be suffering from some serious illness, but Brother Gou has never heard him mention a word .

Qi Ruochu suddenly felt a tingling sensation in his scalp, and a bad premonition prompted him to speed up the scrolling of the mouse.

"The reaction to the medicine was very strong. My head throbbed and hurt. It was very painful. When the pain was the worst, I really wanted to use pliers to pry my head open. It may be because of this. I didn't have a lot of cranky thoughts. I hope I can stick to it. effective."

"I was forced to receive psychological treatment. The doctor's diagnosis was similar to what I guessed—depression, but I was relieved when I heard the doctor said that it was only mild depression. It should be cured, right?"

"I didn't expect to wake up again. Although I was on a hospital bed, my cut wrist was already covered with a white bandage. My parents looked very sad, and suddenly felt that I was sorry for them, but it was really tiring to live. No matter how hard you try, you can’t see the light of day, but you don’t have the courage to tell anyone that you must maintain a glamorous life so that your relatives and friends won’t be worried, am I wrong?”

Seeing this, Qi Ruochu felt as if something had collapsed in his heart, and tears gushed out of his eyes uncontrollably.It turned out that Yu Yuan had committed suicide long ago, but it was unsuccessful.

He suddenly hated Yu Yuan so much, why didn't he tell him such a big thing?He also hated himself, why didn't he visit Yu Yuan more, he thought he was doing well, but the fact is not!

Pain, annoyance and remorse occupied Qi Ruochu's whole body and mind in an instant, the tears seemed to break a dam, he wiped them dry over and over again, and they flowed out of his eyes silently over and over again.

However, the shocking content is not over yet.

"This is the third time I have been rejected by the company to hold a concert. The reason is that there is insufficient funds. I know this is just an excuse. The real reason is that I am not popular enough. I have rejected too many requests from the sponsor. In the end, I had to swallow it hard. Bitter fruit. It’s so painful, I don’t know what else I can do, and there seems to be no point in continuing to struggle.”

"I met He Jie today, and the two chatted for a long time. He is doing well now, and he is very powerful. I thought he would look down on me. After all, this circle is like this, but I didn't expect him to be very friendly to me. I said a lot of words of encouragement, just like a senior, it’s kind of funny to think about it, hey, boy, don’t forget that we debuted together! But meeting old acquaintances still makes people very happy, suddenly reminded me of just now The days when I debuted were pure and beautiful, maybe one day I will be on an equal footing with He Jie, and my mood suddenly improved."

Qi Ruochu's tears stopped when he saw He Jie's name.It turned out that before he could do anything to say something for Yu Yuan, he had already taken the lead.

"What I am most afraid of every day is at night. Many terrible thoughts will pop up in my heart. I can't sleep and can't calm down. What's wrong with me?"

Qi Ruochu couldn't stand it anymore, he closed the notebook heavily, took out a cigarette from the cigarette case on the table, lit it and took a deep puff, then slowly exhaled out the window.

The outside world is sunny and bright, but the space inside the room is oppressive and gloomy, just like Qi Ruochu's heart at this moment.The cigarette at the corner of his mouth was burning, Qi Ruochu's eyes were filled with the fiery red light from the cigarette butt.

He didn't expect that the fact that he had believed in for so long was just his imagination. It turned out that no one had harmed Yu Yuan, he just didn't get through the test in his heart, and he didn't get through the cruel reality.

Then what is the significance of his past few years as a dog brother and as Qi Ruochu?

Qi Ruochu suddenly felt that he was living a ridiculous and embarrassed life.

Suddenly there was a loud voice downstairs, besides Qi Lu, there was another voice, which interrupted Qi Ruochu's entanglement and remorse at the moment.

"Qi Ruochu! Come downstairs, someone is looking for you!" Qi Lu shouted at the top of his voice downstairs.

Qi Ruochu frowned strangely, wondering who would come to him at this time?He hastily smoked his last cigarette and threw the butt out the window.

Although his rationality clearly told him that the person downstairs is absolutely impossible to be He Jie, but he is still very good at fantasizing and deceiving himself, otherwise his legs and feet would not be so nimble.

Xiaopang had a file bag in his arm, and when he saw Qi Ruochu running downstairs excitedly, the look of anticipation on his face immediately turned into a question mark that seemed to be languid at the moment he saw him.

"You came alone?" Qi Ruochu asked again.

Fatty looked at him expressionlessly, did not answer his question, just opened the yellow file bag, and took out a stack of documents from it: "Look at these documents, and sign if there is no problem."

Qi Ruochu looked at Qi Lu suspiciously, but Qi Lu didn't understand the situation clearly, so he could only show his hands at him regretfully.

"What document?" Qi Ruochu walked to Xiaopang's side, picked up a document and read it, "Signing contract for a TV series?"

"Well, these are all the scripts arranged and selected by He Jieti. There are TV dramas and movies. Although not all of them are big productions, the roles arranged for you are very sufficient, and there is also a male lead drama."

Xiaopang said that he took out a bunch of keys and a bank card from his pants pocket and handed them to Qi Ruochu, "This is the key to He Jie's house, he said that if you don't have a place to live during the demolition, you can live in his house first. This card advances half of the remuneration for the filming of these scripts, and the other half will be called to you when it is finished."

Qi Ruochu looked at the cards and keys on the coffee table in surprise, and asked curiously: "Why does your tone sound like you've confessed your last words? Why did He Jie give me so many things all at once? His house can't live on its own?"

Xiaopang muttered a few words, glanced at Qi Lu with concern, and finally just sighed, without any substantive answer

From his eyes, Qi Lu read some unspeakable secrets that he didn't want to be heard by outsiders like himself, so he went to the kitchen and took out the grocery shopping basket, and said to Qi Ruochu, "You guys talk first, I'll go out to buy vegetables."

Qi Ruochu nodded, and after Qi Lu left, he opened the skylight and said to Xiaopang, "I met He Jie today, in the cemetery." He paused, observing Xiaopang's reaction, "Look at his condition. Feeling bad, did something happen during this time that I don't know about?"

Xiaopang watched him bit his lip in distress, sat down on the sofa behind him, folded his hands and pondered for a long time before slowly opening his mouth: "Do you know that He Jie's father is back?"

"He Jie's father?" Qi Ruochu shook his head, "Is there any connection?"

Xiaopang covered half of his face and smiled wryly: "I thought your relationship was so good that he told you everything, but it's true, after all, it's all his family business."

"Do you dare to speak clearly, don't make insinuations like this, it's like guessing riddles." Qi Ruochu looked at him seriously.

Xiaopang looked at him and snorted coldly: "He Jie is going back to America soon."

Qi Ruochu was taken aback for a moment, he didn't expect it to be like this, but it didn't sound like it was serious enough to make Xiaopang look so heavy: "How long have you been back?"

He only knew that He Jie was born in the United States, and his father also had his own company there, so he subconsciously thought that he was just going back there to visit relatives or something.

"Probably will never return to China." Xiaopang looked down at the documents on the table, as if he wanted to skip this topic, "Come and read the contract, we can't interfere with his family's affairs."

Qi Ruochu's heart sank when he heard it, he felt that he must have heard it wrong, or Xiaopang made a mistake.He Jie has so many careers in the country and is so popular, how could he just let them go and never return?

And... no, Qi Ruochu felt that his thoughts were too dangerous at that moment, he actually felt that it was impossible for He Jie to abandon him.

"Are you sure you didn't make a mistake?" Qi Ruochu had a stiff smile on his face, and stared at Xiaopang with wide eyes, as if Xiaopang would admit that he was wrong just now.

"He told me himself, it's not wrong." Xiaopang shook his head regretfully, "It's a pity, the new company has just been established, and the road ahead will get wider and wider, but he..."

Qi Ruochu still didn't believe Xiaopang's words from the bottom of his heart, he suddenly remembered the business card that He Jie gave him in his trouser pocket, quickly turned the whole trouser pocket out, and found the crumpled business card.

"Impossible! Look, he gave me this business card today, saying that he is going to arrange work for me!" Qi Ruochu forcefully stuffed the business card into Xiaopang's hand, and said with a smile to himself, "If he really If you don't come back, why do you still care about my affairs? Xiaopang, you must have made a mistake."

Fatty flattened the ball of paper and took a look: "Don't you think the reason why he did this is to deal with the aftermath?"

Looking at the somewhat incoherent Qi Ruochu, Xiaopang couldn't bear to continue hitting him: "Maybe, you are always special to him. For the other people signed in the studio, he directly paid the compensation and terminated the contract."

Qi Ruochu stood on the spot in a daze, his feet swayed a step, he couldn't accept this fact at all, because everything was so sudden, he felt the blood pressure was rushing back into his brain, and his brain was about to explode.

But what Xiaopang said was too true, he could no longer find an excuse to deceive himself.

But why?Why did He Jie, who was so strong in his heart and so loyal to his heart, make such a decision?

He Jie said that he likes filming, likes to sign newcomers and praise newcomers, he also said - he likes Qi Ruochu.

"Why did he go back to America?" Qi Ruochu just wanted to know the reason why He Jie did this.

"Inherit the family business."

"But doesn't He Jie still have an older brother? Why let him inherit?" Qi Ruochu was not reconciled.

"I don't know, I'm just his manager." Xiaopang's voice was much lower, and he was also a lot confused and helpless.

"No, no, it's definitely not right!" Qi Ruochu shook his head, babbling words that even Xiaopang couldn't understand clearly, looking nervous.

Suddenly, he snatched He Lin's business card from Xiaopang's hand, ran out of the door, turned around and shouted at Xiaopang: "I must find out! When my dad comes back, please tell him Just say it, and I'll come back as soon as I go out!"

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