The little wolf dog who has a crush on him says he has broken up

Xiang Changning's eyebrows were twisted into one place unbearably, the disordered words, and finally met Yao Zhen's ignorant eyes, while Xiang Changning raised his eyebrows, his expression changed again, but within a few breaths, he changed into something embarrassing.

This gaze made Yao Zhen inexplicably startled, and he couldn't help but speak softer:

"What's the matter, second brother?"

Xiang Changning's eager steps gradually froze, and he lowered his eyes and took a deep look at Yao Zhen. Seeing Yao Zhen's involuntary heartbeat at this glance, the alarm bell sounded in his heart like he was facing a big enemy.

The next moment, he stretched out his hand to Chang Ning to rest his forehead, trying to calm himself down. With his eyes under his hands, Yao Zhen couldn't see his expression clearly.

There is a 1 minute silence.

Xiang Changning said: "Let's leave first, it's nothing, I... I just, when I first came out, I was happier."

Yao Zhen subconsciously chased after him: "Then why, did you become unhappy later?"

Two people who are together are very sensitive to each other's emotional changes.

During the drive all the way, Xiang Changning's mood was originally low.

Just after he came out, his mood fluctuated greatly, and he urgently needed to see the rapid joy sinking in Yao Zhen's eyes. He watched all of them without missing any details.

Looking down at Changning, the voice was gentle: "It's nothing, let's leave first, by the way, I want to ask the attending doctor about Ren Li's situation."

"Okay, I'll take you there."

"Um"

Xiang Changning took a look at Ren Li's laboratory tests and filming, as well as the recent operation arrangements, and exchanged a few words with the attending doctor. Yao Zhen also knew the attending doctor, but it was only Yao Zhen's father who talked about it. After talking to Changning, Yao Zhen I also talked to the doctor alone about the family affairs and exchanged a few pleasantries.

Sitting outside, Xiang Changning watched Yao Zhen talking to the doctor, and fell into an inexplicable feeling of bewilderment.

Happy, but faintly disappointed at the same time.

Xiang Changning lowered his head, quietly waiting for Yao Zhen to come out.

The two of them left together, and it was almost time to get off work. If they drove back to city A, they would definitely be stuck on the highway. The original plan of the two of them was to stay in the provincial capital for one night. If they had time tomorrow, Yao Zhen planned to take them to Changning for a stroll in the provincial capital. Go shopping, treat it as a date you haven't seen for a long time.

I opened a room in the hotel, and the two of them packed it up until after taking a shower, and Xiang Changning's expression returned to his usual indifference, but Yao Zhen knew that there was something under the indifference, as if the two of them hadn't broken through. At the time, Xiang Changning suppressed expectations in his calmness, but this time, Xiang Changning's calmness faintly suppressed anxiety.

Xiang Changning didn't want to talk, and Yao Zhen didn't bother him, leaving him some space to think for himself, and when he thought it over, he would talk.

After the two of them washed up at night, they suddenly proposed to Changning: "Can you go out with me for a walk?"

Yao Zhen looked at the time. It was 09:30. The place they chose was not on the side of the main road. There were many trees around and a river beside it. If you want to take a walk, it is best to walk along the river.

Yao Zhen nodded: "Okay, I'll change my clothes."

Yao Zhen accompanied Xiang Changning down the stairs. Both of them were dressed casually. The weather in April was not too hot. Walking down along the sides of the river, you can see many people who have gone out for a walk and have not returned home, but they must It won't be crowded after eight o'clock. The two walked side by side, and a few people came and went around, which was okay.

Walking a few steps slowly, Xiang Changning turned his head to look at Yao Zhen, the street lights were yellowish, Xiang Changning was in a position against the light, Yao Zhen could only distinguish the outline of the face, and turned his head very quickly to Changning.

Yao Zhen probed: "What's wrong?"

Xiang Changning shook his head.

He pursed his lips subconsciously, and there was a moment of confusion in his mind. After this confusion was over, he was in a very sober state again.

Xiang Changning thought, he was sober in the first place, but today... let's talk about it again today.

"really"

Yao Zhen responded, "Yes."

Reaching out to Changning: "I want to hold you"

Yao Zhen came over with a smile and interlocked his fingers and walked on the bank of the river.

The breeze blew, and Xiang Changning's voice came with the wind: "Ren Li is not young, her metabolism is relatively slow, the development of lung cancer is not bad, and the location of her operation is not bad, it's just a resection, and it hasn't spread yet. "

In addition to the usual deserted voice, there was also some softness that was not usually there. Yao Zhen nodded: "Yeah."

In fact, Yao Zhen has been paying attention, and probably knows the situation.

Xiang Changning moved closer to Yao Zhen according to his thoughts, he didn't care about the people around him looking at them, he didn't even notice that someone passed them by.

"What I said in the hospital today was quite chaotic.

Taking a deep breath, Xiang Changning tried to keep his tone as calm as possible: "It's actually like this. I was at Ren Li's house in my third year of high school. Then, before the car accident, I also had some pictures of the same sex in my books. Ran Si gave one, and I When I was confused about my sexual orientation, I bought a few copies myself, and then there was a conflict between her and me because of these albums. I always thought that she knew my sexual orientation at that time, after all, she was very shocked at the time. .

"I only found out today that she didn't know that way, she probably was at the time, she was simply too shocked, after all, she has always been quite old-fashioned.

"And every time I quarreled, Ren Li always said that I was the only one in my family. If I didn't find a girl, I wouldn't even have any offspring. My parents would feel ashamed if they were alive... Probably..."

Xiang Changning's voice was cut off for a few seconds.

"Probably just these few points, over and over again, it's not easy for me to remember right now, huh—"

That being said, the voice wrapped in a hoarse and gloomy voice, Yao Zhen is not stupid, he can hear it.

It shouldn't be that I can't remember, but that those hurtful words are too sharp and vivid to be narrated in an ordinary way.

Clasping hands together, Yao Zhen squeezed Xiang Changning's hand hard again, and in silent comfort, Xiang Changning smiled melancholy.

Xiang Changning didn't want to mention specifics, and said vaguely: "So over the years, I have never thought about other possibilities. I always thought that if my mother was there, she would probably react the same as Ren Li. After all, they were born in the same family. Yes. I don’t want to recall many things about the car accident, and I don’t want to be sad anymore, so I never thought about other possibilities.

"When I first discovered my sexual orientation, the position of the magazine under the pillow was actually changed several times, but my mother behaved normally. I never thought about it, and I didn't want to think about it. It was a fluke every time. Reassure myself that I just remembered wrongly."

"Actually, it's not easy for me to remember wrongly. My memory is not bad, and I can learn things relatively quickly, but my comprehension ability is poor, and I need to think over and over again."

Xiang Changning looked complicated:

"Ren Li told me today that it's not true. My mother knew it a long time ago. Ren Li didn't know about it through magazine quarrels. She knew about it through my mother. I... I didn't think about it, I never thought about it. knew."

Yao Zhen was a little stunned after hearing this: "Huh?"

Then he whispered: "And then?"

"Then Ren Li said that she kept dreaming about her recently, probably because she was really afraid of death. She wanted to do something good, and after thinking about it, she thought about it. She didn't say it for so many years, but suddenly she said it today. Ah."

The ending brings out endless irony,

"She said that she always thought that I could break the rules and go back to the right path. She didn't expect that I would be obsessed with my obsession and never repent. The relationship between the two parties has not been good for so many years, so I never thought of telling me what my mother told her. For this reason, Probably the justifiable reason she found for herself. I don't quite believe it."

Yao Zhen muttered: "I don't believe it either."

Xiang Changning continued: "But I am still grateful to her. She said that my mother was also shocked when she first found out, and immediately found her to discuss my sexuality. Ren Li thought it was a disease, and she should immediately ask if it can be cured, and I Mom didn't take her advice. She said that my mom was too shocked at the time, and she couldn't calm down and couldn't make a decision.

"But later, my mother checked a lot of information and asked the doctor herself, and their educational thinking diverged. Ren Li felt that I could be guided back to the right path, while my mother thought that it would be good to let me go naturally. When I want to say..."

The voice paused, then choked up and said: "When I want to talk, she will communicate with me."

The hoarseness became more and more serious in her voice: "Although Ren Li delayed speaking for a long time, I am very grateful to my mother."

"I'm... very happy today."

Yao Zhen didn't know what to say for a while, feeling both happy and bitter.

The happy thing is that Xiang Changning is recognized by at least one of his parents, but the bitter thing is that these are meaningless and they left too early.

Xiang Changning stopped, took a few deep breaths, and frowned.

Difficulty controlling emotions.

"Really—"

"Um?!"

The hoarseness of Xiang Changning's voice continued: "I know that you have worked hard recently and wanted to work in city B, but I also know that you passed the internal recruitment in city A, and... your family and friends thought you were I will stay and work in City A, right?"

The topic changed too quickly, and Yao Zhenxin suddenly said, "...Yes."

Xiang Changning turned his head to look at him, his eyes were full of emotional torment, it was clear that he was in the hospital in the afternoon, the same kind of complexity.

Yao Zhen worried: "What's wrong?"

Smiling to Changning, with distress: "You've been working hard lately—"

Yao Zhen hurriedly said: "I am willing, I, my graduation project needs to be more difficult."

Xiang Changning reached out and couldn't help but rub Yao Zhen's hair. Yao Zhen was a little taller than him, and his hand was not easy to put. Xiang Changning grabbed it lightly, and let go awkwardly.

The voice was gentle: "Actually, it's not that I can't come to City A. It's okay if you don't pass the exam. Don't push yourself too hard. Your body is important."

Yao Zhen doubted what he heard: "What?"

Smiling to Changning, he said bluntly, "Is it strange that I want to come to City A?"

Yao Zhen murmured: "Yes, but City B is the closest to Qianfeng County, don't you want to go back to see your parents often?"

Xiang Changning shook his head.

Xiang Changning led Yao Zhen and walked forward, his breathing gradually calmed down, and he said calmly: "They have been away for many years, and only one house is left in Qianfeng County, everything is dead, and people are alive.

"I asked Yu Ya. She is running in various hospitals. If I want to work in the provincial hospital and the city hospital in city A, I can find a way. The provincial hospital has more conditions, and the city hospital is okay, but.

"I never filled out the form she gave me."

Yao Zhen didn't understand: "And then?"

Xiang Changning asked abruptly: "If my guess is correct, you didn't tell your family about our affair, and you didn't tell your good friends about the fact that you're dating a boy, right?"

"...Not yet, I haven't found a suitable opportunity. I've been very busy recently, so I want to finish my work first..."

Xiang Changning understood, and put it bluntly: "You want to take the seat of Design Institute of City B, and then tell your family that it's right?"

After a moment of silence, Yao Zhen acknowledged in a deep voice: "Yes."

Xiang Changning looked at the riverside, and said softly, "I didn't fill it in because I didn't dare yet. I don't know how your family reacted when you told the family, and what will be your attitude in the end? But on the other hand, I don't I don't want you to have conflicts with my family because of my existence.

"I am very happy when Ren Li finished talking to me today, but——I have mixed feelings when I see you. Parents are probably like this, such as my mother and my aunt. , they will recognize their attitude towards this kind of thing, and will they be tolerant and understanding in the end... I think your parents will be like this too.

"Before you tell the truth, you will probably live in peace, but you will always tell the truth, right?"

Yao Zhen's eyes flickered, and he said slowly, "Yes"

Xiang Changning reached out and touched Yao Zhen's face, and looked into his eyes: "If you still choose to be with me after you have finished talking to your parents, everyone...after there may be disputes, then don't try too hard , I can also come to your city to work, there is always a way.

"If you don't, don't choose me..."

Xiang Changning paused for a moment, then showed a forced smile,

"Then I probably don't have to think about where to buy the house."

In Yao Zhen's eyes, this smile is even a bit bitter.

Xiang Changning's voice is softer than a feather,

"I can't bear to embarrass you—really—"

Before Yao Zhen was also reluctant to be embarrassed, but the moment he knew that his parents would recognize him, driven by empathy, Xiang Changning was even more reluctant.

His obsession with the family, the shadow of being scolded by Ren Li for so many years has been let go, and he no longer has to worry about going back to worship, just like the words Ren Li scolded him:

If the parents are alive, they will feel that he is unfilial and disappointed in him because of his orientation.

Parents didn't want to see him take another man to their gravestone at the grave.

Or, to be more exaggerated, even his parents are dead and he won't let them go to peace...

So he was even more reluctant to have conflicts between Yao Zhen and his family. His family situation has become a foregone conclusion that cannot be changed, but Yao Zhen is okay, and Yao Zhen's family will change because of his choice.

Yao Zhen has always been the pride of his parents.

Xiang Changning was reluctant to fall out with his family because of Yao Zhen.

So Yao Zhen can actually abandon him and go back to the normal way, he doesn't blame him.

"It's the truth—"

Xiang Changning closed his eyes and repeated.

Yao's mother was trying on clothes in front of the full-length mirror, and Yao Zhen was typing on the keyboard on the desk in the living room.

Since returning from the day before yesterday, Yao Zhen has basically remained in this state.

Yao's mother turned to Yao Zhen's back and found that there were CAD drawings on the desktop again. She couldn't understand: "Didn't you pass the internal recruitment of the Design Institute in City A? You can do whatever you want for the graduation project, where do you need to stay up late?"

"By the way, you really don't want to hang out with me and your dad on May Day?

"I'll cover the travel expenses for you~ You won't have this benefit when you make money yourself. For the last time, are you excited?"

Mother Yao joked.

Yao Zhen was helpless: "Mom—you—"

A WeChat came in on the phone and lit the screen, and Yao Zhen and Yao's mother saw it together.

In a flash, Yao's mother was amazed and curious: "Your screen saver is very beautiful. I always thought that the scenery you like is beautiful, and the people are also beautiful. Is it a boy or a girl?"

Yao Zhen's screen is the one that Xiang Changning was photographed and put on the Internet, and widely advertised, that one.

Yao Zhen hesitated: "Does it look good?"

"Not bad, the composition is clean, why don't you come back to the graduate student group and let me have a look?

"New girlfriend? Not like!"

Yao Zhen was shocked: "I, when did I have a new girlfriend?"

Yao's mother rolled her eyes at him: "Oh, the car that hasn't been driven for ten thousand years suddenly drives out to give someone away, you think your father and I are both blind?"

"...Is it obvious?"

"I gave birth to you and raised you for more than 20 years. Did I raise you with my eyes closed?"

"..."

Yao Zhen went home and stayed for two days, but he couldn't settle down. Yao Zhen felt pushed by Yao's mother.

"That," Yao Zhen took a deep breath, "Mom, there is something I want to tell you."

Yao's mother seemed to be frightened, and quickly waved her hands: "No, I beg you to let me go, old woman, I don't want to see your graduation project corrected for you, let me enjoy the leisurely life before I retire!! !"

"..."

"I've watched it three times, what do you want from me?!"

"..."

After a moment of silence, Yao Zhen said solemnly, "It's not that."