【Si Pu】A study of the love and death of Apollo

Do you want to rob everything in order to right the wrong?

02.

Asi was originally very quiet. He remembered that when he was a child, whenever the bitter smell of ethanol ravaged and plundered the air of his house, Teak Pu would hide him in the cabinet. He was like stroking a sleeping lump of time. He stroked Yukiji's hair and smelled the light lime scent emanating from his body. "You are a good boy, just stay quietly, don't come out when you hear any noise, wait until I come to you", the child smiled and nodded heavily.Asi has always listened to him, looking at him as if he wanted to sink his heart, to make sure that the person in front of him could move, laugh, and talk.

Asi looks more and more like he is after they parted.Sometimes Yu Pu would be stunned, as if everyone was moving forward, only Yu Si would always be frozen in that gray winter, frozen in the words he said.

"You're going to live with Dad in the future, please be happy."

"Apu, do you want me to be happy?"

The pair of eyes that were extremely similar to himself reminded me of an old train station that was deserted and only cats and the wind passed by.Teak, who was full of consolation, leaked it all into the morning light, and only the flock of passing birds spoke for him.

"I see."

He's been smiling like that ever since.He just silently abided by everything his brother taught him. With a heart that is not soft, he missed countless opportunities to be rescued by others and survived.

He knows better than anyone else that his younger brother's chest is pretending, and the left is just himself.His elder brother is his heaven, his master, his pathetic fetters, his promised commandment, his joyful ode and epitaph.

So Yumu Pu wants Asi to do what he wants, he will do what he wants, he will die if he wants him to be happy, he will laugh if he wants him to be happy.Only on this point of addressing, Yukiji retained his stubbornness.Maybe this is not a bad thing, Yumu Pu thought almost self-destructively, his younger brother is not his toy or his own puppet, he can stick to something with self-consciousness, it is a good start, if you don’t call him brother, just let him go, blood relationship The root system cannot be broken.

Maybe he was wrong at the beginning, he wanted Ah Sihao, but he could use the wrong method.Teak Pu thought about what he had said, he might have forgotten that they were different people, and he put too much pressure on Asi.He is the one who hastily paints a whole spring around a flower, but ignores that he himself is a winter.

He thought of Asi's smile and truly felt the sadness, but his personal sadness didn't seem to exist.Perhaps for everything related to himself, Yumupu has a kind of indifference, defines all ordinary happiness as untouchable things in life, and chews them without exception, so it seems that there is no weakness or existence. feel.Disappointment was too tiring, longing was too stressful, and he began to accept it with a flat face. In order to be supercilious, he just looked up at the starry sky, but the flame in his own life, together with the burning brightness, was extinguished forever.

Everything he has swallowed since his birth must have been the price of living.

The long silence was like snow flakes, frozen for a long time, until Asi seemed to have absorbed enough from his brother's hesitation, and showed a cat-like gluttonous expression.

"Just kidding, such dirty blood, I won't let Apu lick it. I prefer to use my own blood to dirty Apu."

here we go again.Started talking like that again.

It's all my fault for not being able to guide him well, so Asi hasn't gotten rid of the childish innocence and cruelty, and Yuki Pufa feels the tiredness of the rainy day in his roots-it's better if it doesn't rain today.

"Asi, why do you do such a thing." There is no evil that happens without reason in the world.He still couldn't help asking, "Does it have to be like this?"

"I just don't want to be hurt again."

Before Yumupu caught his younger brother's expression, he was embraced again.The body holding her was shaking, either from the cold or from genuine fear.

He also remembered when he hid his younger brother in the closet, the child was so deep behind the dark pupils that waited for the night, there was no expectation, hope, or even waiting, only a quiet loneliness, with a hollow face inside. of myself.Yukiji sank into another darkness after leaving him, and he didn't believe that his own hands could save his brother from the darkness.

He didn't even have the strength to bring a new life to himself.

I'm afraid it's only a little bit that can be held by both hands. Pinch it with your thumb and forefinger, forming a ring to cover the eyes, and the fox's window frames a few Fengyue.Can hold one life, two people, three blocks away, four and a half rooms, and Asi's five aggregates are all empty.

Teak Pu raised his hand and patted him on the back, finally losing the strength to speak.

Hugging is the most intimate and most distant action. You will never see what kind of expression the face of the person in your arms is holding on your shoulders.So Yumupu didn't know, the slightly trembling younger brother had an expression on his face that was extremely inconsistent with the body language of asking for comfort.

"When you encounter such a thing in the future, come to me. Don't... kill anything again."

It was just a very soft sentence, the ending sound was blown out of the air by the wind, but it seemed to pull the corners of Yu Musi's mouth up together.

TBC.

"You are a good boy, just stay in peace" is what Asi said to Ningning in the words of the magic mirror hell.Blindly guess that Apu coaxed Asi in this way.

·I don’t know if anyone remembers the “fox window” that Hanako made for Ningning in the original work, and it was also secretly used in the text