I am fish

Zhen Wenjun was pacing beside the city wall of Xie County with a heavy heart, when Ah Xi brought two bowls of soup cakes and grinned grinningly:

"Hurry up, hurry up, I grabbed two bowls of soup cakes just out of the pan, let's eat quickly, there are only ten bowls! We won't have until tomorrow!"

Zhen Wenjun took the bowl, and Ah Xi squatted beside her and ate it. He was sweating all over. He swallowed more than half of the bowl before he was free to sigh: "Life is alive, and a bowl of soup cakes is enough. Happiness, so happiness." .Hey? Why don't you eat?"

Zhen Wenjun was holding the bowl and didn't realize what was inside. She was thinking about what Ah Xin said just now.

When I saw Li Ju was about to be shot down by an arrow on the city wall, the person who held him was indeed Zhen Wenjun.

She knew what would happen to Li Ju if he fell. As far as he was concerned, this fall might be fatal. If Da Yu's monarch fell, it would be foreseeable how much waves would be caused in a short while.Her pulling was not only subconsciously saving people, but also dug out the doubts hidden in her heart to the surface.

She hated Xie Fuchen and hated Li Ju, this is unquestionable, but in the books that her mother read to her since she was a child, in the stories about famous generals, all the veteran generals who were praised and loved by the people were all loyal to the emperor and patriotic, A capable minister with both benevolence, righteousness and wisdom, but whoever kills the monarch is a treacherous and evil person, and his reputation will last forever.

Ah Xin is right in saying something, Li Ju is not a tyrant, he is just incompetent.Kill him just because he is incompetent?But he is not an ordinary person, he is the emperor.The stupidity of ordinary fools may kill themselves, but the ignorance of the emperor will lead to more deaths.If you don't kill him, he will kill more people.So Zhen Wenjun let go.

If the so-called good and evil are put in writing and written in a few small seal characters, it is very simple, and anyone can say a few words.The reason why there are so many eloquent people is because many things are easy to say, but it is another matter to do them.

If Li Ju died here, she would be the murderer, or at least an accomplice.

In the future, if Li Yanyi ascends the throne and becomes the first female emperor in history, then she will be the supporter of the turning point in history.

Zhen Wenjun was worried that Li Ju's life and death were too involved, and she didn't know what the consequences of her actions today would be.After many years, will she be written into the history books and scolded by later generations?

Zhen Wenjun was undecided when he was suddenly flicked on the back of the head.At first she thought it was Axi, but when she looked up, Axi was happily eating the bowl of soup cakes that she hadn't had time to eat. Seeing that she was being watched, she hurriedly explained:

"I see that you haven't eaten, and thought you didn't want to eat..."

"It's okay, you can eat with peace of mind, just don't poke my head."

Ash: "Huh? Oh."

Zhen Wenjun continued to think about "being scolded by later generations" just now, and tied a small grass on the ground to match her entangled thoughts.Just when he woke up, the back of his head was flicked again.

"Ashi you!"

"It's not that I didn't!" Ah Xi denied it sincerely, not as if teasing her.

"Who is it?" Seeing a small cloth bag falling at her feet, this is what bounced her.Zhen Wenjun threw the grass on the ground, stood up and ran towards the shadow hiding behind the wall.

The black shadow still wanted to run, Zhen Wenjun's battles these past few months had not been in vain, he rushed forward and grabbed the man by the belt and pulled him back.The man was also very clever, and when he realized that he was being grabbed, he turned around and slashed at Zhen Wenjun's neck with a knife.Zhen Wenjun leaned his upper body back and dodged, his flexible and strong waist immediately bounced back, the hand holding the belt with his right hand didn't let go, and he pushed forward with his left hand, directly blocking the man against the wall.

Zhen Wenjun was already very annoyed, and was hit on the head a few times, which hurt so much that he wanted to scold the person in front of him.

His fingers were all on the tip of the opponent's nose, but he couldn't curse out.

"Hey?!" Zhen Wenjun took a step back in fright, thinking he had seen a ghost.

The person blocked by her on the wall was Lingbi.Lingbi laughed until her eyes turned into two crescent moons, she covered her face with her hands and endured it for a long time, finally couldn't help it, and burst out laughing.

"What's the matter, little monkey, how long has it been since he lost his ability, and dared to untie sister's belt as soon as he came up?" Lingbi put her hands on her waist, took a step forward, and Zhen Wenjun took a step back. She didn't know why she had to retreat. In the end, the dazed expression finally returned to normal, and then he laughed, and stepped forward to hug Lingbi:

"Miss me to death—! Sister Lingbi!"

Lingbi was held so breathlessly by her, and through her shoulder, she saw Axi who was carrying two bowls poking his head out of curiosity to look at them from behind the wall. smile.

Lingbi blushed, and hurriedly pushed Zhen Wenjun away: "You're suffocating me! Go, go!" propped Zhen Wenjun out, and kept Zhen Wenjun, who was so excited that he almost jumped on the spot, out of his arms.

"Why are you here!" Zhen Wenjun asked.

"Isn't this just to see if you are worried about getting into trouble on the front line?"

"Where's Sister Tingxu!"

"Who do you see behind?"

Zhen Wenjun turned his head and saw Wei Tingxu sitting on a four-wheeler under the thin snowflakes, wearing a thick fur coat, smiling at her.

"Sister Wenjun, do you miss me?"

Wei Tingxu's gentle question made Zhen Wenjun's heart feel as warm as a spring day in the icy world. The corners of her mouth moved and she wanted to give a smile, but her eyes turned red as soon as she smiled, and she felt a little grievance in her heart. She knelt on one knee In front of Wei Tingxu, hold her hand:

"I think... I miss my sister. I didn't expect to see my sister alive. I..."

Wei Tingxu stroked her head, and said in relief, "You are a big kid who can lead soldiers and fight, why are you crying so easily. Come, let me take a good look at whether you are injured."

"Yes! There are injuries all over my body!"

Lingbi laughed at her: "You're yelling so loudly with injuries all over your body, why don't you hurry up and see a doctor."

"There are no doctors, all the doctors were killed."

"The eldest princess is sympathetic to everyone, and asked me to bring doctors to treat the frontline soldiers. You have to go and see." Wei Tingxu saw that her clothes were covered with blood stains and did not change her clothes. He pulled her sleeves and opened them. At first glance, the scabbed wounds on the arm have not been treated, and there are still many bruises.

Wei Tingxu said distressedly: "You are half a doctor anyway, why don't you take care of yourself when you are injured? But do you want me to feel distressed to death?"

Zhen Wenjun was used to these pains, so he didn't take it seriously at first. There are many people who were more seriously injured than her. Whoever came to the front line to fight and kill the enemy, as long as the head is still there, there is nothing to complain about.Wei Tingxu's words and worried expression instantly made the wound on her body unbearably painful, and her heart was occupied by a strong desire to act like a baby, and she held Wei Tingxu's hand tightly:

"They want to treat the wound, but there is a shortage of medicinal materials, and there is no medicine available at all. There are too many people who are more seriously injured than me and need treatment, so I have no time to treat it."

"Does it hurt?" Wei Tingxu gently stroked her wound with his fingertips.

"It hurts!" Zhen Wenjun bit his lip, as if swearing.

"Come with me." Wei Tingxu said mysteriously, "Actually, before I came, I asked Mr. Xu about some medicine, so I can see some skin trauma."

"really?"

"Try it, and then you'll know."

Zhen Wenjun looked at Wei Tingxu, who had been thinking about him day and night, in front of him. It was a little unreal, and he was full of things he wanted to say to her.Wei Tingxu's words and expression made her feel as uncomfortable as a cat scratching her heart, and she wanted to immediately find a place where there were only the two of them to talk for three days and three nights.

Xiaohua was originally standing behind Wei Tingxu, but when she saw Zhen Wenjun standing up, she stepped back tactfully and gave her the handle of the four-wheeler.

Today must be a special day, even the little flower is a bit cute.Zhen Wenjun ran away pushing the four-wheeler, Wei Tingxu almost lost his seat and hurriedly grabbed the handrail.

"You...slow down! Watch out for the girl's safety!" Xiao Hua pointed at Zhen Wenjun and said angrily.

Zhen Wenjun turned around and made a face at her, before disappearing at the end of the earthen wall.

Xiaohua spoke a little loudly and got angry, and couldn't help coughing.

Seeing her covering her mouth and coughing and coughing, Lingbi suddenly stopped, spread her palms, looked at them, and held them again.

"What's wrong with you." Lingbi felt a little ominous, and asked her, "Is your condition getting worse?"

Xiaohua didn't look back, Lingbi pulled her to see her face, she was like a stubborn rock and couldn't be shaken no matter how much she pulled.

"As a girl's personal servant, you should understand what you care about. Except for the girl, you can't distract your attention from the girl because of anyone else. Although the girl has always been kind and friendly to us, you can't because of this You forgot your duty. If this negligence caused the girl to have an accident, none of us can bear the responsibility."

Lingbi: "What do you mean? Do you think I've neglected the girl?"

"Whether you are negligent or not, you know it in your heart." After speaking, Xiao Hua left.

Lingbi felt that he would never get along with her for the rest of his life, and he was too lazy to talk too much nonsense with her.

But looking back, Xiao Hua made some sense.

Just now she saw Zhen Wenjun standing by the wall with his back to her from a distance, Ling Bi, who was pushing Wei Tingxu's cart, immediately became excited, handed Wei Tingxu to Xiaohua, and sneaked behind Zhen Wenjun to tease her. she.This is indeed what she shouldn't, after all she never leaves Wei Tingxu, and protecting Wei Tingxu is the whole meaning of her life.

Ever since she was accepted into Wei's house and became Wei Tingxu's personal maid, taking care of Wei Tingxu has become the only thing she has to do in her life.She can't be interested in other people, as long as Wei Tingxu doesn't get married, she can't get married either.Ever since Wei Tingxu joined the power struggle, even her life was doomed to be turbulent.Over the years, she has devoted herself to taking care of Wei Tingxu's daily life and protecting her safety. She has never thought about her own affairs, and she doesn't know what "I" is.

I don't know when it started, a long-lost joy slowly sprouted, which was the long-lost warmth from home and relatives, and she began to feel happy or worried about her own affairs.She knew it was wrong, and if there was any mistake, she would be sorry for the kindness of the Wei family to her.

Concentrate, she wants to pull back the wandering thoughts.

The only decent residence in Xie County is Li Ju's palace, except for the county government office, they are all dilapidated thatched huts with earthen steps.The people of Xie County were very grateful to the heroes who drove away the Jin army. Fearing that these wounded warriors would have no place to recuperate, they gave up their dilapidated houses one after another. Son, the people ran to sleep in the cowshed and stables by themselves.

Zhen Wenjun originally felt embarrassed to let the villagers sleep where the animals slept, but the villagers insisted on moving away.Zhen Wenjun and Axi lived in the same house, and they were so busy with defense and healing that they didn't have time to tidy up the house, they left things randomly.

Wei Tingxu came, and she didn't have a good place to entertain her, so she pushed Wei Tingxu to the front of the house and asked her to wait for a while, then rushed in and immediately swept all the bowls on the table into the wooden box next to her, kicked Kicked under the bed.Then I picked up all the bloody cloths and dirty clothes, and turned them around in the snail house for several times. There was no place to throw them away. I simply opened the window and threw them all out. I can also open the window to let the wind blow in. It’s strange to be scattered. smell.

After confirming that the smell was gone, she dug out half of her carry-on luggage for a long time and finally found half of the broken aromatherapy.This incense was secretly brought by her when she came out of Runing, and it was the kind that Wei Tingxu used most often in Wei Tingxu's room.Originally, she wanted to let Wei Tingxu's Mu Xiang follow her, but it was only when she arrived at the northern line that she realized that she might not even have a chance to think about her life, let alone light the incense.

At this time, it finally had a place to use. Zhen Wenjun carefully lit it, carefully inserted it into the corner of the wall, and sandwiched it with two stones so that it could stand up.A wisp of thin green smoke rose from the house, and the fragrance was slowly permeating. Zhen Wenjun looked at himself in the mirror for a while, no matter how he looked, he felt like a potato that had been dried and blackened, without any tenderness, and he didn't know his sister Will you dislike it?

Forget it, the face was exposed anyway, potatoes are potatoes, and when she returns to Runing, she promises to raise them back in a month.

Now, however, there is a more serious question.

Zhen Wenjun looked at the clothes in the baggage that she hadn't had time to wear. She only had this one thing intact.

The hanging body was not only hardened by the blood, but also tattered, making her look not only like a potato but also like a beggar.Wei Tingxu ventured all the way to the front line, at least she had to change into normal clothes.

But... isn't it a bit too deliberate to change clothes at this time?

But... wouldn't it be more impolite not to change?

So...to change or not to change?

Wei Tingxu waited outside the house until he felt sleepy, and then the door in front of him slowly opened again.

Zhen Wenjun was still dressed in rags, and said in frustration:

"I'm sorry sister...it's too rough here, and I don't even have decent clothes. I had one, but I just took it out and saw that it was bitten by a mouse. I..." Zhen Wenjun smiled bitterly halfway through his speech, "I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable."

Wei Tingxu looked at Zhen Wenjun, who was scratching his head and scratching his head, feeling a little aggrieved and embarrassed. He didn't feel uncomfortable at all, but felt that she was extremely cute.

Wei Tingxu pushed the four-wheeled cart into the house by himself, and Zhen Wenjun followed her, watching her quietly looking at the Pengmen Pihu, not knowing what to say.

"My sister lives in this kind of place, it's hard work for my sister." When Wei Tingxu looked back at Zhen Wenjun, he felt obviously guilty.

"No, no, it's not hard work at all. But... the things my sister told me haven't been done yet, and I have failed my sister's expectations."

"Sister, there is no need to be anxious about this matter, but you must not rush into any important matter, otherwise it will only backfire."

"I have a chance." Zhen Wenjun closed the door, and whispered to Wei Tingxu, "When Li Ju was shot by an arrow on the city wall, I had a chance to kill him directly, but I didn't do it, and I missed a lot. Great opportunity."

Wei Tingxu's eyes flickered: "I heard that someone pulled Li Ju on the city wall, and then let go."

"Yes, that person is me. When I saw him about to fall, the first thought that came to my mind was 'save people'. He is neither the emperor nor the enemy, but a person who is about to die. But when I pulled When I was holding him, I realized that he was the purpose of my coming to northern Xinjiang. My purpose was to kill him! So I let go. After letting go, I regretted it. I should have directly killed him, but now he To be rescued and come back... really makes me regret it!"

"You're scared?"

Wei Tingxu summed up her distress in the past few days in just three words, like a needle stuck in an acupuncture point that had been stagnant for many days and caused her pain.

"Yes, I'm afraid..." Zhen Wenjun admitted that she had always known what she was afraid of, "I was afraid that once Li Ju really died, the Dayu army would be completely defeated, and the Jin army would kill the entire Dayu. I In northern Xinjiang these days, I have personally seen how Chongjin and the gang of barbarians killed people. If they were allowed to enter the Central Plains, it is unimaginable how the people of Dayu would suffer. For these thieves, killing is not fighting against the enemy Defending the country, but for fun. They take pleasure in killing, they are completely different from us."

Zhen Wenjun thought that she had adapted to the cruel battlefield, but when she explained to Wei Tingxu what she had seen and felt in the past few months, she realized that her hands were trembling, and the anger and fear had never disappeared from her heart. It has even taken root and sprouted, and penetrated into the deepest part of her heart.

Wei Tingxu looked at her tightly intertwined fingers, slowly stretched in, separated her already red fingers, and held them in his hands.

"There must be a lot of troubles. I had the same troubles as you a few years ago. If the emperor is killed, will a hole be opened in the zenith, and will some ghosts and monsters really come out of that hole to eat people? .In fact, this question is very simple. You and I have read many books. The classics tell us that we must be loyal to the monarch and the country. Do all schools of thought respect Confucianism?"

Zhen Wenjun waited for her to speak.

"Since ancient times, the so-called divine right of kings has been believed to be the destiny of the emperor. The life and death of all people is governed by the gods to manage the world. Today's Confucianism is not only the Confucianism advocated by the sage Confucius, but A brand-new Confucianism that combines many other schools of thought. The way of benevolence and righteousness, the etiquette of monarchs and ministers is the life principle that we have been familiar with since we were young, but what is it actually? It is just a ruling tool to make children obey their parents and subjects obey the monarch It's just a tool. The benevolent and righteous will not disturb the virtuous and the virtuous will not rebel. In this way, the imperial power will be firmly held in the hands of the emperor. Whether it is the former Lin family or the current Li family, they all want to hold the country in their hands for generations But in fact? The former dynasty has become the former dynasty, and Taizu is the most restless 'traitor'. Now the prosperous age created by this 'traitor' will come to an end, and there will be a new dynasty and a new class. This will be an era that has never existed in ancient times or even imagined by all ancients. Is it because of the existence of Li Yanyi, a treacherous minister and us villains? Of course it is not just that. If it is only because of our birth, the wheel of history It won't roll so fast, and it won't crush Li Ju. Why can Li Yanyi stand on top of the peak and point his sword at the country? Li Ju's incompetence is one, Chao Gang's weakness is two, foreign enemies' strength is three, and powder addiction is one. Four, unstoppable disasters are five, the former emperor's cup of bow, bow, snake, shadow, jealousy and envy are six! Of course, there are more other reasons. It's time..." Wei Tingxu seldom said so many words, and said in one breath In the last sentence, the cold fingertips gently outlined Zhen Wenjun's face, attracting her soul little by little.

"It's time to dig out the rotten things from the roots and throw them into the underground waterway. History chose Li Yanyi and us. The death of Li Ju is not the death of the emperor. The people and soldiers will fight for Li Ju now. They will fight again for another emperor. They never care who the emperor is. What they care about is the reason and courage to put on the armor and pick up the knife again. What Li Ju can give them, Li Yanyi can also, and even more. In our When we take this step, we have already cut off the way back. If we retreat at this moment, guess what will be waiting for us? Is it just a slow failure? No, it is a crushing defeat. If you don’t kill Li Judging is to fulfill the virtuousness in your heart? No, what you fulfilled is Li Ju and Xie Fuchen's butcher knife." Wei Tingxu asked her, "What kind of people are they, don't you understand? If you still don't understand, I can Tell you."

Wei Tingxu stood up with difficulty, reached for his belt, and spread it away.Pulling off the skirt, exposing the body, showing her the shocking wounds on the body, asking her to see clearly with her own eyes.

"You've seen the back injury, it's only a small part." The soft and wide robe hung on her arms that would never heal, Zhen Wenjun only took one look and then turned his eyes away immediately.She couldn't believe what she saw...

"This is the whole truth." Wei Tingxu's tone was very calm, so calm that he shivered, "This is the truth left by the late emperor and Xie Fuchen together. Whenever I want to be a gentle and kind gentleman , and they'll all tell me how ridiculous the idea really is."

Zhen Wenjun lowered his head, pulled up the clothes on the ground, and put them back on Wei Tingxu's body.She opened her arms and hugged Wei Tingxu into her arms, carefully as if embracing the most fragile treasure in the world, and wished to integrate her into her body with all her strength.

"I know. I know everything." Zhen Wenjun closed his eyes, tears rolled into Wei Tingxu's long hair, "I'm sorry... please don't do this. From now on, I, Zhen... I am willing to go through fire and water for you, Don't let anyone hurt you again."