Being-Towards-Death

Liangjiang City is located in the southwest, with abundant water, so the summer is not very hot; the humid air makes the two southerners like fish in water, but Shi Guyuan is not very used to it. It feels like there is a layer of water vapor on the skin all the time, like steamed meat on a steamer. .

Chi Xiaoyu's little face was steamed to a rosy white, Yuxue is cute, and she is like a koala, she likes to rely on Shi Guyuan, so it often happens that strangers mistake Shi Guyuan as her father's Embarrassing, and even more embarrassing, she will clarify solemnly that Uncle Shi is not her father, but her mother.

Outsiders only thought it was a child's talk, and they left after laughing, but the relationship between Shi Guyuan and Chi Yu was pulled into a hairpin bend; fortunately, the two did not have to be alone, and they coincided with each other, creating a relationship between Shi Guyuan and Chi Yu. Dedicated to the precious little ones.

Chi Xiaoyu is like a sapling whose species can't be identified. Whatever fertilizer is applied, it will bear the same fruit; she stubbornly tied the red thread to her two favorite men, and she didn't feel that she should listen to the opinions of the two parties.

Shi Guyuan's secretary arranged their trip in good order.After climbing the mountains that should be climbed and seeing the scenery that should be seen, there is not much time left for them to squander.A few days ago, they had a lot of exercise, so on this day, they hired a bamboo raft and started a slow-paced time.

Rafting on the two rivers in midsummer is surrounded by mist, and what you can see is a landscape painting with water halo and ink stamps.The picture scroll is overwhelming, including everything in it, and it seems like the person in the painting.The flimsy light boat passed through amidst the chirping of insects and birds, and the crystal-clear river water reflected the green hills on both sides and a line of blue sky; the bottom of the water was covered with large and small pebbles, and occasionally a few fish shuttled among them.Chi Xiaoyu lay on the side of the bamboo raft, slapped the water, greeted the fish, and was carried back to the middle of the bamboo raft by Chi Yu.

The woodcutter at the stern reminded: "Look out for the children!"

Shi Guyuan held Chi Xiaoyu in his arms, sat on the bow of the boat, and sighed at the green mountains and green waters: "I really want to live like this every day."

Chi Xiaoyu said excitedly, "I think so too!"

Shi Guyuan said with a smile: "Then let's stay here for the rest of our lives, shall we?"

Chi Yu said: "After a long time of ease, you will feel that your busy days will be better again."

Shi Guyuan shook his head: "I'm looking forward to retirement with all my heart, but it's a pity that Xiaochu's kid doesn't live up to it, and loses his temper when things don't go his way. He's in his twenties and spends his days wasting away. I'm as old as him. Time, long ago—”

Suddenly, Shi Guyuan pursed his lips, swallowing the past back to his heart, his pupils stained with memories were like a blot of ink; Chi Yu said: "The children are so happy now, they have never suffered so much."

Shi Guyuan suddenly asked: "Chi Yu, what were you like when you were young?"

"When I was young?" Chi Yu looked up to the sky and thought for a while, "Silly play, silly fun, catch the sea with parents; other people's homes have fishing boats, they can go fishing in the sea, but my family doesn't, so I just touch some small fish, shrimps, and clams on the shore. Conch snails are not considered full every day, but they are not hungry anyway."

Shi Guyuan said: "Counting it all together, you are the first batch of people who caught up with the good times."

"That's poor too."

"At least I haven't been starved or beaten," Shi Guyuan laughed, "I hope Xiaoyan can be born in a poor family, if he is born in a poor family, he will probably be like you, don't remember those things It's a bad thing, but unfortunately she has been starving and freezing with me for a long time."

"...your father ordered the hall?"

"Both of them are engaged in music, and they taught at the university. They died in the criticism in 74."

Shi Guyuan said it lightly, just like the clouds in the sky at this time.Chi Yu apologized softly: "I'm sorry."

Shi Guyuan smiled and said: "You are always so polite, so polite that there is a distance."

Chi Yu scratched his head and said, "I'm used to it," then asked, "What about you?"

"I?"

"What were you like as a child?"

Shi Guyuan was silent, as if he was thinking, and said after a long time: "I don't remember, it should be fine." After finishing speaking, he turned the topic back to Chi Yu, "I really want to see what you looked like when you were young."

Chi Yu said, "I want to see yours too."

Shi Guyuan lowered his chin a little and said with a smile, "Didn't you see that?"

The two of you came and chatted for a while, and suddenly the cutler said: "Hey, sit down, sit down, hold the child well, it's windy, it's going to rain!"

Summer is God's rebellious period. Temper comes when you say it, and the sky changes when you say it.As soon as the woodcutter's words fell to the ground, the water flow became urgent, as if he was also trying to hide from the rain; the long pole couldn't reach the bottom after a few strokes, and the bamboo raft swayed left and right, like a leaf in the ocean, unable to get ashore.

The wind howled, Chi Xiaoyu pressed the top of his head and shouted: "My hat!"

"No more!" Shi Guyuan tightly strangled her waist, "Go back and buy a new one, don't move!"

The sky was completely dark, and thunder and lightning flashed overhead; Chi Xiaoyu nestled in Shi Guyuan's arms, crying in fright.Chi Yu wanted to take his daughter over, but the heavy raindrops hit his eyelids, and he couldn't open his eyes as if glued.There was a sudden jolt of the boat, and Chi Yu lowered his body, touched Shi Guyuan's hand, and held it firmly; Shi Guyuan also held his with his backhand, and the clasped palms didn't know whether it was sweat or rain.

The bamboo raft went down the river, and after several horrifying and sharp turns, it finally stopped at a relatively flat and low-lying bank; Chi Yu jumped ashore first, and turned around to pull Shiguyuan; in just a moment, he could barely stop The bamboo raft was blown off the river bank.

"Xiaoyu——!!!"

Chi Yu broke out in a cold sweat; the river was muddy due to the violent wind and rain, the logger saw the timing, and skillfully stuck the long pole in the crevice of the river bottom, propped up the hull, and barely stopped the erratic posture, urging : "Take the child first!"

After Chi Yu walked a few steps into the river, his feet sank into the mud; Shi Guyuan yelled at him: "Don't come forward, it's dangerous!"

"Xiao Yu!!"

Shi Guyuan swept around and saw an outcropping stone not far away. The surface of the stone was round and smooth.

With a sound of "clicking", cracks appeared on the long pole, and the bamboo raft drifted a lot horizontally with the support point as the center; no more time to calculate, Shi Guyuan shouted: "Chi Yu, left!", and then jumped Go to the rock and throw Chi Xiaoyu over!

Chi Yu had never reacted so quickly in his life, and when he came to his senses, Chi Xiaoyu was already firmly in his arms; when he raised his eyes again, a spray of water bloomed on the surface of the river, and the roots grew on Shi Guyuan's body .

Chi Yu's heartbeat stopped: "Guyuan!!"

"Uncle Shi!" Chi Xiaoyu wailed, "Father! Uncle Shi can't swim!"

The woodcutter had already jumped into the river to save people, Chi Yu placed Chi Xiaoyu in a pile of rocks, and said sharply, "Don't move!"

Then jumped down too.

Shi Guyuan didn't struggle much, his head hit a rock, he became dizzy, and choked on several saliva; his chest was filled with hot pepper-like pain, and the pain of suffocation made his hands and feet heavy——

Then he seemed to be entangled in something, which kept pushing him upwards, and his dull brain recognized a pair of arms; the arms were warm and strong, and gave him an urge to lean on; he was not drowning , but drowned in the infinite impulse.

"Guyuan!!"

Shi Guyuan suddenly opened his eyes and let out a series of violent coughs; he was half lying in Chi Yu's arms and had already landed on the shore.

"Uncle Shi!"

As soon as his body sank, Chi Xiaoyu pushed Shi Guyuan's body worriedly, with two swollen walnut eyes, and cried, "Uncle Shi, don't die—"

Shi Guyuan's chest was so painful that he couldn't speak, he could only raise his hand to stroke Chi Xiaoyu's wet hair as a comfort; his eyelids became heavier and heavier, his hands gradually slipped down, and he sank into a dream.

....................................

The logger contacted the local hospital, and the group went out of the mountain; Shi Guyuan received anti-inflammatory injections in the hospital, and treated the wound briefly. After waking up, he checked that there was no serious problem, and went back to the hotel.

Shocked and frightened, Chi Xiaoyu got caught in the rain again, and developed a high fever in the afternoon; after injections and medicines, she finally fell asleep.Chi Yu hugged his daughter, and freed his hand to hold Shi Guyuan; the hospital was only a hundred meters away from the hotel, and when he returned to the room, Chi Yu stuffed Chi Xiaoyu into the quilt, Shi Guyuan was about to take a shower, but was caught by Chi Yu Grab it.

Shi Guyuan whispered, "What's wrong?"

Chi Yu's mouth was drawn into a straight line, and his whole body trembled.

Shi Guyuan moved closer, and asked again: "Chi Yu, what's wrong with you?"

In front of Chi Yu's eyes was a picture of splashing water, and the river water submerged Shi Guyuan's body——

He knew very well what Shi Guyuan would have become if he hadn't been rescued in time——

He has seen it once, in this life—the next life—life after life—he doesn’t want to see it again—

"Chi Yu?"

Chi Yu pulled Shi Guyuan into his arms violently, with such strength that he almost merged with Shi Guyuan; he choked up and said, "Don't leave me, please don't leave me..."

"I didn't leave you," Shi Guyuan stroked his back, "don't be afraid, I'm fine."

Chi Yu raised his head, tears were as fierce as the rain during the day; he didn't care how embarrassed he was, he only knew that he was scared.

"Don't leave me, I'm so scared..."

Shi Guyuan wiped away tears for him, and said softly, "Are you scared?"

Chi Yu hugged his waist and kept nodding.

"I'm sorry, but for Xiao Yu'er's safety, I had to do that."

Chi Yu said: "Then have you ever thought about me...?"

It was as if Chi Yu had plucked the strings of the qin, and the sound of Lingling's qin pierced through his heart. Shi Guyuan couldn't express this feeling, but he could hear the strings playing cheerful tunes, infecting every cell of him with happiness .

He patiently waited for Chi Yu to calm down, searching his face for the answer: "Chi Yu, are you serious?"

Chi Yu just hugged him and didn't speak.

Shi Guyuan gently raised Chi Yu's face, and then forgot to breathe; inch by inch, he approached those bloodless lips.

But Chi Yu suddenly turned his head and brushed his kiss past his lips.

Shi Guyuan froze for a moment, and stopped his overwhelmed shoulders and neck; as soon as his neck became hot, Chi Yu's lips and tongue lingered on his collarbone.