Being-Towards-Death

It was as if a bucket of ice water was poured head-on, instantly extinguishing the burning flame in Zheng Zhichu's body.He violently pushed Shi Guyuan away, stepped on his tail like a cat, and staggered out of the office. During the process, he overturned a box full of documents, and the box knocked over the water bottle; The water stains are transparent; leaving a mess on the ground, like a typhoon passing through.

Only Shi Guyuan in the eye of the typhoon survived.He glanced at the battered rug, and with this morning's "surprise" co-starring his sister and William, he was too distraught to stay for a moment.After the insider notified the cleaning staff to deal with it, Shi Guyuan simply left the company and drove around the streets.However, within 10 minutes, he found himself parked downstairs at Chi Yu's house.

Shi Guyuan sat in the car and took a sip of mineral water.Less than two hours had passed since he came out of Chi Yu's house this morning. When he pressed the car window, he looked up at the upstairs. The bright sunlight fell into his eyes together with Chi Yu who was drying clothes on the balcony, lighting up his dark pupils.

Shi Guyuan withdrew his gaze and chuckled unconsciously.Taking out the phone, he first called Liu Mian to ask about the situation.Liu Mian filled his stomach with beer and white wine at the dinner party last night, and when he came back, he spread it on the sofa, like a dead pig with bald hair scalded by boiling water, and Xiao Zhao answered the phone.Shi Guyuan was reasonable and asked Liu Mian to wake up before calling him back.After finishing his business, Shi Guyuan pressed the number again.

Just after Chi Yu finished the housework, Chi Xiaoyu quarreled and accompanied her to draw stick figures.Suddenly the landline rang loudly, he kissed the top of Chi Xiaoyu's head, went to the living room to answer the phone: "Hello."

Shi Guyuan's gentle smile came from the microphone: "What are you doing?"

Chi Yu looked back at Chi Xiaoyu, who was lying on the floor drawing, and said, "Take care of the child, why did you call?"

"Is there anything going on in a while?"

Chi Yu said in a low voice: "No."

"Then go downstairs now," Shi Guyuan took out a cigarette, put it in his mouth, lit it up, and said, "There is a new Cantonese restaurant in the east of the city. I heard that the morning tea is very authentic. Bring Xiao Yuer and let's have morning tea." go."

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Zheng Zhichu rushed out of the vacated gate in a daze, like a child eager to play hide-and-seek, childishly locking himself in the car.But the mind and the body are separated: his body started the car and slammed the horn in frustration; his demeanor collapsed into a puddle of self-satisfied mud, without the desire to step on the gas pedal.

He took out the phone and found Dai Chenming's number. As soon as he got through, he said angrily, "Come to the Gold Tower," and added after a pause, "Don't call me Lao He."

Dai Chenming twittered: "What are you doing bro, you're so mysterious, I have to send my mother to have a beauty treatment in the afternoon."

"Your driver is Guan Gong, you still have to confess? Hurry up, stop talking nonsense!"

"Well, how dare I not listen to your order, then wait for me, or you can play first."

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As a result, Dai Chenming arrived earlier than his Brother Zheng.Zheng Zhichu smoked nearly half a pack of cigarettes in the car before he managed to calm down. When he arrived at the Jinlou, he immediately saw Dai Chenming flirting with the little girl at the front desk.He stepped forward, dragged Dai Chenming to a corner, couldn't help but lit another cigarette, took a deep breath and said, "What, how do you usually light it?

"Gimme a root—which what?"

Zheng Zhichu threw the smoke and fire over, pulled his hair down in boredom, and increased his hint: "Out of the three of us, you are the only one with more tricks, what are you talking about?"

Dai Chenming stole the cigarette behind his family's back, and felt as comfortable as if he had ascended to heaven. His mood was relaxed and his brain circuits widened. Are you determined? How long have I been waiting for this day? Lao He’s stuff is too upright. I can’t say anything about him. Brother Zheng is better. What’s the matter, brother, what do you want? Invitation, guarantee your satisfaction!"

Zheng Zhichu was quite uncomfortable, and the words were repeatedly grinding between his lips and teeth: "What did you order last time?"

Dai Chenming said triumphantly, "I was last time——" Suddenly, the joyful expression seemed to freeze into a photo, Dai Chenming touched his head with lingering fear, and mumbled an excuse, "Isn't it that one, I don't dare to pick Said plainly, I am afraid you will hit me."

Zheng Zhichu felt that his body was covered with matchboxes, and any words related to "Shi Guyuan" were matchsticks, which would catch fire when rubbed.Covering his honest crotch, he said, "Then he—clean?"

"Clean and clean, the sets are prepared for you. Is five enough?"

Zheng Zhichu thought for a while: "How similar is this duck to him...?"

Dai Chenming smiled wretchedly: "I said it's useless, you'll know after watching it."

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Near noon, Shi Gufen's room finally ushered in the return of consciousness.The hands and feet of the two people overlapped, moving one finger involved two bodies.William smiled sleepily, pressed back on Shi Guyan again, kissed her temples, and said, "Good morning, little princess."

Shi Guzhen buried his head in William's chest hair, and moaned: "I drank too much..."

"Me too."

"thirsty."

Reluctantly, William got out of the bed, put on his pants, opened the door furtively, and poked his head, saying, "It seems that your brother hasn't come back yet."

After speaking, he dared to go to the restaurant to pour water for Shi Guyan, and then he saw two cold breakfasts on the table.

With a scream, William ran back to the house with a half-filled water glass, knelt down on one knee, held up the water glass and said, "Honey, let's get married!"

Shi Gufen accepted Shui, but not his proposal.She rolled her eyes and said, "Are you sick?"

William continued to kneel, buried his head under the quilt, and said sullenly: "There are two breakfasts on the table. I don't think your brother came back in the morning and specially made two breakfasts, just to decorate the table."

Shi Guyan's headache was about to split: "My God..."

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The business of the newly opened Cantonese restaurant is booming, and there are many diners. The three of Shi Guyuan waited in line for a while before they got a seat.

Shi Guyuan still maintained a normal volume amidst the hustle and bustle of voices. When Chi Yu was ordering, he poured tea for him and Chi Xiaoyu respectively, and warned Chi Xiaoyu: "Wait a minute, it's too hot. Let it dry before drinking."

After ordering, Chi Yu returned the menu, looked around the environment, and said to Shi Guyuan: "I ordered a lot, you didn't eat breakfast, eat more later."

Shi Guyuan said with a smile: "You are from the south, I think you should be more used to this."

Chi Yu said: "Well, you have a heart."

In fact, he is dispensable to Cantonese cuisine, he just subconsciously ensures that the atmosphere will not be awkward.But Chi Xiaoyu didn't understand the ways of the world. She ate a shrimp dumpling first, and then said with puffy cheeks, "I still like sweet and sour pork ribs the most."

Shi Guyuan tapped the tip of her little nose: "Eat lightly, it's good for your health."

Chi Xiaoyu waved the spoon and said, "Then I must eat a hundred sweet and sour pork ribs before my body breaks down!"

Shi Guyuan said: "If it goes up to a hundred, can you count?"

Chi Yu also said: "The one who taught you just last night, one hundred and one...?"

Chi Xiaoyu turned on the switch of her intelligence, counted from "one hundred and one" to "one hundred and ten", and then solemnly announced that she must eat one hundred and ten sweet and sour pork ribs.

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Shi Guyuan's laughter was just at the moment, and Zheng Zhichu's obscenity had just begun.He pressed the fire, like an art buyer weighing the value of a fake—

The boy in front of him is not very old, and his appearance is not very similar to Shi Guyuan - Zheng Zhichu has seen more similar, almost identical - the senior who left a deep impression on Chi Yu's heart, although it is just a photo - but The boy in front of him seems to have been informed of the client's psychological needs in advance, so he wears a slightly old-fashioned shirt with buttons tied down to the neck, trying to portray "solitude" and "abstinence" vividly.

Dai Chenming wanted to eat 34E's big white steamed buns even more today, so the two groups pretended to open a KTV box, and after singing a few songs, they became irregular.

Zheng Zhichu didn't have the wildness of Dai Chenming's "in-place Fa-rectification", so he took the boy to the suite upstairs.For men, his only experience is the scene of Shi Guyuan panting under his father, so although his crotch is about to burst, he is not in a hurry to take off the duckling's clothes.

The duckling winked very much, lowered its eyebrows and narrowed its eyes, pretending to be icebergs.Zheng Zhichu looked at him for a while, told him to turn around, and found that if it was higher, the line of the duckling's back would completely overlap Shi Guyuan.Then just looking at the upper body will really create the illusion that Shi Guyuan is facing away from him.

After choosing the angle he likes, Zheng Zhichu couldn't hold back the soaring body temperature anymore, and pushed the duckling into the bed. The duckling exclaimed, Zheng Zhichu frowned, and covered his mouth with his hand: "Don't make a sound!"

Then he roughly took off the trousers of the two of them, without any consolation, he just pushed in, rampaging in the warm corridor.Zheng Zhichu didn't care about the duckling's expression, and didn't allow him to make a sound, he just stared at the duckling's protruding butterfly bone and the sweat oozing from it due to pain.

As if being tempted, Zheng Zhichu exposed the tip of his tongue, licking off the sweat he had squeezed out, but immediately, he straightened his body, but because of this action, the lower part went deeper.

The duckling tightly covered its mouth, but still let out a groan. Zheng Zhichu's body froze, turned away from the duckling's face, and slapped the duckling hard: "What a fucking disappointment!"

After speaking, he did a few quick exercises. After venting, he felt physically satisfied and comfortable, but Zheng Zhichu felt that most of his heart was more empty than before.

He went to the bathroom to wash his body, and gritted his teeth in front of the mirror - just like a person who has been living in the dark accidentally saw the light, even though it was the gap between the sun, the moon and the firefly, he still couldn't wait to turn into a moth, tending to the light And go.

"I could have tolerated the darkness if I hadn't seen the sun."

Clothed in mist, without even drying his hair, he opened his wallet and tipped innocent ducklings handsomely to make up for his moodiness.After dismissing the duckling, he didn't close the wallet in a hurry, but locked his eyes on the photo position of the wallet.

There was Shi Guyuan, who had just been admitted to university, and showed Zheng Zhichu the crude admission notice of that era in high spirits.

This photo was found by Zheng Zhichu in the corner of the cabinet in Shi Guyuan's room, and by accident, it was placed in his wallet and settled down.

In Zheng Zhichu's memory, Shi Guyuan was strong and indifferent, aloof, as if he was indifferent to everything around him.He had never seen Shi Guyuan's innocent smiling face—even if he smiled at Chi Yu, it was not as touching as the smiling face in this photo.He also didn't know when this smiling face was permanently sealed by Shi Guyuan.

Zheng Zhichu gradually calmed down, remembering the stupidity and ugliness he showed in front of Shi Guyuan in the morning, he looked in the full-length mirror and decided to go back to Tengkong with his head held high and his chest held high, continuing to disgust Shi Guyuan.

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Shi Guyuan and the Chi family women were halfway through their morning tea when a phone call came.It seems that before Xianqian, Shi Guyuan thought it would be Liu Mian, but he didn't expect it to be the landline number at home.

Shi Guyuan calmed down, restrained his delicate mood, gestured to Chi Yu, avoided it slightly, and said in a low voice, "Hello, Xiaoyan?"

Shi Guzhen turned on the hands-free, and she and William huddled together on the sofa, held their breath, and frightened her brother to save the image: "Brother, William and I have discussed it, and we want to get married."

"..."

After a long time of no reply, Shi Gufen called out, "Brother, are you listening?"

After a while, Shi Guyuan's low voice came slowly: "Xiao Yan, let's talk when I go back in the afternoon, okay?