ten year dream

Father, I can't help falling in love with a man who won't love me, please tell me what should I do?

Liang Xingjue looked at Mo Zheng blankly, but couldn't ask.

Mo Zheng might tell him that he has no chance, because the beating in that person's chest no longer belongs to him.Even, maybe Mo Zheng will deliberately avoid him from now on.

"I... don't know how to say it." Liang Xingjue covered up his sadness with a wry smile.

"Then follow me and talk." Mo Zheng raised his open hands.

Liang Xingjue looked at the broad palm, hesitated, and slowly put his fingers on it.Mo Zheng gently closed his palms, and held Liang Xingjue's hands loosely in his own.Liang Xingjue only felt that boundless warmth descended on him, from his fingers to his shoulders, and then flowed into the door of his heart that was always open for that person.

"Father, I'm Xingjue. I have a lot to say to you." Mo Zheng led him to speak.

Liang Xingjue repeated, "Dad, I'm Xingjue, I have...a lot of things I want to tell you..."

"I've been living with loneliness and resentment."

"I have always lived in loneliness and resentment." Liang Xingjue lowered his head, his shoulders began to tremble.But holding his hand is so warm, as if no matter where he goes or what he does, this warmth will always support him, "I have been... thinking about why I was born in this world."

Mo Zheng held Liang Xingjue a little tighter, and stared straight at him.

"I have forgotten when I realized that I should not have been born." Liang Xingjue's trembling spread all over his body, "I was walking with my mother on the road, and I saw other children holding their mother with their left hands and their father with their right hands. , so I asked my mother why my father was not by my side. Dad, I really can't forget the way my mother looked at me blankly. Then my mother picked me up and said, "It's okay, my mother is in the stars". I really hate my father You, I really hate you!"

Liang Xingjue's eyes began to blur, and the outline of the person in front of him was so familiar and resentful, "I was bullied once, and I waited until you came, telling you that other children said I was an illegitimate child, and I will take you to tell I have a father for other children. But you said that father can't appear in front of others. If father appears in front of others, he will never be able to see mother and me again. I am really scared, afraid that I will never see you again. Whether they Whether you laugh at me or beat me secretly, I dare not say that I actually have a father."

Mo Zheng's heart ached as if it was tightened, but he could only tighten the hand of the person in front of him, giving him the powerless warmth like starlight in the cold night.

"I heard my mother crying under the quilt more than once," Liang Xingjue's tone became urgent, "Do you really love your mother? If you love her, why do you make her cry every day! Why do you let me and my mother live happily ever after?" So miserable?! Since I shouldn’t be born, why did I have to be born?!”

Seeing that Liang Xingjue's emotions were out of control, Mo Zheng pulled him into his arms, hugged the tearful man like a child, and said softly: "Xingjue, you are not a child who should not have been born."

Liang Xingjue didn't know if he heard it, but he buried himself on Mo Zheng's shoulder and trembled.

"Xingjue, you are a gift from heaven. That's why you became your mother's child, and you will encounter countless situations in this world." Mo Zheng raised his hand to stroke Liang Xingjue's hair, his deep voice was like calm sea water, Make people addicted to it.

Liang Xingjue's crying gradually faded, and Mo Zheng patted him on the back, giving his final guidance, "Nevertheless, I still thank you."

"Even so, I still thank you." Liang Xingjue seemed to see his father against the light approaching the door, and hugged him up high, "Thank you for giving me life."

After saying this, Liang Xingjue hugged Mo Zheng and sobbed softly. His firm and warm chest became his only support, and he might not be able to let go until the day he left this world.

The music of crickets came from outside the floor-to-ceiling windows. Mo Zheng looked at Liang Xingjue's red eyes from crying, and asked, "Are you going back now?"

Liang Xingjue smiled, "It's really embarrassing to cry like this."

I didn't want anyone to see this ugly appearance, but this person was Mo Zheng... Fortunately, it was Mo Zheng.

Mo Zheng smiled gently, "No."

Liang Xingjue grinned, "I have to go back."

"Okay." Mo Zheng nodded.

After Liang Xingjue changed his shoes and said goodbye to Mo Zheng, he got off the elevator.After leaving the unit building, he looked up, if Mo Zheng was standing there, he might run back desperately, hugging that person and never letting go.However, the tall floor-to-ceiling windows can only see the lights, and it is impossible to detect whether there are people or not.

Liang Xingjue closed his red and swollen eyelids, took a deep breath, then opened them, not daring to look back.

After getting out of the taxi, Liang Xingjue walked around the neighborhood.So many things happened in this day, he still can't get away from it.

Now when I go back and let my mother see this appearance, she will definitely ask questions again. Liang Xingjue checked the time, sent a text message to his mother that he was late, and then walked towards nowhere.

Liang Xingjue lives in the old city, and there are still barbecues on the left and right rows even late at night.Liang Xingjue bought a few skewers of barbecue and wandered the street. After walking for about ten minutes, he finally arrived at Lexuan's Fury bar.

Now is the time when the nightlife is busy, and the lights of the bar are lit with colorful lights.

Liang Xingjue threw the barbecue sticks into a nearby trash can, wiped his mouth and walked towards the bar.

Liang Xingjue temporarily quit his job at the bar for filming, but several old customers still recognized him.

"Yo, Xingjue." A group of girls with goth makeup waved their hands and called him over.

Seeing this familiar makeup, Liang Xingjue couldn't help but smile, "What are the girls doing in our bar after work and can't take a good rest?"

The girl who was facing forward stuck out her tongue, "You are too tired at work, why don't you relax, I heard that you have been filming recently and stopped working?"

Liang Xingjue touched his nose, "Well, it's just a small role."

"Hey, it's amazing to be on the big screen." The little girl thumped his shoulder.

Liang Xingjue smiled and asked, "Where's the boss?"

"It's in the back." The little girl's eyes narrowed like a fox's, "I seem to have brought someone here."

Liang Xingjue raised his eyebrows, greeted a few gothic girls and walked towards the inner room.

Because he was an employee of the bar, Liang Xingjue was not hindered from entering the inner room.As soon as I went there, I saw Le Xuan was eating melon seeds with Erlang's legs up and talking, and a woman with short hair was sitting on the right.

What are you talking about bringing someone here? Isn't this a woman?

Liang Xingjue knocked on the door in disgust, and it was only then that Le Xuan and the woman realized that there was someone outside the door.

"Yo Xingjue, if you're not filming, come here for a walk and be careful not to be scolded by the director." Le Xuan got up and walked over as she spoke.

Liang Xingjue is helpless, now everyone is making fun of filming.

"I just came here, so I came in to see you." Liang Xingjue said, but found a sharp gaze from behind Le Xuan shooting straight at him.

"I've always been fine." After speaking, Le Xuan noticed that Liang Xingjue was looking behind her, so she went to the woman and introduced, "That's Liang Xingjue who used to work here, a small role, not important."

The corner of Liang Xingjue's mouth twitched, what do you mean a small role is not important?

After speaking, Le Xuan introduced to him again: "This is Qi Zhihan, my girlfriend."

……

"What did you say?" Liang Xingjue slightly tilted his ear.

"Me, girl, friend, friend." Le Xuan said each word clearly.

Only then did Qi Zhihan have a smile on his face, he stepped forward and stretched out his hand to Liang Xingjue: "Hello."

"Hmm... hello." Liang Xingjue said hello, but looked at Le Xuan.

Le Xuan spread her hands, "That's what you think."

No wonder knowing that he likes the man Le Xuan, it's not surprising that he played the role of the tree hole instead, and it turned out to be a circle.

"I never knew..." Liang Xingjue looked awkwardly at Qi Zhihan who had let go of his hand, and then at Le Xuan who had an innocent face.

"Because Zhihan has been abroad," Le Xuan sighed, "I didn't expect that I could wait for her for seven years."

Liang Xingjue was taken aback, Le Xuan usually looked heartless, but she was such a persistent person.

"I'm sorry, can I fully compensate you when I come back?" Qi Zhihan shook Le Xuan with one hand.

Le Xuan said coquettishly: "Seven years, if I got married seven years ago, my children should be in elementary school by now."

Qi Zhihan was not angry either, "Okay, okay, let's raise two children in the future, one boy and one girl?"

It sounded like the two would be in a permanent relationship, Liang Xingjue heaved a sigh of relief.

"Stop standing, let's all sit down and eat." Le Xuan told the two to sit down, gave Liang Xingjue some walnuts and chestnuts, and went back to eating melon seeds.

Liang Xingjue pushed open the walnut and asked, "Have you known each other for a long time?"

"Oh, hey, you also gossip sometimes." Le Xuan squinted at him.

Qi Zhihan shrugged his shoulders, expressing that he was helpless with such a personality as a lover, Liang Xingjue silently stuffed walnuts into his mouth.

After the joke was over, Le Xuan answered the question seriously, "College students, bunk up and down."

"Oh." Liang Xingjue nodded.

"Hey Zhihan, let me tell you, this is a gutless guy." Le Xuan pointed at Liang Xingjue and said, "I liked a guy for two years, and recently that guy broke up with his ex. This guy doesn't even have the courage to confess .”

Liang Xingjue almost choked on a walnut, he knew the secret must never be told to a big mouthed person!

After listening, Qi Zhihan seemed to think about it seriously—yes, he frowned quite seriously, and then asked very seriously: "Is it the kind of person who will leave you if you say it?"

Well, it's actually more reliable, Liang Xingjue nodded, "He won't like me."

"If this is the case, you should leave him as soon as possible." Qi Zhihan suggested.

"But he treats me very well..." Liang Xingjue whispered.

"That means you still have a chance." Qi Zhihan raised his hand to Liang Xingjue.

"But...if I say it, he might leave me." Liang Xingjue lowered his head in frustration.

"You also said 'maybe', maybe he will leave, maybe he will accept." Qi Zhihan's face remained unchanged, "You confessed successfully, everyone is happy. If you failed in confessing, at least you can get rid of this miserable crush. "

These words were confusing and reasonable, but Liang Xingjue was still not persuaded, "I would rather stay by his side silently."

"Okay," Qi Zhihan said generously, "I accept."

Sure enough, the girlfriend of the freak is not going anywhere seriously.

Liang Xingjue was speechless.