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Bailang is a child who lacks love.He knows it all.

But he didn't expect that the "big brother" who grew up was also a young man who lacked love.Big Brother has very severe attachment symptoms and is often in self-doubt.Bailang could see clearly that the big brother's unreasonable troubles were just like Bailang's when he was a child, thumping and fighting, wanting to get attention and confirm that he was loved.When Bailang did this when he was a child, he was treated coldly by his adoptive mother.He now understands that this is because his adoptive mother doesn't love him, so his emotional needs can be ignored as a matter of course.

But he couldn't do that to his big brother.

Because he loves Zhixuan.

Zhixuan was noisy, clamoring to break up, and clamoring to get rid of Bailang, but Bailang didn't mind.He has experienced all this, he has experienced the fear and confusion in Zhixuan's heart.It's a pity that Bailang is not an excellent psychotherapist, he is just a person who dotes on Zhixuan.So he condoned Zhixuan's behavior of "torture" for both parties.When Zhixuan said "Get out" or "Break up", Bailang would hug him dotingly and say how much he loves him.

Just as Bailang longed for what his mother did when he was a child.

He is willing to give Zhixuan all the love he wanted but didn't get.

Zhixuan accepted all the orders, but did not give him anything in return.

Bailang just wanted to wait for Zhixuan's response, even a little bit.No.Zhixuan is like a naughty child, seeking attention by frantically pushing the other party away.The more Bailang pampered him, the worse he became.At a certain point, even Bailang began to feel tired.

Of course, Bailang would not leave him.

Bailang was only afraid of saying something hurtful, and he was even more afraid of Zhixuan saying something more hurtful.He loves Zhixuan, but that doesn't mean he won't get hurt.It is precisely because he loves Zhixuan that Zhixuan's words "Please leave", "It's over" and "Don't see you again" are very hurtful.Bailang decided to leave for a while to let Zhixuan calm down.

In short, leaving for so, so long is something beyond Bailang's plan.

How could he be willing to leave his big brother?

He returned again as Yu Yuntao, but it wasn't him with Bailang's memory.

Yu Yuntao is very similar to Bailang, but not quite Bailang.Just like this year's Zhixuan is no longer the Zhixuan of that year.People are always changing.Back then, Yu Yuntao opened the memory box of his childhood, and the memories of his childhood came back intermittently and in fragments, letting him know that he was "Bai Lan" and had already had a "marriage contract" with the "big brother" from the next door.It seems that this "memory box" can really hold invisible memories.

When opening Bailang's memory box... Yu Yuntao was stunned on the spot.

Very stunned.

He was so stunned that Zhixuan was worried.

Like an avalanche, memories are fragmented like snowflakes, pressed down one by one, but they are too heavy, catastrophic enough to be fatal.

Yu Yuntao hugged the box and stayed on the bed for nearly an hour.

The old watch in the box was ticking, slowly counting the passing time.

After that hour, Yu Yuntao started to move.But he hardly spoke, just repeating his daily behavior mechanically, cooking, cleaning, and humming a few songs that Bailang would hum when doing laundry.Yu Yuntao is like a rusty little robot that has been re-wound, and the internal gears are working again with difficulty.Zhixuan didn't dare to disturb his self-healing process, for fear that if he was careless, this beautiful head would crash.

In fact, it would be a lie to say that I am not worried, Zhixuan has silently started to choose a psychiatrist.

On the second day, Yu Yuntao didn't talk much, except for doing housework, he just sat on the balcony in a daze.The side face in the sun resembles both him and Bailang.

The system is overloaded.

Really bad.

On Monday, Yu Yuntao went to work as usual.After Zhixuan asked Xiaonan carefully, he felt relieved.Xiaonan said that Yu Yuntao's work is not much different from usual.

Zhixuan didn't know whether he should come on stage again to pick up Yu Yuntao from get off work.After thinking about it for a while, he felt that he was still in the investigation period of "pursuing for a month", so he should not take it lightly.Therefore, he still dressed up and went downstairs to wait for Yu Yuntao at the company regularly.Yu Yuntao came out of the office building and smiled when he saw Zhixuan.

When Yu Yuntao smiled like this, Zhixuan was relieved.Yu Yuntao came over, took Zhixuan's hand comfortably, and kissed the back of Zhixuan's hand—this was a natural and intimate gesture in a large crowd, as if returning to Bailang in an instant.His tone was a bit frivolous like that of Bailang: "Have you changed your perfume?"

Zhixuan shook his head: "It's been several years."

Yu Yuntao's eyes flashed past the strong melancholy, then half-downcast his eyes, embraced Zhixuan, took a deep breath, as if he wanted to make up for what he had missed for many years: "Not bad, it smells good."

They held hands and walked forward together to the car.Yu Yuntao sat in the driver's seat comfortably, as if his fear of driving had dissipated.Zhixuan stared blankly at Yu Yuntao's profile—this lover was both familiar and unfamiliar.The sense of familiarity is too strong, but it becomes strange again.

Yu Yuntao stepped on the accelerator and drove forward, while looking at the road, he glanced at Zhixuan, who was wearing the shiny starry sky watch.Yu Yuntao looked at it and said in the same way: "Don't wear the old watch anymore?" Zhixuan broke out in a cold sweat for a moment, feeling that any watch he wore would be a pitfall: "Well, just change it." Yu Yuntao smiled and said: "We're compound ’Since then, you haven’t mentioned breaking up.” Zhixuan’s cold sweat poured down like rain: “What…what kind of breakup…how can I be willing?” Yu Yuntao looked at the rearview mirror and sneered: “Then I was willing to do it before?”

Zhixuan wants to jump out of the car.

No joke.

This is impossible, Yu Yuntao is now in charge of the steering wheel, and there is still a long way to go.

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