windy and warm

Cui Xi, a name branded in my heart.

Ye Lingtao has been a man for more than [-] years. He thought he would fall in love with a beautiful girl with a bright and smooth appearance, but he didn't expect that he would be attracted to a man.

In the summer vacation of college, compared to those students who were doing extracurricular internships everywhere, Ye Lingtao spent his summer vacation basking in the sun in the Indus Garden, and then took Rong Qing to hang out with him in various nightclubs.Going to the nightclub is not really fun, it's just a contest between him and his own nature, he thought, maybe one day a beautiful girl with long breasts and thighs can reverse his sexual orientation.But things backfired, Cui Xi's appearance made Ye Lingtao completely stop thinking about changing his sexuality, and the first encounter was as beautiful as a dream.

Cui Xi is Cheng Rui's classmate, two quiet big boys, although they are not from the same department, they get along very well, so Cheng Rui introduced Cui Xi to Ye Lingtao and Rong Qing, that was their first time in Wutong Garden See you.

Cui Xi can shine in Ye Lingtao's eyes. His clean smile looks so dazzling. He can play the violin, draw, play tricks, and make trouble. He is like the sun. Ye Lingtao's eyes can't Consciously chasing him, laughing because of his smile.

Young people are always frivolous, Ye Lingtao is no exception, he has never suffered setbacks, he is confident in everything he does, and he has an almost paranoid possessiveness.

Ye Lingtao fell in love with Cui Xi, and the love was domineering.

Wutongyuan became a prisoner, imprisoning everything about Cui Xi, like a bird with broken wings, locked here by Ye Lingtao forcefully, no matter how much Ye Lingtao loves him, he can no longer smile at him.

Staring at the ceiling, the memory of Cui Xi has been lingering in his mind, beside him is Yu Xiaoshan who is sleeping soundly, he is so distressing, but for some reason, the more he loves him, the clearer Cui Xi's shadow is.

I want you to fall in love with me.Ye Lingtao once confidently said such things to Cui Xi, but things backfired.Now, he secretly said such words to Yu Xiaoshan in his heart, but he didn't know what the result would be.

What Rong Qing said is not wrong, Ye Lingtao never thought that if Yu Xiaoshan never loves him in the future, he will keep Yu Xiaoshan by his side for the rest of his life, until he falls in love with him, but if Yu Xiaoshan falls in love with him, he will never love him again. What to do, how to proceed?

Ye Lingtao leaned on the bed, looked at Yu Xiaoshan who was next to him in a blink of an eye, and gently stroked his hair with his hand.Yu Xiaoshan, I can only be sorry for you in this life.The ruthless words can only be said when Yu Xiaoshan can't hear them, Ye Lingtao can't help but smile bitterly.

"I will make it up to you." Ye Lingtao felt pain, real pain.

"Cui Xi, you hate me, you hate me to the core. But do you know? I hate you too, and hate that you will never love me."

After a night of insomnia, Ye Lingtao was obviously tired the next day.

[Didn't sleep well? ...I quarreled with you? ]

Yu Xiaoshan asked with self-blame.Ye Lingtao smiled and shook his head, took his hand to let him sit beside him, then hugged him like a big bear, and put his head gently on his shoulder.

"I'm fascinated by seeing you, and I can't bear to close my eyes."

Ye Lingtao's nasty words made Yu Xiaoshan blush, looking at his blushing ears, he really felt cute from the bottom of his heart, and at the same time gave him a sense of accomplishment.

"Will you love me?" The question blurted out, and Ye Lingtao was even frightened by himself, but he had already said it, how could he take it back, but he was also afraid, afraid of being rejected again.

Yu Xiaoshan was silent for a moment, left Ye Lingtao's embrace, sat beside him, looked at him solemnly, perhaps not sure whether his next words could be expressed directly through sign language, or whether Ye Lingtao He could understand it completely, so Yu Xiaoshan paused for a long time, Ye Lingtao's heart was tormented by his pause, and his palms were sweating.

[You are a good guy. ] The simple gesture pierced into the heart like a knife, and the pain stimulated the whole body. Ye Lingtao only felt a buzzing sound, and the feeling of numbness spread from the back of his head.

Yu Xiaoshan signed sign language earnestly, and made a long and quiet confession.

[I'm selfish.In the beginning, I just wanted to protect the orphanage, so I took advantage of your kindness, you said you...you are after me, you like me, I was scared at the time, but also happy, because then you will help me Protect the orphanage. ] Yu Xiaoshan looked very guilty, every movement and every word he wanted to say made Ye Lingtao sting.

[You are so kind to me, really so kind.Life here is happy every day. I like cooking for you, watching you eat, listening to you talk, watching you smile at me... I like you hugging me. ...I have never been loved like this by others, and I don't know what kind of expression is love, I...]

Yu Xiaoshan stopped suddenly, slowly lowered his hands that were in mid-air, clenched his fists tightly, lowered his head and blinked his eyes, his serious expression made Ye Lingtao's whole body cold, but he was about to open his mouth and want to Stopping such an embarrassing topic, Yu Xiaoshan raised his head and gently kissed Ye Lingtao's icy lips. With just a touch of water, Ye Lingtao felt the heat that he had never felt before, and even had the illusion of being scalded.

Yu Xiaoshan's face seemed to be bleeding, and he forced himself to calm down, but his fingers were still trembling a little, and he gestured to his chest, [I want to kiss you, I think, this should be love. ]

Ye Lingtao looked at Yu Xiaoshan's shy look with his head bowed, and stared blankly for a long, long time before he recovered. He no longer knew what kind of expression he had on his face, frowning?Smile?pain?surprise?

Yu Xiaoshan, how could you give me the answer so quickly?I haven't figured out how to proceed.

Ye Lingtao asked in his heart, hot tears welled up in his eyes, as if his heart that had been torn apart for four years was finally glued together, and the breath that had been suppressed in his chest was finally exhausted in an instant.

He took Yu Xiaoshan's hand and hugged him into his arms, but what he saw in front of him was the shadow of Cui Xi, who was just sitting on the sofa opposite, with a slight smile.

Yu Xiaoshan felt the person holding him trembling, so he gently stroked his back, waiting for him to calm down.

People who are in a cocoon are always asking for their own troubles. Ye Lingtao admitted his mistakes four years ago. He admitted that he loved Cui Xi in the wrong way. He proved on Yu Xiaoshan that as long as he has enough patience and enough Gentle, he can make an unrelated person fall in love with him. He proved to Cui Xili in this parasol garden that if he hadn't died four years ago, he would fall in love with him one day.

"Xiaoshan, you love me. You are in love with me." Ye Lingtao said in a cold tone.

Yu Xiaoshan smiled sweetly and nodded slightly.

If a sentence can become a curse, it is only because the person who listened to it voluntarily obeyed it.