after marrying a nemesis

It was the weekend after the school celebration, and during the holiday, the seniors kept calling him and asking him to meet up, his humble attitude was completely different from the maddened one the night before.

Lin Chushi refused, and when the other party called again later, he blocked him directly, but the other party called him again with someone else's number. Later, Lin Chushi was so annoyed that he was a little annoyed, so he directly said to him: Call me again I will sue you for sexual harassment and attempting to seduce a student of the same sex. Think carefully about whether you want to transfer schools when the college entrance examination is about to take place.

After the threat was sent, Lin Chushi spent the rest of the weekend without stopping.

After returning to school, the senior came to look for him once and blocked him in the corridor. The tall man cried like pear blossoms and rained, and he was wronged like what a heartless person Lin Chushi was, and he failed his sincerity.But Lin Chushi did not forget the man-eating expression of the other party a few days ago, and the intimacy that almost made him feel disgusted. He really didn't want to get involved with the other party, even if he did feel a little guilty, he was still straightforward. The local area rejected the other party's request for reconciliation and said that they did not want to see each other again in the future.

The senior failed to seek peace, and his pleading face was slightly distorted, revealing a kind of terrifying ferocity, and he said: "Lin Chushi, you are such a spoiled person, as long as anyone doesn't Satisfy your wish, if you don't meet your request, if you are not satisfied at all, you will turn your head and leave without any regrets, and you have never liked me at all, you have been playing with me the whole time, haven't you?"

The breakup is not decent, and when the face is torn apart, a lot of resentment and abuse will be reaped.

Later, Lin Chushi talked about several unseemly love affairs, and gained a lot of experience from them. When encountering such a situation, he was able to deal with it calmly, but this was his first love affair, and it was still very jerky. It was too late to react.

So much so that these hurtful words left a deep imprint on his heart. For a period of time, he fell into doubts about life and himself, and became more uncertain about his own sexual orientation. He didn't even know whether he liked men Yes, it's still female.

During that period of confusion and confusion, Nie Han began to appear frequently in his memory again.

Because of that time when the road was uneven and he drew his sword to help, Lin Chushi automatically forgot in his mind that he said he would hate Nie Han, and couldn't help but take the initiative to play with Nie Han.Although Nie Han is still cool and unreasonable, he doesn't look down on Lin Chushi like he did before. He targets him everywhere. Even when Lin Chushi shyly pushes over a blank homework in order to get close, Nie Han He would also frown while giving him a lecture.

Lin Chushi was flattered, so he preferred to be in front of Nie Han, went to play with him during class, and went home with him after school. For a long time, the two of them could basically be said to be the same In and out, inseparable.Until the beginning of the summer vacation, Nie Han had to work part-time and go to the library. He was very busy every day, busier than when he was in school.

Nie Han's part-time job is in a high-end western restaurant. He is tall, has a straight back, and is handsome. He is very popular as a waiter.Lin Chushi often went to see him, ate there, ordered Nie Han's service, and gave him tips.Lin Chushi was smiling every time, and sometimes made a lewd expression on purpose, as if he was a young guest who was a little too beautiful to recruit ducklings.Nie Han kept a stern face, ignoring his prank, but probably out of professionalism, he didn't leave and served him dutifully, adding water for him and changing a new tablecloth for him.Lin Chushi would sit until the restaurant closed, and then wait for Nie Han to change back into his clothes, and then they would go home together.First, I took a section of the bus. It was very late at that time, and it was usually the last bus. There were very few people in the bus. Two people sat in a row, or in the front and back seats. Outside the bus was the radiance of the city.They chat occasionally, but more often because of Nie Han's silence, they don't talk about anything, they just share the same earphone to listen to music.But the strange thing is that Lin Chushi didn't feel bored at that moment, but was very happy and always very energetic. After getting out of the car, he had to walk side by side with Nie Han for a while until the intersection where they were about to break up. He waved goodbye.

Even in a dream, Lin Chushi could still feel that he was full at that time, as if he was about to overflow.

During that time, the confusion and uncertainty surrounding him seemed to become clear. He never doubted whether he liked boys or girls, and his fantasies about puberty were no longer a cloud of chaotic fog. , A person began to appear at the end of the mist, his figure and face were blurred, but he had a faint feeling that he should know who that person was.

Lin Chushi woke up from the dream.

His heart was beating so fast that he heard a violent beeping in his ears.

He closed his eyes, waited for the palpitation to pass, and let out a tired breath.

Lin Chushi pressed the luminous clock at the head of the bed and looked at the time. It was more than three o'clock in the morning. After waking up, it was difficult to fall asleep again. He simply got out of bed and sat on the single sofa by the bay window.

Looking out of the window, behind the scattered branches, there is a quiet starry sky, with twinkling stars, watching people slowly calm down.

He remembered the lie he had to tell his brother at night, saying that he wanted to be with Nie Han because he liked Nie Han.

But is it really just a lie told by the situation?

Lin Chushi himself knew it was not true.

He once, probably really almost fell in love with Nie Han.

At such an age, when he was full of fantasies about feelings but was ignorant, he could not help approaching Nie Han, attracted by certain characteristics of him, completely out of his control, and after being disliked, he was hit and frustrated , when he was determined to draw a clear line with the other party, he finally found a gap again and stuck to it.

It's just that those unformed, hazy feelings of affection did not successfully blossom and bear fruit. When Lin Chushi was about to realize that he might start to like such a person, Nie Han pushed him away again.

The summer vacation of the second year of high school is not long, and they will soon enter the more difficult and busy third year of high school. Nie Han worked in the restaurant for about half a month, and then suddenly stopped working. Nie Han didn't even put this The story told him that on the day they made an appointment as usual, Lin Chushi finally called Nie Han when Lin Chushi waited in the restaurant for a whole day and did not see Nie Han appearing.

Nie Han's voice was unusually indifferent on the phone, even obviously impatient, he said to Lin Chushi: "I'm not working there anymore, don't come here again."

Just leaving out such a vague sentence, Nie Han blocked his number, and when the school started, Lin Chushi went to look for Nie Han again, but Nie Han had already ignored him, totally ignoring him He, as if he was not in his eyes, even the faint dissatisfaction with him before disappeared.

Lin Chushi froze in place, standing at a loss for a long time, Nie Han got up and walked around him, and went out.

Under Nie Han's indifference, Lin Chu's swollen emotions and thoughts that had not grown yet were gradually frozen, and more things were squeezed into corners. He himself almost forgot that there was still such a corner in his heart where such a thing was hidden.

The dust of today's years was gently blown away, revealing a corner of that year, and he seemed to see the bewildered self again.

Indifference, repetition, and impermanence are the Nie Han he can't understand.

It was Nie Han who he almost liked, but failed to like.