Falling in love affects keeping a dog

What does it feel like to live rather than die?

Probably thinking about a woman without a conscience day and night.

After we separated, I used countless ways to forget Lin Shen—leaving the city we lived together, throwing away the things we owned together, not mentioning his name, not remembering his appearance.

I thought I had the experience of being completely separated from the past, and that I could easily forget her, but in fact, after she left, I could only breathe instinctively.

The big boss of PDe is a very shrewd businessman. He saved me because he wanted to get hundreds or even thousands of times the profit from me. I am grateful to him for his help, so I will do my best.

Working day and night is like a string that tightens my life. Once it breaks and loosens, I collapse.

I don't want to die, I can only struggle desperately.

Once, the dark night was the time I looked forward to the most in a day, because there was someone waiting for me at home, she was unloved by everyone, but she was unique to me.

Now, that's a prison, and I'd rather work 24 hours than set foot in my bedroom for a second.

For a long time, I didn't sleep on the bed, and I didn't eat at the table. I was afraid that I would inadvertently recall all the things I had with Lin Chen in those places.

The memory of her is an abyss, once I step into it, I will never recover.

Less than half a year after I came to P, I completed my first project, which was very profitable. My second sister-in-law held a celebration banquet for me.

The people who went were all acquaintances, so I didn't have to pretend nothing had happened. Except for drinking, I didn't touch a bite of food.

It was the first time I got drunk that night, oh, the wine is strong and cowardly, this sentence is probably tailor-made for me.

I called Lin Chen with the help of alcohol, but no one answered the phone until the phone was turned off, that kind of gap can drive people crazy.

What also made me pretend not to care about being defeated was the avatar I set for her.

It was the first time we slept in the same bed, I secretly filmed it.

In the eyes of others, that photo may be pornographic, but in my opinion, she is unrivaled in cleanliness, and I... Finally, because I couldn't bear the long torture, I used the most disdainful way to defile her that night. I lost the simple love that I tried my best to keep.

No one knows how I feel when I wake up in the morning and see toilet paper all over the floor, and no one can understand how I am addicted to it, who obviously hates people who use this method to relieve their needs.

The beauty before the people, the depravity after the people.

This addiction is worse than drugs and she made me very sick without knowing it.

For this, I accept punishment.

The first time I recognized the wrong person in a crowded square, I was hit in the eye by the girl's boyfriend, and the retinal detachment was the punishment.

The second time I recognized the wrong person on the street in a foreign country. I ran a red light and caused a traffic accident. The partner did not think that people like me would be responsible for the safety of their products. They refused to cooperate with PDe, and losing overseas markets was punishment.

Taking my thriving career as my proud capital, I finally experienced an unprecedented failure.

How to get up, I can't think of a way.

The second sister-in-law is a good listener and suitable for comforting others.

He said: "May [-], if this project is lost, there will be another one, and if the next one can't be done, there will be another one. PDe has a lot of people looking for cooperation. We don't lack this one."

I turned on the phone and showed him the photo of me and Lin Shen.

"Second sister-in-law, I have a reaction when I see this photo. Do you think I can be saved?"

The second sister-in-law took the phone and turned it over to me, "Why not?"

The picture on the phone screen took my breath away.

It was the only single photo of Lin Shan when he was a student.

When taking that photo, Lin Chen said to me: "Yueyue, I seem to like you very much, and I can't do without you. I hope that after so many years, you will be in front of me when I look up, smiling confidently and proudly. .”

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When I returned to China, I became the shrewd and capable Mu Yuexi. Lin Shen is no longer the past, nor does he exist in the present.

I started to go with the flow.

Naturally, I only temporarily forget about it. Once I encounter something related to her, the memory will come one after another.

I accepted the arrangement, so, she came back, and I fell in love again after being hypocritical.

So far, I have never recalled why the ambiguous photo was replaced. The only memory in my mind is before I learned to walk forward. Only after seeing her photo can I sleep peacefully.

So, I admit, I love this woman more than a whole life.

The author has something to say: the story is not sweet